one of many great friends

thank you for 400 followers guys!! i feel like so so so honored that 400 people are interested in what I post and that they like it. this feels like such an honor, because I started this account back somewhere in september with 0 expectations. and look where i am now.

i have met so many great people, ones i would consider friends,and i have got to know so many new aspects of a great fandom. ones i never expected to ever get in my life. but here we are. i feel like i have developed myself as a person, i noticed i had talents i never imagined i had, and you all encouraged me and supported me 💕

how can i repay you all for that?

i have been through bad times, through good times, but with you it was one of the best periods in my life. you all have been always here for me. and i have been grateful for it 😊

i am going to try to tag as many people who have had any impact on me. if you feel ignored, please tell me so i can add you

@f1tothemax @formularicciardo @sestrachilds @heavencouldntwaitforyou @jacobine-xoxo @formula1trash @bwoaikkonen @verstapt @verstapping @carlosainzz @skyiswombandshesthemoon @danyababy @human-ity-almost @torohoesso @formulatrash @korrrvamato @that-is-sausage-to-me @daniilkvyatistheone @yet-another-lockup @silwehrleining @lucasdigrassis @damsindistress @harryswilsons @godbastian @frenchshoescourtney @teamraikkonen @youreamonocoque @josefnewgardens @nillebrein @pannipalinkas @hulkieswonderland @dearsenna @mai200009 @mistressemmedi @hulkhulkenberg @marcusericsson @arianadivine @rararaenbow @checoyourself @curbstones-and-cowboyboots @glitterbombingandcondoming @f1weekend @fluffypenguinpower @barndommens-gade @flyingtande @jabbubabbu @gingervivilou @princesspascal @lewizhamilton @running-on-air @khwabonkeparindey @madeleinehelena and also ale, who sadly doesn’t have tumblr but ily so much

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Pokedex Holders Bio: Yellow The Healer

So at my very worst period of mental illness things were pretty freaking awful. I was dealing with psychosis, near constant panic attacks, what they called “severe bipolar 1” plus some sort of unidentified personality disorder. Basically, things were really really bad and had been for a long time. But here are some of the things that helped me when I was dealing with a 2 month psych hospitalization that summer 

  • Noticing the color of the sky 
  • Nice scented lotion 
  • Taking long showers 
  • Making sure that I was hydrated & well nourished
  • Taking deep breaths 
  • Playing guitar 
  • Keeping my living space neat
  • Putting on nicer clothes & doing my hair 
  • Journaling 
  • Exercise 

Honestly I was able to recover precisely because I started paying attention to moments like these. At the time I was still pretty miserable, but it was a major break through to realize I could appreciate the colors of the sky & grass, or the sound of rain, or the cozy feeling of a bookshop. It’s hard to articulate how much it changed things for me. 

Of course, I had a lot of other support too, and I’m not trying to say this alone cured me. I also know that stuff that worked for me in recovery didn’t work for my peers in treatment and vice versa. But I do beg you not to dismiss stuff like this that’s offered without judgement, like in self care posts. For one - you don’t know what the OP has been through & there is no reason to invalidate them or mentally people who do stuff like this –  You just can’t correlate the severity of symptoms to what kind of things help. 

And two - it’s not good to spread the idea that enjoying little moments, or doing common self care this is only for non mentally ill people. In fact, we are often the ones who can benefit the most. And it’s a shame to spread the idea that none of these things can work for any mentally ill person when that’s just not true & could prevent someone from doing something that could help. Treating severe mental illness is a big problem, but it’s often made up of lots of little changes

Flamethrower Fanworks Masterpost

Yep I’ve decided that @deadcatwithaflamethrower ( Flamethrower ) gets a dedicated masterpost.  WARNING MANY OF THESE CONTAIN SPOILERS!!

