oh-i-fail

The Signs and Tests

Aries: Studies kinda hard, and manages a B

Taurus: Studies wayyy harder than they need to and gets a 100%. Also does the extra credit

Gemini: Barely studies and literally breaks the scantron machine because they got 12982%

Cancer: Tries to study and falls asleep. Crams the morning before and clutches an A

Leo: Doesn’t sleep until they understand the subject and gets a bombass A

Virgo: Goes to starbucks but doesn’t actually study. Still gets 100%

Libra: BB at least you tried…

Scorpio: Doesn’t sleep all night to study and barely passes with an A ‘cuz they’re so braindead

Sagittarius: “Shit it’s 12 AM ALREADY????? Well… I’m gonna go to bed and see what the fuck happens tomorrow”

Capricorn: Literally reads the study guide once and remembers everything and gets 100%

Aquarius: Doesn’t study. Gets a 92%. “Oh no I failed ):”

Pisces: “What is really important is that we have our health (: “

source:risingemini

Foreign

Plot: Jimin always thought his traditional Korean girlfriend was perfect – that was, until he realized how beautiful foreigners could be.

Pairing: Idol!Park Jimin x Backup Dancer!Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Notes: I based this off of every single MTL I have seen of BTS dating a girl of a different race or a girl of color – Jimin always seems to be one of the people who were least likely to date one. I definitely do not think that Jimin is this ignorant in any way. This is only a work of fiction. This is for all the international beauties! 2,536 Words

Originally posted by bwipsul

“Oppa, I’m missing you so much!”

“I’m missing you too, my love. Don’t worry, I’ll be back in a few days, okay?”

One of the worst parts about tour was leaving lovers behind. For Jimin, it wasn’t only his lover, it was his home. He enjoyed tour, performing for all of the ARMYs around the world, going on stage; but he wasn’t a huge fan of being in a foreign country. He didn’t know English that well, and he wasn’t fond of being in a place where he couldn’t understand anything. 

“I know,” The soft voice of his significant other brought pink to his cheeks. “Call me when your rehearsal is over.”

“I will, I love you,” He glanced at the leader of his band, who was calling him over.

“I love you too.”

With that, he had ended the call with a sigh, and headed over to his band. It hadn’t even been a few minutes since he cut the call, and he was already missing her – a thought he had experienced after each long-distance conversation with his lover. The short male shook his head and got his head back in the game, his eyes going up to meet a group of people dressed in black.

“This is your dance crew for this city,” The manager announced to the band. “Not all of them know Korean, so if you have an queries, just talk to Jihoon. He is the leader.”

“We understand.”

Once that brief introduction was done, they were all left to their own devices for a few minutes, whilst the leader of the dance team talked to the leader of the band. Jimin had let himself scan over the people he would be working with; not that he would talk to them, he was just curious and bored. Most of them had masks on – no one had really caught his eyes, except for one person. 

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The Signs and Tests

Aries: Studies kinda hard, and manages a B

Taurus: Studies wayyy harder than they need to and gets a 100%. Also does the extra credit

Gemini: Barely studies and literally breaks the scantron machine because they got 12982%

Cancer: Tries to study and falls asleep. Crams the morning before and clutches an A

Leo: Doesn’t sleep until they understand the subject and gets a bombass A

Virgo: Goes to starbucks but doesn’t actually study. Still gets 100%

Libra: BB at least you tried…

Scorpio: Doesn’t sleep all night to study and barely passes with an A ‘cuz they’re so braindead

Sagittarius: “Shit it’s 12 AM ALREADY????? Well… I’m gonna go to bed and see what the fuck happens tomorrow” 

Capricorn: Literally reads the study guide once and remembers everything and gets 100%

Aquarius: Doesn’t study. Gets a 92%. “Oh no I failed ):”

Pisces: “What is really important is that we have our health (: “

oh look, i tried to draw revali (I’m still recovering from the suicide attempt, as my body is still weak, so that’s why i don’t like the outcome of the picture)

Okay! One of my life goals has finally been accomplished! I finally drew Revali!

Okay, okay… okay… okay…. I am a horrible artist when it comes to birds, as they’ve always been my weakness, but lORDY JESUS THIS PICTURE TOOK IT’S SWEET TIME TO PISS ME OFF

The picture closed on itself without me saving more times than I can count. It doesn’t do it with ANY other picture I drew, just with this one! it’stauntingme

Anyways, have a horribly drawn Revali! 

