oh-gosh-this-was-so-so-good-i-loved-it-so-much

anonymous asked:

2 years ago today i found ur ig on my explore page (idek how i remember that) and honestly im so glad i found u when i did, seeing ur style grow so much and how much u've changed (in a good way ofc) its just so cool cuz i remember i was like 13 and struggling w gender and ur such a role model for me! u also made my clothes look a bit better than the trashy jayjays clothes i was wearin before lol... this is a lil embarrassing but i wanted tobe u so bad... lil random but i just wanted to tell u !

oh my gosh baby this makes me so happy to hear, tbh when i could still fit into them i LOVED jay jays jeans they lasted for years tru quality i love them. But really this just ah! It makes me so happy that i can like indirectly like inspire people like that ;;;u;;;;;;;
however! i can assure you that being me hoOOOOO boy babydoll trust me no you do not, i dont even want to be me haha (there’s a lot like A LOT i dont share online haha (’: )
you should only ever want to be yourself because while I dont know you personally from this message alone I can tell you have a wonderful heart and i wish you so much luck for the future xxxx

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Bix Approved.

I just feel like the rest of Raijinshuu would hella cheer for Freed and Laxus

anonymous asked:

dicta do you have any larry fic recs? nothing specific but just any fic that you loved a lot? thank you, your opinion on fics means a lot to me, and i feel like you'd probably know the really good ones!

Oh my gosh anon I love the wording of this ask so much. I’ve been meaning to make a larry rec list for going on a year but it just feels so official/overwhelming? But this, fic I loved a lot??? I can absolutely do that!!! and aaaaah there are SO MANY!!! I am not as organized about larry fic as drarry fic so this is, basically, like, a list of fics that stuck in my brain and/or heart and that are all so so good. SO GOOD! (and tbh there’s a whole other list of stuff that i’d rec but would want to reread before attempting commentary, and I have so many things marked for later and like….yeah….there’s a lot of good fic out there) And really, what better rec is there than “this is a fic that stuck in my brain and/or heart”?? Everyone should read them all!!

an act of faith against the night by @elianefics- M, 65k - It’s a clear path, drawing itself in Harry’s mind – where they began, how they ended up here. It’s not hard to convey all the events that led them to this very moment, with all of their twists and turns, not when Harry has been going through them again and again every night, albeit searching for something else.  “Did you know?” When Harry replies, it’s a question, not an answer. “Did you know, that it would end like this?” [Harry and Louis had never imagined that, when they would finally go back to New York, it would be as spies.] (part two of the landscapes of war series)

  • The war from ‘a prayer for which no words exist’ (recced below!) is over, or at least as over as war can be for the people who were there, which is to say….not all that over, just taking different shape. I have endless love for the way this fic treats that aftermath, the way it shows how deeply and irreversibly harry and Louis were shaped by being fighters, and it is a stunning mix of beautiful prose and important ethical questions. It also does some really fascinating meta work with Simon Cowell, the Azoffs, and the Cordens taking on central roles in the post-war nation-building project. It’s a lot for one fic to do, and this one manages it beautifully, and throws in some more beautiful NYC cityscapes, heartaching and conflicted nostalgia, and taut but unwavering H/L love, you know, just for good measure.

another hazy may by deLILAh - M, 41k - louis is a terrible poet and harry lives in the now and they have six weeks to fall in love but, really, it only takes six seconds. bookshop meets military meets summer romance au ft. marlboros, the backstreet boys, and underrated literary devices.

  • It’s been over a year since I’ve properly read this all the way and I can still see parts of it as vividly as if it had been last night. Harry’s hair, cigarette smoke curling upwards, hardwood floors, the rhythm of Harry’s feet as he runs to stay in shape for the job that will take him away from Louis, the feeling of seconds slipping away, and each of them more precious for being so few in number. This is one of those fics that made me nostalgic for somewhere I’d never been - except who hasn’t felt as though time was moving simultaneously quickly and too slowly, as though there is something precious that could fall apart at any second? And that’s one of many things this fic does beautifully: gives us the universality of their story, and reminding us of our own.

Auf Wiedersehen, Sweetheart by @conscious–ramblings - M, 19k - Louis and Harry had been childhood best friends, but had been separated by evacuation as the city they grew up in was destroyed around them. Now, twelve years later, they are both back in London, and through chance they meet again. In a time when you can’t admit to being gay, for fear of arrest, admitting to your best friend that you love them seems like an insurmountable obstacle.Featuring boxer Harry and mechanic Louis, much pining, and a lot of post war Britain

  • There’s often a moment in fic where they’re trying to figure out if the other one is gay and/or available, that’s full of a certain kind of tentative hope because there’s some kind of attraction there and what if, what if it was everything they think it might be? This fic takes that to 11 in the most meaningful way, because it’s the 40s, and being gay is a crime, and it’s not a question of whether they’re reading the right signals - neither of them can afford to send any - but of trying to accept that it could never, can never be. Set against absolutely simmering chemistry (the moment Louis first sees Harry in the ring is a thing I’m still not over) and wonderful research and settings (loved the feel of it, the way it all came to life, how present the remnants of the war were as they went about their lives) and fab secondary characters (Niall is a gem, and Liam is so how I think of him, and really everyone was just perfect) and this incredible click where you can feel the ease and understanding between them, feel the sense that they are destined and absolutely belong together…it takes that tension and longing, already at an 11, to a 12, and the ending is cathartic and beautiful and means so much more for knowing how rare and lucky and precious that moment is, and how much they’re willing to risk, and how it’s kinds of risk that are sometimes very specific to being queer in a moment when it’s illegal and how many of them are universal, and how incredible and enormous and moving a thing it is when both kinds of risk pay off.

