oh dean.

2.03 - The wheel in the sky keeps on turning…

I think we’ve already been pointing back to this episode A LOT during s12, what with the parallels between Gordon and the attitude of the BMoL to monsters of all sorts (and vampires in particular, since that was their first monster slated for genocide).

Humans become the true monster here again, but instead of just being monstrous toward other humans, this is the first episode that deals with a HUNTER specifically being worse than the things he hunts.

(since I’ve taken to referring to the music cues, I’m enjoying the Baby Restored Montage to Back in Black, but this really is the first time we’ve seen Dean really happy in a while. He loves his baby:

DEAN: Whoo! Listen to her purr! Have you ever heard anything so sweet?
SAM: You know, if you two wanna get a room, just let me know, Dean.
DEAN: Oh, don’t listen to him, baby. He doesn’t understand us.
SAM (laughs) You’re in a good mood.
DEAN: Why shouldn’t I be?
SAM: No reason.
DEAN: Got my car, got a case, things are looking up.
SAM: Wow. Give you a couple of severed heads and a pile of dead cows and you’re Mister Sunshine.
DEAN (laughs) How far to Red Lodge?
SAM: Uh, about another three hundred miles.
DEAN: Good. (he floors it)

That’s all it takes to make Dean happy. Which is relevant to several moments in 12.11, 12.14, 12.15…

Gordon’s stalking Sam and Dean, but they eventually get the drop on him first… which happens for a lot of the rest of the episode.

Gordon is one of those hunters who revels in the job. Dean does, to an extent. He does enjoy it, but he doesn’t LIVE for it, he doesn’t have this indiscriminate need to kill out of this hollow sort of vengeance like Gordon does here:

DEAN: Yeah. Yeah, you know. He was just one of those guys. Took some terrible beatings, just kept coming. So you’re always thinking to yourself, he’s indestructible. He’ll always be around, nothing can kill my dad. Then just like that (snaps) he’s gone. I can’t talk about this to Sammy. You know, I gotta keep my game face on. (clears throat) But, uh, the truth is I’m not handling it very well. Feel like I have this -
GORDON: Hole inside you? And it just gets bigger and bigger and darker and darker? Good. You can use it. Keeps you hungry. Trust me. There’s plenty out there needs killing, and this’ll help you do it. Dean, it’s not a crime to need your job.

No, it’s not a crime to need your job, it’s a crime to take it to that extent where it’s ALL you need. Because what Gordon hungered for there was nothing more than the next kill.

GORDON: It’s all black and white. There’s no maybe. You find the bad thing, kill it. See, most people spend their lives in shades of gray. Is this right? Is that wrong? Not us.

Lenore the vampire takes Sam and gives him the truth, about the choices they made to not feed on humans. She told Sam that she and her vampires have a right to live, because they’re not hurting anybody, and to prove it she lets him go (even after Dean and Gordon killed their friend and then celebrated his death).

Dean doesn’t want to believe at first. I think I’ve quoted this exchange in meta on a recent episode (probably 12.14..)

DEAN: What part of ‘vampires’ don’t you understand, Sam? If it’s supernatural, we kill it, end of story. That’s our job.
SAM: No, Dean, that is not our job. Our job is hunting evil. And if these things aren’t killing people, they’re not evil!
DEAN: Of course they’re killing people, that’s what they do. They’re all the same, Sam. They’re not human, okay? We have to exterminate every last one of them.
SAM: No, Dean, I don’t think so, all right? Not this time.

And then when Gordon runs out to kill the vampires by himself (because hey, he lives to make that kill), he steals the keys to the Impala and poor Dean has to hotwire his own car…

Dean’s already beginning to change his mind about Gordon just from this, but the way he was torturing Lenore when Sam and Dean found him pretty much seals the deal for Dean. Gordon didn’t just want to make the kill, he wanted to drag it out, make the vampire suffer. And he was so cavalier about it.

