4 have you evers'
1. have you ever missed me?
because I miss you like the world is ending, like theres a hole in my chest and only you can fill it. Its looking out a window on a rainy day, its laying in bed alone wrapped in cold blankets, I miss you more than I knew I could. I miss you till the ground shakes and the earth splits, I miss you till all the stars fall from the sky. I miss you until you’re back by my side.
2. have you ever ached for me?
like every part of your body had stars running through your veins. wondered what it would feel like if we let it happen? just pressed ourselves together, holding, laughing, touching, loving? we could mimic the oceans waves, crashing and falling all around each other. your fingers in my hair, my lips on your cheek, the sun on our skin. no one would have to know, it could be our beautiful secret. we could share whispers in the dark, mumbles in the morning, we could be everything together.
3. have you ever cried about me?
laid in bed confused and angry because you’re drowning and not sure what to make of us? because you feel it too but you’ve never felt this before and the uncertainty is the most terrifying thing you could think of? do you make up situations in your head and overthink until your heart is blue?
4. have you ever thought “I love her”?
when the breeze blows my hair, and i half smile just enough for my dimples to peek out. when I look up at you adoringly, cheeks red, heart beating out of my chest. when we lay in bed my head on your shoulder, in the car when i sing every word right. When I look out the window at the sunset. when I chop my hair off and cry about it. when my arm is bandaged but I still get up in the morning. when you see me.
because i have