Don’t Look Down by zarah5 - M, 92k - AU. In which Louis is a solicitor at one of London’s most prestigious law firms and Harry happens to apply for the position as his trainee. And everyone else is around, too.

  • Harry is unbelievably charming here, and it makes total sense that Louis falls for him, and as the story unfolds the clarity and meaningfulness of their connection gets more and more apparent even as Louis is fighting it tooth and nail. But it’s not miscommunication and it’s not self-loathing, it’s that Louis’ reasons are genuinely thoughtful and important (professional ethics!!!!!! With real implications!!!!) and that they’re genuinely in a difficult position and can’t be together without betraying things that mean a lot to both of them, which made me love this version of him even more and root for them that much harder. And I was already rooting for them pretty damn hard. They fit together beautifully from the first, understand each other on so many levels, are drawn together just magically…and then there are these beautiful moments (Venice omg) and heart-wrenching moments (after that dinner and that one morning and then that other one omg) and hold-your-breath moments (what is Louis gonna dooooo) and heart-pounding momebts, and I could not put it down.

Fake you’re full and feel tomorrow by theglitterbee - NC-17, 21k - Louis is a high class prostitute and the best at what he does. Harry is a hard to please 17 year old who wants to give himself completely to another man. [It contains prostitution, d/s, daddy kink, silly banter and two idiots in love.](The one with the text messages.)

  • listen this is gonna sound like a weird rec but bear with me. this fic was one of the first 1d fics I read, and on face is almost entirely made of things i don’t like, and yet, here it is. It did that alchemical thing where it just worked and it did all these things really well - like daddy kink was 100% squick for me before this and it’s still like 80% squick but this fic explained it in such a way that i got it and could understand it and see why it worked for them and what it meant for them and that psychology made it work (and made me get why it was hot? which is pretty massive for something in the squick category). and i was hesitant about their ages but it wound up being (i think not unrealistically) part of a fundamental kind of self-discovery that was part of why things between them felt so critical and important. and i was v skeptical about social media stuff in fic but this one did it so well that i got it and felt like it really enriched the story and showed a particular kind of progress and dynamic in their interactions that needed to be done that way (and wound up being really cool and impressive). and i was nervous about the potential for the dynamics to not work but they are both full people who needed each other in this very specific way and fit together beautifully and it did some of the best stuff kink fics do imo, where the kink reveals something about who they are and what they need and why they work and who they are individually and together, and so here we are, a fic with tags i wouldn’t usually touch, reccing away and considering a reread. this kind of rec can be kind of ~, i know, but the tl;dr is that this fic is so good it overcame every hesitation and left me totally engaged and impressed and invested.

Hold Me Closer by balanceds - NC-17, 36.5k - Louis Tomlinson is one of the most promising dancers of the English National Ballet, on track to become the youngest principal dancer in the company’s history. That is, until forces conspire to significantly complicate his life, including: a surprise ballet, an unfairly attractive guest choreographer, and being pushed into a rivalry with his best mate. Featuring lots of wine, dancing, pining, and a happy ending.

  • I was so surprised when I looked up the word count for this bc I would have sworn it was at least twice as longc there is so much story, and so much development, and so many moments that stick that. Watching Louis come to terms with who he was as a dancer and and person was this beautiful process that was so rewarding to read, and it was unusual and fresh in this way I really want to talk about but really don’t want to spoil. Along the way there is spectacular chemistry, zayn and Louis taking on gay swan lake, so much yearning and despair and happiness and reckoning and growth, an amazing and deeply satisfying Simon moment, and one of those h/l relationships where they make each other strong.

like a boomerang by @youwilll- M, 52k - AU in which Harry gets trapped in a lift, Louis gets stuck in a Wednesday, and it’s always February 2nd. Until it isn’t.

  • This fic is so so utterly charming in like nine different ways. Harry and Louis slot together so beautifully you can practically hear the click, and then they do it again and again and somehow every time feels fresh and important, and through it all the stakes get bigger as Louis contemplates the meaning of their repeated day and all of these deep questions sneak in, and a bit of a mystery, and a bunch of self-discovery, and a bunch of personal growth as Louis learns and thinks, really thinks, about what he needs to do, and realizes how willing he is to do it. It was so perfectly balanced between being gentle and exciting, between destiny and action, between grand gestures and quiet moments, and it settled like a warm blanket and I looked forward to every chapter so much.  And then, at the end…it was one of those stories that made me want to add and place to my travel list because the relevant moments are so well located and satisfying that you just want to be there, and it captured this particular instant - the way it wound sound and smell and how the air would feel and the electricity of it - so vividly. Lovely through and through.

