The Friend in Boyfriend
Word Count: 2,314
a/n: I’m complete trash for this fake boyfriend series I have started.
Holiday season was either a dreadful season, or a very exciting one for you. Once surrounded by your family, the spotlight could forget you entirely, or focus on you for a good five minutes, which was more than enough time for everyone to bring up your dark past or nonexistent present. It only seemed to worsen as you got older, because work and relationships seemed to be the personal favorites of everyone.
Living away was always a bonus for holidays though, you could either choose to spend them with yourself or with friends, or go back home. However you had used up your last holidays to be away from home, so this time around you were going to have to wear thick skin and go home.
Changkyun had no particular schedule for this season, so you decided to have him tag along with you, and as the two of you drove back to your hometown, your nerves began to pile up high until you were about ready to combust.
“I don’t want to see anyone” you blurted and Changkyun turned to you from the driver’s seat with a blank expression, “W-Why?” he asked softly, turning back to look at the road. You groaned and leaned your head against the window with a thump, “They know I’m going so they invited everyone and I’m scared- they’re snakes!” you whined, covering your face and bringing your knees up to your chest as you hugged them. Changkyun smiled, “You’re so mean, they probably miss you a lot” he said, occasionally glancing over at you as you curled up on yourself.
He was right. They were your family and probably only meant good, but sometimes you realized they just didn’t really filter any of their comments on your life.
“I know… I’m just nervous” you admitted and that was that for your worries. Until you were standing at the doorway of your house, Changkyun patting his clothes a little and fixing his hair as you breathed in and out before knocking. As soon as you did, you heard the voices on the other side and recognized your aunts and cousins and your parents, making you gasp and suddenly take Changkyun’s hand. He shot you a look of shock and before either of you could say anything about it, the door opened and your mother stood at the entrance, with nearly everyone you could recognize standing behind her.
You knew they had noticed your skinship with him, because looks of surprise and thrill arose as well as those of judgement. Your mother held one of thrill as she greeted the two of you with hugs and brought you inside, your hand still tight on Changkyun’s as he held yours gently and very reluctantly. You refused to let him go, for some reason your brain was able to be more grounded as you said your hello’s and how’ve you been’s with him by your side. Everyone sat at the living room on the couches, or dining table, some even on the floor, all eyes on the two of you as you entered and sat at the couch side by side.
Someone began to make small talk with you as everyone else settled, “How have you been Y/N? How’s school?” they asked and you finally let go of Changkyun’s hand so that you could run your hands over your lap, “Good, I’ve been really good, and school has been very busy but I’m doing well there too” you replied with a smile that felt too tight on your lips. “Y/N, aren’t you going to introduce us to this young man?” your mother then interrupted and you could feel everyone staring at Changkyun now, and it made you want to find the closest blanket or curtain to throw over him and protect him from any criticism.
“O-Oh, yeah, he’s Changkyun, everyone…” you started and met his gaze nervously as he smiled kindly and exchanged looks with a few people, “Um, Changkyun, she’s my mom, and that’s my dad” you then added, pointing at your parents who came up to Changkyun to shake his hand as he stood up and did the same with them, bidding everyone else a small wave before sitting down.
A few prying eyes begged for you to continue, to further introduce him and you knew exactly what question snaked behind their teeth, so out of impulse and sudden selfishness, you gave them what they wanted.
“Changkyun this is my family, and family, this is my boyfriend Changkyun” you said confidently, earning the reactions you were currently reveling in, with the exception of your now apparent boyfriend, who didn’t look at you but you knew wanted to smack you across the face and yell what did you just say?
Just like that, tension subsided between your family and you, but only thickened between Changkyun and you. Everyone caught up and decided to settle down to eat, in the meantime, while everyone was busy, Changkyun pulled you aside, “Show me where your bedroom used to be” he said through a very forced smile, and had the situation been different, you would have teased him about it. However you excused yourself and led him to your bedroom, nearly being pushed inside by him as he then closed the door behind him and turned to you. “Why would you say that? Why didn’t you at least warn me?” he spewed, his voice low and hushed, almost making you feel scolded.
“I know I’m sorry it just came out but just do this for me please, I’ll do anything for you after this is over but just do me this one favor” you begged, taking his arms and nearly dropping to your knees had he not held you in place. He sighed loudly and looked over his shoulder then back at you, “Do you know how nervous this makes me? I was already feeling awkward- Y/N I’m an awkward person, granted you would have probably been better off without me as your boyfriend” he rushed and it made you giggle despite the circumstance.
“I know- no, you’re great, just be you it’s okay” you tried, patting his shoulders and giving him a once over and nodding to yourself, “You’re good looking, that’s more than enough” you then added and Changkyun grinned but covered his face and groaned, “Oh my god” he said, then patting his chest with one hand to soothe his nerves. “Don’t be nervous, it makes me nervous” you then said and he raised his eyebrows, his ministrations coming to an instant halt, “Okay, okay- no you know what, I’m nervous now, just give me a second” he said through a whisper and you chuckled, standing before him for a few seconds before leading him back towards the door as you opened it.
