me: *wants to socialize, make friends, and stop isolating myself in general*
my brain: BITCH… NO ONE 👏 FUCKING 👏 LIKES YOU 👏 NO ONE WILL EVER LIKE YOU 👏 YOU DON’T DESERVE FRIENDSHIPS 👏 YOU HAVE NOTHING OF ANY WORTH TO CONTRIBUTE TO CONVERSATIONS 👏 YOU’RE A DISGUSTING 👏 HIDEOUS 👏 PIECE OF SHIT 👏 KEEP TO YOURSELF YOU PARASITIC GREMLIN 👋
Be alone. Eat alone, take yourself on dates, sleep alone. In the midst of this you will learn about yourself. You will grow, you will figure out what inspires you, you will curate your own dreams, your own beliefs, your own stunning clarity, and when you do meet the person who makes your cells dance, you will be sure of it, because you are sure of yourself.
They aren’t. Last year October I suddenly got a huge upswing in anons. Telling me I was going to hell for writing Ultimate Spiderman fanfic. Telling me I was disgusting and a piece of shit because an adult shouldn’t write teenage romances (Although where they think Young Adult novels come from who knows).
Then they discovered I ship Pitch Black and Jack Frost as well as Kakashi and Naruto and it all went to hell. I was called a pedophile and had some very disgusting violent themed asks. At one point I was deleting about 15 anon messages a day. Someone told me they’d found my charity and they were calling CPS on me because of child pornography and pedophilia.
CPS did indeed end up showing up. And our lived were a mess. A horrible mess. Our devices were taken and checked through with a fine tooth comb, our browsing history was searched, all our dvds and movies that were not marked were taken.
Keep in mind that I’m a severely disabled person and have two special needs kids. It was awful and traumatic. Thankfully going into it the CPS worker said because of the nature of the report (someone finding my info over social media and not knowing me personally ect) she suspected it was a false report.
The police did ask some questions about my multitude of about 3,000 unfinished story starts I have on my computer and seemed amused and a bit disturbed to find out out some of my pairings but they were all great about it. Said they would make sure not to delete ANY of my stories because writing is a great stress relief.
We were given everything back at the end of the week, everything was clear. No child porn, no pedophilia. My kids drs checks were fine, their psych checks were fine. Although my oldest does still have anxiety but like….we knew that already. No signs of sexual or physical abuse on my children.
The case was closed, unfounded, and CPS closed their case also. However, because of the false claim they were going to press charges against the one who made the claim.
I have no idea how this works or if anything has been done yet. BUT FALSE REPORTING IS A CRIME!!!
It tears up families, traumatizes children to exams that are not needed, and puts innocent people into a terrifying experience. These people put us through this experience just because they didn’t like my shipping preferences. How is this ok? It’s not.
And I hope they are punished to the full extent of the law.
Thing that probably happened after the Overwatch comic…
Jack: By the way how’s the new kid holding up? Gabe: Genji? He’s ok. McCree says he has nightmares often. Jack: How does he know, I wasn’t aware they shared a room? Gabe: …. Jack:….
Gabe:…. Jack:….what? Gabe: Oh honey.