on the set of a hard day's night

Some neighbor aus for ya guys

“Listen, I really don’t like you, but you have kittens, so I’m going to be over a lot.” au

“Would you STOP coming in through the WINDOWS, it scares the hell out of me every TIME!” au

“Listen, we have very thin walls and I heard you crying in the shower, are you okay?” au

“I was very good friends with the guy that lived here before you and basically I was over here a lot and… well old habits die hard, can I stay?” au

“If you set the alarm off in the middle of the night ONE MORE TIME I SWEAR I WI- wait why were you even cooking at 3 am?” au

“You burst through the door because you thought you smelled smoke but it was just incense, listen you’re paying for that buddy.” au

“You locked yourself out too?” au

“Hey, I locked myself out, can I use your phone?” au

“You bake when you’re stressed and sometimes you give me cookies, but recently you’re giving me whole baskets each day, now I’m not complaining but are you okay?” au

“I don’t mean to sound paranoid but I’m pretty sure you’re a serial killer.” au

25 No/Low Cost Self Care Acts

1. Have a drink from your favourite cup/mug. Coffee. Tea. Hell, even plain water is nicer when it’s in your fave mug (and you’re probably dehydrated rn so get on that). Allow yourself the couple of minutes to drink it in entirety.

2. Visit the library. Seriously. Nothing says quiet me time like the quiet couches and a novel in a library.

3. Look up some topics on iTunes U and read up on them. You’ll feel accomplished when you learn about a new scholarly topic.

4. Check over your resumé. Anything need to be updated or polished? Do that now, it can come in handy if an opportunity comes knocking.

5. Call a beloved family member or close friend. I just called my aunt for the first time in a little while and honestly you feel a lot lighter and a lot warmer.

6. Listen to ASMR, Binaural Beats, or guided meditation. There’s ASMR and meditation videos on youtube for pretty much any need– general relaxation, reassurance, mock spa days…

7. Volunteer at the local animal shelter. Volunteering is proven to make you feel better about yourself, petting animals helps lower your blood pressure, and nothing compares to the love and gratitude from a dog or cat.

8. Randomly browse Wikipedia or WikiHow. Clicking the random article is always an adventure– probably a laughable one, but you might learn something new.

9. Clean out your closet. It’ll feel like a lot of weight is off your shoulders, and you can sell or donate pieces that are still in good shape.

10. Write out a list of things you like about yourself. It can be tricky at first, but write down whatever comes to mind, even though it may seem trivial. Put the list away for times when you are being too hard on yourself, or need some self love.

11. Movie night. Obviously. Netflix, Hulu, library… A lot of thrift and secondhand stores often have really cheap DVDs. Re-watch your faves, allow yourself a guilty pleasure, or choose something that looks laughably awful.

12. Have a bonfire. Check your local fire codes beforehand, first. A bonfire or a fire pit is extremely soothing, especially wrapped up in a blanket.

13. Meal Plan/Prep. You’re probably going to be cooking anyway, so setting aside a day or half a day to prep meals ahead of time helps free the rest of your schedule.

14. At-Home spa day. Wash your hair. Trim your nails. Soak your feet. Exfoliate.

15. Write letters. Especially to your grandparents if you’re emotionally close– it will make them feel really loved.

16. Sleep in or nap. No explanation needed.

17. Bake cookies or make eggless cookie dough. One serving of edible cookie dough uses only spoonfuls of ingredients you probably have at home.

18. Wash your pillowcases and linens. This is especially good if you’re like me and the depression is real. Washing sheets gets neglected but the feeling of fresh sheets makes everything suck a little bit less.

19. Forgive yourself. Acknowledge that past mistake that’s been eating you alive and accept the fact that you can’t change the past. You’re still growing, still learning.

20. Keep a happiness journal. Before bed, write three things that made you smile that day. Life won’t seem all that bad, and it’s a good way to de-stress.

21. Shamelessly sing and dance along to music you enjoy. That song you would TOTALLY kill on lip sync battle? Own it.

22. If you like makeup/skincare, go to your local sephora or drugstore that has a beauty section. Sephora does free mini makeovers if it’s not busy. At the drugstore makeup counter, ask the beauty questions that you’ve wanted answers to.

23. Remember to say “no.” Declining to do a favour or go on an outing you can’t currently justify or afford does not make you a bad person. It means you have boundaries and deserve respect.

24. Watch some game shows. Lots of channels have them, and there’s plenty of compilations on youtube.

25. Let it out in writing. Sometimes having it all out in black and white can make solutions easier to realize.

I believe in you all! Remind yourself that you’re a good person, and a bad bitch 💕

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I’ve never been good at expressing my feelings. I hate confrontation, and fear making someone, especially you, mad. You whisper in my ear every night, ‘I’m always here for you.’ I trust you, and that’s a big thing for me. It’s not easy though, to just say how I feel. I fall way too hard and fast. I love too easily. One day, you’ll be like the rest. One day you’ll realize, I’m not easy to love. I take my feelings I cannot express, and take it out on you. I get so frustrated with my mess of emotions and thoughts, I get upset by the smallest thing. It sets me off. I take you always being here for me for granted, because I say stuff you don’t wanna here. Fuck, I just want to express my feelings for you, and with you. I’m sorry it’s so hard. I’m sorry you’re going to get tired of it too.
—  One Day // MB

you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so excited i just watched an irish sapphic film!!! it’s called “a date for mad mary” and it’s got a happy ending!! also very strong accents so if you are not irish you may need subtitles. Seriously though what better day to watch an Irish movie than the 17th of march. Here’s to a Very Gay St Patrick’s Day!!

Headcanon that “Marvin, please go home” becomes a refrain throughout the hospital as Whizzer is dying. Everyone is always begging Marvin to please get some rest, Whizzer most insistently of all. Not like Marvin ever listens. Not like Marvin ever willingly leaves Whizzer’s side.