After all I have written poems for:

Qui/Obi across multiple fics (listed in the poem tags)

Pipes Play and Choirs Sing

Legacy

Emerald

Re-Entry (+ Re-Entry Journey of the Whills)

We Exist
Veils and Masks (What Lies Beyond)
A Quiet Love
No Words Needed
Best Kept Secret
Ironwood Blue

Not a Chosen One (submission)
Not a Chosen One (art version)
Kenopsia (submission)
Fuck You I Win *a Venge theme song

Swung by Serafim

Restorative Draught
Cursed
sense  (art version)
saviour
Change
Masks
Glassine
Refrain
Friends from Allies
All’s Well
Gems
(no) happy ending
drums beat deep beneath
Sing Sorrow
Deceiving Appearances
tension
The Unicorn and the Thestral
Breathe
Fire and Flame
This Is It
It isn’t Over
(oops i forgot to title this one)
mask (hey this one has a name similar to one of the early ones XD)
peace
joy
Prince
Headmaster
Remembrance-Reminder-Renewal-Restoration
Home
Smile
Imagine
Lost
Never Again
And Yet
Hell
Year’s End
flying
freely given
recovery

AU: What even is this (an Ending Scene) (ficlet)

Of a Linear Circle

Stay Close

Ashlesha (Awaken the Stars #1) 

Family
July
Fire
Refuse to Die
Take My Arms that I Might Reach You (Audio Link)
This is Love

Euan Debates His Life Choices (fic)  (AO3)
Draw Me (fic) (AO3)

(please note that July is an AU and Draw Me takes place in that AU)

My favourite thing about that episode was actually the fact characters acknowlegded and actually discussed the fact that as soon as Carol finds out about Glenn & Abe she would start a war. That she would march on up to Negans compound and fuck. That. Up.

None of this passive “She can take care of her self” just flat out, Yeah she would march into battle and kill a bitch.

happy birthday al! @alpinesquid
you’re always such a good, nice friend, thank you. I really appreciate your friendship, and I hope you have an amazing birthday! you deserve it! continue being a rad, cool kid! B) 

I’m one of the many Slytherites in my group of friends and it feels great to be with many like minded individuals with different personalities. Unfortunately, I often feel like I’m the ‘one with the book smarts’. It’s gotten to the point were my friends have started calling me “Head Girl”. I’ve got pretty mixed feelings. It’s nice that people think that I’m intelligent, but it’s starting to feel like no one things of me of anything more. At least I make my house look good.

To All that are going to the Amonkhet Pre-release/ Release events.

The larger blogs are giving the good advice on how to play, and others are giving blessings. That’s not the case for me. Yes, I hope you all pull the cards you want and win your events, but I feel there are some important things that need to be said.

If this is your first event, best of luck. Draft and sealed events drastically help your local FLGS, and help shape the crowds that frequent your stores. Another thing is that it might bring in new players, and you might make some new friends.

These are some rules you should follow for all sealed events.

Rules For Everyone!
- If you’re doing a midnight event. Make sure you napped before hand. Magic is tiring as is, but with lack of sleep. Bad plays will happen.

-Make sure to bring something to eat or drink. That isn’t just Soda or chips. Yes, support your FLGS, and buy water from them, and a snack bar. Just make sure to eat well. Magic on a growling, Soda pumped stomach is just going to lead to a Super Saiyan level of horribleness. If your store allows for outside food, bring a sandwich, or something you like to eat (that isn’t too messy).

- Sleeves are good. Doesn’t matter if you pulled Jank. Remember your card sleeves! Shuffling is so much easier!

- Keep an eye on your stuff. Sleeves help differentiate your cards from your opponents. While yes, thieves are out there. Sometimes by card effects, we have to exchange something. Please remember your cards at all costs.

- Remember your Dice/ Playmat/ cellphone charger. Batteries die, bring your spare or charger! Dice and playmats are just things you need.

Rules for Veterans!

Yeah, there are rules for us old timers too.

- Watch out for our female players. For all of the Gods on Amonkhet. Protect them, do not insult their reason for being at the store. Do not hit on them, do not treat them like a prize. Report the harassment to your Judge/ T.O, Magic is for everyone.

