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I really busy and tired with my work (if all of you remember, I already talked that I going to get throwed into filthy adult’s world or something like that) and it’s not like I throw my translation’s work, just didn’t find a good time to finished it and here I am posting this today…

maybe anyone wondering (if someone follow my tumblr for bsd and youtube for voltage game) why I still update my youtube and online there almost everyday eventhough my translation update every month (for now). well, I got hooked into voltage game (not all just some of them) and the most easier searching it is on there, meanwhile updating translation really took a lot of time

ok then, just like always my english really bad as you see here and from my next post I’ll update every 2 weeks (most faster) or month

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hiatus notice.

So in the past, I’ve made a few of these announcements. Stating that I’d be going on a hiatus due to universityand my studies. Most of the time I ind that I still have ime to balance out tumblr. Howeverfor the past two weeks or so, I’ve been struggling to actually get online anddo my drafts - it’s not that I’ve lost my muse or anything like that. I just simply don’t have time to be online everyday.

For this semester, I have classes everydayand to be honest, they’re at the worst times I’ve ever had. As soon as I get home, I’m pretty much curled into bed and napping because I’m so exhaustedand, when I wake up, writing is the last thing i want to do.Then, when the weekend rolls on over, I find that I’m extremley busy with keeping things clean or upcoming assessments (or general gaming to just chill out) and … I keep pushing my drafts back.

I’m not saying that I’m leaving tumblr or this blog I mean, I’m working on a multimuse on the side to be honest but what I’m saying is that I need time and patience from everyone. One of my biggest fears is that people will see this post and just move on from me, shift their attention elsewhere and I’ll be forgotten.

So, just give me a little more time to try and get into a groove of my new timetable? Be patient with me? Don’t forget me. Also, for those of you who want to be in contact out of character, I’m just going to drop my discord - mutuals only though please.

Queering Sizism: An interview with Ashleigh Shackelford on Fatness, Blackness, and Survival.

Ashleigh Shackelford’s writings have blessed the internet through a variety of popular online blogs including Buzzfeed, Everyday Feminism, For Harriet, and Black Girl Dangerous, in addition to gracing other social media platforms such as Facebook and Tumblr. A self-proclaimed queer Black fat femme, Ashleigh Shackelford’s articulate and beautifully unapologetic writings and videos bring to center topics such as anti-Blackness, fatphobia, cissexism, and other marginalized experiences shaped by our white supremacist patriarchal society. 

I had the opportunity to meet Ashleigh this year in Chicago while at a national LGBTQ conference, and in hearing them speak was, for the first time, overwhelmed with the desire to accept and embrace myself unapologetically; my Blackness, my queerness, and most importantly, my very much validated anger at society. It was a really transformative moment for me that has been extremely healing and empowering for me, both in my social justice work and my personal life.

I was fortunate enough to have the chance to ask Ashleigh, a self-proclaimed hood feminist, a few questions about the ways in which anti-fatness and sizism as a form of systematic, societal, and institutional oppression has influenced the ways in which they navigate the survival of being Black, fat, queer, and femme, check it out below:

 What are some ways that anti-fatness/sizeism as a form of oppression intersects with other identities that you embody?

In navigating being fat, my Blackness affects how my beauty, desire, worthiness, class status, and humanity is seen. I am dehumanized at every intersection because my body, my race, and my perceived gender (read as a cisgender woman but not respected like a thin woman). Often, I’m denied sympathy because Black fat femmes are not seen as innocent, worthy human beings deserving of love and care. In my navigation, I’m constantly fighting to have my agender identity recognized because my fat body represents fullness that emulates the idea of womanhood, while also emulates an anti-Black trope of a mammy. This is also complicated by how my body represents de-sexualization due to this idea of my body representing mammy characteristics, while also layering the reality that my Blackness and fatness have skewed my age/ perceived age of consent by men who view my body as too woman-like/ too old when I was a child. My queerness is often denied as well within the intermingling of these components because my sexuality is ultimately queered through the lens of fatness representing layers of sexualization and sexual violence based on the gazer - I’m constantly proving and naming myself in spaces against what my body is codified as.

How do you see fat folks of color represented in media, and how do these representations play into larger systems of power and oppression?

Gabourey Sidibe is such an important person and representation for how fatphobia is inherently anti-Black, classist, and transphobic. Gabby is a dark skin Black woman who does not represent an acceptable fat body (non-hour glass shape, pronounced double chin, big arms, big features, big belly, etc.). The commentary around her representation and her body is similar to how Serena Williams is attacked with anti-Black transmisogyny but with the queering of gender through fatness and dark skin Blackness. Gender is queered by fatness because ultimately body politics are skewed outside of white supremacist thin beauty standards. Often, anti-Black transmisogyny is hurled at fat, dark skin Black women because they’re not seen as innocent, beautiful, or as “real women.” They’re considered a masculine counterpart that is not inherently equal to a cisgender straight man, but is too masculine and too ugly to be a woman yet can be violated sexually and physically.