Whizzer’s condition grows steadily worse. Charlotte has to all but force Marvin out of the room each night. In Whizzer’s alert moments, after Marvin has finally left for the night, Whizzer worries constantly about how Marvin is going to cope when he’s gone. He knows Marvin is sentimental, and stubborn; he knows how Marvin loves him.

Even at the very end, though, Whizzer hasn’t lost his sense of humor. And he has an idea.

Whizzer asks Charlotte and Cordelia to do one last thing for him, and it’s frankly ridiculous. They can’t turn him down.

***

As Whizzer knew his lover would, Marvin visits the grave often. Marvin stands there and talks to Whizzer about Jason’s latest baseball game, or he shows Whizzer his new tie and asks him if he likes it, or he tells Whizzer about something fun he did recently. But after the first few visits, Marvin makes sure not to stay for too long. He talks for a bit, sometimes lays down roses, then says goodbye to Whizzer and goes for a walk in the park, cooks dinner for Trina and Jason, goes over to Charlotte and Cordelia’s for wine, drives around the city at night. He goes about life as usual.

Just like it was at the hospital each night, it’s hard to leave Whizzer. It’s hard to stand at his lover’s grave and then just continue on with his day as if nothing happened.

But it’s also hard to ignore the fact that under the names and dates and sentimentalities, engraved in tiny letters, is the constant reminder: “MARVIN, JUST GO HOME.”

You smart-ass, Marvin thinks, setting down the flowers, turning away, and walking back to the parking lot.

***

Four years later, there’s a new gravestone right next to Whizzer’s. Engraved at the bottom are these words:

“I’M STAYING HERE IN THIS SPOT WHETHER YOU WANT ME TO OR NOT.”

Paper Hearts Finale

Originally posted by tbhobi

Genre: Angst/fluff

♡ Pairing: Reader x Jungkook // Reader x Jimin

♡ Length: 6.4k

♡ Summary: It has been nearly a year since you started writing anonymous letters to Jungkook, giving him words of encouragement behind the thin mask of a paper. He never considered you as a possible suspect behind these letters, because you were nothing more than a best friend. And you couldn’t put all the blame on him either, after all, you were too afraid to confess in fear of tarnishing your precious friendship.

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♡JK ♡JM

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NSFW Alphabet: Tom Holland

NSFW Alphabet: Tom Holland 

Warnings: NSFW obviously; nsfw visual 

Originally posted by redundanttanks

A = Aftercare: He’s a total sweetheart. If you were feeling sore he’d give you a massage and place soft kisses all over your body.

B = Body part: For him, it has to be your waist. Tom always grabbed you by your waist to pull you close to his body. And for you, it had to be his hands. You really liked how rough they felt against your skin, how skilled he was with them.
C = Cum: He would cum literally anywhere. If you let him, he would cum inside you, not wanting to waste a single drop. But if not, he would cum in your mouth.
D = Dirty Secret: He had naughty things of you on his phone. Pictures, videos, recordings.
E = Experience: You and Tom didn’t have much experience and you didn’t dare to ask anyone else for help. If you were curious about something, you would look it up online or on a porn site.
F = Favorite Position (credit to @dominant-edge)

G = Goofy: Tom was a total dork, he would always be laughing and cracking jokes. And he was very cocky too.
H = Hair: His hair always looked good. You also didn’t like when he went for a haircut, because sometime he cut it way too short. He would moan so loud when you pulled on it.
I = Intimacy: He’s very attentive, he cares more about how you’re feeling than himself. He liked giving it a romantic vibe to the room, but it didn’t always happen.
J = Jack Off: With those naughty things he had of you on his phone, it wasn’t hard for him to jack off a lot. And if he needed more, he would call you or make a video chat immediately.
K = Kink: Dress up kink. Costumes. Anything and everything. One day, he managed to find a good Spider-Man suit and that was definitely one of the best nights you had together.
L = Location: In the trailer he had on set. It was a tight squeeze, but that was better because you could be even closer to each other.
M = Motivation: He was under constant stress. All the filming, training and being under the public eye really got to him and Tom knew that you would make him feel better.
N = NO: He would never tease you in public, like ever. He obviously wanted to, but he knew there were people looking from afar and he didn’t want to risk it.
O = Oral: Both were great but he loved receiving. His hands would be on your head, holding you steady while he fucked your mouth.
P = Pace: Sharp and deep thrusts, he could tear you in half. You were totally wrecked.
Q = Quickie: Always. Before he went to set, before a red carpet, before an interview. If you two didn’t have a quickie he would be restless all day, he wouldn’t be himself.
R = Risk: You wanted to try new things but one thing that he was really scared off was tying you up. He was really scared of hurting you.
S = Stamina: He’s a dancer and he was in gymnastics. He could go for literally hours. It was insane.
T = Toy: You two weren’t into toys, and he wouldn’t let you buy one even if you wanted to. He wanted to be the one giving you pleasure.
U = Unfair: When you were too busy to go out with him, you would send him text messages when he was on set or something. Tom would have to hide his boner from everyone.
V = Volume: You tried your best to stay quiet, so you would bite you lip to avoid being loud. Tom would bite your shoulder when he wanted to scream. If you were having sex in his flat at London, you were loud and you didn’t care at all.
W = Wild Card: read Dirty Secret
X = X-Ray: Tom was still growing, and now he was average.
Y = Yearning: He was a 21 year old. His hormones were off the rails and so were yours. You couldn’t keep your hands to yourself.
Z = ZZZ: You fell asleep immediately, all those orgasms drained you. Tom would be next to you, holding you and rubbing soft circles on your back.

Masterlist

I’ll update it as I keep writing!  

Sketches and Coffee (Steve Rogers x Reader College!AU)

Summary: Steve is an art student observing your dance rehearsals for his sketches.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

French Girl (Steve Rogers x Reader College!AU)*

*Sequel for Sketches and Coffee!

