on a lot of blogs. sigh. whatever i'm over it i swear

patroclusau  asked:

All of your posts about cute government boy have got me thinking about a wolfstar au where they're both in college and they're taking the same chemistry class or something and sirius cannot pay attention because there's this beautiful boy with soft brown eyes, an oversized sweater, and a beanie pulled over his wavy hair and sirius is SO WEAK and he blogs about it on Tumblr like "cute chem boy bit his lip today and i swear i died a little" i can't stop thinking about it!!! pining boys!! i'm sad!!

My god, okay I’m writing this rn (also it got really long ok)

  • It’s kind of a spur of the moment decision when Sirius enrolls in the Biology 101 course
  • But he’s so fucking glad he did
  • Because in that same class, sitting not even ten feet in front of him, is the boy
  • And Sirius is a mess
  • He knows it’s only too obvious that he’s constantly staring, bottom lip bitten raw and eyes watering when he forgets to blink
  • The boy’s name is Remus, he notices after the first few classes, but Sirius just calls him “Cute Biology Boy”
  • And Sirius is pining over Cute Biology Boy
  • He’s always taking note of what color beanie he’s wearing and if it corresponds to the sweater that always looks like it’s three sizes too big
  • And his hair
  • Sirius wants his own fists in that hair
  • The boy’s nearly always wearing tight pants, but his sweaters are almost always covering his ass, so Sirius can’t really get a good look at it
  • It’s no better when the boy wears sweatpants either
  • But the first time Sirius watches Cute Biology Boy stand up from his seat, sweater having ridden up while he sat, Sirius outright groaned in the middle of class
  • Sirius takes note of his hands, always clasped around either a book or a pencil and many times covered with the sleeves of the sweaters he wears
  • They were big and they looked so soft and Sirius wanted to hold one
  • Sirius often turns to strangers on the internet for advice, typing out long, elaborate character summaries of the boy he doesn’t even know, really
  • But his followers still give him support and advice regardless
  • Some days Sirius scolds himself for how he’s feeling, arguing inside his own head about how he doesn’t need a relationship to have a happy life
  • But god dammit he fucking want one
  • And so he prepares to talk to the boy
  • He casually writes up a post on his blog before class starts, “Should I talk to the cute biology boy today?”
  • The responses he immediately gets almost have him falling out of his seat
  • He spends that entire class period alternating his attention between his phone, the teacher, and Cute Biology Boy
  • And when class ends, he chickens out
  • The next week, he tries again
  • Towards the end of the class, he thinks he has what he wants to say down
  • And so when the class ends, he shuffles up to the boy and is ready to ask about the book he was reading, but then he panicked and paused
  • The boy was looking at him patiently, but he seemed to be bored, or just eager to leave
  • “Did you catch what she said the mitochondria do? IthinkImissedit,” he said quickly, eyes wide
  • The boy’s patient frown turned into a small, questioning smirk
  • “We’re learning about genetics, actually,” he said
  • And Sirius nearly fainted
  • Because not only did the boy just talk to him
  • But his voice was deep, man, and Sirius was such a sucker for deep voices
  • Until he registered what the boy had actually said to him, and he promptly flushed red and rushed out of the room
  • He knows his face must look like he’s having war flashbacks when he enters his next class, and his friend James wastes no time in pointing it out to him
  • Sirius wasn’t quite ready to tell James what happened, so he blogged about it
  • Again, lots of support and advice
  • And by the end of his next class, he was feeling a lot less embarrassed about it
  • Still, the next time he has a class with Cute Biology Boy, he avoids the boy’s gaze at all costs
  • Even though during this class and the following week’s classes, the boy has turned his chair to face the side, so he could glance at both the board and at Sirius
  • Until finally, Sirius has had enough of making awkward eye contact with the boy when he’s trying to stare and pine in peace, thank you very much
  • So without even thinking about it, after class, Sirius is blocking the boy’s path again
  • The boy is looking at him expectantly again, but Sirius doesn’t let that sway him
  • “Okay, so maybe I don’t really pay attention in class that much, but it’s not really my fault since you’re sitting right in bloody front of me. And maybe I haven’t taken any notes in this class since the first day because I always get distracted by your damn beanies and tight pants and your big hands and your golden brown ha–” Sirius pauses, briefly
  • Anyway, I just wanted an excuse to talk to you and it’s just my luck that whatever came out of my mouth sounded incredibly uneducated, which is probably such a turn off for you since I see you reading those books all the time and I bet you take pristine notes in class and by the way if you’d loan those to me before the final, it would probably help me out a lot but the point is that I need some coffee and I want you to come get some with me”
  • And the words just kept tumbling out of his mouth
  • He sucked in a deep breath and then continued, before the boy could utter anything
  • “And I want you to know that it’s okay if you reject me and that I’ll still be getting that coffee, but I’d much rather have some company and maybe a snog in the library and I’m not going to be ashamed of asking even if you do say no.”
  • With that, Sirius didn’t even wait for an answer and strode out of the classroom
  • His mouth was rather dry and as soon as he stepped into the hallway, he thought he might cry
  • But he tried to keep his head held high as he walked toward the parking lot, not really feeling like attending the rest of his classes for the day
  • And he’s almost sighing in relief when he feels a hand gripping his shoulder, not making him turn but rather put there comfortingly while they both walked together
  • “You know, I think I need a cup of coffee too” Cute Biology Boy said
  • Sirius’s grin was small, but very visible
  • The boy continued, “Actually, I rather think we should start with the snog in the library”
  • Sirius gaped at him, but tugged him into the nearest building anyway
  • The library was all the way across campus, but they figured an empty classroom would do