Love Is A Human Right by @conscious–ramblings- M, 41k - The one where Louis has spent years getting over his ex, Harry Styles, and was almost successful. That is until Harry is elected as an MP, and Louis is given the task of getting him to support an Act of Parliament. Through tears and arguments and a heavy dose of LGBTQ+ politics, their lives finally line up. Will Louis be able to forgive? Will they still want the same thing? It’s difficult to let go of five years of hurt, but even more difficult to be close to the love of your life and let them walk away again.

  • This fic is basically everything I want in a fic, but together so amazingly well that I would never be able to put into a prompt because it’s the *how* that makes it so perfect. I mean, politics, check, LGBTQ politics, check, larry, check, vivid settings, check, emotional stakes, check, pining, check, everything, check. But the kicker is the beautiful complexity to all of it, that the story really truly understands the complexity of coming out and why people  do and why they don’t and what it mean and how it works and the ways it plays out in queer communities, and these gay leads aren’t incidentally gay, but engaged in identity and politics in a way that feels true and resonant, and that manages to both say really important things about queer communities and tell a beautiful love story about coming to terms with who you are and what you stand for and how love shapes (but doesn’t always determine, and I love that about this fic too) your priorities. Then add some simmering UST and simmering RST (hot damn i mean really) and viscerally, deliciously painful pining and hilarious side plots (SGIL!! Ziam!! Nick’s guessing games!!) and a background story that had my heart twisting for them from the first and settings that felt so real they were popping back into my head for weeks and just…superb. Superb.

a prayer for which no words exist by @elianefics - M, 65k - “Louis is a few seconds away from blowing up a rather important section of the New York subway when he sees Harry for the first time.” (part one of the landscapes of war series)

  • War!AU in NYC! Another one that I will admit fit my interests beautifully but it’s the execution that makes it work so beautifully. From the second they meet, there’s an urgency and fragility to Harry and Louis’ relationship that is a perfect fit for the politics and the newness of it all. At the same time, their connection is so certain and solid, and whether they’re waking up in the Brooklyn penthouse loft that I am still not over or getting ready to run into battle, their love casts everything else into relief and brings out some of he human consequences to why people fight and what they have to gain or lose, and shows what all they’re risking. Left me breathless in the best ways, and so glad to have gone on this journey.

Pull Me Under by zarah5 - NC-17, 140k - AU. As the first British footballer to come out at the prime of his career,  it helps that Louis Tomlinson is in a long-term, committed  relationship. Even if that relationship is fake. (Featuring Niall as Louis’ favourite teammate, Liam as Louis’ agent, and Zayn as Liam’s boyfriend, who just happens to be good friends with one Harry Styles.)

  • This was the fic that tipped me right over the precipice and properly into the fandom; how could I not rec it? Even if I wasn’t personally attached, how could I not rec it? It’s so bloody beautiful, watching Louis come to terms with the idea of being out, and to take steps towards it, and to see how his interactions with Harry change that and what develops between them. The pacing is amazing, the depiction of internalized homophobia is chest-tightening in the good illustrative moving way, the world is so immersive (like I went to get the link and 20 minutes later I was still reading and totally entranced), and their relationship 100% made my heart sing, in both the big triumphant moments and the little ones.

things have gotten closer to the sun by starseas - M, 49k - it’s strange, making the choice to face his past—it almost feels like he’s heading for the sun straight on, like he’s screaming come on and burn me, i deserve it.-when a solar flare is announced to end the world in twelve days, harry reunites with the people that he used to know better than the back of his own hand.

  • I’m not even entirely sure what to say about this fic that won’t give it away or send people running because here’s the thing: it is heartbreaking. It is worth it. It is sad, yes. It is also exhilarating and beautiful and about why love, platonic and romantic, makes the risks worthwhile, and how we know, viscerally know what is important to us. Real talk pt. 1: read it because I had terrible pms and really needed to cry. Real talk pt. 2: it worked, in that very particular way thar also made me sit and think about who and what is really important and had me sobbing in the best, most cathartic way. That lasting, deep way that’s making my chest a little tight just thinking about it, but that also means that I can smell the snow and feel the frost and see the brilliance of the sun and feel the boys’ love as - more - constant than the sun, and what the heck else could you ask for?

These Inconvenient Fireworks by mdasch and everydayslike - NC-17, 190k - Future AU in which nobody tries out for X Factor but the boys end up finding one other eventually anyway. Louis is a jaded bastard who owns a cat named Duchess and teaches drama to teenagers, Harry is an idealistic aspiring photographer/part-time footy coach, Zayn teaches English lit and wears leather jackets, Liam saves people from burning buildings, and Niall is Niall.