Summary: Steve draws you like a french girl.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

I Wish (You Were Mine) (Steve Rogers x Mutant!Reader)

Summary: “Yeah but you know…” You shrugged playfully, a shy smile gracing your lips. “Now I can say I got saved by Captain America.” 
He let out a hearty laugh and that was it. 
You had a high school kinda crush on Captain freaking America.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

New York Baby (Steve Rogers x Sokovian!Reader)

Summary: Steve fights for a living. So he’s most definitely fighting to have you back.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Worth The Wait (Skinny!Steve Rogers x Reader Modern!AU)

Summary: “So my friends dared me to ask a random person out on a date and the person I asked actually said yes wth do I do?!” AU
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Keep You Here (Skinny!40s! Steve Rogers x Reader)

Summary: “No, I mean if you don’t mind I could draw you?”
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Home (Steve Rogers x Reader)

Summary: So she is a little box full of surprises. He isn’t expecting the lightness, the freedom, the spontaneity. Rare traits in the life he leads, as a super soldier, as Captain America. But exactly what he needs.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Sunday Kind of Love (Skinny!40s! Steve Rogers x Reader)

Summary: He comes in and sit in the closest table to the stage. Just to watch you sing.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

98 Kisses (Steve Rogers x Reader)

Summary: Steve’s girlfriend promises to fulfill one of her birthday’s tradition with him. One kiss for each one of his years.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Vintage Bars and Ballrooms (Steve Rogers x Reader Modern!AU)

Summary: Tony tries to hook his assistant with his ‘muscly virgin’ friend, Steve. But she just can’t take this also muscly guy she met in a vintage bar in Brooklyn out of her mind.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

The Convenient Accident (Steve Rogers x Reader)

Summary:  You’re having a relaxing night back at home with a bubble bath, wine, candles and good music to keep you company. That changes when you decide to send a sexy picture to your asshole of ex-boyfriend and when that picture ends up in someone’s phone. More like Captain America’s phone.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Be Patient (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Be patient and let me grow into your arms.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Angst, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Just So You Know (Bucky Barnes x Reader)*

*Written as a prequel to All My Lows but can be read separately!

Summary: Mornings with you are Bucky’s favorites.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

All My Lows (Bucky Barnes x Pregnant!Reader)

Summary: Bucky has another nightmare and ends up hurting you. What happens next?
Genre: Romance/fluff, Angst, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

The Bet (Bucky Barnes x Stark!Reader)

Summary: “Pin me down onto the mat for 15 seconds and you get whatever you want from me.” Bucky said and bit down his lower lip to hold back a grin as he continued. “If it’s the other way around, I get whatever I want from you.”
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Loved (Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Reader)

Summary: Bucky’s journey until he can accept himself again.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Bucky Barnes’ Infinite Playlist (Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Reader)*

*Hold ties with Loved!

Summary: Bucky would make sure remember every single one of her songs.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Second Chances (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Does Bucky believe in his second chance?
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Not a Bad Thing (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky wants a kid while you…don’t.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Pictures Of You (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky couldn’t help but feel like there was something missing, someone missing.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Angst
Rating: T

Memories Of You (Bucky Barnes x Reader)*

*Sequel for Pictures Of You!

Summary: He just didn’t want to mourn another lost memory. 
Genre: Romance/fluff, Angst
Rating: T

Liar, Liar (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Making-out without touching. Who wins?
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Skin Deep (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky just wanted to help. Like you helped him.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Partners (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky feels vulnerable and impotent when he finds out her life had been just as hard as his and yet– she smiles brighter than Stark’s stupid customized fireworks. She’s everything that he isn’t and everything he wants to be.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Matchmaker (Bucky Barnes x Male!Reader)

Summary: Natasha sets you up on a blind date with Bucky.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Only Forever (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: 13 days with Bucky Barnes.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Life As We Know It (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: When he wakes up in the middle of the night, tear stained cheeks, heavy chest and frantic heartbeats, Bucky goes out. And meets you in the way.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Homecoming (40s!Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky is back home after the war.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Rainy Zurich (Bucky Barnes x Stark!Reader)

Summary: Five times Bucky finds solace in his room and one time he doesn’t.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Birthday Candles (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky celebrates his 99th birthday!
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Two Sides (Bucky Barnes x Reader)*

*Written as a prequel to The Apartment Chronicles but can be read separately!

Summary: Every war and battle has more than one point of view. The one they’re in is no exception to the rule.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

The Apartment Chronicles (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky’s little place in Romania holds a lot of stories.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Loyalty and Hope (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: You both complete each other in every way possible.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Of Pictures And Videos (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky gradually grows fond of three things; himself, social media and…his fellow teammate.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Of Games and Memes (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: In which Bucky creates a private Facebook account, enjoys fatherhood, discovers Pokemon Go and makes a meme out of Steve.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Benefits (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Having Bucky Barnes as a friend brings all kinds of benefits.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: M

Thousands (Bucky Barnes x Reader Soulmate!AU)

Summary: When Bucky is old enough to really understand what a soulmate is, he’s consequently old enough to do the math for it and he’s expecting everything but that. He’s got 36.858 days until he can meet his.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Russian Muses (Bucky Barnes x Reader Art School!AU)

Summary: Bucky ‘helped’ around the school, you got that part pretty much figured out. He just didn’t help in the way you had previously thought.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Countdown (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Placing bets with Bucky is a dangerous thing…but it often ends in pleasure so you don’t complain much.
Genre: Smut
Rating: E

Beautiful Escape (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Bucky’s secret is no longer a secret.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Victim of Love (Bucky Barnes x POC!Reader)

Summary: In which Bucky and his beautiful black girlfriend don’t back out against racist asses.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Touch (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Maybe waking up from nightmares and dreams isn’t so bad. Or so Bucky thinks.
Genre: Smut
Rating: E

Fall To Winter (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Maybe Bucky is just starting believe he’s very much loved despite everything he’s done.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Tastes Like Love (Bucky Barnes x Reader)

