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Dead cold hands.

anonymous asked:

Hi!!!! I really in love with your writing!!!! OMG!!!!! Virtual hug to you!!!!! Can i request minific like rfa+saeran lost their wife MC in their anniversary night because of car accident? Like MC die on the spot? Thank you! I love u soooo much! Muah!

HELLO HELLO MY BABIESSSSSSSS~

Did you miss me? Cos I missed you all a SHIT TON. LIKE OMG. So I’m like the absolute worst because of my two-month hiatus. Honestly, guys, life has just been sucking. Welp, I’ll go more in-depth later buuuuuut I am posting once again. I want to apologize because my writing is SUPER DUPER RUSTY. So I apologize ahead of time if the ficlets suck :( BUUTTT YA GIRL IS BACK. So without further ado the request :3 It was a GREAT prompt but ya girl can only do so much with car accidents D: Leave me some comments guys, critiques anything you’d like to see me do, or anything :)

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Oh, and if I were you guys, I’d uh prepare your hearts for some major angst >:D

Wanna know why I was MIA????

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Yoosung:

It was your first anniversary together as a married couple. Four years of having your beautiful soul in his life, Yoosung was thankful for the fateful day you staggered into the RFA chat room.

In the beginning, he didn’t think anything of it, he knew he thought he was just attached to you because you had filled Rika’s spot. The differences between you and Rika were colossal. He loved you more and more every day; he couldn’t believe his ears when you accepted his marriage proposal.

You were his and he was yours. He had finally graduated school and now he couldn’t wait to start a family together with you. He bolted out of work, excited to meet you. You guys were celebrating your first anniversary together and everything had to be perfect.

He couldn’t wipe the smile off his face. He grabbed a bouquet of flowers, sunflowers, your favorite. You always thought roses were super cheesy and excessive, in his opinion he thought that it was fitting to you. Like the flowers, you made his life much sweeter and brighter by simply existing.

He began walking to your rendezvous point when he spotted you. He felt his heart skip a beat and his breath lightly catch in the back of his throat. You were beautiful. Feeling his eyes on you, you glanced over at him, smiling brightly and Yoosung just melted. He felt his pace quicken, the need to have you in his arms overwhelming him.

 You quickly made your way over to him, not paying attention. That’s when it happened, a car ran a red light and smashed into you. Yoosung froze. He couldn’t register what was happening. The world was spinning and he couldn’t seem to hear anything. He was your limp body lying there on the pavement as the car sped away.

He saw blood pool near your body and that shook him back into reverie. He ran towards you, tears streaming down his face. This couldn’t be happening. It was your anniversary, the first of many. You were his happily ever after. How could this happen?

He gingerly lifted your head, his tears slowly falling on your face. There was no movement or reaction from you. Cold realization settled over him. He became hysterical, “MC? MC? Open your eyes babe. Please” he broke down sobbing.

Darkness clouded over his eyes and the next thing he knew was he woke up in a hospital bed. Seven sitting in the corner noticed the movement and quickly was at Yoosung’s side. “Hey bud, how are you feeling?” he asked tentatively.

Yoosung groaned, “I don’t know what happened dude, I just had the worst dream that MC was in a car accident.” He clutched his head and let out a breathy laugh. “Speaking of, where is she Seven?” he asked.

Seven just looked at Yoosung, heartbreaking in his eyes. The color drained from Yoosung’s face. It wasn’t a dream after all. His life was a living nightmare. Tears began running down his face once again. He didn’t know what to do, what to say, he just needed to see you, one last time. 

He walked into the solemn operation room, the hum of the machinery just clawed at his ear drums. He knew what exactly the ominous sound meant. He walked over to the bed, a silhouette was draped in white cloth. Its funny, a year ago seeing you draped in white cloth brought tears of joy to his eyes, but this white cloth was the antithesis of that.

This white cloth signified the end, happiness being wrenched from his arms. With shaky hands, he removed the cloth to see your face one last time. He couldn’t do it. First Rika and then you; he couldn’t bear to see your face. He covered your rigid cold body once more and slowly kissed your forehead. Tears streamed down his face as he made his way out. 

He walked out of the hospital into the night. He never did show up to the funeral. He didn’t think his heart could take it. You had managed to glue the pieces that Rika has shattered but how could he ever get over your death? You were his everything. He lost contact with the RFA, moving into a quiet rural area, practicing animal husbandry. He vowed that he would never fall in love again. It was much too painful and he simply couldn’t move on from you. You were his soul mate, his life partner. He just lived his life quietly and alone, waiting for the day he could meet you again.  


Jaehee:

She never really knew what her life would be without you. Honestly, everyone has a life but until the day Jaehee had met you she hadn’t really lived.

Her days previously were dull, focused on working and becoming a successful, thriving member of society. Now she looked forward to so many silly things. Waking up in the morning next to you, sharing a simple meal with you, stealing quick glances at you, your little inside jokes and so much more.

She found joy in everything that involved you. In the beginning, she was hesitant. She didn’t know if this was friendship but she knew it was something deeper. Never in her life, did she have such a connection with anyone and she was grateful that you had the patience to wait until she realized her true feelings.

She loved you. It was as simple as that. You two had tied the know two years ago and were celebrating your two year anniversary. You both didn’t like doing anything too extravagant. Just spending time with each other was more than enough.

Jaehee was lost in thought, as she walked alongside you. Admiring your beauty, she didn’t know how on earth she was able to live before. Looking back at how she used to be, she seemed so dull and serious. She was grateful having you in your life.

