2017 Chicago Red Stars Preseason Roster:

GOALKEEPERS (2): Michele Dalton, Alyssa Naeher

DEFENDERS (7): Arin Gilliland, Sarah Gorden, Samantha Johnson, Julie Johnston, Katie Naughton, Emily Richardson, Casey Short

MIDFIELDERS (13): Jackie Altschuld, Danielle Colaprico, Taylor Comeau, Vanessa DiBernardo, Ashley Gogolin, Lauren Kaskie, Kourtney Kutscher, Morgan Proffitt, Courtney Raetzman, Sofia Huerta, Alyssa Mautz, Mary Luba, Brittany Ratcliffe

FORWARDS (8): Ashleigh Ellenwood, Janelle Flaws, Summer Green, Jennifer Hoy, Simone Kolander, Stephanie McCaffrey, Christen Press, Cara Walls

You ever get that feeling like nobody is ever going to love you again? You ever look at somebody and just know they they may never appreciate you or take the time to dive into the depths of you? Do you ever long to, but for a moment, be held as if you mattered? Do you ever remember all of those tiny intricacies of your past relationships and know it will never be like that again? Do you ever miss the person you were with the person you loved? Do you ever miss yourself? Have you ever stood alone in a bathroom listening to the music echoing from the garage, you don’t have to pee, you just have to be alone for a minute, you just have to exist, and that camera around your neck is getting too heavy so you put it into your hands, and you hide behind it, and you try to exist. But, did you ever love yourself? Will you ever love yourself again?

I’m not sure.
But that’s me in the bathroom pretending I exist.

safestuff0605  asked:

I've begun to develop a strong fear of the weather. Lightning and wind also terrify me. When someone is afraid of flying, there are statistics which could help them understand how little a risk they are actually taking. With this statistic method in mind, is there anything I could remind myself of when I begin to become frightened, that could help relax me a bit? Thank you :)

Lightning is something that’s serious, but with most things as long as you approach it intelligently, you’ll be fine! 

The National Safety Council organized a handy chart of “What are the Odds of Dying From” that has some handy statistics. There’s a lot more things that we are significantly more at risk for statistically than lightning. For instance you have a 1 in 672 chance of dying as a pedestrian in your life while a 1 in 174,426 chance of dying from lightning. Yet we don’t carry the same fear when walking as we do for lightning. 

Something to consider here, we’re much more often “exposed” to being pedestrians than we are exposed to lightning, so this makes a bit of sense that the numbers are so skewed, but the point of fear still stands. 

Lightning is serious business, but as I said earlier we need to approach lightning intelligently. 

If you look at the an analysis of lightning deaths in the US about two thirds of incidents occurred to people engaged in outdoor activities. So basically people that are outside enjoying the day when a storm comes along, and they decide to either watch the storm from an unsafe place, or keep going with the activity. Going further into outdoor “leisure” activities, of that two thirds about 35% of those activities were water related (largely fishing, but hey, why not looks at the study yourself!). 

Worth mentioning, the study also pointed out that 79% of victims were male - being okay with risky behaviours doesn’t make you cool and tough, it makes you an idiot. As the study put it:

Possible explanations for this finding are that males are unaware of all the dangers associated with lightning, are more likely to be in vulnerable situations, are unwilling to be inconvenienced by the threat of lightning, are in situations that make it difficult to get to a safe place in a timely manner, don’t react quickly to the lightning threat, or any combination of these explanations. In short, because of their behavior, males are at a higher risk of being struck and, consequently, are struck and killed by lightning more often than females.

Here’s a breakdown of activities people are doing when they die from a lightning strike:

Notice these are all things that are outside! The study stated that things that contributed to lightning fatalities were people’s unwillingness to postpone activities, not being aware of approaching storms (you’re either weatherwise, or otherwise!), being in a vulnerable location, an inability or unwillingness to get to a safe place. 

So how do we stay safe during a thunderstorm? Do as the NOAA says “when thunder roars, go indoors”! If you know there are going to be storms that day stay alert and take a glance at a radar map every now and then (lord knows you probably have a smart phone), and have an idea of where you’ll go when a storm is near. If you’re unable to get indoors avoid hilltops, isolated tall objects like poles or trees, spread out if you’re in a group, and try to avoid wet items and areas - these won’t make you safe, but will slightly decrease your risk. The only completely safe action is getting inside a building or vehicle.

Have a look over this page on lightning safety and these tips for more info. 

So bottom line, should you have a healthy respect for lightning? Yes. Should you be terrified of lightning? No. Be smart and follow the safety tips, you’ll be alright. 

Thanks for reading, and I hope this helped!

UPDATE: Week 1 From My Favorite Place

So, I’m in the mountains of Pennsylvania riding my skateboard and teaching skateboarding and just loving life right now.

Woodward camp is a very special place to me; I’ve grown up here since I was twelve and have come back every summer since. This is a place where I feel validated, where I have a schedule and responsibilities, where there is always a hug to be had, where I am appreciated for my work ethic, for my enthusiasm, for my leadership, and for my friendship.

As soon as I completed that nine hour drive from North Carolina to this place tucked away in Pennsylvania I was met with open arms and with kind smiles that filled my heart with certainty, something I am not all that accustomed to these days. It is amazing how comfortable my body feels on a twin sized mattress, even with my feet hanging off of the end I sleep like a cat in a warm spot of sun.

Cabins come with kids, with personalities, with challenges and laughs, but 17A was a joy this week (tough times were had but they always gave way to laughter). I see myself in some of these campers, some of them 17 and 18 years old already, only younger than me by two handfuls of months, enjoying this place the same ways I did once.

Parents tend to ask if I still enjoy coming back and I honestly do, I’m still at summer camp, I’m just a big kid enjoying my new found responsibilities and challenges.

I think of Desmond often. It’s not with the lust or passion I did before, but the same desire is there. Most times it is at sunset, the light catches the hills and the clouds and the whole valley is aglow, golden with light gracing Amish farms, casting long shadows of horses pulling there equipment in for the day. “I wish she could see this,” I think “she would love this.” I think about her hands and the time I held them walking out of Walmart, I think of holding them again.

These hills have held my dreams, my sorrows, they have echoed my laughter as well as my bewildered scream, they have seen me grow so much, and I am here once more, trying to be who I want to be, closer than I have felt in so long to who I want to be.

I’m okay, everybody,
I’m going to be okay.

6-17-17 7:21pm