Summary: Three different sweet treats for a very sweet day.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Futile Devices (Tony Stark x Reader)

Summary: You get rescued from a HYDRA base by Tony.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

5 Stages (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Summary: The 5 stages of falling in love with Matt Murdock.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Heartbeats (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Summary: How does Matt tell you that you’re pregnant?
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Kiss Land (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Summary: Matt Murdock was an insanely great kisser. And he absolutely loved to put his lips to use.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Coming Down (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Summary: Based off Halsey’s ‘Coming Down’.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Hollow Promises (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Summary: Matt finds and loses a life he’s never had. A life he doesn’t even feel like deserving sometimes.
Genre: Angst
Rating: T

God or Goddess? (Loki x Stark!Reader)

Summary: You’re pregnant with the God of Mischief’s baby. How are you going to tell your older brother?
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Find You (Clint Barton x Archer!Reader)

Summary: You saved Clint during a HYDRA attack. And now he just needs to know who you are. 
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Karaoke Night (Clint Barton x Reader)

Summary: It’s karaoke night for Clint Barton!
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

You and Me (Clint Barton x Doctor!Reader)

Summary: The both of you were the perfect match for a disaster.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

The Five Days (Clint Barton x Agent!Reader)

Summary: Five days where Clint Barton tried to spoil you. Tried.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Sleepy Speedy (Pietro Maximoff x Avenger!Reader)

Summary: 5 times Pietro sleeps against you and 1 time you sleep against him.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Much Better (Pietro Maximoff x Avenger!Reader)

Summary: Late night talks with Pietro.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Hurt/comfort
Rating: T

Lost Stars (Ben Solo/Kylo Ren x Reader)

Summary: 4 times the stars meant something good in Ben’s life. And 2 times they didn’t.
Genre: Romance/fluff, Angst
Rating: T

Lucky Strike (Poe Dameron x Reader Modern!AU)

Summary: Your excitement to meet the company’s most requested pilot was nearly zero. Little did you know you were going to swallow your words.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

Winner’s Luck (Tom Hiddleston x Actress!Reader)

Summary: Tom is called onstage to receive an award from you, the presenter. A congratulations cheek kiss turns out to be something else.
Genre: Romance/fluff
Rating: T

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Stick With Me, Kid *Negan Series*

Originally posted by grungedaddykinks

Summary: Negan finds a little girl, no more than ten, amongst a car wreckage, after finding out she’s alone in the world. He takes her as his own, raising her through the apocalypse. If there’s one thing that his greatest pride but also his biggest weakness, it’s his daughter, Y/N!
Ratings/ warnings: Teen, mentions of blood and violence. I feel like, Negan as a dad is a warning.
Writers Notes: This doesn’t really have a set plot, it will follow alongside season 6 & 7, I’m unsure if I’ll make it so Carl and reader have a thing. But… I got big feels seeing Negan and Judith.

Notes: I had this idea last year, I wrote a few parts and then forgot about it. Now here I am, uploading it because I miss writing Negan! - Rosalee

Chapter Two


Chapter One: Everybody Dies {Reader 10yrs old}


You weren’t really sure what was happening. One moment you were in your home playing with your dolls, the next your mother is picking you up and buckling you in the car seat. This had happened before, her frantic behaviour, it scared you but you were used to how anxiousness she is now. She never let you outside anymore, even living in the new community of people, she never let you out of her sight.

You peeked out of the car window and caught glimpses of the people you knew running. You also saw people that you didn’t know, dirty and grimy, attacking your friends. You frowned and your curious young eyes trained on the events before you.

“Mum, what’s happening?” Your small voice calling out to the women who was speeding out of the gates, “mum? We have to go back and help!” You plead as she continues to ignore you.

You turn your head and look out of the back window, watching as the gates faded into the background and became no more as your turned a corner. Trees and forest edge being the only scenery.

“Mum what about dad?” You asked in a rush, “we can’t leave him? What about dad? Mum.”

Your eyes welling up as she turned her head looking at you, stone cold stare but fear in her blue eyes as she looked at you. “Y/N, be quiet okay? Dad… he… was bitten okay? You know I told you what happened to people who are bitten? Right?” She glanced back at the road before you as you nodded lightly. “We can’t go back! We’re never going back, it just you and-”

“-MUM!” You yelled and pointed to the road where a man staggered out of the forest edge.

You could only watch as your mum swerved the car to avoid hitting the man. The car skidding along the road and tipping over, barrel rolling and smacking into a tree, upside down. The impact caused you to hit your head and black out for a few minutes; unaware of the potential danger around you.

You blinked your eyes open, a light thumping happening in your head as your vision is blurry. The blood rushing to your head, fast, as you’re stuck upside down.

You hear a deep, gritted growling, sounding like a frustrated animal. You blink rapidly and see, what you assume, is the man from the road trying to crawl through the windshield. Up front he looked rotten, disgusting and a grey sort of colour. Bloodshot eyes, skin flaking from his hands that outstretched trying to grab you.

Your heart thumps in your chest, tears falling from your eyes and you begin to scream. Looking to the driver’s seat and your mum isn’t there, car door open but no sign of her; panic settles in as this… man gets closer.

Over your screams for your dad or mum, you don’t hear a van pull up or the steady feet of men get out. No, all you see is the crazy man get pulled away, black boots stand over him and one slams on his back. A single gunshot is fired making you flinch, whimpering into the silence as it goes straight through his head; stopping the man growls.

The same boots along with a few others walk around the car, you whimper as a pair stop beside your window. “Boss, I think there’s someone alive in the car?” A deep, gruff voice rings out.

“Well, pull them out and let me take a look at them! It’s not rocket-science, Simon.” A smooth, clear voice comes from behind the car.

You stare wide-eyed as a man’s face appears; black moustache and grey, wiry hair, deep confused brown eyes stare at you for a moment. He opens the door, the metal scraping against the floor and he leans in, you whimper and recoil away.