- Watch out for our LGBTQA players. Just like our female players. Protect them. If you see someone start shit. Report it to your Judge/ T.O. Like above, Magic is for everyone!

- Watch out for anyone new!


- Remember, not every player researches the set. Please be patient while players read their cards.

-Also, some of us have learning disabilities/ disabilities.  Please be patient with us. Card text can be small, or some just too much of it. If your local store has a Judge or Rules Adviser, please let your opponent know, so if they have questions, or look confused. They can get the help they need.

- Remind people, especially new players, that they can ask questions. We all started somewhere. Don’t scoff or belittle a player with questions. You can ruin someones experience. That hurts the store, and the game. Also, this is a new set. Questions are going to be abound.

- Alert new players that they can keep their cards. Alert them of the rarity system, and how to check the prices for cards. Do not let new players get scammed. 


Rules for New Players!

- Watch out for our female players. For all of the Gods on Amonkhet. Protect them, do not insult their reason for being at the store. Do not hit on them, do not treat them like a prize. Report the harassment to your Judge/ T.O Magic is for everyone.

 
- Watch out for our LGBTQA players. Just like our female players. Protect them. If you see someone start shit. Report it to your Judge/ T.O. Like above, Magic is for everyone!

- Watch out for anyone new!

- Ask questions! If you don’t understand something, ask. You grow as a player.

- Remember, that seasoned player in front of you started off like yourself. We just had more broken cards.

- Hold on to your pool of cards. Drafting and sealed can increase your collection. If someone is eager to trade. Look up the price of cards. There’s tons of sites; TCGplayer, Starctiygames, and channel fireball are all good to look up prices.

- Do not trade your cards, if you’re still in the event. Also, if you have to leave early, or you’re just tired. Please let your T.O/ Judge know, so that when the next round pairings are up, they don’t have to do a remake.

- Have fun. Magic is a great game, and there’s so much to learn and do. One of many great ways to meet life-time friends.

Trying to eat less mcds and more at home so I make myself this lovely bagel sandwich for breakfast and manage to burn my hand. Argh. I’m still super upset about the finale and keep tearing up and do not want to go to work but somehow I don’t think “hello I can’t come in because I’m an emotional wreck due the death of a beloved character who is one of the reasons I have so many friends now and so many great people in my life and I don’t think I can work today” is going to fly.

I just finished my entrance exam, and I cant believe my luck.. We were supposed to read 8 books for it, out of which 1 would be chosen for the exam. I only read one. And guess which fucking book they chose? The only one I read? God bless the universe

To All that are going to the Amonkhet Pre-release/ Release events.

To All that are going to the Amonkhet Pre-release/ Release events.

The larger blogs are giving the good advice on how to play, and others are giving blessings. That’s not the case for me. Yes, I hope you all pull the cards you want and win your events, but I feel there are some important things that need to be said.

If this is your first event, best of luck. Draft and sealed events drastically help your local FLGS, and help shape the crowds that frequent your stores. Another thing is that it might bring in new players, and you might make some new friends.

These are some rules you should follow for all sealed events.

Rules For Everyone!
- If you’re doing a midnight event. Make sure you napped before hand. Magic is tiring as is, but with lack of sleep. Bad plays will happen.

-Make sure to bring something to eat or drink. That isn’t just Soda or chips. Yes, support your FLGS, and buy water from them, and a snack bar. Just make sure to eat well. Magic on a growling, Soda pumped stomach is just going to lead to a Super Saiyan level of horribleness. If your store allows for outside food, bring a sandwich, or something you like to eat (that isn’t too messy).

- Sleeves are good. Doesn’t matter if you pulled Jank. Remember your card sleeves! Shuffling is so much easier!

- Keep an eye on your stuff. Sleeves help differentiate your cards from your opponents. While yes, thieves are out there. Sometimes by card effects, we have to exchange something. Please remember your cards at all costs.

- Remember your Dice/ Playmat/ cellphone charger. Batteries die, bring your spare or charger! Dice and playmats are just things you need.

Rules for Veterans!