  • this is one of the top ten most affecting things i have ever read in my life. i don’t know how. i don’t know why. i do know that i couldn’t put it down for days and wound up finishing it in a blanket fort on a friend’s couch at 4am, literally doing that feet-kicking thing where you’re so full of feelings you can’t actually physically contain it but have to be quiet and still because the rest of the world is asleep during your emotional revelation. it restored my faith in love and hope. i am still not recovered from the thing on the soccer field at night before the train or the star tattoo or harry taking picture after picture or basically anything about it. clear your calendar if you have to but read this fic and then pls come talk to me about it because like i said i am deeply affected and possibly forever changed.

walk my days on a wire by sunshiner - M, 38.5k - Harry hums, staring at his hands in his lap, and Louis can still feel their smoothness, how solid they were in between his own. “Do you think it’s the same for us? Are we here only because of the likeliness of our jobs? Of our lives?”
“We’re here because we have inventive managers,” Louis says, giving Harry’s leg a little nudge with his knee, but all that’s going around in his head is, I think I’d be in the same spot in every possible universe.  or, when actor Louis Tomlinson used to daydream about dating Harry Styles, this is not what he had in mind.

  • There’s this one moment in Cannes when they kiss and I both really want to talk about it bc it is amazing and really would not dream of talking about bc you have to go read it yourself. So like the summary suggests, they’re in a fake relationship, and they know that that’s what it’s supposed to be, but of course - of course - there’s more to it than that. Like instantly more in this way that you can feel rolling off the screen, that is about sexual chemistry but also a certain kind of very precious fitting together. Watching them see themselves through each others eyes is beautiful, as is seeing how much it means to them to have someone else who understands the pressured of this rarefied, panopticonic world of celebrity, and who loves and validates the ott celeb performer and the human underneath the facade. It’s interesting to read in the context of this fandom, and entirely universal at the same time - who doesn’t want a partner who can love them at their most extreme and most mundane, most accomplished and most afraid, right in the middle of a stadium or right in the middle of taking up the whole damn bed?

whispering of fields half-sown by @elianefics- PG-13, 7k - “And how ironic is it that even now, at the end of all things, Louis’ mere presence makes Harry want to believe that anything is possible again. That the earth isn’t close to collapsing on itself, that the tomorrows are bright and shining and full of promises. Harry hates Louis for giving him something to look forward to when the sky only keeps getting darker. Harry loves Louis for it. ”[All of his boys come back to him in the end, but it’s Louis, Harry has been waiting for all this time.]

  • heartbreaking, lush, moving apocalypse!fic wherein it is absolutely the case that through fire and water and earthquakes and ice, there is one person Harry needs by his side. There’s Liam and Niall and Zayn, too, and what it would mean for all of them to say goodbye, really goodbye, who they all are and what those friendships mean. And Louis. Oh, Louis. My eyes got mysteriously damp in the really good way, and it made me want to sit down and write just to make words like this. The conversation at the end of this stayed with me like whoa, and my chest is getting a little tight thinking about it again. That may make some people want to X it off the list; think twice before you do. This is worth it.

Young & Beautiful by velvetoscar - M, 227.5k - Louis, to his horror, attends an elitist university in which the name Zayn Malik means something, Niall Horan doesn’t stop talking, there are pianos everywhere, and Harry Styles, only son of a drug-addled, clinically insane ex-rocker, has a perfect smile and empty eyes.

  • absolutely beautiful. so vivid i dreamt about it and then went and got a whole bunch of flowers and spent a while wandering around in fancy clothes just because it felt as though i was already living in the story so why not? And how could you not want to be part of this world that is complex and nuanced and subtle and gorgeous (which is not a way i expected to feel about a fic about rich kids btw but this fic makes them so full and the story so engaging that it happened and not only a little). Dimensional characters, wonderful tension, simmering slow burn, complexity, believable and complex psychological motivations,  theme parties, a falcon named cleopatrick, long nights, loaded touches, meaningful subplots, love, resilience. The only possible complaint is it made me want a champagne fountain, and that is not any sort of complaint at all. (lmk if you have a champagne fountain though, it’s been a few weeks and i am really still about wanting to live inside this fic, and also champagne)
Golden Hearts - Dean Winchester x Reader (Single father AU)

Dean Winchester. Single Father of two amazing twins. Love of your life. Your boss and… teacher?

“I’m telling you Sam-” Dean breathed out a chuckle “She’s amazing!” he couldn’t fight the grin at the thought of your image.

“And the girls- gosh they love her so much! And she- she is so good with them. You should just see her. Mary had made a total mess of the living room when she was helping Sammy brush her teeth but- but instead of being angry she just cleaned it up!”

Sam chuckled shrugging softly “Sounds great then.”

“Oh she is, Sam! And- and it’s not that but she- she is literally so great with everything. All of the things she loves she just- she is so gentle and caring and-”

“Everything to make her a good catch huh?” Sam smirked, raising an eyebrow at his brother “Why do sound pretty smitten huh?”