DEAN: That vampire that killed your sister deserved to die, but this one…
GORDON: (laughing) Killed my sister? That filthy fang didn’t kill my sister. It turned her. It made her one of them. So I hunted her down, and I killed her myself.
DEAN: You did what?
GORDON: It wasn’t my sister anymore, it wasn’t human. I didn’t blink. And neither would you.
SAM: So you knew all along, then? You knew about the vampires, you knew they weren’t killing anyone. You knew about the cattle. And you just didn’t care.
GORDON: Care about what? A nest of vampires suddenly acting nice? Taking a little time out from sucking innocent people? And we’re supposed to buy that? Trust me. Doesn’t change what they are.

This was a huge moment for Dean. The world isn’t just black and white. He’s not just a killer. He’s not Gordon, and now in s12, he’s not Ketch. Sam scene, different year.

GORDON: What are you doing, man? You doing this for a fang? Come on, Dean, we’re on the same side here.
DEAN: I don’t think so, you sadistic bastard.

And that’s the difference between them.

DEAN: Think about all the hunts we went on, Sammy, our whole lives.
SAM: Okay.
DEAN: What if we killed things that didn’t deserve killing? You know? I mean, the way Dad raised us…
SAM: Dean, after what happened to Mom, Dad did the best he could.
DEAN: I know he did. But the man wasn’t perfect. And the way he raised us, to hate those things; and man, I hate 'em. I do. When I killed that vampire at the mill I didn’t even think about it; hell, I even enjoyed it.
SAM: You didn’t kill Lenore.
DEAN: No, but every instinct told me to. I was gonna kill her. I was gonna kill 'em all.
SAM: Yeah, Dean, but you didn’t. And that’s what matters.

So Dean finally acknowledges that he was raised and trained to have that instinct to kill monsters on sight (shoot first, ask questions later), but this is a huge turning point for Dean. Not only that, but with the ongoing Special Children storyline with Sam in s2, Dean’s instincts are even further tested while he gets some new lessons in tolerance of the supernatural. He really doesn’t want to have to kill Sam…

But this is a turning point for Dean, where hunting becomes about something more than killing the monster, but about killing the right monster, the one that deserves killing.

By the end of s8, he’s even giving Cas the exact opposite advice of shoot first, ask questions later:

Dean: Whoa - talk first, stab later.

After Benny, after Kate the Werewolf, after Garth… well… he’s really not that killer anymore. And he hasn’t been for a long, long time.


Originally posted by hunterchesters

GIF not mine 

Dean Winchester x Reader

Request :  Hi :) can You write a Dean x reader one shot for me? :) Reader is Bobby’s daughter and is secretly dating Dean. Bobby found out they are together and have a “talk” with Dean. Thank you ;)

Hi, can you write Dean x reader one shot? She is much younger than Dean. She thinks that she’s just a toy for him, no one important. Dean told her that she is one of the most important person in his life and he will never leave her :)

Warnings : language , smut 

     “ Oh , Dean …” you whined as Dean is slamming his body on yours , making your head spin and your body to tremble , his hands were on your breast , pinching and rubbing your peaks as you whined and moaned in pleasure .

     “ Dean , please !” you moaned , the lazy rhythm of Dean’s thrust into your body was driving you crazy .

     “ No , baby girl , you’re mine and can use you how I want .” He grunts as he moves even slower . You don’t say anything else but his words went deep into your mind and soul so after he told you that you just stood there moaning and whining just to let Dean satisfy his needs . When he finished he instantly pulled out and got dressed , not kiss , no embrace , he went to the door and put a hand on it .

     “ Remember , Bobby can’t find out about this !” Dean says in order to make you remember that your dad shouldn’t find out about Dean sleeping with you .

     “ Okay .” You agree softly and Dean leaves no other words spoken . 

     “ Come to my room tonight !” Dean whispers to you as he leans his hands on your waist taking advance of the fact that Bobby was out with the car and you was alone . Dean brushed his lips on your and tried to kiss you deeper but you pulled apart as if his touch will burn your skin .