@sonicmega tagging you because…. do I really need to explain?


(before anyone goes berserk on me, i don’t have a watermark for my tumblr so i use my deviantart watermark)

The Hybrid Under My Bed [Chapter Three]

Originally posted by apgujeon

WARNING(S): Family abuse in the first few chapters.

Genres: Angsty fluff, Mystery, Fantasy, Adventure

Pairings: Jungkook x Reader

Length: 4.6k words

Sypnosis: You were 7 year old when you met him, Jeon Jungkook, the little boy covered with bruises and dirt hiding under your bed, but little did you know that this encounter would drag you into a new morbid world full of darkness and adventures, but also unexpectedly love. (Not Requested)

BTS Jungkook hybrid!au, fantasy!au

(Third POV)

-> Prologue, Chapter One, Chapter Two, Chapter Three

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Chapter Three

*Present Day*


“(Y/N)!!” Your friend Vee shouted, snapping you back to reality. It was such a shock and so sudden that you bumped your head against the locker you were leaning onto.

You groaned, “Ugh! What the hell, Vee?” 

“I’ve been saying your name for the past ten minutes!” 

You rolled your eyes, “Stop exaggerating! You know as much as me that you would have given up within the first two minutes.”

She thought for a second, “Okay. True. You’re right, but still! Why didn’t you told me that I had a test today, huh?”

Your best friend whined, leaning her head against her locker while staring at you with a pout. “You know how much I suck at chemistry.”

“How could I know?” You raised your shoulders up, “We’re not in the same class.”

“We have the same program. You should have known about it.” She glared at you.

You sighed, “Okay, true, but I thought that you already knew that. And even if you didn’t, Jackson tried to text you about it yesterday, but you were too busy making out with Juan, oh yeah, on MY bed.”

You sent her a glare in return, crossing your arms on your chest. Juan was Vee’s boyfriend for now a year and you could see she was very happy with him, which also made you happy. Vee never had good taste in guys. She only dated assholes, bastards, fuck boys and the list goes on…

At least she was with Juan, who proved to be an excellent guy for her.

But making out on your bed? Not so excellent. You couldn’t help but shudder in disgust at the thought. What if they did it on your bed? You didn’t even wash the sheets.

Ignoring your remark, your best friend tapped her manicured nails on the navy-blue book she was holding nervously, her bluish grey eyes watching the other students around while biting her thin bottom lip, “I’m going to fail…”

“Maybe.”

You laughed when she smacked your arm.

“It’s not funny (Y/N)!”

You shrugged, “Well, if you weren’t busy sticking your mouth with Juan’s yesterday- “

“(Y/N)!!!”

You laughed even more, raising your arms in the air in an innocent posture, “Okay, okay, okay, I get it. You’re nervous. You think you’ll fail. You think you’re dumb, which is not false…” You smiled innocently when she sent you a glare, “… And you think you’ll fail the year. But you’re worrying too much, Vee. It’s just a test. I’m sure you’ll manage to get a decent grade. Alyce will still be proud that you at least tried.”

“Yeah sure, after she’s done beating up my ass that is. Oh God! I’m sorry (Y/N), it slipped!” She quickly added, seeing your body visibly tense at her words.

“It’s okay, Vee. It has been ten years ago anyway.” You shrugged, trying to relax and block away the memories of your childhood.

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welcome to the avengers, buck (bucky barnes one-shot)

Plot: You’re a mutant with the ability to control the emotions and feelings of those around you. You’re also the team medic, traveling with the team and fighting if need be. Bucky is the newest addition to the Avengers, and you try to welcome him to the team. Unfortunately, things don’t go as smoothly as you planned.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: none but I maybe cursed?

A/N: i wrote this and posted it on my sideblog, but then I stopped writing there. so i thought i’d just bring this over here and leave that blog behind. i hope you guys enjoy it! pls remember that no gifs are mine. (also pietro is alive here)

It was a little over 11 AM, and you had just woken up. You walked over to the kitchen where Clint and Natasha were groaning and holding their heads.

“What? Did a few games of beer pong not help you two?” You chuckle and begin making coffee.