She heard skidding, and she saw a car barreling towards her. She froze, finding herself unable to move. “Jaehee” she heard you screech. To her surprise, she felt herself hurtle over and a sound of a crash behind her.

No,” she thought to herself. “Please, it can’t be” She turned to see your limp body lying on the side of the road, smoke coming out of the assaulting vehicle. A whirlwind of emotions flowed through her, but she got ahold of herself. She dialed 911 and reported and accident with casualties. She then sent a mass text out to the RFA, alerting them of what happened as she sidled up to you.

You appeared to be unconscious. That’s a lie. She didn’t need to be a doctor, but she knew there would be no way you could survive with your body laying like that. She had faith though. She knew life couldn’t be so cruel. 

She felt numb as she climbed into the ambulance with your body, not responding to the EMT. She couldn’t say anything. She couldn’t feel anything. She sat in the waiting room of the hospital as the members of the RFA hurriedly shuffled in. She looked up with blank eyes, “Everyone, it seems that MC is no longer with us,” she stated as calmly as she could. She heard the boys break down in tears, holding their heads in disbelief.

Jumin walked over to her, and bent down, “Assis- Jaehee, are you alright?” She wanted to laugh, how on earth could she be all right? What an asinine thing to ask? She looked up at him incredulously ready to fight, but her eyes met with his grey irises, his heart breaking in them.

He knew she wasn’t all right, he wanted her to stop pretending that she was. Her eyes filled with tears and her body shook as she let out a cry, “It’s not fair. It’s just not fair. First father and then mother, I tried so hard to protect my heart but she wheedled herself in and now she was taken from me as well. How can life be so utterly cruel?!”

She buried her face in her hands as she felt arms around her. Everyone loved MC and it broke their hearts to see such an abundant expression of sadness from Jaehee, the stoic ex-employee of Jumin.

She held the wake for the funeral for MC at the coffee shop, she knew its what you would’ve wanted. Your family and friends showed up, everyone loved you. Jaehee smiled bitterly, it was so hard for her. She was so used to having you in her life, being the center of her joy. She didn’t know what she was going to do. She was grateful. She was happy that she had the chance to get to know you and fall in love with you. She was grateful that you showed her how to truly live. She would never forget you as long as she lived, she felt eternally indebted to you. She closed her eyes as she slowly wiped the trickling tears from her eyes, “Goodbye MC, I love you.”


Zen:

He was handsome, that was common knowledge. What Zen loved the most about you was how down to earth you were. All his previous relationships were so incredibly shallow; it’s no wonder that they ended. Actually, that’s wrong, it was destiny. They ended because he was waiting for you.

You were always there for him and so supportive. When you had mysteriously joined the RFA, he had joked about being single. Sure, you piqued his interest. He thought you’d go running when you saw how narcissistic he was, to his pleasant surprise you saw right through him. You saw that it was simply a coping mechanism, seeing that he was actually really insecure and he just “faked it until he made it”.

Zen was sure he fell in love with you in the chat room, even to him that sounded silly. How on earth could you fall for someone you’ve never even met before? He just felt such a strong connection to you he couldn’t help you. When you had shown up to his apartment, he was absolutely floored. You were just as beautiful on the outside as you were in.

He knew he was moving fast, but when you were almost kidnapped he realized that he wanted to be with you. He knew, that he had gotten it right this time. Here you were celebrating your first year together as a married couple, two years together in total.

Everyone said you two were moving too fast, but you didn’t care. Zen loved you more than anything in the world and he knew you loved him just as much. He was still so insecure; you deserved everything in the world, the absolute best. He was still climbing the ladder to fame but you never ever voiced a complaint. Was he doing a good job loving you?

He made sure that your first anniversary together would be special. He picked you up on his bike and tossed you a helmet. You grinned as you put it on and hopped on the bike behind him, wrapping your arms around him tightly. He felt your warmth against his back as he revved up and drove.

He took you to your special place and you were pleased to see a blanket laid out with all your favorite foods and a bouquet of flowers. You looked up to your movie star as he bashfully laughed and lead you over to your feast. He loved this, these little moments, spending time together. He kissed you deeply as he asked you to close your eyes. You looked at him skeptically as you obeyed.

You felt him reach around you and move your hair to the side. He placed something around your neck and you opened your eyes. You held up your phone to get a better look at the necklace as you saw a simple pendant with a gold star.

He blushed, “I know it’s nothing too fancy, but when I’m a huge star I’ll get you a proper one. I just wanted to give you that so you know that no matter how famous I become, I am always your star first. ARGH, I’m being too cheesy” he said as he buried his face in his arms embarrassed.

You grabbed his face and kissed him deeply, smiling as he returned it appreciatively. “Zen, unfortunately ” you said breathlessly, “I love you more than anything, don’t ever forget it please.” He was on cloud nine, as he peppered you in kisses. You both cleaned up and started to head back.

He zoomed on his motorcycle, carefully maneuvering his way through traffic when he heard a loud honk and just silence.

Zen found himself gaining consciousness in a hospital room. He smelled the stale air in the hospital and he heard Jaehee stir as she cried out, “He’s finally awake.”

He groaned as he held his head and felt bandages. His leg was in a cast and his shoulders were throbbing. He opened his eyes to see the members of the RFA in front of him, well except-

“Where is MC guys?” he asked as he clutched his head once again, “Yoosung, why are you crying I’m fine?” he exclaimed lightheartedly.

