After my falling out with Harry I decide to reinvent myself. I moved across town, exercised more, worked harder, and put dating on a hold. Of course the first few months were hard; constantly seeing his face everywhere, the nonstop phone calls and texts, and the endless amount of memorabilia I had of him. But after all the tears and sleepless nights I became someone new, someone stronger. I didn’t need a man to be happy or okay, I could survive on my own. But under all the countless barriers I had stacked up around my heart, still laid a fragile girl who still had some feelings for him, Harry. Part of me still was saying yes to him Ieven after a year, which is why I threw myself into work. Could you blame me for still having feelings for him? The man who I thought I was going to marry, have curly headed children with, and grow old with? Of course I was supposed to still have feelings for him, I prepared to spend the rest of forever with him. “(Y/N)…(Y/N), were you even listening to a word I said?!” Lilly exclaimed snapping her fingers in front of my face. People around us in the small quaint café turned to look at us, interested in what caused her outburst.
“Hmm? Yeah Lil, you were talking about her guest list.” I replied distantly.
“Yeah and that Harry is going to be there so I’m going to need you to get your shit together and not become some crazy emotion bitch at my wedding “You know Lil bridezilla isn’t a good look on you.” I mumbled sipping my hot coffee. “(Y/N), you know I don’t mean to be one. It’s just this only happens once and I just want it to be perfect but I also want you to be okay. I know what you went through last year with him and I just want…”
“It’s fine Lily, I’m fine. Everything is going to be fine, don’t worry.”
I strongly recommend you listen to Woman by the 1975s when you get to this part, like continuously listen to it throughout this whole part!!! You can find it HERE. <3
*One Month later*
“Everyone would you please put your hands together for Mr. and Mrs. Zachary Anderson!” The D.J announced.
The crowd gathered around the double doors as Lily and Andy walked out looking happy and in love as ever. The twinkle lights hanging from the ceiling dazzled off of her dress and the dim room seemed to illuminate the two of them. They made their way to their table and smiled at all of their guests.
“Come on take seat next to me, my maid of honor.”Lily motioned to me.
“Hey Mrs. Anderson.” I smirked.
“Oh god that sounds amazing.” She murmured into my side. “Yeah I bet, you look amazing by the way, you’ve got that bridal glow going on.” I said. “Have you talked to him?“ She asked looking into my eyes with concern.
“Talked to who?”
“(Y/N), don’t play dumb with me. You know exactly who I’m talking about.”
“Harry, honestly I didn’t even know he was here.”
“Oh now you’re just being an ass, he’s apart of the wedding party how could you possibly not see him!”
“All right now it’s time for the speeches! First up is a speech from Harry Styles.” The D.J spoke
My heart skipped a beat when I saw him at the center of the dance floor. His once curly locks were now looser and longer, his features a bit older, but his beauty still beautiful as ever.
“Urm.. thanks for that introduction. Anyway, today we are here to celebrate the joining of these two lovely people and it is right that they should be celebrated. It is, I suppose you could say, a vow for love and how it can change our lives. I know that love has changed mine. And I know that when you have something like what Zach and Lil have, you should never let it go…” He started looking directly into my eyes.
Oh god there it was.
“But this isn’t about me, it isn’t about any of us actually. It’s about Zach and Lily who made it good and found the love of their lives in each other and I can speak for us all when I say “Congrats and good luck.’” He finished and walked off.
Everyone clapped at Harry’s speech except for me. I sat there deep in my thoughts, his words dancing around my head killing every other thought I could have potentially had for the rest of the day. What did he mean by love changing his life and never letting it go?
“Hey, are you okay?” Lily whispered into my ear.
“Yeah, yeah I’m fine thanks for asking.” I reassured.
“I’m sorry (Y/N), I should’ve asked Zach to look over Harry’s speech before he gave it. I know it’s still a sore subject for you.”
“Lil, aren’t you the one who should be worried over? I’m fine, really. I promise. Now go have your first dance with your husband.” I said as I playfully pushed her up and out onto the dance floor with Zach.
Everyone gazed on adoringly at them as they slow danced to Woman by The 1975s. My heart stung a little as the song started.
“Oh Harry I love this song!”
“Yeah me too baby.”
“Oh ,what’s the name of it? Ugh, I totally forgot!”
“I think it’s called Woman, love”
“This should be our song.”
“Yeah it should (Y/N).”
Just as I was about to head back to my table to squander in my self-pity a hand softly grabbed my shoulder.
It was Harry.
I looked into his sorrowful green eyes and sighed. “Hey Harry.” He looked away from me and over at Zach and Lily.
“They’re playing our song.” He whispered as his eyes began to gloss.
“Yeah, I guess they are.”
“Will you dance with me?”
He lead me over to the dance floor and held me close. One of his hands were wrapped around the small of my back and the other, holding onto mine with a comfortable tightness. Almost as if he let go I would slip away. I nuzzled my head into his chest and inhaled his scent, he still smelled like cinnamon and sweet strawberry shampoo.
“I missed us dancing to this song.” He breathed next to my ear.
“Me too.” I replied back, perfectly content with where I was. I wasn’t angry anymore, I didn’t resent him or question myself about the whole situation. Sometimes it’s okay to let go and forgive. We all make mistakes and what would true love be without tests, trials, but most of all forgiveness. In order to truly love someone, you have to be willing to forgive them even when they hurt you. Because at the end of the day, deep down inside you still love them all of your heart.
“Do you think we could start over one day? Build back up your trust for me; so one day we can be like them?” He asked, rubbing his hand gently up and down my back. I turned my head and saw Zach and Lily swaying to the gentle song looking totally and completely enamored with each other, as if the other put the stars and the moon in the sky.
“Yeah Harry, I think we can, I think we can.”
*That’s it kiddos :) Please send in more ideas for me to write about, I really enjoyed writing this little series.Xx. *