okay seriously bye now

Good night y'all, sleep well and dream good 😊👌

Admitting that you need help is incredibly difficult. Seeking help and/or therapy for the areas of life in which you need that help is arguably even harder. Working on finding healthier and more effective coping strategies for those struggles and fostering an understanding of the underlying causes of those struggles is harder still. If/when you add mental illness to this equation of sorts, everything becomes seemingly impossible. If someone you know has the courage to say, “okay, so, things are really not okay right now and I need help finding a way or a reason to get out of my bed in the morning so I’m going to take this humongous step and give this fight for happiness/contentment all I’ve got,” please respect them and cheer them on. Support them! If you are one of those people who’s said that and is seeking a solution: I am so proud of you, I believe in you so much, and I know that you can do this, you can fight this. We will get through it all and we will be okay. We are strong. We are important. We are good enough. We really, really are. Promise. <3 

like i’ve been thinking and… there are a lot of similarities between The Motorcycle Boy and Rusty James (from Rumble Fish) and Tim and Curly Shepard (from The Outsiders and That Was Then, This Is Now):

Tim and The Motorcycle Boy (TMB) are the eldest siblings, and are revered not only by their younger siblings but by a large part of the community in general. TMB is referred to as a “prince” at one point, and Tim’s called “the model JD,” they both definitely command a lot of respect. They were both gang leaders and are shown to be a little more cunning/clever than their followers.

Rusty James and Curly Shepard are both younger siblings stuck in the shadow of an impressive and domineering older sibling, caught between simultaneously wanting to prove themselves as different (basically step out from their shadow) and wanting to become their older brother. 

Dear Taylor,

You are the reason why I am alive and breathing. It is a general thing to say and a straightforward comment, but you are the reason why I am happy with myself and why I am motivated to wake up every morning. I have encountered rough patches in my life (for example, numerous of students have bullied me about being one of the few people ranked top student in my grade) and I did not know how to handle it. But ever since you walked into my life, I knew everything was going to be okay. You provided me with safety and shelter, thank you. 

At age six, I discovered your debut album. I fell in love with your voice and your music. But, being only six, I did not comprehend the lyrics you wrote of why you wrote them because of the lack of experience. Nonetheless, I adored your music and I thought it was widely entertaining. 

At age eight, you released Fearless. Your songs were so catchy that I learned half of them on the piano. 

At age nine (one day before my birthday!), you released Speak Now. This is the first album you released that debuted over one million copies within its first week. The fact that you wrote this entire album by yourself had me thinking it was the greatest thing that has ever happened to the music industry. You were brave enough to share your personal diary with the world and it empowered me to share my own thoughts with the world. The one lyric I connected to the most was “Someday, I’ll be living in a big ol’ city and all you’re ever gonna be is mean”. As simple to the eye as that lyric is, it has taught me to keep on going because the rude people won’t mean to me in the long run. I will live my dream and be happy. 

At age twelve, Red was released. I took noticed that this album seemed to transition towards the pop genre and I admired your graceful switch. Although this album is focused (I assume) by the idea of love in many forms, I couldn’t relate to the love aspect. However, I could relate to State of Grace. I viewed it as a way to get through life with no regrets and to have the people you want in it. Your lyrics sounded so eloquent and raw with passion. 

At age fifteen (one day after my birthday!), 1989 was released. This album changed my views on the world. Clean made me think about how things in the past matter, but they shouldn’t bother you in a negative way. The vibe gave me the feeling of wanting to be happy living in the present with your friends and not give a second thought about what anyone else thinks. Every song is perfectly written with such delicacy and energy. What I took from this album is to enjoy your life now and not look back on the past too much, it has nothing new to say. 

You have encouraged me to believe in myself without knowing it. I’d like to thank you for giving me the strength to stand up for my beliefs and to love every aspect of myself. I will see you on August 14th in the Levi Stadium, doing what you love and what you do best. I can’t wait!

WIth all my love,


Okay, these are recent photos of myself that I’m pretty proud to share. 


Lemonade, Epilogue: I Was Served Lemons, But I Made Lemonade

Michonne and Rick bask in the light at the end of their dark tunnel, celebrating their soon-to-be baby, and more importantly, themselves.