Everyone was silent for a minute and then Zen heard Jumin break the silence, “Zen, I am sorry to in, unfortunately, did not make it. You two were struck by a drunk driver and she was pronounced dead at the scene,” he said stoically.

Zen snorted, “Very funny guys, where is she? Hiding in the hallway?” He started to get up from his bed. The RFA members just looked at him solemnly as it slowly dawned on him. They weren’t joking.

That’s not possible though, there is no way you could be gone. You two were destined for each other, made for each other. How could this happen? “I need to see her,” Zen said forcefully as he abruptly stood up, pushing the members away. 

Seven blocked his path. “Zen please, she’s gone,” he pleaded with her. Zen grew aggravated, “Get out of my way,” he roared as he shoved the red-head to the side. He found Jumin standing in front of him.

“Zen, I understand you are upset but please, you need to rest, you were also badly injured.” Zen couldn’t take it anymore, he felt all of this emotions and frustrations bubble over and he punched the chairman’s son in the face. “MOVE.”

Jumin gingerly touched his lip and swiftly raised his hands to calm his bodyguards down, “Let him go, he’s grieving” 

Zen hurriedly made his way down to the reception desk, “Excuse me, can you tell me where my wife MC is?” The nurse led him over to a room, void of any light. There you lay in the middle of the room, lifeless. Your body was covered in cuts and bruises but you were still as beautiful as ever. No wonder the room was dark, lifeless, you had taken it all when you passed. Just like this room, his life would be reflected like this dull, lifeless.

There was no him without you. He felt tears stream down his face as he began to sob. Everything that he had, it was thanks to you. All of his efforts it was for you, hell he even forgave his family for you. How could he possibly go on? He went to check out of the hospital. His wounds would heal, at least the ones that he obtained from the accident. However, his heart would never heal. Zen knew you were his one.

The funeral was small and quiet, just family and members of the RFA came to show support. Zen was devoid of all emotion; you had taken his heart. He approached your open casket to say some final words when he felt his breath hitch. You were wearing the necklace he had gifted you and everything flowed out of him. He lost energy in his legs as he fell to the ground sobbing. To his surprise Seven and Jumin came to his side, squeezing his shoulder supportively. He recollected himself as he held his fingers to his lips, kissing them tenderly and placing them on your cold blue ones, “Goodbye my love, until we meet again.”  


Jumin:

“Money can’t buy happiness” When Jumin had first heard that, he simply thought it was something commoners used to say to not feel so inferior to people like him who were better off. He foolishly believed that he had everything, and then he met you.

Sure at first he had his suspicions. Would you be another one of those gold diggers that liked him for his brand and money or would you be like his mother and break his heart. You see, he had very little faith in women. His stoic nature was a product of his upbringing; he couldn’t exactly help it.

Yet you understood him at a deeper level than anyone else had. When he lost his mind when Elizabeth the 3rd went missing you were there for him, you understood him and the pain he felt, the loneliness he felt, the fear he had of giving himself to someone just to have them break his heart. You accepted all of that and in turn loved him, the man he is today is all thanks to you.

For once in his life Jumin Han, could say he was actually happy. He had a beautiful wife that gave him everything, including a family. You two had gotten married pretty quickly and when you told him you were expecting twins he was ecstatic but terrified. He wanted to be an amazing father, fill the voids he felt when he was younger and you assured him that he would be amazing. Not only that but he wouldn’t be alone, Jumin had finally found a home.

You had been married for five years now; life was amazing. Jumin woke up every day with a smile. You had given birth to your youngest son two years ago and life was blossoming. Jumin felt blessed every day to wake up next to you. Sure your Elizabeth, your two sons, and daughter sprawled across your bed ruined the mood a tad, but he loved every second of his life.

Seeing you tackle being a mother to all three of his kids and be the poised collected wife of the C&R Heir, he was awestruck at how you managed to do it all. Every day he found himself falling deeper in love with you. 

Because it was your five-year anniversary, Jumin had made sure to have his father watch his children. He needed time with you alone and he loved his kids but this was his day with you. Money was never an issue with Jumin, but he knew you hated all the extravagant presents. So he took you to a suite in a hotel and made you dinner. Candles and all, the table filled with your favorite foods. 

He loved it because to him, the little things were what made your bond stronger. He rested his head in your lap and you just enjoyed each other’s company. Sure it wasn’t lavish and expensive but this was exactly how you two loved it.

Jumin abruptly sat up and turned to you, “MC, if you would please be honest with me my love. Have I done a good job as a husband, loving you, caring for you?” 

You grabbed the poor man’s face and hugged him tightly, reassuring him that yes, you were the luckiest girl in the entire world.

Jumin closed his eyes and breathed in your scent, his heart pounding, tears threatening to fall. It’s odd, everyone teased him for being robotic and stoic, but you stirred all types of emotions in him. 

It was getting late and you two knew that the Chairman had probably had his fill of his grandchildren. You two made your way down the stairs and settled next to each other in the car, cozying up to one another. The driver started up the car and made its way down a busy intersection when your vehicle was stuck.

Jumin felt his body fly forward as he lost his grip on you. He awoke outside the vehicle, lying on the cold hard ground. He groaned as he grabbed his head in agony, his skull was throbbing. He heard sirens in the distance and he looked around and finally spotted you.

He made his way over to you, but he knew. You had not made it. Not with your body at that angle. He clutched your lifeless body and sobs escaped him. He cried out your name over and over again. Screaming. “Please god, I’ll do anything, please don’t take her. She is the only thing I have ever truly wanted, PLEASE”. 

