Yes, I know, this is my third art post about Thomas and I have even more non-art posts about him, and he’s seen both other drawings I’ve made but oh well. Both of those I stayed up late crying (mostly out of happiness don’t worry) and feeling warm and fuzzy from his responses. Thomas, if you see this (which I truly hope you do), I love you so much and I will undoubtedly cry a lot because this message out of all of them so far is the one that means the most to me.
Anyways have some some drawings I made at school of @thatsthat24 because I’ve drawn nothing other than him for a good 2 weeks (believe me there are plenty more drawings at school these are just the only ones I have at home). The top two are ones that I actually put a lot of effort into and colored and everything (yes, the second one is Thomas in a space dress, I had just seen pictures of him wearing a skirt and pictures of him with makeup earlier). The other ones are doodles I made (2 on school assignments 2 digitally) when I just needed something to be happy about (although the hug one is gonna be lined and colored and be part of something much bigger).
All of my friends have told me I have a problem. But Thomas makes me so happy and warm inside, what with reminding me of my former stepdad and reminding me of wonderful memories, being a HUGE anxiety calmer (If I feel an anxiety attack coming on I draw or think of Thomas and it actually helps so much) and having completely saved my life.
About that, I’ve had suicidal thoughts and want to die all the time and have since I was probably 10 (mostly caused by things in my childhood) and I’ve had terrible anxiety and anxiety attacks since I was 5 (same reason). In the past year or so, the suicidal thoughts and feelings have gotten worse and worse, and since 7th grade I’ve had nights where all I wanted was to die extremely often, usually multiple times a week. I’ve just not had the means to kill myself. But most of the time, I’ve had something that pulls me out of it for the time, sometimes even the next few days. And Thomas has always been one of those people. I’ve been a fan of his since around when he started making a following on Vine, back when I was in 5th grade, 3 years ago. But I stopped watching him frequently for a little while and came across him again a few weeks ago. In those 2 or 3 weeks I haven’t had ANY suicidal thoughts and that’s HUGE for me. Thomas is such a golden and amazing person and along with being hilarious and making me smile constantly, he’s amazingly caring and sweet, and even if I don’t necessarily talk directly with him, the fact that he doesn’t take ANYONE for granted and how much he loves all of his fans makes me feel like I am his friend. Plus, I feel like people are always saying they love their fans and for the most part I think I do, but Thomas just loves every individual fan as their own person not just as his fan and that makes me feel so incredible. I don’t feel like I’m just one out of millions, I actually feel like he appreciates me as a person and that helps me SO much.
Pretty much, I’ve seen a lot of crap in my measly 14 years alive and Thomas Sanders is one of the best things/people that’s happened. Thank you @thatsthat24 for just being you ❤️