okay i'm sorry for that'

every time someone reblogs the “was i abused list” and bolds a lot of things I get horrified at how cruel some people can be and how awfully some children have to live and i completely forget i literally made that list off of things done to me personally :’)

Also. Please know that I want to fight Pledis forever and always for how they treat both Nu’Est and After School. :)

I know I’m the one who ended things this time. I know that I’m a fucked up person. But my god I miss you so much, and I don’t think I can even talk to you. I’m scared to reach out because I don’t think you’ll listen to what I have to say. I know you’re not doing well right now, I know that you’re not yourself. But god I just want to help you. I just want you to know that you’re not alone. That even though I said I couldn’t do this anymore I still care and honestly I probably always will. Right now I’d give anything to take back the last couple of weeks because I don’t think I made the right decision anymore. I miss you.
—  But I’ll never tell you // k.s
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the G E E K and the T H I E F

Where you going?
Let’s see how hard you look.

Happy Birthday Emma!! (@downriversandroads)

so i started binging leverage again thanks to you lol but i’ve only made it to the beginning of season two. hope you have a great day!!!!

[[the storm died down for now so i had time to draw~ i tried experimenting with my art style a bit for many reasons but one of them is because i’m so used to drawing males but…i wanted to try something new.

so!! i drew @fangrl-esque !! or at least i tried to;;;]]

Okay but Phil probably caught Dan off guard with the picture of him + shaved sides. Phil’s phone is probably full of pictures of Dan doing mundane things. Like he probably has pictures of him drinking coffee, editing a video, making food, etc. and that makes my heart so happy. Phil thinks Dan looks good doing everyday things and that’s so sweet.

man but honestly few things fuck me up as much as when adam says in trb “i think you’ll find i do pretty much everything quiet”, because on one hand, as a massive introvert, i super relate– but on the other hand, when you think about the heartbreaking implications of that sentence, it’s like, fuck. fuck, of course you do

you laugh quietly because your dad is always angry, you cry quietly because the neighbors don’t care about your bruises; you’re quiet about your achievements because the kids from the trailer park don’t really care about your straight As, and you’re quiet in school because you’re ashamed of your accent; you think quietly because it makes it easier to pull apart your emotions and sort them into logical containers, and you love quietly because you don’t quite know how yet, and because in the dusty back roads of henrietta, virginia, a boy who loves girls and boys is not quite safe.

you brave, lonesome boy, of course you do everything quiet; how could it be otherwise? 

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I want to tell you a thousand things. Sorry for scaring you. Sorry for hurting you. Sorry for not telling you that I’m bipolar. I was afraid of losing you. I’d forgotten that it’s not possible to lose someone, that all people are alone anyway. In a different place in the universe we are together for all eternity, remember that. Love you. Even.