     “ I’ll be there .” You affirm and try to go past him , but Dean takes your wrist violently and pulls you in his arms kissing you by force . You try to pull apart but he will won’t let you go until he doesn’t hear the sound of Bobby’s car .

     “ Do never , ever act like this with me again !” he threatens releasing your hand and you ran into the house and up to your room . You jump on your bed trying to hold onto the tears but when you realize that you can’t hold them on you bury your head on a pillow as the tears and the sobs erupted from your chest .

     You didn’t heard the door of your bedroom opening , but you felt the bed sank next to you and your dad’s hand rubbing your back softly . You wrapped your arms around his neck and buried your head in his shoulder blade crying as he was rubbing soft circles on your back .

     “ What’s going on my kiddo ?” You father asked as he wiping the tears away from your cheek even if they were going to falling on your cheeks , you shook your head as if everything was alright but your father couldn’t believe that .

     “ It is about you and Dean ?” he asked and you jumped right away looking at him in shock .

     “ How do you … ?” you tried to find your words but nothing came in your mind .

     “ I’ve heard you and I saw when he pulled you and kissed you even if you didn’t wanted . Look ,(Y/N), I know that you love Dean , I can see it in your eyes , but he’s older and he’s used with another type of womans , if you don’t like how he’s acting just tell him . He’ll understand . “ You lean again in Bobby’s arms as you’re close to crying again .

     “ He doesn’t cares about me . I’m just a distraction for him , maybe I should tell him that this is over .” you sobbed against your fathers chest .

     “ Don’t do this just yet , I’m going to go talk to him and get his head down from the clouds .” Bobby promises and you let your head to fall on his chest as you slowly drift apart in a world of dreams and darkness . 

     Bobby lays you in your bed and exits the room , he walks down the stairs and into the garage .

     “ Dean , come inside ! I need to talk to you , now !” Bobby orders and Dean just follows him like a lost puppy . Bobby takes a seat at him desk and motions for Dean to sit in front of him .

     “ Dean I’ve knew you from a long while ago and you’re like my own son but if you ever hurt my daughter again you’ll wish that you never knew me .” Bobby affirms in a very calm tone . Dean’s eyes widen in fear and anger .

     “ Did she told you ?” He asks in a rough tone .

     “ No , Dean . And I didn’t needed her too . I saw the look on her face when she looked at you and I heard you and her when you made love and I have had no problem with this until today when I saw how you pulled her into you as if she was just a stupid brat . Dean , my daughter loves you and this is a big thing so either you treat her like you should or you go away and you never come back because she is already suffering enough and I don’t need her to be more hurt than how she is now .” Bobby looks at Dean coldly while the younger man tries to swallow the lump on his neck . “ How would you feel is one day you’ll walk into your daughter and you’ll find her crying and when you’ll ask her what’s wrong she will tell you that the man that she loves act just like she’s his possession , like she’s and object for his use ? Tell me , Dean , how would you feel and what you’ll do to that boy ?” Bobby asked and Dean’s eyes narrowed as he was thinking about the way in which he acted with (Y/N) lately and that’s when he realized that he acted with her just like she’s just a toy . His eyes widened and he felt like the most stupid person on Earth .

     “ So you finally woke up ?” Bobby asked and Dean jumped on his feet walking to the stairs . “ Don’t be so fast , Dean ! (Y/N)’s sleeping and I’m not done talking to you . If you ever and I mean ever do something that will hurt my daughter even if you mean it or not , even if you realize that or not I’m going to hunt you down and torture you until you will wish your own death .” Dean looks at Bobby and can’t help but smile .

     “ I swear , Bobby I’ll never hurt her again !” Dean affirms and walks up the stairs to your room . He enters and sees your wet cheeks . He slowly wipes the tears away and gets into the bed next to you . He pulls you into his arms and you snuggle closer to his heat in your sleep .

     You groan when you wake up , the heat that surrounds you making you feel so lazy and sleepy that you didn’t even wanted to get close to him .

     A kiss was pressed to your head and you opened your eyes blinking softly .

