oh i should have posted this earlier but i forgot

oh right I should have said something earlier but um

I really, really do appreciate all the replies you guys left for me on that one post

a couple updates on the situation:

-The email was a general “enjoy your spring break” email. I did get another this morning, though, and I have found out that I have failed the class.

-My teacher moved the test to next week

-I forgot I had a paper do today in my other psych class, and the result of that is that I got sick in the bathroom.

-because there is no way to pass the public speaking class, my living arrangements may be affected because I will not be taking enough credits to warrant staying. (However, I have an empty room in my dorm right now so I do doubt that I’d be forced to move out.)

-I also have to tell my parents about all of this and their disappointment will probably make me cry very hard for a few hours.

It’s all kind of just piling up right now and idk how to deal with it. And I know ignoring it is really bad, considering ignoring and avoiding is what got me into this situation in the first place. I’m going to try getting an appointment with my counselor soon to talk about all of this, next semester, and talk about where I can talk to someone about the depression and anxiety. I may also talk to my parents about working harder to get my license and a job so that I can go see a therapist without needing to be driven there by one of them. (That’s the main reason I’m not seeing anybody, actually.)

Anyways, I do appreciate you guys and what you said to me. Your support means more than I could ever say and it does honestly help so much.

let us not forget that enjolras is human

this guy is twenty-two years old and is completely willing (eager, even) to sacrifice his life for the liberation of an entire country’s people

he understands the inner-workings of the french government better than the majority of the members of the government do

he manages to keep a group of rowdy twenty-somethings in line: he may become exasperated with them but he does not give up; he spends a very large amount of his extremely valuable time searching for their redeeming and useful qualities and tries to place them in areas where they will prosper; he is always weighing the options of what is best for the amis, the people of france, and the revolution as a whole, and (just as anna has pointed out recently) continually exhibits an inordinate amount of patience with regard to the amis and should be admired for how much shit he puts up with (especially from grantaire), not vilified.

i am still amazed at how much criticism is thrown at enjolras, especially when it comes to him being blamed for the amis’ deaths or depicting him as some sort of unfeeling monster who treats all of the boys like shit. enjolras is one of the most admirable, selfless, thorough, and dedicated characters within the entire story.

cut him some slack.