“I’m- I’m- No, Sam I am just stating facts. You should- you should see them all three. Man, I’m telling you she’d be a wonderful mother one day. And- and it’s not just the kids- If you saw her how interested she is in class and eager to learn, especially when it comes to all the biochemical stuff. You know how I even hated those.”

“Wait- what?!”

~*~

THIS IS A SNEAK PEEK. Focusing mainly on the Single Father part with this story, when it comes that is, but we will get a few sneak peeks of the (not so big mind it) age gap, the whole proffesor stuff and all. Those sweaters are just asking for it.

cactinouis  asked:

i finished the song of achilles yesterday night and no book has ever destroyed me like this.., who even need feelings anyway, please if you have headcanons about patrochilles to share or anything tsoa to share im willing to cry

Oh my gosh I have so many thoughts about Song of Achilles (and have forced them on so many. I cannot tell you the amount of people who hate me for making them read this book)

  • please give me all of the patrochilles friendship where they love each other so deeply and are already folded into each others lives before they even start dating
  • it is so natural for them to start dating, and they realize their relationship has always been heading towards this immense something between them that was fate 
  • Achilles knowing just how much Patroclus makes him a better person, and always calling him his better half 
  • Patroclus always calling Achilles petal as his endearment, and it started as a joke, but now Achilles feels all warm inside whenever Patroclus uses it. 
  • Achilles being an absolute disaster at life in general, and Patroclus being able to calm him down somewhat. Achilles always becomes softer around Patroclus. 
  • Patroclus being an absolute badass who works in a hospital and has seen some shit, so everyone always assumes that Achilles is the super aggressive and assertive one until they see Patroclus angry. Achilles just is a disaster; Patroclus is a storm.
  • They have a playlist of songs that they call theirs. It’s a really eclectic mix and Careless Whisper is definitely on there. 
  • Achilles is really particular about folding clothes. Patroclus is really particular about kitchen cleanliness. This is how they battle out problems in their relationships. 

guy crushes: hmm who’s the least ugly out of my guy friends… oh him? he’s nice and cool, i guess he’s my crush now

girl crushes: oh my gosh you’re so awesome and pretty and amazing i want to be your best friend and i love your smile so much, your laugh is so cute and your eyes are so pretty, why do i get so ridiculously happy when good stuff happens to you wow

in conclusion i’m straight!

TUMBLR LIFE CYCLE OF YURI!!!! ON ICE FANS

Tuesday: JKAFJKDAJKFLJASKL I’M SO EXCITED FOR YOI TOMORROW!

Wednesday: AJLFJDKAJFKJASL YOI WAS SO GOOD TODAY OH MY GOSH!!!!! HOW DO I WAIT ANOTHER WEEK?!?!

Thursday: Oh my gosh this scene was everything I ever wanted in life and more! *posts photoset/gif set* 

Friday:  *posts photoset* The symbolism in the scene really shows the complexity of the work. Join me under the cut as we look at the greater nuances…

Saturday: HAHAHAHA look at this meme it reminds me so much of Viktor.

Sunday: [The day of rest…for everyone except fan artists, who are producing high quality art round the clock.]

Monday: ugh this week is so horrible but at least there’s yoi #2016saved #yurioisacinnamonroll #yuuriisasinnamonroll 

Tuesday: JKAFJKDAJKFLJASKL I’M SO EXCITED FOR YOI TOMORROW!

CTH Imagine: You hate him after a breakup but he still loves you

Hi, hello, it’s me again. So according to quite a few people I’m really good with angst type imagines and I honestly agree. I wasn’t sure what to title this so I kept it simple. This imagine was requested as a series by a anon so I hope you all enjoy.


You groaned at the sound of your phone rudely awakening you from your much needed sleep. You had been at work the whole day after being forced into overtime, so you only had been asleep for no more than two hours. The sound of your ring tone was bouncing off the walls, seeming to grow louder and louder by the second.

“Oh my fucking gosh.” You unplugged your phone from the charger, giving the anonymous person an angry, “Hello.”

“Y/N!” Someone yelled and your eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

“Who’s this?”

“It’s me, Calum!”

Your eyes widened for a split second before they lowered into slits, glaring at the white wall in front of you.

Calum.

That name left an ache in your heart and unwanted memories in your brain. You two were in a relationship for a year and a half when you found out that he met someone else; that he didn’t love you anymore. Sure, you were hurt for weeks on end, but you were never one to drown in your feelings forever. You decided one day that you’d hate your first love until you died and forget about him and you were doing fine…at least until now.

“Y/N! You still there?!” He was yelling and you could hear the faint sound of music in the background, letting you know he was probably drunk out of his mind.

“Why did you call me?”

He didn’t reply and instead you just heard his soft breathing come through the phone, the sound of the music disappearing. Apparently he was walking.

“What do you want, Calum?” You asked him, now annoyed that he hadn’t answered you.

“You.” He said confidently and you snorted.

“Me?”

“Yeah..I want you, Y/N, I’ve always have.”

“Oh, really? Is that why you cheated and left me?”

“Yes,” You gasped in offense and he quickly stuttered out,“ I mean no.”