He cried out, but it was futile. You had left him. What was he going to do? How was he going to survive? You were his everything, his only reason to live, you understood him like no other. What was he going to do, oh mc? He let out another loud cry.

The funeral was painful. The magnitude of despair in his eyes was enormous. He took one last look at you. Hair, that you changed every day, always making you beautiful not matter how it was styled. Your eyes, that captivated him, the mischievous glint, how they sparkled when you smiled. Your smile, that gave him warmth and solace. Your arms which embraced him, finally giving himself a home after all these years of being alone. He couldn’t, he didn’t want to go back to the cold loneliness he felt before, the abyss of darkness he felt of being devoid of any emotions.

He turned; he was going to let Assistant Kang know that he was going to pour himself into work. Not to be bothered, he couldn’t deal with emotions they were too troublesome. He saw his three children, your three kids, in the arms of the RFA.

You hadn’t left him alone after all. He broke down once again as he embraced his children. How could he forget? How could he abandon them?

Emotions weren’t troublesome. After all, all three of your children were born from the love you two had. He wouldn’t regret a second, not one moment of him being with you. He wanted it all, the good, the bad, the heart-wrenching.

He kissed your forehead for the last time, “Thank you, my love, for everything you have done and everything you have given me. Words can’t begin to explain how much I love you, but just know that I do. Don’t worry, I will take care of the kids properly and love them just as much as I love you. Wait for me my love, for I will be forever yours.”


Saeyoung:

He didn’t deserve you. Seven knew that he knew it better than anyone in the world. The problem was he was madly in love with you. From the second he had laid his eyes on you on the security camera, he knew he was in trouble.

He also knew that he was no good for you. But the more you two talked the deeper he fell for you. You were perfect for him; he wanted you. This was him though; he didn’t get a happy ending. He was sentenced to a life of misery.

He pushed you away; it hurt him more than it hurt you. You, however, were as stubborn as ever and he was happy you were. Every step he took back from you, you took ten forward. He didn’t want to hurt you, he wanted you to be happy and safe, even if that meant that he had to be mean to you and show you better options.

He couldn’t do it though. At the end of the day, he loved you, more than anything in the world. To his disbelief, you loved him too. After the whole debacle with Mint eye and his brother, you two could finally be together.

Everyday Seven had to pinch himself, to make sure he wasn’t dreaming. Surely there wasn’t a catch, right? There was no way he could be this happy without any catch? There wasn’t though, it was simple you loved him and he loved you. 

You had gotten married after a year and were celebrating your two-year anniversary. He couldn’t believe it, he had spent two years with you as his beloved. To be with him through sickness and in health, through good and bad, he would do it all as long as it meant you would be by his side.

It was your two-year anniversary but he planned to do the same thing every year. He packed up a fulfilling lunch of HBC and Ph.D. pepper and you two hopped into one of his babies and made your way to the countryside. Stargazing was your favorite pastime, sure you weren’t able to get married at the space station, but you would take a look at the stars every anniversary.

You lay on the blanket giggling gazing at the stars, as Saeyoung looked at you. You were so beautiful; he couldn’t believe how lucky he was to find someone as amazing as you in his life. You were there for him when things were rough and he was so lucky. He felt his eyes fill with tears and drops trickle down. “Fuck,” he cursed.

You looked over at him, worried at his sudden sadness, “Saeyoung, what’s wrong babe?”

He pulled you into a tight embrace and kissed you. “Nothing, absolutely nothing is wrong as long as you are going to be with me forever.”

You giggled as you wiped the tears from your redhead’s face. “I plan on being here forever mister, so don’t try to get rid of my any time soon,” you joked. He laughed as he grabbed you to cuddle. 

It was nearly dawn; you two began packing your stuff to get ready to head back. In the distance, Seven saw a vehicle, which struck him as odd since this area was extremely deserted. He saw the vehicle zoom closer and recognized it, as someone from another intelligence agency.

He yelled at you to get down, as he sprinted towards you. It was too late, you turned and he saw the confusion etched on your face as your body was thrown into the air. You hit the ground with a sickening thud. He pulled out a gun from his car but it was too late, the perpetrator had gotten away.

He sprinted to your limp body, praying with everything he had, that you were ok. That God was not so cruel to take you from him. He pleaded, bargained, begged him, saying that he would leave your life forever, that he should take him instead of you.

It was too cruel. He was the target, why had they come after you. Why did this happen to everyone he loved? Was he cursed? Damned to roam this planet, forbidden to get close to anyone or anything. Please God, if you’re there, don’t take her away from me. She is all I have ever wanted. I will do anything, anything you want me to JUST PLEASE DON’T DO THIS. 

He sobbed ad he lifted your lifeless body into the car. He saw a tiny box wrapped up sitting on the passenger seat, which belonged to you. He opened the box carefully, wondering what on earth you could have gotten him.

He held the note and read it in disbelief, “Dearest Saeyoung, now my love you can make all the stupid dad jokes you want. I love you.”

His hands shook as he held up the positive pregnancy test. Tears flowed out of his eyes as he screamed. You were pregnant. How could the world be so cruel?

He cried and punched his seat until his throat was raw and his fist were bloody. There was only one emotion running through him now. He drove back to his house, contacted the RFA and held a small funeral; halfway through he disappeared, he couldn’t take it.  God damn it MC, I told you, I told you I was no good. Sure I would be heartbroken, but I’d rather that than have you dead. 