Yeah, there are rules for us old timers too.

- Don’t objectify or bully others and don’t let other people do it either, especially to marginalized groups such as Women, LGBTQA+, or even new players.

- Watch out for our female players. For all of the Gods on Amonkhet. Do not insult their reason for being at the store. Do not hit on them, do not treat them like a prize. Report the harassment to your Judge/ T.O, Magic is for everyone.

- Watch out for our LGBTQA players. Just like our female players. If you see someone start shit. Report it to your Judge/ T.O. Like above, Magic is for everyone!

- Watch out for anyone new!


- Remember, not every player researched the set. Please be patient while players read their cards.

-Also, some of us have learning disabilities/ disabilities.  Please be patient with us. Card text can be small, or some just too much of it. If your local store has a Judge or Rules Adviser, please let your opponent know, so if they have questions, or look confused. They can get the help they need.

- Remind people, especially new players, that they can ask questions. We all started somewhere. Don’t scoff or belittle a player with questions. You can ruin someones experience. That hurts the store, and the game. Also, this is a new set. Questions are going to be abound.

- Alert new players that they can keep their cards. Alert them of the rarity system, and how to check the prices for cards. Do not let new players get scammed.

Rules for New Players!

-Don’t objectify or bully others and don’t let other people do it either, especially to marginalized groups such as Women, LGBTQA+, or even new players.

- Watch out for our female players. For all of the Gods on Amonkhet. Do not insult their reason for being at the store. Do not hit on them, do not treat them like a prize. Report the harassment to your Judge/ T.O Magic is for everyone.

- Watch out for our LGBTQA players. Just like our female players.. If you see someone start shit. Report it to your Judge/ T.O. Like above, Magic is for everyone!

- Watch out for anyone new!

- Ask questions! If you don’t understand something, ask. You grow as a player.

- Remember, that seasoned player in front of you started off like yourself. We just had more broken cards.

- Hold on to your pool of cards. Drafting and sealed can increase your collection. If someone is eager to trade. Look up the price of cards. There’s tons of sites; TCGplayer, Starctiygames, and channel fireball are all good to look up prices.

- Do not trade your cards, if you’re still in the event. Also, if you have to leave early, or you’re just tired. Please let your T.O/ Judge know, so that when the next round pairings are up, they don’t have to do a remake.

- Have fun. Magic is a great game, and there’s so much to learn and do. One of many great ways to meet life-time friends.

Yellow like Star

The flowertown is strong in this color au fic.

The existence of close bonds between friends allowing people to see a very small part of the color spectrum wasn’t a new thing for Luke. He had plenty of close friends in his life. Hanging with Hidden Block in their club room allowed him to see more color than before, probably because he had so many great friends in one place.

The world painted in yellows, greens, and blues. A real helpful palate when it came to them designing their patch. He enjoyed it.

More than that he enjoyed making new friends.

So when Hana joined Hidden Block he was ecstatic.

Now he had two friends in class with him it was great!

Keep reading

Not-So-Friendly Advice

A Joshaya Fanfic

Story by: hoffkk

Summary: Maya and Lucas get voted best couple in the school yearbook, causing a rift between Maya and Riley.  While Riley refuses to talk to Maya, Maya decides to get some friendly advice from Josh, which ultimately turns not-so-friendly….in a good way ;)

Notes: Felt inspired when I heard about an upcoming episode where Maya and Lucas actually DO get voted best couple.  This is what happened.  Hope you like it.  I apologize for any errors.  I own nothing GMW related.  Enjoy!  Comments are welcome! :)

*******

“Come on, Riley! Talk to me!”  Maya urged as she followed Riley through the front door of her family’s apartment, repeating the same words she had said at school, on the subway, and outside Riley’s apartment building.  "Say something…anything.“

Yearbooks came out today, and the girls had been really excited about.  That is, until they caught a glimpse of the superlatives page. The eighth grade class had voted Maya and Lucas as "Best Couple” and neither one of them took it well.  Maya was surprised for half a second, then became livid, while Riley was shocked into silence.  She hadn’t said a word to Maya since, which is why they were having the current one-sided conversation.