“I’m gonna undo the buckle, be ready for the drop,” he tells you before pressing the buckles button and that sends you falling to the roof.

It doesn’t hurt just a little sudden, you look finally able to see him the right way up and he just gestures for you to crawl out to him. With no other choice you shuffle out of the car, standing up and looking up at the tall man; he’s wearing a khaki coloured shirt, sleeves rolled up and some jeans. He places a hand on your shoulder, moving you around the car to the back where a handful of man are stood. Waiting.

“Just a little girl,” the man holding your shoulder calls out. “Look like whoever she was with is long gone.”

You nervously look at the men. All holding some type of weapon, looking mean and tough. You heard dad and mum talking about a group, mean, biker looking group that took from settlements like where you ran from.

“What’s your name little darlin’?” A voice called out, your (E/C) eyes drift nervously to the voice.

A man with slick, dark hair and a black, leather jacket called to you. He looks mean, in the sense he’s swinging a baseball bat that has barbed wire coiled around it. But he has a kind smile, encouraging almost.

“Go on, tell him your name,” the man holding your shoulder taps lightly and you look down at your feet. Scared and afraid, terrified would be accurate.

“She’s scared, give her a minute,” the same man with the bat calls back. “Skinny Joey, check the car over and Simon bring her over here.”

You feel the slight nudge to move forward, you look up as you walk towards the man, glancing at the few others who are looking over the car. You stop a little short of him, he hands his bat to Simon, you think that’s his name, and then kneel down in front of you. He smells of smoke, leather and a distinct dirt smell, it’s not bad but different.

“Aren’t you just the cutest thing I ever did see, I haven’t seen a child this cute since, shit, before this whole mess.” He’s grinning, “I apologise for my foul mouth, now sweetie what’s your name?”

You take a few seconds and he nods in encouragement, “My mum told me not to talk to strangers.”

He laughs loudly, “That’s a good rule, but your mum isn’t here.” You look down, “And I’m only trying to help, I’m Negan, these are my men. Now you know who we are,” he grins as you look at the others all watching.

“I’m… Y/N,” you say hesitantly.

“Wanna tell me what happened? Why you’re out here all alone?” He looks at the wreckage.

You follow his eyes before looking back at him. “My mum packed me into the car, where we lived was under… attack, I think. By those… things,” you nodded to the man who was trying to get through the windshield, “she was driving fast and swerved not to hit him,” he nods solemnly.

“And she left you?” He asked and you shrugged, “woke up from that tumble and she was gone?” It wasn’t a question but you nodded. He seemed to be in deep thought as you looked at him, he looks up at Simon who gives a small sigh, nodding in agreement to whatever silent conversation they were having. “So, you’ll be coming back with us, we’ve got a good set up someone will-”

You cut him off, “I should stay here, what if… my mum left to get help?”

“Listen, kid,” Negan starts off, “that maybe true or she left you or she left to get help and died, the bad out way the good in this world. I don’t feel comfortable leaving you alone,” he tilts his head.

You shake your head, “No! You don’t know for sure, she wouldn’t just leave me,” you turn and sit beside the wreckage of the car.

Negan shrugs, taking the bat from Simon and telling his men to get into the trucks and vans. He gives you one last look before driving the way you had driven, you watch as the vans turn in the opposite corner and drive off.

FEW HOURS LATER


Your dad told you stories how it gets worse at night. How to never stay outside at night, you wrapped your arms around your body and shivered from the cold. The sun was setting, getting to that time where the somewhat safeness of the day time faded. Your mum would have been back by now, if she left to get help, she wasn’t.

You felt neglected, why would she just leave you? What would possess her to just leave you. Alone with no one.

You stand up walking across the road, peeking into the forest, maybe she was stuck somewhere. Maybe she needed help! You step into the forest and begin walking, it was hard to see because of the darkness painting the sky slowly.

After a few minutes of walking you see her. Sat up against a tree, already looking just as rotten and disgusting as the man from earlier, plus people attacking where you lived. Her shirt was soaked in blood, you flinched away from the nightmare in front of you, she didn’t even look like your mum but it was her. You step back, twig snapping and your eyes darted to her.

She lazily lifted her head, making groaning sounds in the back of her throat; trying to stand up. Her noises attracted others, you could hear more faint groans, without thinking you turn and begin to run back. You squealed when one almost grabbed a hold of you, ducking and running back to the car, why? You didn’t know.

You clear the forest edge and breath heavily, yet, you smack into something. Or someone. You scream and thrash around to get out of their hold, only stopping when looking up, Negan?

“Just wanted to give you one last offer to come back with us,” he looked beyond you to the forest where you had obviously come from. “What were you doing in there?”

“Looking for my mum,” you muttered. “I found her!”

He nodded, “Well, I guess you don’t need us then, where is she?” Before he can stand up, you wrap your arms around his neck and hug him, he tenses and looks at Simon who shrugs.

“No! Don’t leave me,” you cried; the realisation of being alone and having no one falling onto you. “Their all gone now.” You cried.

“Stick with me, kid.” Negan sighs, rubbing your back reassuringly. “I’ve got you,” he stands up and hands His baseball bat to Simon before walking to the truck.

(Let me know what you think. I’m still editing, hence why things are a little off and such. I’ll get to my laptop soon (published and formatted from phone) hopefully, the tagging works on my phone, otherwise I’m sorry! My first Negan series, with reader as a child, I’m nervous!-Ro)


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My astro prof today told us this story about Shapley (he wasn’t sure if it was Shapley but w/e) and Shapley was an early 1900’s astronomer who was just a massive dickwad to his students, especially his grad students. And he was still actively doing astronomy as well. And because it’s the 1900’s and the technology sucks, back then if you wanted to take pictures of the stars you had to actually climb into the telescope and there was like a little crevice at the focal point of the telescope you could sit in. And all night you would have to take a glass plate with a light sensitive coating on it and expose it to the aperture where you were sitting. This was the only way. So Shapley does this. Every night they’d set down the telescope, and Shapley would climb inside with his glass plates and stay there the whole night.

