@hedawolf I really can’t stop thinking about the candle concept.
The first time Clarke does it, she just grabs one in a panic. She is still smarting about the Mountain and when Lexa finds her in her room to tell her she is leaving for the border she stares at her coldly and snarls: “I don’t care.”
Imagine, Lexa’s carefully crafted facade cracking, splitting open for a second, but the only indication is a sliver of hurt darkening her eyes. Clarke sees it, but tells herself Lexa deserves it, despite the ache that stabs the space between her ribs.
Lexa whirls around and leaves and all of a sudden Clarke cannot breathe. She imagine the Commander coming back on a stretcher wounded by Azgeda’s steel or worse not coming back at all. She runs to Lexa’s room, but Heda is already gone, she can hear her shouting orders in the plaza below. Clarke’s eyes brimming with tears as she scans the room for something, anything to let Lexa know she cares. Her eyes find a stack of unused candles and she grabs the biggest one. Clarke rushes to the window, fighting shaking fingers to light it up.
She burns herself, almost drops it before placing it on the balcony’s balustrade. Of course it’s stupid, of course Lexa won’t see it, how can she see it when a freaking bonfire sitting on top of the tower?
But Clarke has to try and she keeps the candle burning, to keep the hope alive in her chest. And when the candle is consumed, almost gutting out, she lights another and another, sitting there in silent vigil. She doesn’t leave Lexa’s room for days and the servants make sure to enter quietly and leave her food and drinks and clean clothes.
And then one morning the door opens and Lexa strides inside. She is dirty, tired but unharmed. And Clarke, Clarke BREAKS. Sobs split her chest open and she can’t hold the tears back.
She feels Lexa’s fingers trace her cheek, and Lexa wants to pull her into her arms and kiss her and tell her so many things she thought about while on the road. But it isn’t time yet.
“When I was in high school, there was ‘Superbad’ and 'The Girl Next Door’ and 'Wedding Crashers’ and all these great movies. You hope to be a part of something that’s smart, funny and in that Todd Phillips-vein. You want to make something like 'Superbad.’ That movie was so good and so funny.”