“I’m telling you, that was no beer. Tony probably spiked the beer. He’s the only idiot who’d spike an alcoholic drink with more alcohol,” Clint lifted his head and covered his eyes. “Why is it so bright, Y/N? Make it stop.”

“Beer isn’t that alcoholic. Tony always likes making the party games a big deal, can you blame him for making the drink more fun?” You smile and pour out two cups of coffee for the hungover Avengers. “And Clint, babe, it’s called the sun. It’s bright because it’s the day time and I can’t stop that.”

Clint grumbles as Natasha practically inhales the coffee and holds her cup out to you, pouting as though asking for more. You sigh and pour her another cup. Just as you hand her the cup, Cap walks in with a rather rugged, scraggly looking man with a metal arm. They stand at the doorway to converse and before you get a chance to ask who he is, Nat begins talking as though reading your mind.

“Bucky Barnes,” Natasha smirked as Steve continued talking to the shaken man. “One of Cap’s oldest friends and the newest addition to the Avengers. If there’s one thing you should know about him, it’s that he’s temperamental. Stay away from him Y/N.” She downs her coffee and continues. “And don’t mention his metal arm.”

“Temperamental?” You raise an eyebrow at the Black Widow. “There isn’t a single Avenger who isn’t temperamental, Nat. If you think that I’m gonna leave our newest edition out in the cold, you’re dense. Besides, he’ll have to take his final assessment with me. He’ll be top notch before you know it.” You pour out two cups of coffee and make your way over to Steve and Bucky.

“Y/N,” Steve smiles, relieved that you’re not giving him or Bucky the cold shoulder. “This is my friend Bucky. He’ll be joining the Avengers soon.”

“Pleasure to meet you, Bucky,” you smile at the handsome brunette in front of you. “I’d shake your hand, but I’ve got coffee in both of them. Here,” you hand him a cup and Cap the other. “Welcome to the Avengers.”

“The pleasure is mine,” Bucky spoke out hoarsely. “I hope everyone is as warm and welcoming as you are.”

“I hope so too. But the Avengers are a wild bunch. They’ve been through a lot, Bucky. It’s hard for them to trust each other some times. If they come off rough, please don’t take it personally,” you place your hand on his shoulder and smile warmly.

“What’s your place in the Avengers, if you don’t mind me asking?” Bucky smiles at you and Steve looks shocked. “Steve told me your name but not much else.”

“Yeah because she walked over with coffee as I was about to go into detail,” Steve huffs and you chuckle.

“I’ve got it from here, Rogers. You go brief the other knuckle heads. I can watch over Bucky,” you smile and Steve looks at you hesitantly before nodding.

“Stay safe you two,” he yells over his shoulder as he walks over to Clint and Natasha.

“So,” you smile and look over to Bucky. “I’ve got a bit of an odd roll if we’re being honest here. I’m a doctor but I fight alongside them when they need me. There’s not much to me, to be honest.”

“I doubt that,” Bucky chuckles and looks at me oddly. “I’m never really comfortable with anyone at all, why am I so comfortable with you?” He muses and you remove your hand from his shoulder.

“S-sorry, I-I guess that’s my fault. I meant to calm you down a little, and I may have put in a little too much energy,” you bite your lip and Bucky looks at you, confused. “I have the power to control emotions, feelings.”

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“Oh,” his eyes widen briefly before hardening. “So you were trying to manipulate me, to control me like THEY did.”

“Wha-no!” Your eyes widen at his last statement as you take a step back. “I would never be so ignorant, Bucky. I can’t control my power yet. Sometimes it becomes a little overpowering.” You give him a tight lipped smile and step away some more. “I’ll keep my distance from you, but feel free to come to me if you need any help.” Without waiting for his response, you walk away. You decide it’s best to keep some distance between yourself and the handsome Winter Soldier.

A Few Months Later

Bucky’s been in the tower for a little over three months and he was doing exceptionally well. He’d overcome all the physical hurdles almost immediately. Next, Clint and Natasha worked on his reflexes and memory training. He then had to work on hand-to-hand combat with the twins, in the event that we come across anyone else with superpowers. Now, it’s time for his final assessment: his mental examination with you.