    “ Dean ?” you asked your voice rough with sleep .

    “ Shh , I’m sorry baby . I shouldn’t have acted like that with you . I’m so sorry for what I said to you . Please forgive me !” Dean said and you looked him in the eyes . 

     “ I love you .” You whispered a few tears falling from your eyes . 

     “ I love you too .” He answers and kisses your lips softly .

fandoms are becoming really toxic so i just made myself a new fandom MAGIC- short for Multifandom people who love their idols and Appreciate the ones whose music they don’t like and Generally just want to spread love and Ideally don’t start every sentence with ‘’bitch i hope you Choke’’

Originally posted by lavenderbyun

Me finding fanfictions, a summary.
  • Me: Oh wow look at this new fanfic
  • Fanfic summary: These two mother fuckers are gonna fuck. thats all ive gotta say.
  • Me: *CLICK*
  • -After Reading-
  • Fanfic Author: BITCH THERES A SEQUEL!
  • Me: *Click*

2.06 - aka the episode I was sure wouldn’t relate to s12 but I was wrong

JO: Your chauvinist crap. You think women can’t do the job.
DEAN: Sweetheart, this ain’t gender studies. Women can do the job fine. Amateurs can’t. You have no experience. What you do have is a bunch of half-baked romantic notions that some barflies put in your head.
JO: Now you sound like my mother.
DEAN: Oh, and that’s a bad thing? Because let me tell you…
DEAN: Jo, you’ve got options. No one in their right mind chooses this life. My dad started me in this when I was so young… I wish I could do something else.
JO: You love the job.
DEAN: Yeah, but I’m a little twisted.
JO: You don’t think I’m a little twisted too?
DEAN: Jo, you’ve got a mother that worries about you. Who wants something more for you. Those are good things. You don’t throw things like that away. Might be hard to find later.

Two episodes after a case centered around Mary’s grave. Dean doesn’t necessarily wish for a different life. He just wishes for one where Mary didn’t die when he was four. Jo’s relationship with Ellen is so reminiscent of the relationship Dean (and Sam) would’ve imagined their relationship with Mary could’ve been. Ellen wishing Jo would choose to go back to college, to stay out of hunting… Not to mention the fact that the big Family Secret that comes out in this episode is the reason John never mentioned the Harvelles to Sam and Dean… guilt.

John was working with Bill Harvelle when he died, and Ellen has always blamed John for his death. Her protective instinct toward Jo is only stronger because of that.

Then there’s the case in this episode, HH Holmes, who literally hid his secrets in the walls, burying his torture chambers down deep where they almost couldn’t be found again. Sam and Dean have to smash down the walls to find her again.

Family secrets, honesty, things long buried coming to the surface…

SAM: So? This job as glamorous as you thought it would be?
JO: Well, except for all the pee-your-pants terror, yeah. Sure. But that Teresa girl’s gonna live a life because of us. It’s worth it, isn’t it?

Plus she started hunting in the first place to feel closer to her father. Then the rest of the truth comes out:

JO: Dean. It turns out my dad had a partner on his last hunt. Funny, he usually worked alone; this guy did too, but… I guess my father figured he could trust him. Mistake. Guy screwed up, got my dad killed.
DEAN: What does this have to do with—
JO: It was your father, Dean.
DEAN: What?
JO: Why do you think John never came back? Never told you about us? Because he couldn’t look my mom in the eye after that, that’s why.

While we never learn the details of that last hunt, nor what really happened. But eventually Ellen does begin hunting with Jo. She accepts Jo’s choice to live that life, and lets go of the horrible memory of losing her husband to hunting. But the ghost of Bill Harvelle haunts this episode just as much as the ghost of John Winchester is haunting Mary in s12.

And Ellen’s anger at Jo was really… worry. Concern. Jo’s all Ellen has left really, and she’s scared for Jo. 

Ok, everything is exactly the same except Cas kept his female vessel’s cute green hat ....

Credit: the wonderful @emmaesme