Stevie Cantwell||18||FC: Kat Dennings||Open
Stevie Cantwell wanted to find herself. She was still trying, up until this day. It was never anything for someone else, her life was perfectly fine. She had two loving parents, a writer and photographer. She had an older sister who was in law school, an older brother just started at university, a younger sister who was the president of her seventh grade art club, and last, but not least, a four year old brother in preschool. She had different friends as the years went on. She did well in school and was in several extra curricular activities throughout her life. She was never ignored or unloved, she wasn’t bullied at school, there was no trauma -as stated before, her life was perfectly fine. She went through everything for her, for nothing but her own insecurities. Stevie’s parents just told her to express herself, no matter where she ends up in life they’d love her unconditionally. That was the problem. She couldn’t express herself. She didn’t know who ‘herself’ was. That’s where the anxiety kicked in for her; in the search for the personality she thought she needed. She was terrified she’d never reach that standard that didn’t exist. She was scared she’d disappoint her parents. It was impossible, not that it mattered to her. She started to watch everything she did. She wanted to be judged and pushed in the right direction. Stevie began to crave the authority that would show what her parents wanted, but she never received it. Each phase she had started to become a familiar loop in the family that went unrecognized.