You and Bucky started off on the wrong foot, and for the first month you did all that you could to avoid him without being rude. Eventually, he caught your rift and felt this sinking feeling in his gut. He got Cap to talk to you about it, and you realized that maybe you weren’t being as subtle as you’d hoped.

Soon enough, you’d show up to his training and his assessments. You even managed to get a smile out of him as you cheered him on during his physical examination. You eventually grew a soft spot for the scruffy brunette, just as he had one for you.

And now, he’s sitting in front of you, nervous as can be.

“James, please, I can feel your heart beating a mile a minute, and I promise that I’m not using my powers,” you grab his hand and try to soothe him, human to human. “This is not going to be what you think it is. I promise.”

Buck breathes in and out, trying to relax just as you had asked of him, but he could not help it. He remembered the room he was in when HYDRA was assessing him, and this is what your room reminds him of.

You quickly catch on to his quick glances and short breaths, remembering what you read about his previous assessments.

“Oh, crap. James I’m so sorry,” you stand immediately, gathering your clipboard and a few other essentials. “Come on.”

“What?” He looks up at you, confused. “We haven’t started the assessment yet, have we? Or–oh crap! Did I already fail? W-wait no, I–”

“James, look at me. Please relax. I promise your assessment hasn’t yet started. You will not fail this, I’ve got you,” you smile warmly at him and hold out your hand. “Trust me, please.”

“Oh,” he hesitantly looks up at you, your smile almost immediately calming his nerves. He grabs a hold of your hand and nods. “Okay.”

He watches you, his gaze softer than you’d seen before. You clear your throat and look away, but his gaze lingers.

“W-what? Do I have something on my face?” You try to remove your hand from his to check your face, but Buck doesn’t let go.

“No, Y/N. I just wanted to thank you. You welcomed me warmly the first day, and here you are: saving me during my last assessment,” he smiles and kisses the back of your hand. You blush in return and nod.

“I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure you’re back and better than ever, for yourself more than anyone. Now, come on,” you whisper and slowly pull him up. “We can continue this on the roof.”

He looks at you, slightly bewildered but still happy to get out of the small room. He stands and holds on to you, scared that you’d leave him if he let go. You two walk out of the room and you smile ahead as he smiles softly down at you.

You two step into the loud dining room and all heads turn to you. Almost immediately, a hush falls over the normally rambunctious group. You and Bucky stop walking and look up to see everyone watching you, jaws practically touching the floor.

“What, you didn’t see that coming?” Pietro breaks the silence, everyone else groaning as he brings back his famous one liner.

anonymous asked:

Can we get a RFA+Saeran+v reacting to MC failing a class, crying for 20 min, and feeling like a failure because of it? I just got my grades back and I feel awful. Thank you ;;

you’re my newest anon, but I want to cheer you up( ´ ▽ ` )ノ you worked hard and did your best, anon! grades and the school system suck! keep trying! i love you!!

hope this cheers you up a little bit♥


zen

  • okay, today was the day. it was going to be fine. everything was going to be fine. 
  • mc opened their laptop and went onto the school website. it was time to check their grades 
  • zen was home, reading through his scripts on the couch beside them
  • *click* school homepage *click* ‘view my grades’ page
  • close their eyes while the screen loads aaaaaaand…
  • they failed. oh. 
  • “I’ll be right back.” mc said to zen before getting up and going to the bathroom
  • they started crying as soon as they closed the door. they really needed to pass that class and they didn’t 
  • mc should’ve tried harder. should’ve done more. anything
  • 20 minutes later, zen opened the door and picked them up, carrying them back to the couch
  • the laptop was off and a cup of hot chocolate was on the table 
  • he sat down with mc in his lap and kissed their head
  • “i saw your screen…and i would’ve came earlier, but i wanted to make something to cheer you up first so i can just hold you…”
  • mc snuggled into zen and sniffled, thanking him
  • “it’s alright, mc. this is only a small setback. you’re still going to do amazing things and i’ll be with you every step of the way”

yoosung

  • knows the feeling, but he’s been doing better lately 
  • they check their grades at the same time and yoosung passed, but mc didn’t 
  • yoosung looks up from the screen and sees mc crying
  • he knows what happened and goes over to pull them into a hug 
  • they sit like that, yoosung hugging mc and mc crying for 20 minutes
  • “i failed..” mc finally says. “i’m such a-” yoosung cuts them off
  • “no you are not. you had a teacher who’s style was unclear and you did your best, i’m proud of you”
  • “but yoosung, i failed.” “i’m still proud of you. it’s alright to fail sometimes. this class is a hard class to understand anyways.”
  • he makes their favorite dinner while he sits mc on the counter and keeps on saying stuff like this 
  • basically, he is The Most Supportive 
  • yoosung felt this way before, he doesn’t want mc to feel it too”
  • kisses their nose and feeds them himself
  • “i mean it, okay? this is not going to stop you.”

