Like ripping a band-aid off an old cut
I’ve wasted so much of my fucking life missing you. Literally fucking longing for you. Please don’t do this to me. Smfh my fucking heart hurts and I’m so pissed at myself. Please!? god fucking damnit. I hate you. I want to hate you man. What are you doing??? Leave me alone, please. You’re a boy who doesn’t want a girlfriend. I know what that means. I’m a big girl now. It hurts but what you don’t understand is even spending that one moment in time with you, like just touching you and kissing you and being held by you one last time is all I’ve prayed for since I can remember and that is so mother fucking pathetic. So even if it’s only one last time its ok. Because I know I don’t deserve you. All of you. Do I ?? And i let you the fuck in. I didn’t even try not to in any way. Literally opened the door and said come on in! Gave you all the power. Please don’t do this to me . You should have just deleted me. Blocked me. Don’t try to lie to me. You should have just left me the fuck alone. Fuck you. Seriously. Fuck you.