olli rambles

things i’ve learnt from that episode of holby:

  • i could probs listen to bernie doing david attenborough impressions all day
  • i could probs watch bernie sitting back + just winging things + having bantz on aau all day
  • i love darla, 10/10, i’m a fan
  • i’m constantly genuinely surprised by how many ppl there r hanging around on darwin
  • every time sacha cries i also cry apparently
  • i’m here 4 the hoodies + tea intervention @ pulses
  • i love morven so much (the yellow sleeves/blue scrubs was gr8)
  • i’m actually lookin forward 2 ollie being on aau
  • jac + matteo continue 2 be a Mess
  • that old guy didn’t let me down bc he took the perfect opportunity 2 make a doctor who joke
  • 4ever a fan of hanssen looming

as bad as art reposting is without artist consent, so is editing it! it’s extremely rude and disrespectful, especially if it took an artist a lot of time to draw detailed backgrounds. You are essentially ripping off an important piece of the art just so you can use for it personal uses that meet your needs? And even worse, editing out watermarks that a creator has specifically placed there. That’s very inconsiderate;; I’ve seen it happen for icons, wallpapers, side art, and even music videos(???) and that’s really saddening..please don’t do it, and especially if you “can’t find the source” or even bc “someone requested it”

We all know, but it never ceases to amaze me, just how much Hide means for Kaneki. How many times he’s been to one to push Kaneki forward. How many times he’s turned a sorrowful day into something brighter. He was the one to always trust him, always support him, always care about him. Hide wasn’t just someone who accepted Kaneki’s existence; he appreciated him, Kaneki ken, and loved him no matter what.

Romantic or platonic, I don’t think it matters much. But one can’t deny that what these two share is beautiful and deep.

I think we all remember that scene where Kaneki used his kagune for the first time to save Hide from Nishiki.

“The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. He who would be born, must first destroy a world.”

Just as people say, living is far more than just existing. For Kaneki, stuck between the desperate need for love and the doubt that he deserves it, existing was merely a wait until the moment when his desires would be fulfilled. But in that cycle of hope and fear there was no room for accepting the love people were already giving him, he just couldn’t see himself being loved.

But he still couldn’t give it up, and searching for a way to satisfy it his wish to be loved became a reason to die, rather than a reason to live. He became unable to see his own worth, deaf to his own voice that, deep down, wished to go on.

But now the world he used to live in, under a wish that only brought him closer to his end, has been destroyed. That world and his deadly wish have both been broken, through the voice of the one that’s saved him again and again by proving him that there’s a meaning in him being alive.

K’s egg, his world has been destroyed. What kind of new world has he been born into? What kind of meaning will he find in it? We can’t know for sure, but we do know that this world is one Kaneki has walked into by himself. This is a life- a true life that he has chosen to live from now on.

Because in the end, that “I wanted to live on with you” wasn’t said by Hide.

It’s what Kaneki thinks, and I’m glad he’s finally realised it himself.

Kamukura Izuru confirmed to look up memes on the Internet it’s canon

  • me: *takes a deep breath*

  • me: i lo-
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anyone who has spent five seconds around me ever: yes, you love tord, we know. you love tord so much, he’s the light of your life, you love him so much, you just love tord- the red leader tord, we KNOW. you love tord you fucking love tord ok we know, we get it. YOU LOVE TORD. YOU WANT HIM TO BE OKAY. WE GET IT.