jaehee

  • jaehee got home to find mc on the couch crying
  • she immediately runs over and asks what’s wrong
  • mc just points to the laptop screen
  • jaeheee sees that mc failed a class
  • she frowns and closes the laptop, picking mc’s face up to look at her
  • pecks their lips. “a grade does not capture your excellence. your personality, and your worth. it’s alright”
  • mc is actually kind of shook
  • they did not expect that 
  • they give jaehee a tight hug, which is returned
  • jaehee decides to go out for the night to make sure mc is cheered up
  • they go to dinner and an arcade, just for fun
  • mc forgets about the grade by the end of the night
  • “see?” jaehee says with a smile, “you’re more than a letter and a percent”

jumin

  • he found mc hugging elizabeth when he got home
  • this is normal, but elizabeth makes a noise that lets jumin know that mc is sad
  • so he kneels down to them and tilts his head
  • “what’s wrong, my love?” “i failed my class, jumin..”
  • they’ve been crying. he can tell by their tone
  • crawls into bed with mc and elizabeth and proceeds to be the big spoon
  • plays with mc’s hair and whispers sweet nothings to them to help calm them down
  • and then he turns them around to face him. elizabeth gets off the bed
  • “don’t be so upset about a grade, my love. you can try again next time. and you are not a failure, you had a rough time. you’re working so hard, this doesn’t diminish your efforts”
  • mc manages a smile and moves closer to jumin
  • “thank you, honey bunny” “of course. now come on, i’ll make you some tea and we can take a warm bath”
  • “that sounds amazing”

707 / luciel / saeyoung

  • bursts into mc’s room and automatically gives them a hug
  • mc doesn’t even need to tell him, he just comforts them while they cry
  • “you know…grades are at the bottom of the list of things people look at”
  • mc sighs, smiling lightly, but seven gets the hint
  • “besides. you’re a person, not a number. I’d know. i actually was a number”
  • they smile a little more, it’s also a more real smile
  • while they smile, saeyoung wipes their tears
  • mc pulls him into a hug, which he returns gladly
  • “can we cuddle?” they ask and he nods
  • “i think its time for a disney marathon”
  • saeyoung cheers mc up by acting as various disney characters and singing the songs as well
  • grinned so wide when mc joined him, so did mc

v / jihyun

  • a rare occurrence where v decides to visit
  • but he came at a bad time, apparently, because mc was crying
  • he frowned, “did someone hurt you?”
  • mc couldn’t help but be honest for a second “the school system?”
  • v realizes what happened now
  • he smiles sympathetically and makes them tea, talking about how grades are more like limits
  • “you know…i failed a few classes before.”
  • mc is surprised, “really?” “really. i failed an art class before”
  • “wait wait, you failed an art class?”
  • he nodded. “teacher didn’t like my style. I also can’t work a paintbrush”
  • they talk for an hour, ending up cuddling and with another cup of tea
  • mc learned a lot that day. both about v and about grades
  • they feel a lot better after all that
  • “thanks, jihyun..”
  • “im just telling the truth. grades are important, but they aren’t everything. and they can lead people to misunderstand you. you can try again, but you did not fail anything. i believe in you”

saeran

  • he was looking for mc and couldn’t find them
  • finally found them when he heard crying from the bathroom
  • knocks on the door, “mc…are you alright?”
  • “oh i’m fine saeran..just give me a second” 
  • then he remembers that school just ended and grades were just released
  • “…was it your grades?” there was a small sob in response
  • he goes to open the door and finds mc on the floor, wiping their tears
  • saeran kneels down and cups their face “what happened?”
  • “i failed, saeran…”
  • he frowned and kissed their forehead, “it’s alright….you can’t be good at everything. and this happens sometimes. a grade or a class does not define you.”
  • now he helps them off the floor
  • “come on, we’ll cuddle and watch those cute videos you like. I’ll get the ice cream”
  • mc smiles a bit, “thank you, saeran..”
Bold

