oko ninjah

She wasn’t my first kiss but she’s the kiss that mattered, the kiss that made me realize I didn’t want to kiss anyone else. So now my lips belong to her. Just look at them… Her name’s written all over them.
—  Oko Ninjah
She wasn’t my first kiss but she’s the kiss that mattered, the kiss that made me realize I didn’t want to kiss anyone else. So now my lips belong to her. Just look at them… Her name’s written all over them.
—  Oko Ninjah

‘I love her’

'You’ve just met her a month ago’

'And I know I’ll love her forever’

'Forever is a long time, how do you know?’

'Because forever started the moment she left after our first conversation while she was walking away’

'How so?’

'Because I wanted to walk away with her, with her hand in mine, to a life that I know we can have. She was in my head for days and my chest ached to speak with her. Thats how I know I love her. A month, a year, a day that was all it took. A day, less than that. A conversation and I fell. That was enough. I had to know more. I had to know her. And now I do. And I’ll learn more about her. And guess what?’

'What?’

'I love her’

—  Oko Ninjah (sometimes it happens quick)
Everyone looked at me and saw this fucked up broken mess and they left. But her… She looked at me and saw the same thing but instead of leaving, she stayed. She decided that she liked my broken mess and all my fucked up parts. All she did was lock her fingers through mine and said, ‘fuck them, you’ve got me’ and I knew I would probably fall in love with her… And I fucking did.
—  Oko ninjah

I’m terrified of losing you, of not being with you. I’m terrified that one day you’re gonna realize just how pathetically shit I am and you’re gonna tell me to fuck off. I’m terrified to not have you in my life. I don’t remember a time when I didn’t know you and I don’t want to remember the times you weren’t around.

This shitty existence of mine actually seems worth enduring because of you. It’s like when you’re around, I just feel like I’m… Okay. Like my world is spinning slightly slower and everything is sharper and brighter and I can finally fucking breathe. I feel like you give me breath.

And when I breathe you in, you smell like rain and when I’m in your arms I feel that warmth of yours and everything is completely still. Like we’re the only two people in the world. I love that feeling. I love you.

All I want is to make you happy. I want to make you feel safe and I want to make you laugh and smile as much as I can. I want everything with you because you’re my everything already and I just want to mean something to you. I’m scared to lose you. I’ll do everything I can to not lose you, to keep you in my life. Because losing you… Would be like my heart stopped.

—  Oko Ninjah (everything)

I can’t. I’m sorry. I can’t not love her. I don’t know how to. I think about her too much. I love her too much. I worry about her when she’s not around and when I see her, all I want to do is pull her into my arms and kiss her. I can’t just stop. She’s always going to mean something to me. Maybe I need time and space but right now, I’m stuck. I don’t see a day without her. I don’t want there to be a day that I’m without her.

I fucking love her. Its not just gonna disappear.

When I’m away from her - it feels like decades, like there’s a whole other world between us. But when I’m beside her - its like we were never apart. And I love it because in that moment when we see each other and smiles light up our faces, I know that beside her is exactly where I’m supposed to be, want to be and will be.
—  Oko ninjah

I’m in love with her. It’s a fact.

Because when she smiles, when she’s laughing, it’s like all the planets and stars are aligned and it’s the greatest feeling in the world to see the person you’re in love with just being happy.

I’m in love with her. It’s a fact.

Because when she’s upset, when she cries, it’s like a knife being plunged into my chest, slowly twisting. It just breaks my heart to know that something or someone has punctured her heart and caused her pain. It’s a horrible feeling to see the person you’re in love feel so hurt.

I’d do anything to make her happy and I’d do anything not to make her cry. Because she is my heart and I want to be with her for as long as she’ll let me. And I want to keep it that way.

Because I love her. It’s a fact.

—  Oko Ninja (1am confessions)

It’s not that I don’t want you. I have never wanted to be with someone as much as I want to be with you. I have feelings for you. And it’s not about sex. I mean, don’t get me wrong - you’re incredibly sexy. But I saw your beautiful, first. Your eyes are brown but they’re nearly a dark green, hell I’d even call them a rich hazel color - they’re beautiful. The sound of your voice and the way you speak- is beautiful. How your laugh can just make me melt, how your giggle makes me feel like my world has paused - is beautiful. You are beautiful. I want you, I do. I want you in every way I can have you.

I want to take you out and buy you dinner or lunch or coffee or a lollipop. I want to hold your hand and make you feel like nothing can hurt you because nothing will hurt you as long as I’m there. I want to tell you things that I’ve never told anyone and I want to hear everything you have to say, everything you think, I want to know you like I know my favorite book. I want to kiss you and make your body shiver and I want to trail my fingers along your body. I want to be with you. But I can’t right now.