“Riley, please!” Maya begged.

“I just… I need some time.”  Riley said finally, turning to face her friend before spinning on her heel and heading to her bedroom.

Maya ran a hand through her long hair in frustration, then froze as she noticed Josh and Auggie sitting on the couch, playing some kind of card game.

“Auggie,” Josh said after a quiet moment. “why don’t you go and see if your sister is all right?”

“Fine.” Auggie huffed, walking away.  "Women! So needy!“

Josh smirked and shook his head as he watched his five year old nephew leave the room.  Once Auggie was gone, he stood up from the couch and turned towards Maya who just stood there nervously.

"Wanna talk about it?”  He offered.

“Yes, with Riley…”  She let out a breath.  "but I suppose her Uncle Boing will have to do.“  Maya shrugged, before walking over and taking a seat on the couch next to Josh.

"So what happened?” Josh queried.

“Do you remember Lucas, our friend that came over for game night a few weeks ago?”

“You mean Mr. Howdy?”  Josh asked, recalling the night in question.

“That would be the one.”  Maya nodded before continuing.  "The thing is, Riley likes him a lot, but he and I kind of got voted “Best Couple” at school and now she won’t speak to me.“

"Wait, you two are a couple?”  Josh questioned, feeling a pang of jealousy.

“Me and howdy?” Hecks no!“  Maya assured.

"Well…do you like him?”  Josh probed further so he could give Maya proper advice, or at least that is what he told himself.

“Of course not,” Maya told him, allowing Josh to let out a breath he didn’t even realize he was holding.  "but even if I did, It wouldn’t matter because I could never act on it.  I could never do that to Riley.  She’s too important to me.“

” I know.“ Josh half-smiled at Maya’s words.  She really was a great friend.  That was just one of the many things he admired about her.  ”…and so does Riley.  She just needs some time to process everything, that’s all.“

"But there’s nothing to process!”  Maya said exasperatedly.  "Lucas and I are just friends.“

"Yes, but we can’t all be as bold and fearless as you.”  He commented, knocking his knee into hers.  Josh couldn’t tell, but the motion had sent the butterflies in Maya’s stomach into hyper-drive.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”  She quirked a brow.

“That, unlike you, some people get scared.”  Josh explained, and when Maya just looked even more confused, he went on.  "What I mean is, that for some people, like Riley, just the idea of something happening can be scary, especially when they have never considered the idea before.“ He finished, his blue eyes boring into hers.

"Okaaay…I can understand that.”  She nodded in confirmation, though she could sense something more in his words, a certain heaviness that implied he was talking about so much more than his niece. This heaviness made her heart race. “But… I think that some people only scare so easily because they think too much.  So, maybe some people need to just stop thinking and start doing…”  She trailed off.

Josh stared at Maya intently as he listened to her speak.  As the last few words left her mouth, Josh’s gaze flicked from her sapphire blue eyes to her soft pink lips.  He suddenly felt caught in a trance and began to lean forward, wanting nothing more than to know what she tasted like.

Maya realized what was happening, and her heartbeat doubled its already rapid pace, as she leaned to meet him halfway.  This was it. This was their moment.  She was finally going kiss Josh.

Their lips were only inches apart, when a boyish voice filled their ears.

“Maya!  Riley wants to see you now!”  Auggie called, running back into the living room.

Their heads snapped back, and they quickly pulled away from each other.  Feigning normalcy, Josh rubbed the back of his neck with a hand, and Maya push some of her blonde curls behind her ear.  To a five year old, everything seemed fine, but anyone else would see their movements for the nervous gestures that they were and know something was up.

“Okay.  I’m coming.”  Maya responded, then stood up from the couch and headed in the direction of Riley’s room. She was almost out of the room when she stopped and turned back to look at a blushing Josh and smiled.

“Josh?”  She called over her shoulder.