Originally posted by fyeah-twice

Chaeyoung x Reader

Fluff, Highschool AU

Requested

Word Count: 1030

Written by Admin LJ

(Author’s Note: I started writing this on Valentine’s Day so here have some Valentine’s cuteness with Chaeng also Knock Knock came out today bye I’m gone)

“Come to the dance with me.”

You thought Valentine’s Day was a dumb holiday, with the sappy romance and cheesy gifts, but apparently no one else held the same opinion as every student in school buzzed around excitedly, looking for a date for the Valentine’s Day dance your school was throwing in celebration of the special day. When you first heard the announcement about the dance, you couldn’t help but shudder at the thought of dozens of couples together in one big room, kissing and flirting. You had no intention of going, even if someone asked you. It just wasn’t your thing.

 So when Chaeyoung asked you to accompany her to the dance, you rolled you eyes. “No way,” You said firmly, not even looking up from your lunch, “the dance is a stupid idea, and I have much better things to do than be around gross, overly romantic couples. And besides, why would I ever want to go to a Valentine’s dance with you?”

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Buddies

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

A/N: Part two! Literally couldn’t think of how this story could have gone any other way. Just a little more insight of how the reader and Sebastian feel about this situation, basically a filler chapter. Just don’t want things to move too fast, you know? Like the feelings and all that… Wanna build up to them a little bit. I can’t guarantee when the next part will be up. I’m a little lost with the plot.

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x reader

Words: 3,823

Warning: mentions of sex, some talk about Seb looking like a “creepy uncle” when filming I, Tonya, hopefully that isn’t triggering, didn’t mean anything bad by it,  just meant a dude who’s a little weird, creepy, whatever.


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Promptly Prompted.

“A non-canon moment where Jamie and Claire are doing the same thing at the same time, he in the past and she in the future. They each can feel the other’s presence and are able to talk to each other, just for a moment.”

Here we go, folks. FIRST EVER PROMPT. Thanks for the nudge @romancoin

This takes place in two chapels at midnight: Claire in the chapel she finds solace in (St Finbar? Yes, no? Or is that just the dude’s school in Prince Caspian? Cuz I thunk I just made that up.) in Boston, Jamie in the tiny village chapel in Broch Mordha. Claire begins her first day of doctoral training in the morning, Jamie will hand himself over to the Redcoats come first light. Both come to find peace in their decision.

For some reason the chanting chorus of “Our Love is God” keeps going thru my head as I write this. ( @bonnie-wee-swordsman I’m looking at you) Mostly just the phrase “our love is god”, the rest of the song only tangentially applies.

“You’re not alone… when the morning comes… we’ll plant our garden here… our love is god.”


Claire.
My hand slid along the wooden banister as I made my way towards the rows of candles. Their soft glow drew me in, setting my battered soul at ease.

It always did and I could never explain it. Something about the place seem to transcend the barrier of time. Having crossed that divide myself, it was comforting to be in a place that would have looked much the same two hundred years earlier.

Frank had scoffed at my need to come here, but that only firmed my resolve to do so. “You have your first lecture at eight a.m., are you really going to leave the house in the middle of the night?”

I couldn’t sleep. I might as well be here.

I lit a candle, whispering the centuries-old words into the silence of the empty chapel.

Kneeling, I closed my eyes and pictured him standing in front of me.

Blood of my blood, bone of my bone.

“Can you see her?” I asked the man who lived in my dreams, who would always live in my heart. “She’s beautiful and so like you. Its unnerving sometimes, how much her expressions mimic yours. Especially when she smiles. She has your smile, Jamie, and those blue Fraser eyes.”

Wiping the tears from my cheeks, I asked again, “Do you see us from where you are?”

Jamie.
I had to come. Not because I feared what lay ahead, nor out of the need to be absolved of my sin. I couldn’t put a name as to why, but I knew I had to be here.