And I’m not good enough. That’s the truth. I’m not good. I’m not even an okay person. I will hurt you because I don’t know how to not hurt people. I just do. Even when I don’t mean to. But I don’t want to be that person with you, I don’t want to hurt you like I’ve hurt other people. You don’t deserve that. You don’t deserve someone like me, you deserve the best and I am not even close. You deserve someone as good as you are. You deserve someone better. And I’m not…

Not yet.

—  Oko Ninjah (not yet)

You’re everything I want. You’re funny, kind, and intelligent. You’re strong, beautiful, thoughtful, sexy, you’re incredible - you’re everything to me. You’re the first thought when I wake up and the last thought before I go to bed.

Your eyes are the only eyes I can literally get lost in. No, I’m serious. Like, sometimes you think I’m just phasing out and staring at you. But it’s because I am lost in those eyes of yours. And your lips. Like, what the fuck did god put in your lips? They’re sweet and soft. And when they’re against mine, it’s like you’ve knocked me off my feet - like I’m floating.

You have my heart. You have me in every way. I love you. I really do. More than anything. I’d do anything for you because you make my world steady, you make me calm, and you make my heart beat like its the engine of a Ferrari.

You don’t have anything to worry about, I swear. I’m not interested in any other girl. I’m not talking to any other girl. You’re all that I love.

There is no one else, but you.

—  Oko Ninjah (you)

She has dark hair. It’s a dark brown color that’s nearly black. But she has these bright brown eyed that I swear, they change colors when there’s light in them. The way she talks makes my heart stutter. She could be talking about lollipops or pencils and I swoon every word she says. The way she laughs makes my body warm, like the way hot cocoa does on a cold night. She’s thoughtful, kind, smart, beautiful, brave, funny, and so much more. Every time I see her, I feel like I’ve just opened a Christmas present and it’s exactly what I wanted.

I like her. I really like her. I want to kiss her and I want to hold her and I want to make her feel as important as she is to me. She’s this incredible woman and all I want is to be with her.

—  Oko Ninjah (crush)

If I told you how I feel about you, if I told you just how much you actually mean to me - then you’d know. And that shouldn’t be a problem but someone from before used my feelings against me and it really stung my heart. Sometimes it still stings. The way you make me feel stops that stinging - you stop that stinging. But I won’t be guard down. Not just yet. Just know that you make me feel like I matter and that’s a lot to me. And you mean more to me than anything. You should just know that right now, you’re the most important person, thing, place to me - you’re nearly everything.

Oko Ninjah (you should know)

I like her more than I should. But I can’t help it. She makes me nervous… As if I’m about to give a lame speech I half assed ten minutes before, in front the world. I have butterflies in my stomach that are having an intense acid trip and my heart’s drumming and I’m shaking… I’m physically shaking because I honestly cannot believe how beautiful she is and that this beautiful woman is even speaking to me.

She’s funny as hell, she’s got a gorgeous fucking smile, a sexy smirk, she’s smart - incredibly smarter than me. She is everything I’m not. She’s brave and… Well, I’m shaking remember? But damn… I just wish that I thought I was good enough.

Then I’d kiss her. With the intention of another kiss. With the hope of a relationship. With the possibility of love… But I don’t think I’m good enough. Because I’m not good enough.

But hey… One can dream.

—  Oko Ninjah (Crush)

Just listen to me, okay? I love her. Even with our problems and our stupid mood swings. That’s the point. I love all of her. I can’t even think of hurting her. I don’t want to know what that’s like. Because she doesn’t deserve to be hurt. I’m not going to let anyone hurt her. It’s like Kev said in Shameless U.S: No one hurts her except me. Except I don’t hurt her so that just leaves no one.

I just want to be with her. I want to make her as happy as she makes me. I want her to feel the way she makes me feel. Because she makes me feel like I’m the only person dancing in the room and I am just… Fucking killing it. She makes me feel like I can fly, like my heart is pounding but it’s slowing at the same time. It’s… Surprisingly addicting.

And she’s worried that I’ll cheat on her but it’s not going to happen. How could it? She’s ridiculously intriguing. Every day there’s something new I learn about her. If she were a subject in school, she’s the first subject I’ve ever been excited to learn about.

She is the best person I know and all I want is to make her as happy as she makes me. She’s the only person I see and want a future with.

—  Oko Ninjah (Just listen to me…)
I think you underestimate how much I love her. I would go through hell to be with her. Heh… I’ve been through hell to be with her. And you know what? I would go right back if she wanted me to.
—  Oko Ninjah