“Yeah?”  He queried, trying to calm his heartbeat down. Josh wasn’t sure what had come over him a few seconds ago, but he knew that he was feeling really annoyed right now. Whether his annoyance was because he almost let something happen between them or because Auggie interrupted that something, well, Josh wasn’t quite sure.

“Thanks.”  Maya replied with a single nod of her head, then left him staring after her.

*******

Maya entered Riley’s room and found her friend sitting in her usual spot in front of the bay window.

“Hey.”  Maya said softly.

“Hey.”  Riley repeated back.

After exchanging pleasantries, Maya took a seat next to Riley and let out a breath.

“So, you still mad at me?”  She asked, ready to put this fight behind them and get back to being best friends.

“I was never mad at you, Maya.”  Riley promised.  "I was just…surprised.“

"About what?” Maya wondered aloud.

“You know that I like Lucas a lot, like a lot a lot.”  Riley stated.

“Yeah…” Maya waited for her to continue.

“But I never once considered the possibility that you might like him too, not until today, not until I saw that picture in the yearbook.”  Riley explained, referring to the photo placed under the “Best Couple” title, the one of Maya and Lucas standing close and looking at each other all smiley.  They looked like they really liked each other, but what you couldn’t tell was that it was actually taken during one of the times Maya was making fun of Lucas. She had just called him one of his many nicknames and got all in his face to do the “HAR!” sound effect, causing them both to chuckle, which is when somebody had snapped the photo.

“But I don’t like him, Riley.  We’re just friends, and that’s mostly by association.”  Maya assured her, adding the last bit as a joke, well…mostly.

“But you could,” Riley stated matter-of-factly. “and he could like you too, and I… I just wasn’t sure how to handle that before.”

“And now?” Maya pressed, genuinely curious.

“And now I realize that you’re my best friend, and that at the end of the day, your happiness matters more to me than anything else.”

“Back-atcha, peaches.”  Maya smiled, putting a hand on Riley’s shoulder.

“So…” Riley continued.  "If you did like Lucas, and he liked you back, I want you to know that you would have my blessing.“

"Really?” Maya asked, a little astounded by her friend’s confession.

“Really.” Riley nodded.  "I would never want to stop you from finding your true love…whether it’s Lucas or not.“ She smiled, putting her arm through Maya’s.

At that moment, a light bulb went off in Maya’s head, and a cheeky smile spread across her face.

"So…” Maya started innocently. “what you are saying is that if I found someone that I really liked who liked me back then you would be happy for me?”

“Yep.” Riley nodded assuredly.

“And you wouldn’t stop me from being with him?”

“Nope.” Riley gave another peppy nod, not realizing where this conversation was headed.

“Good.” Maya stated.

“Good.” Riley repeated.

“Because I like Josh, and I’m pretty sure he likes me.”

“What?!” Riley gasped.

“And I want to be his girlfriend.”

“What?!” Riley said again, just as flabbergasted as the first time.

“Thanks for being okay with it!” She hugged her tightly.  "Hey!  I wonder if he is still here?“  Maya added before running towards the door.

"Maya!” Riley yelled, but she was already gone. “Maya?”

Riley just stared at the open door for a moment completely bewildered.  She did not see that one coming.  She mean what she said before about Maya’s happiness, but could Josh really be the one for her?  Riley didn’t know, but she had a feeling that Maya was going to do her best to find out.

“Oh, boy.” Riley said aloud to the empty room. “What did I just get myself into?”

"Jonan" - A Conan & Jack Fanfic.

It was a cold, windy evening in the town of Detroit, Michigan. We find ourselves in the dark bedroom of a tall redheaded man, who goes simply by the name of, “Conan.“ Conan was lying in his bed, trying to sleep. But it was of no use. He was awake with the night, tossing and turning. His mind was clouded with thoughts. Thoughts of a man simply named, "Jack." 