He went off the grid; his bloodlust was the only thing that he felt. He didn’t stop, he hunted day and night for the people who did this, for the people that took away his one source of happiness; the people who robbed him his wife and child.

Vengeance was the only thing that was on his mind. He finally found the perpetrators and exterminated them. He felt nothing; he had accomplished the final thing he had to do. MC, I can’t do it. I can’t live without you or our baby. I’ll see you soon.

He lifted the gun and held it to his head; he wasn’t scared. He was going to see you, and finally be happy. With a pull of the trigger, he made the ultimate profession of love for you.


Saeran:

He never said, “I love you” to you. Which seeing that you two had been married for a year, seems odd. Sure he felt it and you conveyed it verbally more times than he could count.

He did love you. He didn’t know why he couldn’t say it. It was your one year anniversary and Saeran was determined to say it to you today.

He chalked it up to nerves but honestly. Saeran had no idea why you were with him. You were beautiful, smart, kind and patient. It seemed that everyone in the RFA loved you, but you wanted to be with him. Was it because you felt bad for him? Did you pity him?

As pathetic as it was, even if that were the case, Saeran would take it. You made every day bearable. He loved how warm your embrace was. How your eyes seemed to light up when you spotted him in the crowd. How you always did all the talking but always remembered the little things he would say. He loved you. It was as simple as that.

Being with him wasn’t a walk in the park. Sure he had gotten better but you had been with him for five years. It took him four years to open up to you and even then he couldn’t say those three stupid words. He knew, that you knew how he felt. It was nice to hear it though, just like how his heart swooned every time you told him, he wanted you to melt as well.

He began walking over to your usual ice cream parlor for your annual date when he spotted you outside. He groaned inwardly, how was it possible for you to be this cute? You turned and spotted him, lighting up immediately, and he felt the heat rise to his face.

You excitedly grabbed his hand as you grabbed your ice cream and made your way to the park to cloud watch. You were happily chatting away as Saeran began feeling down. You deserved everything in the world, someone to tell you that he loves you every second of the day, someone affectionate and kind, someone that was the complete opposite of him.

He felt a pang in his chest. Maybe you deserved better, maybe he should let you be happy. Was he holding you back? He dropped your hand and began walking the other way 

“Wha- Saeran? Where are you going?” you called as you chased after him.

“I can’t do this. I need to go home. We need space,” he said as he began crossing the street.

“Saeran, a break? I love you! What do yo-” you were interrupted by a loud honking sound as you were flung into the air.

Saeran hearing the commotion, turned around only to see you sprawled on the ground. He broke out into a run, his feet pounding the pavement. No. NO. NO. This wasn’t supposed to happen. You deserved better. He was giving you a shot to be better. You were right behind him how did this happen. He shouldn’t have turned around.

He finally made his way to your body, as he lifted you onto his lap. His hands were wet and matted with blood, he let out a sob, “No, MC, babe I’m sorry you can’t leave me. I’m sorry please, say something anything please.”

Tears began flowing down his face. He called and ambulance and then his brother, “Saeyoung, I don’t know what happened she was right behind me and now she’s bleeding, please oh god.”

He broke down crying hysterically. He couldn’t do this. He had never loved anyone like you. He never wanted to love anyone else but you. He heard you groan, “Sae- Saeran? Don’t cry love, I’ll be fine.”

His body shook, even now you were tending to him. He cried, tears flowing freely down his face, a siren in the distance alerted him that help was near. He saw your eyes flutter lightly, “Hey no, no. MC stay with me. I love you. You hear me you idiot, I love you so you can’t leave me ever.”

Your eyes fluttered, the ghost of a smile played on your face, “You finally said it… I love you too Saeran. I lo-” and with that, your head lolled to the side. He kissed you, saying “I love you” chanting it like a mantra that could possibly bring you back to life. 

He watched as the EMT’s lifted your lifeless body into the ambulance. They pronounced you dead at the scene. He saw his brother and broke down in his embrace. Why didn’t I tell her that I loved her sooner? Why didn’t I tell her I loved her every second of every day? Why is life so cruel?

He couldn’t even attend the funeral. He saw your face and locked himself in the bathroom to cry. He spent his days at your grave, and he spent his nights awake, often crying himself to sleep, just to repeat the cycle the next day. He loved you more than anything in the world and he couldn’t believe you were gone. He didn’t know what to do without you. He was empty. The only thing he seemed to be able to say was, “I love you MC”. If only I had been able to say it to you before it was too late.


WOW. Holy shit this was a loooooong one and hella depressing. OMG, I like low-key cried a few times while writing this. Worse because I played this song on a loop while I wrote this D:  be warned kiddies. But um hello? Who is amazing for reading this long ass ficlet, that is a bit rusty because of this ol’ writer, YEAH DAS RIGHT YOU BABY GORILLA <3
Just a friendly PSA- so just like in the fic, driving can be super dangerous. Please make sure that you all drive safely and responsibly because it’s not only your life that can be affected. Let me know which fic broke your heart the most >:D As always I love you guys <33333333 MUAH <3

anonymous asked:

Holy Makkachin! Victor's PISSED! And I just can imagine how pissed our beloved cinnamon cop Yuuri will be when he sees Victor's wounds. :D (and worried probably too!) (byebye creepy dudes who're trashing poor café signs, you won't be missed at all)

Lol, don’t take Makkachin’s name in vain!!! XD
Omg, yeah, I bet he’ll be super concerned about Victor, and angry at the person who dared hurt Victor’s beautiful face!!!
These guys are super dead XD
and like…yeah, will not be missed :P

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Mattie: Matt is a bit of an insomniac and often works late nights and early mornings so he tends to sleep on the outside of the bed for convenience. Alfie being the big baby that he is tends to sleep in the middle so he can get more cuddles, but otherwise we do try to switch it up every now and then. Matt cuddles do need to be shared (he is the best cuddler.)

