I’ve always kinda had issues making/keeping friends, even in my home town. I just never connect with girls like I feel I should. It used to really bother me, especially when I moved to a new state where I knew nobody.
However, being here for the last 7 months I’ve spent a lot of time to myself and found myself more than I ever have before. I deleted some social media that I thought helped connect me to people I could befriend, but in reality I was making myself in competition with them. I also stopped trying so hard to be friends with people who weren’t really good friends to begin with. I’ve really focused on myself (and my dogs lol), and I honestly feel fantastic.
I feel nowadays people tend to base a good chunk of their self worth on how much they’re liked by their peers. Doing so, they lose themselves in stuff they really don’t like, and force friendships with people they really don’t connect with. I did this for a while not knowing how much i was being drained from it.
I guess it took moving away and starting a new life for me to realize this, but I’m glad I’m not trying so hard to find myself through other people. Life is so much more enjoyable than it has been in a long time. And I share this in hopes that you can better yours if you feel like I did.