But remember Shapley is a massive asshat to his grad students. And so the grad students formulated a plan.

See, while Shapley was in the telescope, he was stuck there till morning, or, he could could choose to end the night early if he had to.. say… go pee. But once the telescope is down it’s down for the day. This is a massive telescope that was very hard to move.

And so one night, Shapley made a sidehanded comment about always having to pee when it’s cold to one of his grad students. And so they got an idea.

They waited for Shapley to get loaded up into the telescope, and waited until it had been set back up, and then they put their plan into action.

Every night, they would take water jugs and go stand at the base of the telescope. They would swish the water around and poor it back and forth knowing FULL WELL Shapley had to pee. But if he got down to pee, he was done for the night. So every night he stayed in his telescope, in bladder busting agony, as his grad students would stand below with their water jugs. All night. Every night. Extracting their agonizing revenge with their water jugs of justice. They did this until Shapley gave up.

THAT is the level of pettiness I aspire to be

dating tom holland would include... (tom holland x reader)

okay so today i had this wonderful idea of doing a tom imagine but i just couldn’t decide on any ideas so i just randomly came up with this one in my head.

i hope you guys enjoy! 


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Originally posted by tom-hollcnd


  • okay do you see how cuddly he is 
  • like this is illegal
  • i
  • l
  • l
  • e
  • g
  • a
  • l
  • sorry im extra 
  • okay so let’s get crackalackin’
  • just imagine him wrapping a blanket around you as you two sit on the sofa in the living room
  • movie nights
  • pumpkin flavored shit out the ass when it’s fall
  • getting coffee at like 5 pm bc adulting is hard
  • early morning set days means he comes home earlier
  • him dragging you to the gym
  • like literally dragging you
  • i feel bad for you tbh ^
  • marvel conversations
  • and arguments about which superhero is better
  • because let’s be honest here, you’re both marvel nerds.
  • you spontaneously buying something spider-man related and giving it to Tom
  • “woah, a spider-man mug?”
  • “yeah, i don’t really know why i got it but, happy christmas.”
  • him laughing really hard when you say that ^
  • wanting to go out to dinner together, but the both of you know you’ll be surrounded by people.
  • “babe, can you pass me a quackson?”
  • “jesus christ, y/n. i know where you sleep.” 
  • okay but the sex is really good. 
  • like i’m talking really good. 
  • like go ahead girl. you go girl!
  • anyways, where were we?
  • oh yeah, the sex.
  • him always being down to have sex before he goes to set
  • and maybe you’ve surprised him in his trailer a few times already
  • and we’re not going to talk about that one time Jacob walked in on you two and him immediately wanting burn his eyes
  • but overall, you two are extremely happy together
  • and that’s all that matters
  • imagining you and Tom in love makes me happy
  • awh 
  • you two are love birds for life

Some days will seem like nights: dark. You’ll have a hard time moving around without bumping into every potential problem you have. You have to learn from these days though, because the things that go on in your mind, the decisions you have to make, the fights that you’ll have with yourself; they’ll all collectively set you free from the person who you used to be.
—  Twonty2Turning on the Light

Alarm -Tom Holland


A/N: This one is trash. This gif and the song Alarm by Ann-Marie are responsible for this imagine, please don’t hate me. Enjoy? Part 2


I set my alarm on 3am in the morning. No I’m not a psychopath and I really love to sleep but Tom just happened to be on a whole different time zone than me. It’s been a little bit over four months since he entered a plain to fly off to film his new movie. It’s been hard. It’s been lonly. Really lonly. This distance thing was just not compatible with my emotional state and I was having a hard time. So was he. That’s the reason why I woke up at three am in the morning everyday to see his stupid face.

My alarm went off and I shut my eyes open being a little baffled for a moment. As I remembered what my alarm was for I reached for my phone and unlocked it.
Seconds later I could see Tom facetiming me and I accepted his call with a sleepy smile.
“Hey.”,I said and rolled onto my back rubbing my eyes, trying to get rid of the slight burning sensation.
“You’re really tired aren’t you?”,he said and I put my hands away immediatly.
“No? Who said that? I could run a marathon.”,I joked and winked at him.
“Shut up. You wouldn’t run a marathon at anytime of the day.”,he chuckled and I smiled again.
“You know me.”,I said and we both fell silent staring at each other and I felt my heart sink.
“I really miss you Tom.”, I finally said and my voice sounded chocked up, not as confident as I would want it to be and he sighed.
“I miss you too.”, he said and ran his fingers through his hair looking really stressed which made me worry.

“Don’t worry about it. You just have a month left.”,I said quickly and put a smile on, which didn’t feel all that real. My heart was pounding in my chest and I couldn’t put my finger on why.
“Tell me about your schedule. What’s next?”,I added and changed the subject to take his mind of the real issue.
“Oh…uh-..there is this event we’re working for which really stresses me out because it is a huge deal. There’ll be an after party to that. I don’t really know if I’ll go there, I have to do this other thing which still needs a lot of work and I’m not even sure…”

“Hey.”,I interrupted him and he looked up into the camera .
“It’s all going to be fine. Don’t stress yourself.”,I tried to calm him but he rolled his eyes.
“Yeah that’s easy for you to say.”,he said and even though I knew that he was salty because of all things he told me about, his attitude still bugged me.
“No need to be an ass about it.”,I said with furrowed brows and he ran his fingers through his hair again. Rougher this time.
“I know! I’m sorry. It’s just so overwhelming and you’re so far away and I just can’t…concentrate.”,he groaned and pressed his palms over his eyes.
“Did you tell Harrison about this, T?”,I asked now really worried but he shook his head.
“It doesn’t matter anyways. I just have to get it done.”,he said and seemed to be annoyed but I couldn’t quite tell why.
“That’s not true. It does matter. I don’t want you to get sick Tom. Please talk to him.”,I tried to convince him but he let his shoulders sink.
“I gotta go, Y/N. We’ll start shooting soon.”