Her character Becky on Empire sparked conversation when there was a sex scene in which Gabby haves sex with a thin, muscular light skin visibly able-bodied Black man. There was a meme with a picture of the scene saying, “Damn some of you people can’t even get a text back.” People will mock dark skin, fat Black women having sex or being loved as as way of affirming that dark skin, fat Black women are the most hated, ugly, and dehumanized people on earth. Love, sex, and happiness has been codified and capitalized upon as something exclusively accessible to thin, beauty standard acceptable people.

What are some of the ways in which you personally engage in self-care, and why do you feel this is crucial to fat folks?

My self care involves eating unapologetically and twerking to trap music at any given opportunity. Self care comes in different forms for everybody but often as a Black fat femme, my body and my performance is policed so heavily that I have to take space at any given opportunity to center myself and to protect myself from a world seeking to destroy me. Eating unapologetically is a personal revolution because often my body is site of voyeurism and violence. Twerking to trap music is a layered form of self care that allows for my Black fat disabled femme body to challenge the limitations often codified upon my body. Whether it be the anti-Black misogyny that limits my body autonomy and sexual agency, or the lack of space I’m given to dance and be free as a fat disabled person - it is a challenge and a revolution to use dance, music, Black culture, and my body as tools for self care.

How have you seen sizism/fatphobia play out in movements of liberation for other marginalized communities? (queer, Black, trans, etc.)

Fatphobia is often ignored in larger movements, especially within the Black Lives Matter movement. Often, conversations around body politics are limited to gender and sexuality - yet when size comes up, it becomes a conversation dominated by health and size policing. Within the Black community, size and weight only become an imperative issue if we’re discussing fatphobic types of food justice or addressing “childhood obesity.” Fat bodies deserve to be centered and protected without our bodies amounting to an issue of “choice” or “unhealthiness.” Every Black body is under attack by this system and fatness is not inherently a health related attribute. We deserve to talk about what body positivity looks like when we incorporate how fat Black folks are denied health care, denied sympathy and therefore mental health platforms, denied sexualization or body autonomy therefore also denied sexual/ reproductive health care, and are often paid less for jobs. We need to be at the intersections of all marginalized identities - i.e. the fight for the minimum wage, the fight for disability justice, the fight for trans and gender nonconforming identities, and the fight for queer bodies.

Anyway dudes, you don’t have to prove your patriotism by posting angry rants about Football players online, do it everyday in your actions. Simply being polite and courteous to your fellow citizen, donating or volunteering when disasters happen. You can stand for the flag and plaster it wherever you want but you’re as bad as a kneeler if you don’t actually attempt to preserve the liberty and well-being of your fellow citizen.

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I don’t post much on here anymore, as I’m now studying full time. But I really need to share my thoughts about the enduring racism I see everyday, here in Australia, the place I call my ‘home’.

I’m going to share my feelings about the racism towards Indigenous Australians (the Aboriginal peoples), but I’m fully aware that EVERY race suffers from racism, it is not isolated to one ethnic group.

As an Indigenous Australian myself, I’m extremely passionate about the welfare of Indigenous Australians. For anyone who doesn’t know Aboriginal people have one of the oldest living cultures in the world, they were the FIRST people to live on Australian soil, but this has NEVER been recognised by the Australian government. The Australian government still stands by their claim that Australia was empty of any human life when the colonisers settled in 1787. Aboriginal people have been living in Australia for more than 40000 years. Which is a lot longer than the settlers have.

Not long after the colonisers arrived, Aboriginal people were slowly killed off and bred out. We went from making up 100% of the population, to now only representing 2.7% of the population.

In the early 1990’s Aboriginal children were forcibly removed from their families. They were put into orphanages and foster homes and were forced to live their lives as ‘English’ children. This was the government’s attempt at breeding out the remaining Aboriginal people. The government claimed that they were removing children because they were ‘at risk’, but that is a complete lie. To believe that tens of thousands of children were being neglected is absurd. Maybe a percentage of those children removed, were at risk. But the government has provided no contemporary evidence to back this up. This was attempted genocide.

Many of the stolen have never been reunited with their families. Many suffered abuse, neglect and have lived the remainder of their lives with the scars of being stolen.

It’s now 2017 and the survivors have received nothing. In 2008 the Prime Minister of Australia, Kevin Rudd, formally apologised to the Stolen Generation. Yet nothing has changed. No treaty has been signed, and Aboriginal people are still treated so horribly by many people who are living on their traditional land. These people do not understand the transgenerational effects of the Stolen Generation. Mental illnesses were formed during that time, and are now being passed down through the generations. Alcohol was used to numb the pain, and now alcoholism is also being inherited by younger generations.