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Thank you sa mga nakasama ko kahapon sa tsamu

Kay Four, bes hindi kita matag. Ganon ba pag gwapo, hindi pede i-tag? Char! Deh, basta thank you sa lahat lahat, super nagenjoy ako, pramis

Kina @notyourkenji @hugoterongmakata @klershampoo @cm-psycho na nakasabay ko papunta at nakasama throughout the event, thank you so much!

Sa mga bagong nakilala @xbabaengnafriendzoned super cute niyo po omg! @notyourplanb tsaka dun sa katabi ko sa table nung gabi na, nakalimutan ko url niya, sooorrryy

Kay kaye @walang-por-e-ber na nakita ko ulit after one year, I miss you be! sayang wala sila @ayobianca @veekonomista @bryfloresph @findingcassiopeia @shielalongcorn @kunwarianghel at @juurooo, punta na kayo next year. I miss you guys!

Sa mga nakita ko from a far, @dakilang-doodlero hindi nanaman tayo nakapagusap, whyyyyyy? At kay @mckorney saw youuuu. Muka ka talagang girl hahahaha charot!

Sa buong sawarikoy fam thank you sa pag ampon saken for a day, it means a lot

Sa buong group 4, congrats pala!

Lastly, to these awesome organizers @boseslalake @jakepullsthetrigger @korneeto congrats po sa successful na event! Next year po ulet

The Bitch is Back

Well well well. Look who it is. 

So I am like the absolute worst. I know you guys probably think I am full of shit but like omg when I initially went on hiatus, I only planned for it to be a few weeks maybe a month max. Not frick THREE MONTHS.

I feel like I owe you all an explanation and I am super sorry. I do want to say that my inbox is overflowing with messages from you guys and honestly it made me wanna cry. Like I say this a ton, but I don’t think my writing is anything that great. So the fact that people love reading my garbage that I post and actually miss my content just ugh *clenches fist* warms my heart. 

So you guys are the greatest and I will be replying to you all tmr :D Shoot me a message tomorrow if you wanna chat :D

So to give you a rundown of what has been going on in the shitshow that I call my life. It has been sucking. Like so hard. As some of you may know, I am currently going to UNI and like its been a lot of work. Not only that but I volunteer and work full time. So things have been pretty hectic. To make matters worse, someone stole my Macbook. 

Which had all of the fics that I had worked on or were in the process of working on. I spend a lot of time on my writing, outlining it writing it, rewriting it, playing with twenty different ideas. I also like to write a few chapters at a time so that I have something done and ready to release so when all of my stuff was gone it just set me off. I was super upset and I didn’t have a computer to do my work let alone write these fics so it been tough. I don’t wanna get too in-depth but things have been rough so the fact that you guys have been so amazing just ugh means so much <3

Luckily though things have been turning around. Life is looking up, the whole pot of gold at the end of the rainbow shebang. But yeah I don’t wanna too personal LOL but yeah. So if you all were a bit curious as to why I’ve been really MIA here’s basically why LMAO. 

I plan to keep releasing fics, I will try to get one thing out a week or every other week but life is still crazy. I appreciate all the love support and patience you guys have shown me. It truly means the world. <3 

Love you guys<3 MUAH <3

godoftiers  asked:

Do you mind explaining the xkit guy issue? I think the story I heard must've been warped because I didn't see anything about him just being okay and quitting at all and I've always been curious

I didn’t see this till now but basically the original xkit guy stopped updating for a while but no one really got upset about it, he mentioned before that keeping the plugin up to date was difficult and posted donation links and stuff so people could support him

Meanwhile there was one (1) person who sent an anon ask a while before thI whole drama happened, and the gist was that they claimed xkit guy was an abuser or predator I think? And the blog owner obviously asked for the person to come forward and speak more about what happened but the anon never came back and that post just kinda sat there and collected dust… until tumbles Big Update that is

Tumblr went thru a huge layout update and everything and completely broke xkit the same way missing e got broken years before, and everyone freaked out cuz omg their extensions no longer worked and the xkit guy stopped updating a while ago and clearly wasn’t going to update now

And I guess someone found that anon ask about the xkit guy while lurking in the search and the thing suddenly BLEW UP. The post originally barely had any notes and it was pretty much ignored up until this point but then it got spread around super fast and everyone started assuming, “THIS must be why xkit guy isn’t updating” “Tumblr ran him off the site!!”

The blog owner deleted the ask and apologized for posting it because they ended up getting a lot of hate over it (despite not even making the claim in the first place?? They didn’t have to apologize for shit lol)

And even after people pointed out that particular ask was around for a while without any attention, certainly not enough for it to have impacted the xkit guy in any meaningful way, he was long gone by the time it got spread around, people still spread the rumor that “xkit guy was run off the site by SJWs and fallout culture”

When the reality is that, no one really knows why he quit, it’s really most likely because it was hard to keep up with and he was working for free to make this website useable while staff is perfectly willing to break the site to prevent plugins for some reason

It was honestly super ugly and there was a whole lot of nastiness and throwing victims under the bus for the sake of defending some guy people barely knew anything about.

