Just a reminder that your popularity on tumblr does not define your worth. You are a part of a fandom even if you don’t get as much as notes as other artists or your memes don’t spread as widely as that of other bloggers. You are appreciated. It doesn’t matter if you are too shy to actively participate and just silently reblog other people’s posts. Don’t feel intimidated by big accounts, they are humans just like you and they have their flaws as well. If a popular blogger threats you bad or kinkshames you they might get backed up by their followers but that doesn’t make their actions right. They aren’t perfect beings just because a large crowd is following them and your opinion is as valid as theirs. So don’t be afraid to stand up for your opinion and just be yourself. You are allowed to enjoy yourself and do what makes you happy. If you are happy just being on tumblr that is fine, you don’t need to be popular. Don’t delete your posts just because they didn’t reach a certain amough of notes. Even if only your close friends follow you that is already fine. You don’t need ghost followers. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You are doing fine and as long as you are having fun your blog is important ♡
I can’t believe how many of you believe that Ayato is a character who you can relate to. It made me really happy to see some of the tags in my post when it was reblogged by a few of you, and it gives me in hope in this fandom that usually depicts Ayato as some takoyaki-eating, boob-loving, basketball baka who’s sadistic AF with a poor fashion style. I love you guys A LOT, so thank you for granting this opportunity to me in less than two days.
Anyway, STORY TIME AGAIN:
So I have been feeling pretty down lately. Wanting to get more involved in school and improving my leadership skills, I ran for treasurer, as a college freshman, for two clubs that I was involved with in college, and I was certain that I was the most qualified candidate. My speeches were great and I was a credible person with plenty of experiences as a treasurer and leader who could do the job well. But after voting and counting the votes for each club, I had been informed that I lost both elections. That hit my ego pretty hard, and it made me feel like maybe I wasn’t well-liked enough by other members or that I wasn’t considered good enough. I LOATHED myself because I could not believe that I lost two positions in two days. I felt as if no one saw the potential I had to do a great job. That’s where my superiority and inferiority complexes came back to strangle me down and tell me that I wasn’t doing my best AGAIN. I kept on asking myself what was wrong with me and what do I have to do to show people that I am capable of doing this and being a leader?
Then, I thought about Ayato.
If Ayato was in my position, he’d probably think the same way as me and say something like, “What the hell?! Ore-sama was the best person to run! The full package! And you choose someone who wasn’t so great in the first place?! Tch, you’re all going to regret it!” We would both be pretty upset, angry, and confused. But unlike what Ayato may usually think, I have hope that there will be other things that will happen to me and end in greatness and success. I need to stop doubting myself and my abilities, and learn how to accept things as they are and work harder for things that I want. It may not happen now, but in God’s plan and time, I will reach my goals. If Ayato can be a great Vampire King and Head of the Sakamaki family, then I can definitely achieve my goals too.
There is hope for all of you, and I hope that your self-esteem is lifted and that you all will feel like you are the best one day because you all have the capability of doing so. If Ayato can survive the hell he was given, then so can I, and so can you.
I’m sorry if this blog is turning slowly into something personal. I know it’s an imagines blog for DL, but I can’t help but share what’s going on in my life with you all and how a character like Ayato is creating an impact on how I see things in my life and it’s because he’s such a relatable character, but I want all of you to be able to find your own peace and closure one day if you are struggling with something in life too.
i’ve decided to go offline and depart from my online aliases / social medias that were used for my art, animations, and as a way to fill my boredom. sorry this comes after making this new art blog recently.
throughout high school i depended on social media a lot to fill in space for when i was lonely. it worked pretty well, but now i find myself more stressed by social media than “comforted” by it.
i’ve been in a funk since i dropped out of college, and i don’t know what i want to do anymore. i can’t tell if i enjoy art now. i don’t feel like i do, but maybe it’s just from me pressuring myself, the fact i’ve been pretty bummed for over half a year, or idk. i only draw now so i’m not inactive on social media tbh. i feel like i just make sad “relatable” art or cute, aesthetic art for recognition + notes. i don’t want to draw for that reason.
i do appreciate all the support i ended up receiving though. honestly, i think my art is very boring, so i’m surprised it got any attention over the past year.
if you followed my other social medias that have now been deleted, i’m sorry if i scared anyone lol. i have been feeling very bad lately and havent been thinking clearly, and that can come through with what you type, so thought it was best to just poof. i wanted to burn my bridges and get it over with asap. :p that’s all.
if you’re not feeling great too, i recommend doing the same thing. it’s a HUGE relief. the internet is just the internet. people are stupid on here, and you can become one of those people.
Quirks/Hobbies: Like I said in a previous ask, Jason has a weirdly versatile skill set because of his inability to sit still when anxious. He goes to pawn and thrift shops looking for things to occupy his hands - books to rebind, furniture to restore and clocks to fix, that sort of thing.
Cooking/Food: Of all the batkids, Jason is the one who can cook and he takes food very seriously. When he first came to the manor he was determined to acquire as many skills as he could so he could take care of himself if/when he was kicked out. Cooking and nutrition included. On a related note, as a kid he had a habit of stashing food everywhere. Sometimes he still keeps canned goods in his closet.
Random: Jason knows A LOT of languages. Some of them seem random - Old English. Ancient Greek. Welsh. He learned them so he could read books/lore/fables in their original text. He is THAT nerd.