“Tom…”

“I love you, darling.”,he said and blew me a kiss.

“Tom!”,I said now more persistent but he just cracked a half smile and waved into the camera.

“I love you too, dumbass. Go be awesome now.”,I said finally and and waved back before he hung up. It’s not really necessary to tell you that I didn’t sleep well that night. Might as well have ran a marathon. Would have been less tiring.

***

The nice thing about our relationship was that there were no hard feelings after a little argument like that. We just kept going on with our lives because we understood each other. I knew he was being a little butthurt because of the stress and it was understandable.
The next day I didn’t set my alarm because I waited it to be 3am like a psychopath. I was holding my phone in my hand excitedly and smiled to myself. As soon as it was 3:00am I dialled his number and waited with a big grin on my face for him to pick up.
“Hey pretty girl. What’s up?”,he picked up and I squealed while jumping up and down.
“Gues what?!”,I said inbetween my excitement and pressed my palm against my lips.

“What?”,he laughed and his eyes were glowing with curiosity which made me even happier.
“We got it! We got the apartment we were rooting for!”,I exclaimed and and threw my fists into the air.
“Did we really?!”,he said and got up from where he was standing.
“Yes. Yes. Yes! The agent called today. I didn’t want to wake you up from your sleep. You barely get any.”,I said and smiled from ear to ear.

“I wish I could’ve been there. I wish I could hold you right now.”,he sighed and let himself fall onto the couch in his trailer.
“I know. Me too. But keep your head up. We will be having our own apartment soon. Do you know what that means? I’ll be always there when you come home. Even if it is late in the night and you can come cuddle with me or not. I mean we can do lots of other things in bed, you know…Try to think of that.”,I teased him and he playfully glared at me.

“Can I tell you something?”,he asked suddenly. We fell silent and were just enjoying each others company when he broke the silence. I knew he would, I waited for him to break it because I knew something was troubling him. He had this restless expression on his face where he would furrow his brows slightly and chew on his bottom lip.
“Of course. Shoot.”,I said and looked at my feet which were leaned up against the wall. Was that a different shade of blue on my right foot? Damn it.
“I’m having troubles.”

My head shot to my phone and I saw him look down on his feet. But I didn’t say anything because I saw that he needed time to process what he was going to say.

“I’m really having a hard time over here.”, he said and fell silent for quiet some time and panick started to rise in my chest.

“What is it Tom? You can tell me.”,I assured him with a gentle voice and wished he was right next to me so I could lay my arm around him or just take his hand in mine.
He opened his mouth to go on when suddenly I heared a knock on his door.
“Wait a second…”,he said and put his phone on to the table so that I watched the ceiling for a couple of minutes.
“Darling, I need to go. There is a complication with the event next week.”,he said as he picked his phone up and I nodded.

“Yeah, thought so. Go. I’ll call you tomorrow. We really do need to talk Tom.”,I said carefully and he nodded but was lost in his thoughts.
“Love you.”,he said and after I told him also, he was gone.
That was our last nice moment I would ever remember about us. That was also the only moment he tried to tell me about his issues.

***

From that day on everything began to go downhill. While I wad at home, trying to organize the apartment thing, being excited, Tom was stressed.

“Tom?“I asked for the third time and he snapped.

“What? Y/N I really don’t have time for this and I don’t really care right now! I’m trying to organize last things about the event in three days and you are asking me about a contract? Hell I don’t know okay? I don’t care! ”,he almost yelled and I was shocked. He sighed and started massaging his temples with his free hand, obviously annoyed with me. The thing that I was bothering him with and that he didn’t really care about was our future. That hit me right in the guts. I was only asking him about when we’d be able to sign the contract. A simple question. I felt a knot build in my throat and my eyes started watering and I became angry with myself. I looked down not wanting him to see how much he got to me.

“Darling, I’m sorry. Everyone is pressuring me right now. I didn’t mean to take it out on…”

“I think we should hang up.”,I interrupted him and didn’t look up, trying to gather myself together before I would look into his eyes.

“Y/N please! I didn’t mean-…I wasn’t…”

“I need to go Tom. Go finish your work. I’ll finish mine.”,I interrupted him again and he fell silent.

“Bye.”,I only said and hung up on him without waiting for an answer.
He called four times after I hung up and sent me three messages but I ignored all of them. If I talk to him right now, this is going to become a huge argument. We’re both on the edge of our nerves and we don’t need to stress that.

We didn’t talk for three days in which his important event happened. I had time to cool off and called him the morning after the event but he didn’t pick up. He was probably asleep with a huge headache. I smiled to myself imagening him having a hangover and sleeping it out, on his belly, face burried into the pillow. I called him five hours later but he didn’t pick up. Now it was getting a little weird because he should be awake by now. I shrugged my shoulders and decided to wait and not push him. He was probably still busy. Post event things? Who knows. I made myself a nice cup of sugary tea and chose a movie to watch while I waited for him to call back.

But he didn’t.

I called him the following two days three times a day but he did not answer once. Finally, it was a thursday night, I called Harrison when my alarm went off at 3am in the morning.
“Hey!”,he picked up and I exhaled thankfully.
“Harrison! Thank god! Is Tom with you?”,I said immediatly and and walked up and down in my living room.
“Y/N! Hey- yeah,uh…i mean no. He is not. He is…out?”,he stuttered and I furrowed my brows.

“Harrison.”,I said with a warning tone.

“Alright I’m officially stepping out of this. You guys need to talk. That’s all I’m going to say. No Tom I won’t shut up. You shut up. Gosh! You’re the one with the problem and I am…”, he kept talking but the rest got cut off as he hung up. Oh shit. This was about the other night. I broke his heart. I should have been supporting him through his stressfull times but I blocked him. I pushed him away.

