Today I woke up at noon by the sound of raindrops hittng my windows and it was so calming and soothing I just put Vessel on play quietly and listened to the songs blurr with the sound of the rain falling. I felt at peace.
Damian had never wanted siblings. He had been trained to trade everything for the world. Family tied one down. They prevented them from being great. He had been raised to desire one thing: success. Everything else was failure.
Everything in Damian’s life had lead him to the point of greatness. Nothing in his life had trained him for family.
Nothing had prepared him for the open love presented by Dick Grayson. He was not supposed to desire the comfort of his oldest brother, whose arms were safety themselves. Who instead of using force used soft words and perseverance to win Damian’s respect. Who was everything opposite of what Damian had been trained and yet everything Damian wanted to become.
He should not look forward to the moments of comradeship found with the next oldest. The bonding of two gentle souls raised by pain. His similarities with Jason Todd should not have gone beyond dying once. He should not feel as if they’d both fought past some great evil to find themselves. Should not take comfort that they each found it hard to trust the love of their father but could trust in one another.
His sister should have been a tool to harden his skills, not one that softened him toward the world. Cassandra Cain’s training and strength should have been something to push Damian beyond his limits. And her strength was an inspiration. Her prowess in battle inspired respect. But it was her dedication to herself, her morals and values that kept that respect. She taught in her actions. And in her rejection of her birthright, Damian found strength.
Most of all he should not look forward to quiet moments of partnership between his brother closest in age to him. He should not find his mouth tugging into a smile when instead of taking out the competition he found himself in league with Tim Drake, working to help one of his other siblings find balance in their lives. He never should have found himself plotting ways to force the young boy to rest. To eat. To care for himself since the world seemed intent on doing the opposite. He should never have found comfort in the way they both worked so hard to fit into the family they’d found.
Damian knew now that everything in his life had prepared him for greatness but greatness of a different kind than his mother sought. All of it had trained him to care for his family.
Damian had never wanted siblings, but now that he has them he would give up the world for them. They made him great. It was their success he wanted to see. Anything else would be failure.
Where is your phone? desk Your hair? blonde Your dad? ignorant Your other half? missing Your favourite food? pasta Your dream last night? nightmare Your favourite drink? milo Fear? rejection Favourite shoes? converse Favourite way to relax? asmr Your mood? tired I love? languages Where were you last night? bed Something that you aren’t? secure Muffins? yum Wish list item? money Where you grew up? australia Last thing you did? nap What are you wearing right now? hoodie Something you hate? vegemite Your pets? old Friends? overseas Life? confusing Regrets? school Missing someone? yes