I needed to take a few days off from social media. With all the terrible news going around and nonstop immersing myself in it trying to stay informed, I was burning out, and it was starting to show physically. Nonstop headaches, chills that wouldn’t go away, fingertips and toes that wouldn’t heat up, goosebumps all over, nausea and lack of appetite, hands shaking so bad I couldn’t hold my tablet pen straight, and an overwhelming sense of nastiness. That sorta thing.
I get incredibly emotionally invested, and sometimes when it’s too much, it can be a bad thing. I was starting to get the hyper sensitive, jittery, shivery cold anxiety feeling I had back in college when I devoted an entire semester to relief efforts for Japan back in spring 2011; I pretty much drowned myself in doing as much as I can, and while it was an experience I’ll never regret, I also paid for it heavily with my mental stability and health and I still feel the effects now. Getting the same feeling I got back then, except back then while there was a lot of fear and frustration, the cause wasn’t people. You can’t quite build as much venomous fury towards a disaster as you can towards cruel and ignorant humans.
Anyway, I realized I needed to take a break, and pace myself. None of this stuff is going to vanish over night, and in order to remain active we all have to remember to take care of ourselves too. This is a reminder to my followers, but also to myself, that taking care of yourself is also an act of resistance, and that we should all do our best to inform ourselves and help at our own pace, and there is no shame in needing to step back.
For me, that means on some days, it’s okay to just read but not spread news (I am extremely paranoid of spreading misinformation, and everything I reblog I need to fact check extensively and find several alternative sources for, which can be stressful).
Anyway, shakiness is better, have been sorta able to get back to drawing, but not as much progress as I’d have liked, see above for reasons ^ ^;;. I’ve also been working some on cosplay, so time has been split and pace is slow. Will post some art tomorrow night, even if it’s incomplete. Will probably announce a giveaway, so stay tuned?
Thank you for your patience with me ^ ^; And please, everyone take care of yourselves and do something fun, yeah?
Do you know why that place exists? It’s to protect the people who were being targeted by content policing in LJ and FFnet - a place where people can write their dirty, filthy, trigger-y smut and not have to be worrying about getting their shit deleted. The LJ Strikethrough of 2007 is literally the birthplace of AO3!!! It’s a breeding ground for all of that triggery kinky smut that all you pressed brats are losing your collective minds over… So like…
Still cackling over here.
If you think for a second that the founders of that site give any shits about your sensibilities, go read the terms of service for your account. They use legal-ese to mock kink-shamers. It’s fucking beautiful.
Anyway… I’ll be posting my triggery filthy dirty bellarke smut over there to join the rest of the kink meme posters who are “infecting” the tag with their kink meme fills. I salute you. Keep on keepin’ on.
(Don’t like it? Don’t read it. That’s what tags are for, you little shits…)