I took my phone and wrote him a message.

Dearest love,
I fucked up. I am so sorry for pushing you away when you needed me the most. I’m sorry for being a bitch (even though you were a dick to me before that but that is long forgiven)
Tom, I always want to be by your side even if you have to be away for several months for shooting and promo. I’ll be done with college in a year and than I’ll be able to travel with you. We’ll have the best time of our lives. I’ll be waiting for your return in two weeks. We’ll talk this out when you come back, just know that I still love you. From all my heart.

I sent it and waited for an answer with a big smile on my face. The smile faded with every passing minute. He didn’t reply and I was left a crying mess the whole night. I messed up big time.

***

I came back from college the next day feeling numb the whole time and threw myself on the couch. I didn’t eat much and my body felt sore. I was watching a TV show when someone knocked on the door. When I looked at the clock I wondered who it could be. It was past midnight.
When I opened the door I couldn’t believe my eyes.

“Tom?!”,I squealed and threw myself around his neck, pulling his body close to mine, breathing in his scent.
“What are you doing here?! Come in!”,I said and pulled him inside closing the door behind us.
“I missed you so much.”, I sighed and pulled him towards me again and placed my lips against his. It took him some time to kiss me back but when he did I felt my heart lighten. Like a weight was lifted from my shoulders.
He pulled away after a few seconds and stepped back. I was going to say something but he held me off.

“We need to talk.”,he said and his chocked up voice made my body stiffen.
“What is it?”,I said and furrowed my brows worriedly.
He looked up from the floor and I thought my heart stopped when he looked into my eyes. His beautiful brown eyes were red and watery from crying, his lips were trembling and swollen because of the constant biting.

“Tom what happened?”, I said now panick rising in my voice and then it hit me.

“First I want you to know that I still love you with all my heart and I am so, so sorry for what happened. You’re the only one I love, you have to believe me…”

“What happened?”,I interrupted him and formed my hands into fists by my side trying to controll my rising anger. This couldn’t be happening.

“I cheated on you.”

My world stopped spinning. My heart stopped pounding. Everything was awefully silent. It was too loud.

“What did you say?”

“Please, you have to listen to me! I’m begging you. I didn’t mean to…I was anxious and stressed. Frustrated really. I know these aren’t excuses for what I did but…”

“Did you kiss her?”,I interrupted him without listening to him and he held his breath.

“Answer me! Did you?!”,I screamed and he nodded.

“I did.”

“Did-…Did you sleep with her?”

Inhale.

Exhale.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Inhale.

“I did.”

I fucked up. I am so sorry. My words echoed in my head. I am so fucking dumb.

Before I knew what I did I already had smacked him right across his face. My whole body was shivering and it felt like the room was spinning.
A sobb escaped my throat and I pressed my palm against my mouth to stop the rest. I just threw myself at him and kissed him like a fucking moron! My sight got blurry because of the tears in my eyes and finally they escaped. It was a silent cry. One where you know that it has no point. One you know, will destroy you.
I stumbled back slowly and shook my head trying to get rid of the images my mind made up of him being tangled in bed with another.

“Please you need to listen to me. It was a big mistake. You have to believe me. I don’t even know her. It just…happened. I was confused and on edge. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. I need you to…”

“Shut up. Shut up! Shut the fuck up!”, I screamed and pulled at my own hair while shaking my head furiously. And then I went mad. I stormed towards him and started throwing punches and pushed him backwards out of the room while yelling at him.

“Get out! Get the fuck out! I don’t want to see you. Leave!”

I slammed the door shut and slid to the floor balling my eyes out for the love of my life. He did the same thing on the other side of the door.

The alarm in my bedroom went off. It was time to call him.

He fucked up big time.

dear samantha
i’m sorry
we have to get a divorce
i know that seems like an odd way to start a love letter but let me explain:
it’s not you
it sure as hell isn’t me
it’s just human beings don’t love as well as insects do
i love you.. far too much to let what we have be ruined by the failings of our species

i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night
i know you would never DO anything, you never do but..
i saw the way you looked at the waiter last night

did you know that when a female fly accepts the pheromones put off by a male fly, it re-writes her brain, destroys the receptors that receive pheromones, sensing the change, the male fly does the same. when two flies love each other they do it so hard, they will never love anything else ever again. if either one of them dies before procreation can happen both sets of genetic code are lost forever. now that… is dedication.

after Elizabeth and i broke up we spent three days dividing everything we had bought together
like if i knew what pots were mine like if i knew which drapes were mine somehow the pain would go away

this is not true

after two praying mantises mate, the nervous system of the male begins to shut down
while he still has control over his motor functions
he flops onto his back, exposing his soft underbelly up to his lover like a gift
she then proceeds to lovingly dice him into tiny cubes
spooning every morsel into her mouth
she wastes nothing
even the exoskeleton goes
she does this so that once their children are born she has something to regurgitate to feed them
now that.. is selflessness

i could never do that for you

so i have a new plan
i’m gonna leave you now
i’m gonna spend the rest of my life committing petty injustices
i hope you do the same
i will jay walk at every opportunity
i will steal things i could easily afford
i will be rude to strangers
i hope you do the same
i hope reincarnation is real
i hope our petty crimes are enough to cause us to be reborn as lesser creatures
i hope we are reborn as flies
so that we can love each other as hard as we were meant to.

—   Jared Singer, An Entomologist’s Last Love Letter

* 2/100 days of productivity *
Today I started my homework 3 days early. And I am super proud because usually, I would start the night before. I really hope I will be able to keep this up. Hopefully, I will start a week early for my next homework.
I found that using a timer really help me focus better. I split my 6 hours study to 3 sessions. I set the timer for 2 hours each session and take a 15 minutes break in between. This technique has been working pretty well for me so far.
What are some focusing techniques that you have tried?
Hope you have a wonderful and productive day! :)