(And also if they really cared and wanted to help xkit guy they could have helped him by donating and supporting him back when he asked lol….)

so it was all just really ugly and seemed more like an excuse to whine about “call out culture” than anything else

anonymous asked:

WELL since everyone's talking about kuroyachi lately... imagine 3rd year yachi who is still just as adorable and sweet, but also a lot more confident and self-assured. and everyone really likes her and she gets asked out a lot, but she keeps saying she's already taken, except no one believes her bc no one's ever seen her on a date with anyone. so then one day after school there's this super hot guy hanging outside the gates, and he's really tall and scary looking and too old for high school.

so everyone is nervous and keeps their distance, until then yachi walks by and screams, bc omg kuroo?? what are you doing here it’s so good to see you i missed you so much!!! and then this guy just fuckin lights and up pulls out some flowers bc he missed yachi so much and wanted to surprise her. and then he bends down so yachi can step on her tiptoes to kiss him!! and that’s when everyone realizes that these two are the most romantic dorks ever. and that’s how everyone meets yachi’s boyfriend!

anonymous asked:

Who tf hurt my atleti fam?! What did i miss? Why are you guys dragging Anto? Omgod what he do this time? Do i have to chancla him?? Im so lost... :'(

Omg to chancla himmmm. He has just been playing with his future in interviews letting people know that he coulddd leave Atleti if signings aren’t good enough. But you know we are always super dramatic about everything hahaha

Being best friends with Jackson would include
  • Weird ass texts during the day ranging from playful and cute to sass theres no inbetween 
  • “where are you? I miss yooou”
  • “are you deaf? answer your phone” 
  • “i cant wait to come back home, no one gets my jokes here”
  • “you know what’s ridiculous?” “what?” “your face” “get out”
  • legit no inbetween 
  • him coming over to your place just to make jokes with your mum about how annoying you are 
  • “have you seen my snapbck?” “which one” 
  •  singing got7 songs together and him yelling when he cant hit the high notes 
  • you rapping and him being like looool no no this is how its done
  •  him proceeding to put on a fake serious face and say the words to the rap in ‘A’
  • “getupgetupgeupgetup we’re going to the gym” “its 5 am” “exactly GET UP" 
  • “im hungry what do you have” 
  • “nothing because you ate all my damn food, wang”
  • you going to his dance practices and making weird faces in the mirror so he laughs
  • “Jackson, focus!” “SHE STARTED IT” 
  • sitting with other members and joking and laughing when jackson intervenes 
  • “bambam go find another girl this ones mine”
  •  being super silly and pranking the members together and pissing them off but they ship you two so hard
  • “ill give you $5 if you put pictures of cucumbers all over youngjaes wall”
  • “would have done it for free”
  • when hes super tired from touring and you go over with food and a blanket and his fave movie
  • “i brought crispy chicken and extra fries” “will you marry me”
  •  him being the first one at your door the second you feel sad or youve had a bad day
  • “who did this to you? Was it that guy, Jeff? I’ll show him not to mess with you, no one messes with my best friend”
  • “Jackson, Jeff’s the old guy who lives next door with his wife”
  • “Ill give her a peice of my mind too then”
  • When hes touring and sees something that reminds him of you he spams your phone to no end
  • “omg”
  • “oi”
  • “look what I found”
  • “its you”
  • “pick up your phone idiot look”
  • “theyre pringles”
  • “get it”
  • “because youre a single pringle”
  • “#foreveralone”
  • “anyway i miss you”
  • throwing shade at each other so hard it makes the other members constantly confused about your relationship
  • but then constant texting about how much you miss each other when one of you two is away
  • “i hate u but i miss u” 
  • SO
  • MUCH
  • OF
  • SKINSHIP
  • seriously
  • are you a couple or are you enemies no one can tell
  • hand holding casually during movies
  • back hugs whenever you arent facing him
  • especially when youre sad omg all on board the train to cuddlesville
  •  “i just want you to be happy, you deserve to be happy”
  • super tight hugs out of nowhere
  • “what was that for?” “youre just really great”
  • “you look really beautiful”
  • “no no leave you hair as it is, it looks better that way”
  • *cries bc Jackson*
  • everytime you’re with a guy and jacksons around
  • *picks you up and spins you* “JAGIIII”
  • *glaring* “do you want me to be single for the rest of my life”
  • “you wouldnt be, you have me, the only man you need”
  • random cheek kisses literally anytime anywhere
  • you’d be studying on the couch and he’d just come and lie across your lap
  • “Jackson” “shhhhhhh its sleep time”
  • after lots of begging and aegyo, him teaching you (basic) mandarin
  • “can you teach me some swear words?” “why?” “so i can cuss you out in 2 languages”
  • you staying up and watching every live award show and every episode of ASC everything and anything hes on
  • screenshotting bits when he derps and saving them to show the boys and torment him with
  • texting him during ad breaks
  • “when did you become so hot???”
  • “since I was 2 years 6 months and 4 days old”
  • him arriving at your doorstep at 4 am straight after coming from the airport holding a box of pringles
  • “i missed you, pabo”
  • “missed you too”
Some (further) thoughts on Kanan and PTSD

Hi, @spaceyquill, @worriedaboutmyfern, @vikings4everetc, and @rebel-pilot-hera! (Okay, it’s not letting me tag vikings4everetc. How am I not already friends with you?)


