oh hellatus

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HOLY TRINITY- ehem, I mean, wow! Interestingly enough, you could say the handprint was painted in an erotic light since the beginning w/ Pam grabbing Dean's junk b4 his shoulder, implying the creature had touched him there,too. Now all I can think about is maybe Anna's interest in Dean wasn't bc he was Heaven's chosen, but bc he was the 1 Cas had saved, left his mark on & protected?Or maybe she was thinking that would've been her mark if she hadn't fallen, who knows? I think they wanted it to be

much more of a love triangle than it ended up being, since Anna’s involvement w/ Dean & the plot changed. I dunno if it’s only my asexual self who feels this, but I couldn’t feel any real chemistry at least of a sexual nature between Anna and, well, anybody? Even in fic, Anna x Ruby makes more sense to me than Dean x Anna, oops. Maybe it was just eclipsed by Jensen & Misha’s outrageous chemistry on all fronts that made one look from Cas seem more steamy than a sex scene with literal steam XD

Hah. :P

I likewise didn’t really feel like Anna and Dean had much sexual chemistry, but they had emotional chemistry and it didn’t feel forced or out of character to me - they both wanted and needed it at the time. I guess you could say it was very friend with benefits though. He was very sweet and protective to her while she was human, but because of the focus on the action there was very little tropey falling in love OR making lustful faces at each other in the very obvious way hook ups can be flagged in TV and film, basically just a few conversations where they emotionally bonded - it would have been equally valid just as making friends to me.

… And yeah, okay, the hand print had its erotic connections from the start, so that just doubled up on it. Thanks. >.> Now I feel pretty confident saying it’s not the people touching it, it’s the thing itself. :P I mean Dean also refers to it as being “groped” by an angel (a step up from the “touched by an angel” reference he was making). 4x01 had a ton of oddly sexual comments (e.g. Dean suggesting he was saved from Hell for his perky nipples :P) linking Dean and his mysterious rescuer.

I did wonder if some of the intent was that Anna and Dean hooked up for the sake of using the hand print like that so it could be shown on screen… I said somewhere in my rewatch for 4x10 about that that it did feel like she randomly showed up to hook up with Dean to fill in a gap in the Dean x Heaven storyline that Ruby filled for Sam in the Sam x Hell storyline where they needed a sexual encounter to go with it. I’m guessing because the Sam x Ruby story was kind of inevitably going to be turned sexual because of all the various plot elements basically making it, in the expected way these things go, probably quite strange if they didn’t end up sexually connected thanks to all the seduction to the darkside stuff going on. 

Dean ran a parallel story to Sam through the season and Cas and Ruby took opposite ends of the bro fight of the season, but then they wouldn’t show Dean n Cas hooking up to parallel Sam and Ruby’s hook up, so Anna conveniently pops up and Cas is present through the hand print’s use in the scene.

I said I was going to write about this tomorrow or thereabouts, but oh well. I still want to gather up all these thoughts together in one place about season 4′s genuinely erotic Destiel subtext. Not like I haven’t been constantly commenting on it along the way but, you know, one single coherent post would make more sense. :P

I am watching 2.22 and everything is terrible. Please share my suffering. Sam’s having a quick lil lie down:

Dean: You know, when we were little— and you couldn’t been more than 5— you just started asking questions. How come we didn’t have a mom? Why do we always have to move around? Where’d Dad go when he’d take off for days at a time? I remember I begged you, “Quit asking, Sammy. Man, you don’t want to know.” I just wanted you to be a kid… Just for a little while longer. I always tried to protect you… Keep you safe… Dad didn’t even have to tell me. It was just always my responsibility, you know? It’s like I had one job… I had one job… And I screwed it up. (pause) I blew it. And for that, I’m sorry. I guess that’s what I do. I let down the people I love. I let Dad down. And now I guess I’m just supposed to let you down, too. How can I? How am I supposed to live with that? What am I supposed to do? Sammy. God. What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do?!

This is honestly what Dean thought of himself. He had ONE JOB. But just as Mary was destined to make the deal with Azazel back in 1973, like Mary was always destined to die the night Azazel returned to drip blood into Sam’s mouth, Dean was ALWAYS destined to fail at this job… It was never his fault.

