i had to give blood today and the poor girl who took it… it was obviously not something shed done very many times and i had to give three nicely sized samples
im sittin there in a cold sweat looking at her and just feeling so sorry for her bc she must b so nervous but also im like… feeling moderately sick at this point bc the drip is so slow i stg she found my smallest vein
i think i scared her bc i said “im a bit nauseous” and she was like IM NOT TAKING ANY MORE
there’s something about even’s little nod in this scene
because even knows. he’s not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. he’s been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other people
earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadn’t told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didn’t want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says
do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way he’s been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how they’d been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okay’s (been together since we were 15. okay. can’t dump her. okay). do you think that even who’s been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isak’s face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?
of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, he’s only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, it’s like he’s saying i see you, i see it, i’ve seen you for a while. it’s reassuring. it’s okay. it’s understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too
For people wondering how to take action post-election of a racist demagogue (pulled from Twitter and cleaned up):
Make a spreadsheet or a file for your representatives with names, addresses to their offices, phone numbers, and contact forms. Put everyone there. Make a note in your calendar app to check in on issues once a month.
Pay attention to news. If you get angry, upset, or worried, seek support from friends but ALSO shoot these reps an email, too. Be courteous but firm and blunt. It’s a numbers game. Often we remain invisible because we don’t go to events and rallies and can’t be physically present. But we can attach our names to emails, we can write letters, we can be vocal. We don’t have to be invisible.
You can do this with your national reps, state reps, and local reps. If someone reps you anywhere, note them. Open a line and revisit it. It’s hard work and slow. One email at a time. One letter at a time. One call at a time. Emails are easy these days, so splurge every few months on a stamp and send a letter if you can. Put your humanity in front of these people. Flout it. Some won’t care, but others will. Change ONE mind and results can cascade.
Rural areas are bubbles full of bigotry and now it’s newly revealed. But we white people who live here have the clout and power! We can speak up when our reps say terrible things, and do terrible things, and vote terrible ways. We can go “I am disappointed in you.” It’s work, but as we’ve seen the last six months, it’s time for us to do that work. If someone goes “who are your reps” you gotta know. If you don’t know and you’re mad about this election, it’s time to create that file and keep it with you and use it.
The time for social media rants only is over. Or, do those, but maybe pull those threads out into a paragraph and send them to your reps. And don’t ONLY email or contact when things go badly. Also reach out when things go right. Even if they voted AGAINST something. Treat them like you would want to be treated if you were wrong or mistaken. But we’ve gotta reach out and let them know we’re here.
Anyway, I know this is hard work. If you need help collecting your reps, give me a ping via DM and I’ll help you get started.
you are not their fan if you invade and feel entitled to their privacy, whether that be their private social media accounts, their homes, or anything else they’ve decided is qualified as ‘private’ and ‘not for the fans/public’. you are also not their fan if you take advantage of invasions of privacy, whether you were the direct perpetrator or not.
you are not their fan if you cause them fear and/or pain, either because you won’t leave them alone (i.e. stalking them, which is a crime, btw) or you’re constantly tearing into aspects of their life they didn’t give you permission to access.
you are not their fan if you make places that are supposed to their safe and private paces, especially their homes (regardless of what country they’re currently staying in) feel unsafe and threatened
i’m going to repeat this.
you are not their fan if you cause them pain, or fear, or invade their privacy, or stalk them, or break in to their homes, or chase them down the highway and cause them to get into car accidents or any of the other innumerable fucked up shit that goes down. you are not entitled to their lives - yes, they may be famous and in the public eye but they are not toys. they are human beings and you are hurting them, you are creating toxic environments for them, you are causing them pain and fear.
this shit doesn’t prove you love them - if you loved them like you claim to do, you’d respect them but this shit is the height of disrespect andis the product of unhealthy obsession. when this shit happens, it proves you that you don’t see them as human beings, but as - toys, as things that exist for solely for your enjoyment, not deserving of basic human rights.
Jason is actually a big fan of classical literature; his brothers love to make fun of him for it but he doesn’t care because “shut up Dick, Elizabeth Bennet and William Darcy were mEANT TO BE TOGETHER”