“Bye, Calum.”

“It wasn’t like that, Y/N, I-”

With that you hung up in his face. How dare he call me drunk and say he cheated on me for me? What kind of fucked up logic is that? As you placed your phone back on the charger it began to ring once again, the unknown yet familiar number appearing on the screen. You quickly muted it, deciding that you weren’t going to deal with him tonight. You worked too hard to build yourself up again, and you’re not letting him ruin you again.

As you were slowly dozing back to sleep a loud banging sound echoed throughout your apartment. This time you flipped onto your back and stared at the ceiling with a pained expression on your face.

“Why me? Why does everyone want to bother me? Why can’t I get sleep?”

The banging sounded again and you got out the bed, pulling down your large tshirt and marching towards the door.

“What do you ne-” you paused as you swung your door open, eyes widened in shock at the guest.

“Hi, hello.” He giggled as he leaned against the doorframe.

“What are you doing here?”

“I came to see you, duh.” He booped your nose and you looked at him as if he had two heads.

You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.

“Go home, Calum. ”

“I lost my key.” He gave you an excuse.

“Call the boys.”

“I left them at the party.”

“Okay?”

“And they’ve all got girls and are completely wasted like me, they’re not leaving.” He slurred and you let out a frustrated sigh.

“I don’t have anywhere to go and I-” he hiccuped, reaching up to rub his bloodshot eyes,“ I missed you.”

“That’s funny.”

“What’s funny? It’s something on my face?” He then began to rub at his puffy red cheeks and you snorted at how lost he was.

“Nothing, just.."You trailed. You knew you couldn’t just leave him out there in the cold drunk. There’s no telling what would happen to him. I mean, you hated him, but not that much. "Come in,dickhead.”

“Ha, dickhead.” He laughed at the insult, almost falling over his feet as he walked in.

He stood and watched your every move as you got the couch ready for him. He was captivated by how much more beautiful you’ve seem to be since the last time he saw you. It was crazy because he always thought you looked better when you woke up. Hair messy, slouchy clothes, and face just a tad bit puffy. You tossed a pillow on your couch and spun around to see him already staring at you.

“Well, here you go.”

“You’re so beautiful.”

“I know.” You rolled your eyes, spinning on your heels to head to your room.

You had decided that your were going to pee before bed and as you did so, you heard shuffling in the hallway. You massaged your temples lightly knowing that you were probably going to have to deal with him all night long. When you stepped into your room, Calum was on what used to be his side of the bed curled into a ball.

“I put sheets on the couch for a reason.”

“But now that I’m here why sleep without you?”

“Because we’re not together anymore. You made that pretty clear four months ago.”

“Those four months were hell.”

“Who’s fault is that? Now, get out of my bed.”

“Please, Y/N.”

“I’m not going to tell you again.”

“I don’t want to sleep without you anymore.”

“I’ll pull you out myself if I need to.” You stayed firm. You weren’t going to let him in, not again.

Calum sighed and slowly got out of the bed, trudging towards the door. He stopped in front of you and examined your face for a few seconds, noticing the few differences since he left. How your face seemed to mature a little in just those four months.s

“I still love you, yanno?”

“Whatever.”

“I do…I never stopped.”

“Get out.”

In a split second Calum’s lips were on yours and you stood there frozen in shock. He gripped your waist tightly, pulling you closer to him and that’s when you just decided to give in. Your hands wrapped around his neck, playing with the baby raven curls at the nape of his neck.

Wow, Y/N. You scolded yourself. You spent at least two months getting over this asshole and for what? Just to run back into his arms and kiss him?

You quickly pulled back, pushing Calum away from you and causing him to stumble. He stood there staring at you with a dazed look in his eyes and the slightest smile on his lips, his fingers raising up to lightly touch his lips.

“You need to go.”

“Goodnight, Y/N. I love you.” He spoke quietly as he walked out of your room.

You slammed your door shut and turned the lock, climbing into your bed and tugging the covers over you head. You could feel your lips tingling and your body just a tad bit overheating. His words replaying over and over in your head.

“I still love you, yanno?”

“I do…I never stopped." 

You let out a frustrated sigh, burying your face into your pillow before groaning out,” What the fuck.”

anonymous asked:

I dunno your thoughts, but I feel like SU has been so... MUSICALLY absent as well. You know what made Season 1 so good? The writing, characters (that aren't Pearl!), the art design, but most importantly the music. It gave SOO much life to have the ambient background music that was so endearing I can't help but still listen to it now. I don't even hear any background music anymore. This show feels like it wants to be put out of its own misery.

Oh gosh yeah. I never noticed how empty the music feels. It’s like static noise to me now. I can never remember or even acknowledge it.