It takes him a lot longer to even begin to believe that. The threat of going to hell throughout s3 starts that process, but even after he dies and is resurrected (on God’s orders!) in 4.01, he still refuses to believe it completely. Because what would that mean? If Dean began to accept that it wasn’t his fault? Whose fault was it then?

Mary’s? Could he really lay that much blame at her feet? It wasn’t ever really HER fault either. She’d been just as horrifyingly used by the universe as he was.

Sam’s? Oh dear me no. Nononono. It was never Sam’s fault.

John’s? Well, some of it was John’s fault, and Dean does address a lot of John’s parenting (or lack thereof) throughout the series. He gets to come to a very personal understanding of John and the terrible choices he’d had to make by getting to travel several hundred thousand miles in his shoes, looking out for Sammy. Saving people, hunting things. Carrying on the family business. Like Tasha Banes says in 12.20, “Family’s always complicated. Parents always seem smart and strong and perfect. It’s only when you grow up that you realize that they’re just people.”

By the end of s5 he’s at least laying the blame on the machinations of angels and demons, but it doesn’t make him feel like any less of a failure for not being able to stop them, for not being able to save every last human from the mess the universe built around him and his family.

But wait, there’s more!

The next five seasons are just an extension of the Winchesters trying to fix all the damage (Cosmic Consequences!) still lingering from that original plan to end the world. S6 is the direct fallout of the angels’ Apocalypse Reorganization attempt, the angelic civil war, the mad and desperate power grab to stop that happening at all costs. S7 was the extension of THAT, with the Winchesters scrambling to clean up yet another cosmic mess. S8 was the extension of THAT with Crowley’s new attempt to restructure the universe in his favor while Naomi tried to do the same for Heaven. S9 brings more Cosmic Cleanup, with Dean taking the burden for all of it on himself by taking the Mark and finally becoming the weapon he’s always thought of himself as… until the Mark takes him over and steals his humanity. S10 is his struggle to regain that humanity (hijacked by the narrative into a discovery of the true source of all of Dean’s problems).

It’s not until s11 that Dean FINALLY begins to see where the true blame for EVERYTHING lies– with the original rift between creation and destruction, between God and the Darkness, between Chuck and Amara. And he’s able to FIX IT.

It takes him most of s12 for both him and Mary to truly begin to understand why she was resurrected, that they both were given this new perspective on everything that had made their lives into what they were, so they could finally stop blaming themselves for… everything.

OH NO. HELLATUS HITS AGAIN! IT’S THIS WEEK’S POST-SPN SCOUTTHOUGHTS

  • DEAN REFUSES TO BELIEVE CAS DOESNT WANT TO BE SAAAAVED my heart 
  • everyone says my comics are sooo cracky but are u seeing this casifer scene???? ARE U??? 
  • i bet misha really liked getting to harass mark like he is right now. so gentle fixin his lil hairs 
  • DEAN IS CRUSHING SO HARD ON THIS WRESTLER???? like omg??? 
  • DEAN IS THE MOST GROSSEST FANBOY OOOMFG 
  • ok. ok. this is literally flirting. dean is flirting with this wrestler 
  • YOU GUYS. YOU FUCKING GUYS. PIG N A POKE IS IN THE BACKGROUND AT THE BAR. WE HAVE OUR MYSTERY SPOT VISUAL REFERENCE.
  • CROWLEY my beautiful husband ur all fancy pants again 
  • aw crowley was a cute lil goober :3c but he so dumb why would you escape and then immediately go to ur personal locker come ooooonnn 
  • my god misha like. he even channels mark p’s voice???? also crowley is such a little snot 
  • ohhh noooooo dean’s cruuuush 
  • DEAN JUST WANTS TO SAVE CAS SO BAD ;n; SAM KEEP REASSURING HIM

i was REALLY hoping for a more revealing promo for when it comes back but!! CHUCK SOON. GABRIEL IS LITERALLY BEING PROJECTED. I AM ALREADY READY AND IT’S SO FAR AWAY