there’s something about even’s little nod in this scene
because even knows. he’s not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. he’s been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other people
earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadn’t told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didn’t want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says
do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way he’s been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how they’d been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okay’s (been together since we were 15. okay. can’t dump her. okay). do you think that even who’s been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isak’s face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?
of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, he’s only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, it’s like he’s saying i see you, i see it, i’ve seen you for a while. it’s reassuring. it’s okay. it’s understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too
I woke up my mind still pierced as to what happened a couple
nights ago. How could this bitch do that? It’s just not right. No one deserves
it especially not G. I have to tell him.
To get my mind off things I decided to go out for a run. I
got on a pair of joggers and a sweater since it was chilly outside and got my
Nike runners on. I plugged my ear phones into my phone and played music, which
mostly consisted of various rappers.
About 10 minutes
later I exited the house and started my run.
*1 hour later*
“Damn I’m out of shape” I said breathless bending over
trying to steady my breaths
I was cut off when my phone rang. I took my phone out of my
pocket and saw who was calling. I answered it.
“Hey G!” I said into my phone
“Hey y/n! The boys and I are having a party. Come it’s gonna
be lit!” he said excitedly knowing that I love party’s also knows that I know
how to turn up
“Yeah I’ll be there! What time?” I asked
“2 hours” he said
“Alright see ya soon!” I exclaimed
“Okay bye y/n!” G said but right when he was about to hang
up I heard something he was saying to someone.
“Madison! Stop tickling me!” G said and then the line went
I signed out of irritation and annoyance. G is so oblivious
I walked back up the street because I this point I couldn’t
run anymore. Once I arrived at home I went inside to get ready. I climbed up my
stairs and then I went to my room and took a shower.
I was done my shower and changed
into white top and skinny jeans. I also grabbed a pair of black high heels to
finish the look off. I then applied light makeup and did my hair in lose curls.
I was finally done and by that time it was almost time for the party. I decided
to just leave early. I got my keys, purse and phone. I then headed to my car. I
unlocked it and got in. I put the keys in the ignition and started to drive
towards to the Jack’s house.
I got to jack’s house and parked
my car on the street because there driveway was full. I got out of my car and
walked a short distance towards their house. I finally got to the door and just
walked in because the sound of the music was loud and they wouldn’t hear the
door bell. I walked inside and immediately got hit in the face with smoke and alcohol.
The smell just made me want to throw up but I continued to walk though the
house looking for the guys. After about 5 minutes of searching for the guys I
“Hey” I said over the music
“Hey” they all said loudly
“Can I join?” I asked pointing
to the seat next to Nate who had a joint in his hand
“Want some” he asked motioning
towards his joint
“Um sure” I said remembering the
last time I had one. Nate handed me the joint and I took a long drag.
By now I was high off my ass and
wasted but all the guys were closer to sober then me. I was saying things that
I wouldn’t be saying in my sober self. I view of Madison and G disgusted me
because I know that her little slutty ass is sleeping around.
“Madison why you kissing up to
G’s ass? Do you realize you ain’t gonna have him any much longer?” I slurred
“What?” Madison said with her
“I saw you in bed with another
guy the other night and that guy was not
G” I said taking another sip of my beer
“Y/n what are you talking
“Missy, just because I’m drunk
doesn’t mean that I don’t know what I’m saying” I said pointing my finger at
“Y/n, You’re just jealous, I
know that you want to split me and Jack up” she said looking at Jack
Everyone was agreeing with her.
The hell is this.
“Yeah, Y/n it’s time you go
home, you’re drunk and you’re talking out of you’re ass right now” Nate said
standing up from his seat
“No I was planning on staying
the night here though” I said to everyone
“Sorry but you need to leave and
do me a favor y/n, you and your selfish ass stay away from me and MY GIRLFRIEND!”
G said standing up
“JACK HER HEAD IS SHOVED SO FAR
UP YOUR ASS YOU DON’T EVEN REALIZED ANYTHING!” I said
“LEAVE!” he said pointing to the
“GLADLY” I yelled and picked up
my purse and started walking out. I swear everyone there was now staring at me,
wonderful-note the sarcasm.
I walked out of his house and
started to walk to a bus stop because I was not about to drive in this state. I
started to walk to the closest bus stop. Thinking about how I just lost my best
friends because of this girl. The thought of that made tears roll down my face
as I walked to the bus stop. I started to feel water splashing on me and I looked
up to see that it was raining…great.
“Really?” I said talking to
myself I started walking faster to the bus stop.
I arrived at the bus stop soaked
from head to toe. I waited about 2 minutes until the bus came. The doors opened
and I walked in putting $3.00 into the box beside the drive.
“Caught in the rain?” the bus
“Yep” I said walking to a seat
in the bus
I woke up in my bed. I immediately
remembered everything from last night. I got out of bed sighing and walking to
the kitchen to get breakfast.
For breakfast I had toast, but I
wasn’t really that hungry. I sipped on my warm cup of coffee while scrolling
‘how could you do this?’ G
I knew he was talking about me. Who
else would it be?
‘We stuck up for you and you do
this’ Nate posted
‘Thought you were different’
‘What a backstabber’ Johnson
I was exited from the screen
when I had an incoming call from G. I accepted it because I wanted to
“Hey y/n” he said emotionless
“Why did you call me? If anything
I should be calling you” I told him
“No…I believe you…” he said
“Huh?” I said really confused
“Madison cheated…after you left
she spilled. We’re over” he explained
“Oh G I’m sorry…” I said not
really knowing what to say
“Yeah it’s okay…” he said
“Yeah, So we good?” I asked
“Hell yeah” he said and it was
like I could almost see his smile
“See you later Jack” I said
“Yeah see you later” he said and
ended the call
After he ended the call all I was
repeating over and, and over was…
After Bellamy and Finn saved the 100 from Mount Weather, Clarke greeted Bellamy in a tight relieved embrace. (To which he didn’t expect at first, but quickly found himself relaxing and tightening his grip on her, because god he missed her, and she was finally safe.) “You’re alive, you’re okay.” she kept telling herself, over and over because for what felt like ages - she thought he and Finn were gone. And it was her fault, but he was okay. They were all okay.