I see your awesome conversation about Kanan and Hera and raise you some Kanan!

Nah, really, I just keep thinking about Kanan—and the things that you guys are talking about—again—and didn’t want to hijack your post.

See, about PTSD. I’ve seen two major arguments for how it applies to Kanan: OMG someone help Kanan Jarrus! PTSD! Awful! And: So what? He’s not the only one who’s been hurt. Why is he being such a baby? And then I think things. Because it seems to me that both of these arguments miss the subtlety of the show.

Full disclosure: I have been diagnosed with and treated for PTSD. (I’m in a good place right now; thanks.) Also, I was not immediately attracted to Kanan as a character because he seemed too much a one-dimensional good guy for a long time. So… I’m not super invested in him being perfect, or anything. That said, when I saw Siege of Lothal particularly, I assumed everyone saw the same things in Kanan’s behavior that I did. And it turns out…nobody read that episode the same way? I guess?

So, under the break (because this got insanely long; I am so sorry) are some thoughts about PTSD that apply to Kanan. They are based upon both personal experience and extensive research, but I’m not a psychologist.

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A video posted by Eunhyuk (@eunhyukee44) on Jan 4, 2017 at 12:39am PST

leedonghae: Happy new year DNE long time no see bro ! Love ya
eunhyukee44: Happy new year!💙

[TRANS] 
Hyuk: 1, 2, 3 Hi Everyone
Hae: Hi Happy New Year 
Hyuk: Happy New Year, res the new year of 2017 is here. The year of the chicken is finally here and the day that we get discharged is also nearing. 
Hae: Hasn’t it been a long time? 
Hyuk: Yes, it has been a really long time. 
Hae: Yeah, it has been a really long time. I really missed you. 
Hyuk: Now that the new year is here, as much as long as everyone has waited, we will come to you guys quickly. 
Hae: Happy New Year 
Hyuk: Stay healthy. Bye. I love you. 
Hae: I love you.
©

the BEST part about about the destiel hug is the guy, the red suit guy like knows Cas as Commander, and sir, and Cas is you know…….Cas so he’s like got the dramatic entrance down and is a badass but is also super unemotional, tactical etc. And then Dean comes in and he’s like OMG DEANNNNNN I MISSED YOU BBY and runs and smiles and throws his arms around him and the guy behind him is SO thoroughly like shocked and confused

He’s just standing there like :0 the WHOLE time with his mouth open and Cas like “that is all” after he hugs Sam and he’s still like 0_0 “yes sir”

fucking priceless

Reaction Request

Request: Can I have an exo and bts reaction to their girlfriend admitting that whenever they’re away she sleeps in one of his shirts/sweaters holding a hot water bottle because she doesn’t like how cold it gets without him. This sounds so cheesy omg>.<

PART TWO: BTS

JHope

He would get super excited at your little confession.

Jimin

“Ahhhh (Y/N) you’re killing me here. You’re too perfect sometimes I swear.”

Jungkook

“I can’t believe you miss me that much. It makes me really happy knowing you like me so much (Y/N).” 

Jin

*I made his sad because I feel like Jin is the most likely to be emotional about leaving you and being away from you for a long time.*

“When she says stuff like that, it just gets to me. I just miss her so much.”

Namjoon

“GUYS DID YOU HEAR THAT?! She really misses me! And you all said you didn’t believe me.” 

Yoongi

“What can I say? My girlfriend is the best and I just have that affect on her.”

Taehyung

“You really are the cutest girlfriend in the world. I love you and I’ll be back soon babe.”

**gifs aren’t mine. credit to owners. 

anonymous asked:

When you met as a kids and now you see each other again. (You were best friends back then) your reactions are great ^^ I think it's really realistic!

Omg I have this thing for childhood-friends-turned-lovers! It’s so adorable ughh why can’t I have that too?!?!? 。・゚゚・(>д<)・゚゚・。 And thank you for loving and supporting us~ ^ワ^
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Xiumin: *sees you out of the corner of his eye* wait.. isn’t that…?

Luhan: *internal battle* holy crap isn’t that __? should i go up to her? ohh but what if she doesn’t remember me?? omgg shes leaving crapcrapp

YiFan: yeah.. wow… it’s been a long while huh? *shyly laughs*

Suho: wow this is really awkward LOL so how have you been?

Lay: *notices you and shyly waves*

Baekhyun: OMG. IT’S ____!!! ____!! OMGG GIRL IT’S BEEN SOO LONGG

Chen: *its like you guys never drifted* OMGG GULLL YOOOO!!! HOW YOU BEEN???

Chanyeol: *cant believe its actually you*

D.O: *gets super fricking excited* OMGGGG ____!!! I MISSED YOU SO MUUUCHH

Tao: omg.. isn’t that __? holy crap it is! should i go talk to her? but if she doesnt remember me that would be so embarrasing.. but it’s ___! we were friends for so long.. i really want to talk to her… but im scared… omg man up Tao! come on! you can do this!

Kai: *cant really believe its you but is really happy anyway* hi…

Sehun: it really has been a long time.. *awkwardly chuckles and shyly hides*

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Gahh this was really sweet to do! Hope you like it ^3^

- Admin K

so i’ve hit 300 followers (like omG how did that happen) thanks for sticking around you guys!! super excited and happy like wtf why would you guys follow me but im SO happy yall did ;-)  just a shoutout to my networks yall make me so happy im still sorting stuff out but i should be back next week :-)))) ff under the cut

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