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Looking back

“If I could tell a 15‑year‑old self something, it’d be to try not to care about your appearance. Besides that, I think to always hold on to that sense of childhood wonder, that excitement. I always try to make sure I remember to put that back into my work, to remember that from doing it because I love it, and it’s not just a job, and doing it for play. As an artist, I think it’s incredibly important to hold on to the fearlessness that you have as a child. It helps you take risks in your art.”

In honor of International Women’s Day this week, we are posting quotes from our latest Creative New York interview with Petra Collins, highlighting important issues relating to body image, openness and collaboration, and health care access as an artist. Read the entire interview at

Join us on 3/18 for PopRally’s Petra Collins: In Search of Us, an evening of performance, music, and digital art conceived and developed by Collins and artist Madelyne Beckles. Tickets and more info at

[Portrait of Petra Collins by Nguan]

It’s horrible to see smoke pouring from wounds in your own country from such a fantastic vantage point. The dichotomy of being on a spacecraft dedicated to improving life on the earth and watching life being destroyed by such willful, terrible acts is jolting to the psyche, no matter who you are.

Frank Culbertson, Commander of Expedition 3 and therefore the only American not on Earth during the attacks of September 11, 2001. Being on board the International Space Station at the time, he documented the attacks from space including the photograph above.


Happy International Women’s Day!

Throwback to when I was travelling in the U.S and was blessed enough to be able to take part in the New York City Women’s March.

A little story: a friend I was travelling with didn’t understand why I wanted to be involved. “You aren’t American” she said. She then went on to make a comment and I quote “oh, you are a feminist… right?” The word feminist said with a sense of distaste. I believe in equality between all sexes. So yes, I am a proud feminist. I put on my “Meryl Streep is better than you” shirt (obviously a dig at a certain little orange man) and walked and joined in on the chants.

I am not only a proud feminist but I am a proud woman.

So, with the way my college works, I have off during spring term. The idea is meant to be that you find an internship during a time when fewer other people are looking.

I’ve got my Microsoft internship lined up for the summer. (The interview process was rigorous and mother of fuck I got it.) So for spring I was planning on just looking around for something…smaller. Maybe a start up company in NYC to intern for, from mid-March to mid-May

But I’m thinking more and more that I want to…not do that. I’m just very tired of using all my time on things that aren’t for me. All my time lately has been for homework or class or TA-ing or helping friends through things or me trying to scrape together some sleep.

I want to maybe just live at home during the spring, try to pursue some independent project–spend a few months researching something that interests me and trying to build up a program from scratch that does something cool, something I can put on my resume.

I wanna fix my running schedule and exercise on my own terms, because I’ve had no time for that lately and it’s been awful for my anxiety. I want to spend a lot more time writing A Breach of Trust, because I’m so…damn excited for things to come and I’m so tired of having no time for writing it and making it happen. I wanna be able to spend time with my mom, because once my little brother goes to college this next fall she’ll be all alone, post-divorce. I wanna spend time with my dog, who’s pushing 12 years old and winding down his time.

I wanna sleep.

I…feel like it’s a little bit of a cop-out to not be finding a spring internship. I feel like I’m supposed to, and I’m lagging behind in some race if I don’t. But if I can put together a cool project, that may be more of a resume boost than a minor tech position at a start-up company. Hell, I’ll have Microsoft on my resume, soon enough…

I gotta talk to my parents about it. Maybe it’s a bad choice, career- and resume-wise, I don’t know… I kinda just wanna be able to sleep enough.


In about 13 hours, my friends Matthew, Christina, and I will be folding a thousand cranes, in 24 hours! We’re doing it on a livestream to raise money($10,000!) for low income immigrants and refugees in NYC! You can learn more at
Here’s how you can help.

1. Purchase a limited edition handfolded crane! They’re $10 each(plus shipping and handling), and all of those proceeds will be going to the NYC chapters of the International Rescue Center and the National Immigration Law Center. You can buy these cranes at starting 12noon EST on Feb 25th(tomorrow!).

2. Tune in to our livestream, and cheer us on on Twitter or Facebook. Especially during the later hours, when we are exhausted and loopy and weird. You can use the hashtag #resistancecranes or @ one of us; we’ll be checking it regularly(I am @sawdustbear on Twitter).

3. Fold a paper crane in solidarity with our endurance art project. Post it on Instagram, Facebook, Tumblr, and/or Twitter with the hashtag #resistancecranes, and link to our website(!