it must have been a trip for Adam when he first met Gansey because this untouchable rich kid immediately unloads everything about his alternate life as a tomb raider trying to unearth the centuries-old mystery of Glendower and Adam is just, “sounds fake but i’m literally so starved of human interaction that i will now follow you to the ends of the earth in search of your super lost and super dead king”
So my roommate and I got these Rudolph Christmas coloring books a couple of weeks back. Since it’s finals week, I wanted to ease my mind into studying by coloring. First time opening the book and I saw this picture..
My favorite thing about 300 Fox Way is that you never quite know how many people are there at once. I mean you remember Blue, Maura, Calla and Persephone well enough, but there is Orla and Jimi every once in a while and then there are random cousins running around and ‘hey Blue your Raven Boys are here’ and sometimes the Gray Man is there and then when you get the Cave Crazies its like how big is this place is everyone packed in like a clown car whats going on
As Adam and Blue have this intimate, post-dream-tree moment, Ronan is “staring at them, raw”. Ronan explains later, in the Raven King, that the visions in the tree are:
“Nightmares”, “Worst-case scenarios. Whatever mindfuckery it thought would be most likely to mess you up the next day.”
So maybe that highlighted line isn’t only a reference to Ronan understanding the tree because he dreamt it. Maybe his understanding, his rawness, is because he’s actually staring at a real world version of his worst-case-scenario-nightmare-mindfuckery: Adam with someone else, Adam with a female someone else, Adam being 100% unavailable to him.
Maybe he sees the intimacy of that moment between Blue and Adam and realises it’s an intimacy he wants for himself but thinks he can never have.
Maybe it dredges up his feelings of unloveability and abandonment.
Maybe, without even stepping into the tree, he’s having to face the truth of his sexuality and the impossibility of ever sharing it with someone he has feelings for, no matter how many dollies they drag each other around on.
Maybe he doesn’t quite realise all this right now, but maybe it’s why he’s so raw.
Ronan said, “I’m always straight.” Adam replied, “Oh, man, that’s the biggest lie you’ve ever told.”
(The Raven Boys)
A+ observation Adam.
JUST ACCLIMATING MYSELF TO FEATURES so that I can draw them some more in the future. <3 Ronan gets more little head studies because I like…drew the big Adam and was like alright got that on the first try OK no more attempts necessary haha.