He was shy, but you could tell everyone liked him, he also stuck close to you at all times, occasionally pinching your shirt when you’d stray away and he couldn’t grasp your hand or arm. He feared being cornered by someone and being ultimately interviewed all by his lonesome. He couldn’t escape the questions when they came from your parents, and he always replied with small nods and attempts at answering as politely as possible, but stammering a few times before you were chiming in to his rescue. He didn’t need it much anyway, he was fairly good and your parents were more than satisfied. You were sure at some point he had even gotten comfortable enough with everyone because eventually, he’d stay at least a few feet away from you, that was more than enough progress for you.
You hadn’t realized the burden you had placed on his shoulders until the day got closer to an end, and he no longer smiled much, his shoulders slumping slightly. Everyone stayed until midnight and only then did you get a moment to yourself with Changkyun as the two of you brought your luggage to your bedroom.
“You okay?” you asked in concern, as the two of you arranged your belongings. Changkyun nodded and offered you a small half smile, sitting at the edge of your small bed and scrolling through his cellphone. You looked away and sighed, sitting at his side and leaning your head against his shoulder as you watched the contents on his phone. “I can tell you’re tired… I mean, you used up a lot of energy in charming everyone” you commented jokingly and caught him smile sheepishly. He didn’t mind you looking, and the two of you stayed there for a few quiet minutes until you were hooking your arm with his and he was putting his cellphone away. “Changkyun… I’m sorry” you said softly, still hearing your family chat in the kitchen. Changkyun hummed and then sighed, letting his gaze fall on his lap as you turned to look at him, “I’m really sorry…” you repeated and he gave you a warm smile, shaking his head a little and meeting your gaze for a little before you were looking away a bit flustered.
“It’s okay, I just wish I would have had more time to mentally prepare myself for this” he commented with a chuckle and you moaned in guilt, burying your face against his arm as he glanced at you. “I wasn’t planning on dragging you down with me, I feel really bad… But you took it like a champ” you admitted but all Changkyun did was lean his head against yours and shake it, “Do you feel better about seeing your family though?” he asked and you took in a deep breath and nodded. The burden had been shared, and you no longer felt like your self-esteem had been walked all over by your family members. “Thank you, boyfriend” you joked, making him grin, “You’re welcome girlfriend” he replied, the two of you chuckling lightly.
The word made him a little weak as it escaped your lips, it was no burden to have him play your boyfriend, he’d do it any time, but he would have wanted to meet your parents after he’d confessed his feelings for you. Had it all worked out differently, he would have been much more prepared to meet your parents as your real boyfriend.
“You were great, they’re gonna miss you when we’re gone” you commented and he chuckled, “What are you going to tell them later on?” he asked and you moved away and sighed, letting your shoulders drop with a shrug, “That we broke up or something” you stated and Changkyun pressed his lips into a line as you met his gaze. He looked away and toyed with the ring on his index finger, one you always insisted he should wear because you were convinced rings were made for his hands. “Let’s say, hypothetically, your family really wanted to see both of us again, would we do this again or would you just turn the invitation down and say we broke up?” he asked and you knitted your eyebrows in amusement as you smiled in thought, “I don’t know… I feel bad bringing you” you said and Changkyun nodded, raising his eyebrows in acknowledgement, “Makes sense, but what if I told you I could do this any time?” he then countered. You stared at him quizzically and chuckled, “Why would you? This is terrible and annoying, and eventually they’ll start attacking your self-esteem too” you said jokingly but with a hint of seriousness. “But what if I’m okay with it?” he pushed and your smile faltered as you met his expression, you knew he was looking at you and things were breaking away from the hypothetical. “Why would you be?” you asked again and Changkyun smiled shyly, looking away and shrugging sweetly, “Hypothetically speaking, I could enjoy being your boyfriend” he admitted and your heart jumped, making you freeze in your spot as you stared at the floor.
He then cleared his throat and stood up slowly, letting out an exhale and patting his clothes down, “That’s okay if it’s not what you want” he then said, making his way to the door of your bedroom as you watched him. “Wait no don’t go out there yet, we can’t just leave this conversation hanging” you stated, getting up as well. You couldn’t go back to your family and have him hold you close with genuine feelings while you pondered on them, that’d be using him knowing this was no longer a fake situation and that was definitely not a path you were going down on.
Changkyun turned to you and smiled awkwardly, “If it makes you uncomfortable-” he started but you cut him off, “It doesn’t, but you just kind of threw a curveball at me” you said with a chuckle and he grinned. “I had thought about us together before, but I didn’t think you ever wanted it so I didn’t… Really push for it” you confessed and his eyes widened, “You should have said something!” he said raising his voice in disbelief and you quickly made your way to him and hushed him. The two of you sniggered and you leaned your head against his chest, gripping his arms and trying hard not to laugh loudly. He held your arms as well and you felt him chuckle, making you look up at him and suddenly you were looking at him in a different light.
“So no more lying, okay? We’re actually dating now” he said and you nodded, leaning forward to peck his cheek, “I’m glad we came to terms with it now, any sooner and I don’t think I would have kept my hands to myself” you said with a wink to which Changkyun grinned at sheepishly before opening the door while he held your hand, “You’ve been keeping them to yourself?” he joked and you snorted.