Conan spent a lot of time with Jack. They were great friends. Many weekends they enjoyed together. One-hundred cups of coffee. Five-hundred phone calls. A thousand songs from his vinyl collection shared together. But no matter how close they were, Conan could never tell Jack that he wanted to be more than "just friends.” His heart skipped a beat every time he saw the suave, darkly dressed man. He could listen to him speak for eternity and never get bored. But alas, he was afraid he might ruin everything if he told Jack of his true feelings. 

He thinks back on today. They were in his parked car on top of a hill, watching the sunset. He looked over at Jack, how gorgeous he was in the fading yellow light. Conan was entranced by the man’s beauty, so much so that he began to reach over to put his arm around him, maybe even steal a kiss. But Jack turned to face him, and Conan panicked, and played it off as reaching for the gear shift. Jack looking at him funny, but then striking up a conversation about the blues and how taxidermy buffalo’s give him boners. 

The memory fades and we are back in the dark room. Conan turned over on his pillow, and shed a tear. “I wish you knew how much I love you, Jack…” He says to himself and closes his eyes. But then he feels someone touch him. Conan turns over and looks. It’s Jack. Conan is shocked, Conan is happy. Jack has a smirk on his face and crawls onto the bed up to Conan, and whispers in his ear: “This is my turntable now.” Jack says as he crashes his lips to Conan’s. Conan is in ecstasy, finally being united with his love. Jack pulls out his 7” and slides it into Conan’s “sleeve.” His sleeve is too small, and the paper is tearing, but he does it anyway, for Jack.

Jack let’s out a mighty roar as his warm melted vinyl fills Conan’s mold. It is at this time that Stephen Colbert walks in. Jack looks him straight in the eye and says, “It’s all tangible now.“ 

Stephen slowly closes the door, but cracks it to look at Jack. "Are you still looking at me?” Jack questions. Stephen shuts it completely, and is gone.

Jack stares into Conan’s eyes for a brief moment. He always knew of Conan’s feelings, and has now shown his own. Jack suddenly begins to levitate toward the ceiling, then floats out the window into the night. Conan is lying on his back with a smile on his face. He sighs, closing his eyes and whispers to himself,“Jack is Lov3, Jack, is Lif3.”

Okay basically I just got home, removed all my make up and then realized I was gonna take pictures…… well you get half of my face then! hahaha

Anyway, this is my tattoo. It still looks kinda smudged, but I still got the foil on it, so it’s protected for a while.

I kind of wanna explain what it means to me, since I didn’t purely get it cause I like G and Lani so much. I got it, cause this is the only song that ever touched me this way. And by that I mean, that I understand a lot of songs, but none has hit home the way EWBO did.

I remember when I first heard it and it was like someone punched me in the guts. I live in Europe, so WIDO loaded itself on my computer at like 2:30am (instead of midnight, FUCK APPLE) and I was a bit drunk and I dunno, that whole album felt like a journey (you know, to hear it after such a long time) and then the song came on, that I was excited about the most and honestly I felt like everything was crashing down on me and I was just crying for the rest of the album and like even after that.

The next day, on December 5th, I was actually going to Amsterdam (The Netherlands) to go see Kehlani. So I took the train to the airport in Zürich (I live in Switzerland) and I listened to the album (beginning to end) and EWBO happened to come on again and I was breathless and crying again.

I can’t really explain what happens to me, whenever I listen to it, but I like to imagine that if this song was an object, it would be a mirror. A mirror to my soul, actually. So basically I’ve known for a bunch of years now, that I’m gonna leave my family and friends here in Europe and move to the US, to go live my dreams.

I actually do understand what it means to tell someone, that everything will be ok, even if you know that it won’t be. I understand how it feels to put yourself first, even if you don’t wanna hurt the people around you.

And besides these major points, I like the way G talks about how it’s ok to love whoever you want, as long as they make you happy. Being bisexual I do understand that too. My mom has known about my bisexuality for only a few weeks now, so when EWBO came out, she still had no idea. It’s not that I thought my family would have a problem with that, it’s just that sometimes you make things more dramatic in your head than they actually are. I tend to be a little bit too dramatic, even pathetic, anyway. 

