old grey

Grey’s 13x21: And that’s how it’s done...

Great episode, with the perfect balance of (weird) medical stuff and personal crap. Both the episode (stories, music, etc) and Meredith herself reminded me of the old Grey’s. 

About Mer and Maggie (and Riggs): I think Maggie has every right to be upset; being an adult or not, when your heart’s broken, your heart’s broken. You are allowed to feel a little pain. But the thing is, I don’t think her heart is broken, not by Riggs at least. Yes she liked him, but she wasn’t head over heals in love with him (anymore?). If any, her heart got broken by Meredith, who hasn’t been honest about the whole thing. While there have been plenty of options to just tell her. Like all the way in the beginning. It could have been a two sentenced conversation. Maggie: I like Riggs. Mer: Funny thing, I slept with him. 
But she never said anything and they are sisters and this is what sisters do: they act childish, they play the I-am-right card for a while, they say I-am-done a couple of times - because they can. Because they are sisters so they’ll never be done, they’ll always be sisters. Safe ground for a fight. Fine. Fight. Cry about it. I give you one episode. This one was it. So we’re done now. Right?

Absolutely loved the worm case! Classic Grey’s! I believe having one of those little fuckers in your stomach isn’t even that rare, but boy, this was like a bowl of spaghetti! (What’s for dinner tonight, April?) Didn’t care for the story around the couple - the guy leaving, harder to believe than the worms! - but really enjoyed the doctors perspective.

The other story, with the pregnant woman, was really touching and very, very well done. Especially how Amelia and Arizona handled the DNR part, both that moment when the patient asked for it and those last couple of scenes in the OR.
Somehow I thought they’d pick up on the Arizona & Eliza storyline again, so it was somewhat disappointing that Eliza wasn’t even in the episode, but with this story the Arizona-parts where still great. (Still, it’s been like 7 episodes since that parking lot, a little progress wouldn’t hurt! Same with April and Jackson - it’s been weeks… what happened after their little trip together?)

Only three more episodes. Not enough. Never enough…

I met you in the dark, you lit me up
You made me feel as though I was enough
We danced the night away, we drank too much
I held your hair back when
You were throwing up

Then you smiled over your shoulder
For a minute, I was stone-cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
And you asked me to stay over
I said, I already told ya
I think that you should get some rest

I knew I loved you then
But you’d never know
‘Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go
I know I needed you
But I never showed
But I wanna stay with you until we’re grey and old
Just say you won’t let go
Just say you won’t let go

I’ll wake you up with some breakfast in bed
I’ll bring you coffee with a kiss on your head
And I’ll take the kids to school
Wave them goodbye
And I’ll thank my lucky stars for that night

When you looked over your shoulder
For a minute, I forget that I’m older
I wanna dance with you right now
Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever
And I swear that everyday you’ll get better
You make me feel this way somehow

I’m so in love with you
And I hope you know
Darling your love is more than worth its weight in gold
We’ve come so far my dear
Look how we’ve grown
And I wanna stay with you until we’re grey and old
Just say you won’t let go
Just say you won’t let goI wanna live with you
Even when we’re ghosts
'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most

I’m gonna love you till
My lungs give out
I promise till death we part like in our vows
So I wrote this song for you, now everybody knows
'Cause now it’s just you and me till we’re grey and old
Just say you won’t let go
Just say you won’t let goJust say you won’t let go
Oh, just say you won’t let go

- James Arthur 

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

watch this i promise you won’t regret it

I wanna marry you. I wanna have kids with you. I wanna build us a house. I wanna settle down and grow old with you. I wanna die when I’m 110 years old, in your arms. I don’t want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime.
—  “Grey’s Anatomy”