I remember loving the cluster theme and yellow diamond’s theme and the music in strawberry fields. But now I just. I can’t remember anything in season 4

I can’t give the show too much shit for it but it’s a shame that nearly everything on the show is just worse now

Port In The Storm

My heart is in my chest-
Hopefully beating in rhythm with your own,
Knowing for sure that I’ll never truely be alone…

My heart is in my hands-
Offering it to you with all my trust,
Offering to protect you from all unjust…

My heart is on my sleeve-
Dug out from behind my many walls,
Answering to your own, that which calls…

My heart is in my eyes-
Which are said to be windows of the soul,
Of mine, yours is the part that makes it whole…

My heart is at the edge of my lips-
Taking my breath away every few seconds,
Because your heart, oh so beautiful, beckons…

My heart is in my voice-
Trying so hard to tell you so very much,
All the while, I’m desperately craving your touch…

My heart is in your arms-
Whenever you hold me tight,
And it feels burdenless and light…

My heart is talking to my head-
Whispering all that could possibly be,
Showing me amazing visions of you and me…

My heart is cradling a piece of yours-
Burried so deep inside, keeping it warm,
Being forever your port during any storm…

-To my Darling

[this beautiful pic cr. goes fully to bonnie aka @cafewoozi thank yoU SO MUCH HONEsLTY GUYS I ONLY LIVE FOR BONNIE ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;]

hello everybody~ it’s aqsa back again with another follow forever!! since ive finally reached my goal of 1.7k (th ank you so much special s/o to vivi (@vitaminniedk like you are too kind for promoting me you didn’t have to ;A; ily! also to the last five followers that got me to this point: @simplewoozis @pur-est @munchiesthaoo @monsterkactus @cafedino !! tysm !!! u made my night!! ;u;)

so, in all, i wanted to make a ff to commemorate this wonderful moment!! this was meant to be done ages ago, but seeing as i had no time (or skill hah rip me) to actually create a decent ff i’ll just be sticking to the good old original style!! so, without further ado, let us begin~

also!! i cannot thank you enough! you don’t know how much your support means to me, honestly ;;; why are you even following my blog tbh im such a messy poster it’s ridiculous especially after i had the humongous hiatus over the summer ;A; ahh that’s what i really wanted to thank you for; you all have stayed with me even after almost 2 months of inactivity and i don’t know how to thank you for that ;__; you guys are so so sweet to me all the time and i never ever feel uncomfortable or stressed out on this site thanks to all of the lovely friends and followers i have gained throughout this year old blog :> you all make my life so much brighter with your stories and tidbits of excitement and its really invigorating to be a part of such a gracious community ;u; so once again, thank you so so so much; i have so much to say but if i do this will get way too long and that’s why i’ll do you all a favor and keep this short. i love you so so so so so so much and i sincerely hope that you all know how much appreciation i hold for you guys; let’s keep going on for a long time while we cheer our 20 boys on with everything they do!! :>

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CYaRon! is actually the most precious and innocent subunit

Just look at how pure their songs are compared to the other subunits.

A-side

  • Strawberry Trapper: You can’t run away, my target~
  • Torikoriko PLEASE!!: I’ll use magic words to make you my captive ♡
  • Genki Zenkai DAY! DAY! DAY!: YO GUYS IT’S SUCH A GREAT DAY TODAY WANNA GO EAT LUNCH OR SOMETHING OOPS I OVERSLEPT I’M JUST GONNA GO RUN UP A HILL NOW LOL LATER NERDS

B-side

  • Guilty Night, Guilty Kiss!: Hey there, wanna dance with me? I know I’m irresistible. ;)
  • Tokimeki Bunruigaku: I’m trying to figure out these emotions. Want to…help me with my research? ;)
  • Yozora wa Nandemo Shitteru no?: i’m a horrible person because i hurt my best friend, oh gosh i feel so guilty about it and now i just wanna stay up all night and cry while looking at the stars…why can’t i just be honest with myself im sorry im sorry im s o rr y

since it’s mama swifts birthday, here is a story i have from last year when i went to nashville in early february: so we are talking about the grammys right and she’s like yeah i’ll be there, not in the audience but in the dressing room freaking out. we are like oh my gosh no taylor has it like 1989 cant NOT win ya know. and she’s like yeah we thought last last time, i guess we just hope for the best and prepare for the worst, right? knock on wood hahah, and im like HEY! my last name is wood, and mama swift goes OH ILL KNOCK ON YOU *knocks on my shoulder* looks me in the eyes and goes you’re my good luck charm,,, and tbh taylor won album of the year a couple days later so im not saying i did that or anything, but like.. i did that (just kiddign but this is just such a little moment that meant so much to me and i love mama swift like she’s my own) 

I am super tired and meeting someone for breakfast tomorrow so probably should’ve been in bed like… three hours ago, but it never ceases to amaze me how good at this Mary and Will are. Mary immediately identified the fire giants as an exit point for Zahra and Kash (and neatly sidestepped a fight that probably would’ve delayed the final confrontation by a week), and did it in an awfully fitting way, and Will immediately picked up on it and rolled with it. Gosh, they’d better be okay…

Also: few plans are as quintessentially Vox Machina as “Let’s try to have a pleasant chat with this powerful and paranoid gang of thieves while sneaking into their lair disguised as their enemies. Oh, and let’s make sure to have our invisible party members doing the talking, so the ‘I promise we just look like your enemies, we’re really very helpful and ordinary people’ voices are floating out of the ether.” And then the twins both roll ones on persuasion. I love it so much.