I went through quite some tough times these past months, but I also gained a lot of strength and I am proud of myself. It just felt right getting that tattoo. Maybe I can also use it as a reminder when I am being a pathetic idiot again.

And I do actually think that I do a lot of things right in my life and one of those things is definitely g-eazysource. I made so many great friends ever since I started this blog, so it’s only right to share these quite personal words with all of you.

I hope for a lot more happy months on here and I am grateful for all of you amazing people. Thank you for reading this. Thank you for following!

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Canada’s Olympic Champions meet Queen Elizabeth II and Prince Philip
Jul 7, 2010 - By Skate Canada

It started with a formal email invitation, and wound up being a moment that they will treasure forever. Canada’s Olympic and World ice dance champions Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir were invited by the Prime Minister’s Office to the state dinner in honour of Queen Elizabeth II and Prince Philip on Monday evening in Toronto.

One rented tux, a gorgeous green dress and a major power outage later, they were seated at the head table, and enjoyed dinner with Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II and His Royal Highness The Duke of Edinburgh at the Royal York Hotel.

Tessa shared a few thoughts about how the special day unfolded!

Sunday night – 9:30 p.m. It was surprising enough to receive an invitation from the Prime Minister to meet the Queen of England and The Duke of Edinburgh, but on the eve of the big event, we got an official invitation to join the Royals at the HEAD TABLE! WOW! We were floored! What an incredible honour - but what could we have possibly done to deserve this privilege??!!!

Monday morning Scott rented a tux - very 007; classic and sharp. So after picking that up - and waiting while the sleeves were lengthened - we were on our way to Toronto for the big adventure. Scott was driving and we had the tunes blaring – even our new free dance music was on the CD I made for the trip. We made good time, probably because there was very little traffic (not because Scott was driving fast ?) – we even had time to grab lunch at East Side Mario’s beside our hotel – The Intercontinental. Everything was going smoothly! Until…..

Monday afternoon …immediately after I got out of the shower - before blow-drying my hair - the power went out!!!! Getting ready without much light and sans hair appliances was challenging to say the least. Of all times for a power outage!!! Scott and I have a little experience handling stress and managed to pull ourselves together as you can see in the photos!!! Off we marched, in the sweltering heat, across the street to the Royal York.

Monday evening We registered and entered an opulent grand ballroom. At this point my main concern shifted to not spilling anything on my dress and to not tripping. There was a sophisticated reception abuzz with glamorous guests – we met so many distinguished people! It was great to see one of our friends, Jennifer Heil, Olympic mogul skier and reminisce about the Games!

The time came to proceed through the receiving line - Prime Minister Harper, Your Majesty, Your Royal Highness, Mrs. Harper. Hand shake, curtsy/bow, curtsy/bow, hand shake - did that really just happen?????

Dinner was incredible - we were two of ten people at the head table. This once-in-a lifetime experience was better than I ever dreamed it could be - the grace, charm and kindness expressed by Her Majesty and His Royal Highness was astonishing and heart-warming!

The Canadian Tenors performed three songs after dessert- the energy in the room was so united and electrifying! The night ended with the Tenors singing O Canada and everyone joining in. What a proud moment! Scott and I were absolutely overwhelmed by the magnitude of the entire evening!!!

Monday night We exited the Royal York Hotel on cloud nine (and carrying Your Majesty The Queen and Your Royal Highness The Duke of Edinburgh’s place cards from the dinner table). We’d met so many inspirational people and experienced something most people only dream about!

Scott added his thoughts about the event as well. “Oh my, it was an unbelievable evening. Of course Tessa looked stunning in her green dress and it was such an honour to be seated at the same table as Her Majesty, His Royal Highness and The Right Honourable Stephen Harper. I really enjoyed the company of General Walter Natynczyk who had fascinating stories about inspiring our troops overseas and his experiences with the Snowbirds. The whole evening went by so quickly and it was just another opportunity for us to realize how lucky we are to be Canadian and celebrate that with The Queen of Canada herself!”