“Shout out to all the kids who’ve been in bad situations. Who’ve seen people at their worst. Who’ve never truly had a childhood or a place to call home. To those who’ve practically lived multuple lives. To those with absent or troubled parents. Those who had no choice but to grow up quick. You’re strong. You’ve made it this far, and you can go so much farther.”
I finally bought this book today! I also bought a new journal which I hope I can update more regularly than the last. (If you’re snoopy like me you can read about the amazing creative writing lecture I had yesterday and how my anxiety has returned)
I am afraid of a lot of things, but the thing I am most afraid of is the unknown. I don’t know his thoughts about me, so I spend hours contemplating his every word spoken to me. I wonder when he will fall out of love with me. I wonder if he will ever think about me when he leaves. I wonder if I will find a job after falling into debt to get this degree. I wonder if I will do well in the job. I wonder if people think I am pretty, I wonder if I look okay. I wonder about a lot of things. I wonder how I will die, when I will die, what day of the week it will be, and who I will be with. I am unable to think in the present because I am so scared of the future.
I am scared of things that I don’t know about yet.
Although not technically an autumn themed blog, @teacoffeebooks is one of my favorite blogs and almost always gives me an autumn vibe. Day 25 of the September journaling challenge by @journaling-junkie
Pen: Sailor Pro Gear Slim, Extra Fine (cursive) and Tombow Dual Brush Pens (lettering)