SUPER nervous for the big episode next week. This arc started on episode 39, so it has officially been half of the show, and next episode could be the season finale. Wow.

I see so much resolve in Ichigo’s face in that illustration that it almost hurts. And it’s not just his face, though it blows me away on a monumental scale.

Its the way his hand isn’t tightly clenched, but just loosely enough to convey how relaxed he is but at the same time filled with that nervous anticipation. How ready he is to tell Orihime how he feels, but still so humanly nervous.

He has been told for quite some time that Orihime is too good for him (in various ways actually). And even though Ichigo is the poster child for fighting against what others believe, I feel like it did stick with him a tad. Just enough to warrant Renji feeling the need to approach him.

And oh my gosh, what I would give to see what happened after this confession… because this precious Strawberry has been loved for quite some time now.

Anonymous said:If you’re not to busy would you please make a ‘Dating Sam Uley would include’. I love your blog and you are amazingly talented


A/N: I have finally gotten to your request, my lovely! I would love to make this imagine for you, sweetie. Sam can be challenging for me to get correct, so I hope that I do a good job of this, lovely! And oh my gosh! Thank you so much! I’m glad that you love my blog and find me talented. That means so much to me, sweetheart. Please enjoy, anon!


Not my gif. Gif credit goes to the amazing creators!


Dating Sam Uley and being his Imprint would include:


- Sam being insanely protective of you.

- Hot intense passionate sex.

- Quil always trying to flirt with you, only to have Sam walk in and give him hell for doing so.

- Being Sam’s imprint.

- Never being permitted to get involved with vampiric business.

- “I said no!

- “Well I’m helping!

- “You’ll only get in the way, (Y/N)! I said no!

“Since when did you tell me when to get involved with anything or not?

- “Since now.

- Sam never hurting you or allowing you to get hurt.

- Sam’s hand always on the small of your back.

- You always clutching onto his large upper arm.

- Sam basically being your freaking teddy bear.

- Sam intimidating anybody.

- You basically being momma wolf of the wolf pack.

- “Tell your boys to get the hell off of my carpet with that food!” you’d scream.

- Everybody being terrified of your temper.

- Sam engulfing you in his arms when you get upset.

- “Hey, hey! What’s wrong? What happened?

- Strip teases for Sam after a long day of patrol?

- Always having to restock your fridge because Sam and the rest of the pack eat like freaking horses!

- Not getting along with Leah.

- “I could bust her face!” Leah would scream.

- “Try it.” you’d shrug.

- “Don’t get cocky! I’d leave you paralysed.”

“There’s a difference between cocky, which you are, and fearless, like me.” you’d smirk.

- When Sam pisses you off you say something witty even though you’re angry as hell.

- “Go sleep with the wolves!

- Missing your vampire friends, the Cullens-.

- “They’re no good for you, (Y/N). You’re better off without them.

- “Yeah, like you’re any better.” you’d scoff.

- “What’s that supposed to mean?

- “You tore Emily in half. So don’t act like you’re any better.

- Hating Sam for not letting you get involved but being grateful that he keeps you safe.

- Super fluffy moments when you get hurt.

- Always sticking by each other.

- Sam always keeping a watchful eye on you.


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anonymous asked:

this is just a little story that i thought you should know~ a friend always teases me about how much i love fanfiction (what can i say, i've read everything worth reading in literature) and when i got her to read attwas and cf she loved it! this convinced her to help me with my lowkey dream of writing a fanfiction. now we're dating and its pretty amazing and i wont forget its really because of your fanfiction <3

no……. no….. arE YOU SERIOUS??? are you…. are you……..

this is the cutest thing that has ever blessed my EYES!!!! Oh my gosh I’m so glad that you both liked CF and ATWAS??? And good luck with your fanfiction!!! AND YOU’RE DATING????? BECAUSE OF??? MY FANFICTION???? WHAT??? First of all CONGRATULATIONS and second of all you have me shook anon. so shook. omg.

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HAPPY VALENTINE EVERYONE~ ! <3

I made this specially for my sweet chaton @re-unknown, so Happy Felinetine’s day~ >w< This is my present and love for you!

In case you want to know what Marinette was mumbling, here’s the text xD

I mean, I-I’m like chocolate. I’m not only sweet but I taste good too. NO! Wait, that was wrong. I didn’t mean to say a pick up line. I mean, I got chocolate for you. And I want to go on a date with you. Since I r-r-really l-like you. And I hope you like me as well as Marinette and not only as Ladybug. Ugh, why do I have to be so nervous when I’m being myself. Look how clumsy I am as Marinette. Oh gosh, why am I like this? This is so unbelievable. I’m usually so calm around Chat… So why am I being like this? Ugh, is it because I really like him. U-uhm Chat, I really like you, so… Well… I should just give you the chocolate!