What are you depressed about?
years of internalized trauma from physically and emotionally violent events over the last 5 years?
generalized anxiety? increased recurrence of panic attacks? increased recurrence of dissociation? desperately trying to attain a better healthier lifestyle after living for years using recreational drugs heavily? still mourning the death of a 3 year relationship? had a chidhood friend pass away last year as well? and even tho my dad returned from walking out on my family, i never really addressed the feelings or damage it inflicted on me and my relationships bc i’m in a constant mode of self preservation and survival?
idk man. i’m not depressed ABOUT things, I struggle WITH depression and anxiety. it’s not so much how dramatic events in my life are, or when they occur, it’s that my brain is constantly replaying the worst moments i’ve experienced every day, and warping any new situation into a parallel of those situations. it gets in the way of my relationships, my eagerness to explore life, and to engage with the world.
so like idk why my brain is depressed, but i’m working on it in therapy and i do think it helps a lot.