The large wooden doors were unlocked. The small stone chapel had been here for generations and the priest who currently oversaw the parish felt that none should be barred entry to the House of God. I slid into the dark, cool interior of the chapel and stood listening to make certain I was alone.

I walked down the center aisle in the darkness towards a small flickering candle, the reverberating silence urging me forward. Taking the long taper, I lit a second, smaller candle from the flame of the first. I watched the tiny flame flicker and grow as I recited the words in Latin from memory. This rote recitation finished, my eyes slid shut, my knees resting on the cold stone floor.

I give ye my spirit, ‘til our life shall be done.

She stood in front of me, holding our child. My son or daughter would be seven, of an age with Jenny’s twins. My heart yearned to know if Claire had birthed a son or a daughter, and yet I knew it didn’t matter. They were safe, spared from the destruction and famine that overwrought the Highlands following Culloden.

“I see the two of ye everywhere, Sassenach,“ I spoke aloud. “I see our bairn in wee Michael and Janet. I see yer smile in the stars of a night.”

Claire.
Something was different, yet nothing had changed from one moment to the next. I was still alone in the darkness. I could hear nothing but the clatter of my heart as it leapt into action, responding to a sudden surge of emotion.

I came to my feet, looking round. He was here. I knew he was.

“Jamie?” my voice trembled as I said his name for the first time in years.

Aye, mo nighean donn, I’m here wi’ ye. I made tha’ vow wi’ my blood an’ I intend to keep it. I will always be wi’ ye, ‘til yer life be done and it isna done yet, Sassenach.

The tears surged down my cheeks in earnest now and I did nothing to keep them in check. There was no one to see them, save the man who had dried them many times before.

“Oh, Jamie.” I sighed, words failing me.

Soon, Claire. I promise ye that ‘twill be soon.

“Where are you?” My arms opened wide, my soul torn into two. “Jamie, I need you!”

I need ye too, Sassenach.

My body shook with every word as I shouted them into the blank darkness.“Then me when, you bloody Scot! When will I see you again?”

I canna say, for I dinna ken. But ken this, mo nighean donn, no’ even death can keep me from loving you.

“Nor I you,” I whispered back, every ounce of anger gone.


an deireadh / the end

10

I can see you’ve made a friend…You poor dear, you’re surrounded by all of these godless devils, who no doubt wish you were dead….Yes, but you’re in France now, and you conspired against the French king. You have overplayed your hand, and you will suffer the consequences. Those are Charles’s words, they’re not mine…I’m afraid that Philip, he’s a little bit busy at the moment planning an attack on England. I intercepted this message sent by your beloved husband, in which he informs you that, due to a little naval skirmish with the English, those ships are needed elsewhere. They won’t be coming to help Henri overthrow his brother after all. So your coup has failed…Oh, I think Charles sees it a bit differently. He’s going to take your head for this, and I can’t stop him…I can get you out of France, but it’s gonna cost you and Spain a very long list of favors.

‘FROOT’ Lyric References

FRUIT

Froot - “Like fruit

Better Than That – Like poisoned fruit

 

 

APPLE

Froot – “Like an apple you forgot”

Girls – “My apple pie”

Better Than That – “She’s the apple of everybody’s eye”

 

 

BIRD

Froot – Birds and worms”

Living Dead – Bird’s eye view”

I’m a Ruin – Bird in flight”

 

 

ROSE

Froot – “Bloody rose

E.V.O.L. – “Milk and roses”

 

 

BLOODY

Froot – Bloody rose”

Hubba – “All bloody and torn”

 

 

SNOW

Froot – “Summer snow

Rootless – “Roots through the snow

Plastic Rainbow – “Face of white snow

 

 

FALL

I’m a Ruin – “I am afraid I’ll fall

Oh No! – “If I fail, I’ll fall apart”

 

 

FLOWER

I’m a Ruin – “Like a flower

Bad Kidz – “If you gave us a flower

Froot – “I’m your carnal flower

Solitaire – “I see flowers so tall”

Immortal – “I wanna be a silk flower

Weeds – “All the flowers”

 

 

FREE

I’m a Ruin – “But I wanna be free

Happy – “Like I was free

Lies – “She’ll set you free

Gold – “I am free

Daddy Was a Sailor – “I was free

 

 

GOODBYE

Blue – “I said goodbye

I’m a Ruin – “It’s difficult to say goodbye

 

 

REGRET

Blue – “Now I regret it”

Forget – “Ain’t no time for regret

 

 

FORGET

Blue – “But I can’t forget it”

Forget – Forget about it”

 

 

WIN

Forget – “Counting every win

Mowgli’s Road – “Will that guarantee you a win?”