This is a very sensitive topic for many Aboriginal people, I can guarantee that if you are Aboriginal you know someone who was affected by the Stolen Generation. My own Grandmother was removed from her family and placed into a boarding school for girls, she was whitewashed, and lost years of her childhood, but never received any compensation. When someone is wrongly convicted and serves time in jail for a period of time, we compensate them for that time they lost. Because they didn’t deserve to lose precious years of their life by being forced into a horrible environment. But when Stolen Generation survivors ask for compensation the people of Australia, ask 'why’? As if being stolen from your family, and forced to live with people you don’t know for years at a time wasn’t enough? What about the abuse many Aboriginal children endured? The neglect? The sexual abuse? Is that enough to deserve compensation? I know money doesn’t fix anything, but how do these people make up for the time they lost? Why do citizens of this country think they just need to move on and forget the past? Do we forget ANZAC Day, have we moved on from that? NO. We don’t forget these monumental times in our history, because they’re important to us.

Below I’m providing examples of the racist comments I see online EVERYDAY. These people think they’re educated on Aboriginal affairs because they lived next door to an Aboriginal once, or because they were friends with an Aboriginal person, but do you really think these people have any idea what it’s like to be Aboriginal? In reality they just think that our culture is a burden on them. As if it wasn’t their ancestors who invaded our land?

These comments in particular were about providing compensation to the survivors of the Stolen Generation. 

Just something to point out, almost all of these commenters are white males. I really don’t think any of them have any right to talk about something they know nothing about. 

Why are people so inherently racist towards Aboriginal peoples? Why do these people look at us as people who play the system to get free money? I’m a 19 year old University student studying a Bachelor of Criminology. I don’t receive any special treatment, and I’m not receiving anymore money than another white student would be. I live off of $152 a fortnight, which is supposed to cover my food, books, and utilities. I’m an Aboriginal person, doing the best I can and yet I still have to read shit like this online everyday? 

What have Aboriginal people actually done to receive this sort of treatment? 

I actually think that Australia is inherently racist. It’s obvious through the way many people treat the traditional peoples of this land, the way they also treat refugees and migrants, as if they’re ancestors weren’t the original migrants (invaders). 

I don’t know why I posted this but I really needed to share my thoughts. I’m so over the racism present in our society. Given the last few days events, you would think that these people would have more to worry about then spreading their vile opinions online. 

I honestly thank every person with an open heart. If you look at another race with no prejudice and no malice, then you are the future of this generation. 

How To: Get Out of a Magical Slump

This post is brought to you by my own current magical slump that I’m going to be working at pulling myself out of. So let’s all go at this together. Please feel free to add whatever ideas you have when you reblog! :)

- find a challenge online to do something everyday. Whether it’s witchy, tarot, religious, whatever you feel like. Add a reminder on your phone to show up every day, or leave post its on places you’ll see. 

- find some songs that make you feel ethereal and add them into your current music playlist. Then they’ll show up at random and help swing your mindset to magic. 

- wear an item that makes you feel powerful, like that pentacle or tree of life that’s been sitting on your dresser for a while. 

- take a walk somewhere with a lot of nature. If it’s somewhere wild like the woods, bring a plant guide and a bag, forage a bit. Then you can dry them out and expand your magical components. 

- Never forget about kitchen witchcraft, even if you’re not a kitchen witch. We all eat, and many of us cook to some degree. Even if you just look up the magical correspondences of hummus and peanut butter. Tape the list to the jar, then you’ll be reminded every time you grab a snack.

 - Have a movie night for yourself with a selection of movies/TV shows featuring a (somewhat)more realistic version of magic. Try Practical Magic, Mists of Avalon, The Craft, The Secret Circle, etc

-  Throw a drawstring bag of your favourite crystals in the jeans you always wear

- light incense for absolutely no reason. Scented candles, diffusers, and essential oil burners work great too

- Try to meditate once a day. Set a time if you can. Even if it’s just 15, 10 or even 5 minutes. 

I had a dream that I worked for Brendon Urie lmao god I wish that were true


24/10/15 I met my inspiration in life. Since pretty much the start of his YouTube career, I have watched and supported his stupidly hilarious videos. People may not understand how much he means to me but he has helped me through so much shit in the past 4 years. To people who don’t watch him or haven’t seen his videos, they may think he is just some person online who plays games everyday. To all of his bros, he is more than that. He is the main reason I’m so happy all the time, and yesterday I got the chance to meet him. Thank you so fucking much Felix, you mean so much to me and all the bros💙

Sometimes people think my positive posts are too “over the top,” “insincere,” or “just for notes.” Considering the fact I’m always posting things, I can see why this vibe may be given off. However I would rather post a lot and have a chance to make someone’s day vs not posting enough and missing an opportunity to avoid looking insincere. I’d rather look like the internet’s biggest cheeseball and have a chance to help others. Maybe to some people my posts seem trivial and meaningless, but I know there was a time I needed to be uplifted. This is why I try my best to encourage others online everyday.