Blindfold Me – “Don’t wanna win

 

 

FAIL

Forget – “Counting every win and fail

Oh No! – “If I fail

 

 

DEVIL

Forget – “I’ve been dancing with the devil

Hermit the Frog – “I can’t help the devil

Better Than That – Devil in disguise”

 

 

FIGHT

Forget – “I believe everything was worth the fight

Lies – “To believe it’s all been worth the fight

I’m a Ruin – “An easy fight

Hermit the Frog – “Hard to fight the feeling”

 

 

HAND

Gold – “Palm of your hands”

Troubled Mind – “Need to fill these hands”

Radioactive – “Reach for my hand

 

CLOWN

Can’t Pin Me Down – “I can be your clown

Hermit the Frog – “Crown of clowns”

 

 

BLUFF

Can’t Pin Me Down – “You can’t call my bluff

Mowgli’s Road – “King of the jungle calls my bluff

 

 

CENTURY

Can’t Pin Me Down – “In the 21stcentury

Teen Idle – “A 21stcentury whore”

 

 

DIAMOND

Solitaire – “Like a diamond

Primadonna – “Buy a big diamond ring”

The Family Jewels – “Coal to diamonds”

 

 

COAL

Solitaire – “Like coal

The Family Jewels – Coal to diamonds”

Daddy Was a Sailor – “Covered in coal dust”

 

 

BLACK

Solitaire – Black like coal”

Living Dead – “Into a black balloon”

Are You Satisfied? – Black, white”

 

 

GLITTER

Solitaire – “Cheap shimmer and glitter

Living Dead – Glittering mist”

Troubled Mind – “Hate the glitter

 

 

WHITE

Solitaire – White like a diamond”

Plastic Rainbow – “Face of white snow”

Are You Satisfied? – “Black, white

Troubled Mind – “Wipe the white golden dust”

 

 

FAKE

Solitaire – “And all the fakes”

How to Be a Heartbreaker – “It’s better to be fake

Radioactive – “On a fake beach”

Teen Idle – “A real fake

Blindfold Me – “I’ll fake it”

 

 

DIRT

Solitaire – “Covered in the dirt

Plastic Rainbow – “Down in the dirt

 

 

GARDEN

Solitaire – “Like a beautiful garden

Weeds – “Could’ve filled a garden

 

 

POWER

Better Than That – “It’s a power

Power & Control – Power and control”

 

 

SELF-ESTEEM

Better Than That – “She’s got low self-esteem

Blue – “Good self-esteem

Troubled Mind – “Kids who have low self-esteem

 

 

DREAM

Better Than That – “Another dream come true”

Blue – “Gimme dreams”

Troubled Mind – “Murdered the dream

Are You Satisfied? – “Marina’s a dreamer”

 

 

CREAM

Better Than That – “Looking like the cat who got the cream

Are You Satisfied? – “The cat who got the cream

 

 

HISTORY

Weeds – “The problem with history

Sex Yeah – “If history could”

Immortal – “In history

 

 

ROOT

Weeds – “Cut him at the root

Rootless – “For a root

 

GOD

Weeds – “And God knows”

Immortal – “Like a God

Savages – “I’m not afraid of God

Teen Idle – “Oh, God!”

Hollywood – “Oh, my God!”

 

 

RACE

Savages – “In the human race

Immortal – “Part of the human race

 

 

GUN

Savages – “Shoot a gun

I’m a Ruin – “A flower in a gun

The Outsider – “I can work a gun

 

 

MURDER

Savages – Murder lives forever”

Troubled Mind – Murdered the dream”

E.V.O.L. – “A murdered afternoon”

 

 

DIE

Immortal – “Everybody dies”

Are You Satisfied? – “And feel I want to die

Teen Idle – “Oh God, I’m gonna die alone”

 

 

START

Immortal – “From the end to the start

Living Dead – “Waiting for my life to start

Electra Heart – “Go back to the start