nu'est diary

LOVEs, it’s time to band together

NU’EST’s promo cycle is entering its 2nd week, but where are the LOVEs? Definitely, it was a tough week. We fought so hard on Tudou to fail the 1st place nominee. We voted on MBC Show Champion and Mnet and scored top 5 in both, but failed to get a 1st place nominee. 

Today, NU'EST’s lineup position is 3rd on Mnet MCountdown, despite being 10th on M!Count charts (their best yet), 2nd on Mnet Popularity Vote, and earning over 100k views of their comeback stage. 

We got a rookie-entry lineup position, where the boys didn’t have any time to prepare themselves before the music started.
We don’t have any MPD Fancams.
We aren’t ranking in the searches anymore.

My question is, LOVEs, where are you? Are we really giving in because we failed to get them a first place nominee? Are we giving up when their promo cycle just started?

I’m not, but I cannot do this alone. I cannot vote all by myself, I cannot stream by myself. Where are the LOVEs that have been tweeting previously? The LOVEs who swore that this song is a gem and want to help them in charting? 

Yes, we didn’t get 1st place nominees, but we’re doing better than ever. As a small fandom, we’re doing more than most would expect. WE ARE NOT FLOPS. But we will be the moment we give up. If NU'EST is fighting, the least LOVEs can do is to stay by their side. They cannot be Knights to Queens who aren’t even there, can they?

So I ask of you to please, come out. Let’s try again. Let’s try the fucking hardest so that there would be no regrets for us. We don’t want to tell them we’ve already given up do we? This is just the beginning after all. Yes, it’s tiring. I know LOVEs that haven’t had any decent sleep in days. LOVEs that were hurt about hardwork not translating to results. LOVEs that spent both money and time supporting the boys.

But no one said it’s going to be an easy path. We’re a small fandom, we’re going to walk a more rocky path than some other groups. Perhaps that’s why their new song is OVERCOME.And we can OVERCOME this together. So please, LOVEs, can we all put our best foot forward? The boys are watching, I know they are, or they wouldn’t leave hose messages for us whenever we felt a blow. Let’s show them some love like how they’ve always given us, please?

Bit by bit, we can make a difference.

- From a fellow LOVE.


Let’s take a moment to appreciate Aron’s singing. No, really. I can still remember Aron mentioning that he’s interested in singing back on Music Access, before saying that he’s not good at it. I know he’s sang songs for his solo stages in Japan concerts before but this, this is beautiful on it’s own because he’s actually seriously singing a song. He’s trying his best to actually sing properly. 

Aron might have a lot of his derpron moments, sometimes yelling and purposely cracking his voice when he ‘sing’ high notes back on MA, he’s actually a guy that’s easily embarrassed. Just listen to how he talks about his ideal date, or how he got flustered when he needed to do a punishment game of dancing in public, or flashing his awkward smile when he’s at a lost of what to do on Korean shows.

He may not be the best vocalist even in NU’EST, but so what? Look how much he’s grown - from a rapper to a vocal. I am proud to see how far he’s come along now and he’s seriously underappreciated even within the NU’EST fandom. And I could only wish Aron could gain more confidence about his vocal abilities, because he can do better if given the chance. Please, give him more love!

Can we just appreciate NU’EST’s Thank You for a minute?

Because this song is so, so, so, beautiful. Everything, from the amazing adlibs to the lyrics paint such a picturesque image of two being being wrapped in their own world. What I loved about it is that it’s a thank you, more so than just a ‘I love you’. And sometimes it takes a lot more to say this two simple words that we take for granted to those we treasure the most. The lyrics go beyond the usual ballad of ‘I love you’ and ‘I want to be with you’, to something bigger like ‘I am grateful to you’; It’s about being grateful to the hands that have held on to them no matter what and how they wish to see them at the end of the path; it’s about how everything else disappears in their own world. It’s about being thankful to be given the key to their heart, and being able to hand their heart over - it’s more than just love. There’s trust, there’s fate, there’s gratitude.

And I’ve never been more thankful and felt such warmth from a song alone.


After School Videos: 

【TVPP】After School - Again & Again (2PM), 애프터스쿨 - 어게인 앤 어게인 @ Star Dance Battle

AFTERSCHOOL / New Single「Heaven」

[ENG] Beauty Bible EP 1 [¼]

[ENG] Beauty Bible EP 1 [2/4]

[ENG] Beauty Bible EP 1 [¾]

[ENG] Beauty Bible EP1 [4/4]

SBS [2013가요대전] - 애프터스쿨(After School) ‘첫사랑’

AS_Mutizen_Awards_cut_ 091220, 100103, 100124

121231 After School NANA Cam “FLASHBACK + READY” @ MBC

[ENG] AfterSchool Self-Camera #1

[ENG] 141025 AFTERSCHOOL @ Muse Dress 女神的新衣 Ep10

140905 天天向上 橙子焦糖 Day Day Up Orange Caramel

After School-Because Of You(Live Baseball Golden Globe Awards 2009).avi

[SchoolSubs] [09.03.01] Diary of After School - Ep 1 (1/3)

NU’EST Videos:

[ETC] NU'EST 'Fine Girl’ 무대영상 (150809 팬미팅ver.)

[MV] 뉴이스트(NU'EST) 1st single “FACE”

[Season4] NU'EST L.O.∧.E story '보이는 TV’ 제 2탄 '잠꼬대 잠옷버전’

[ENG] NU'EST MTV Diary EP 01

[ENG] NU'EST MTV Diary EP 02

Global Request Show : A Song For You 3 - Ep.6 with NU'EST & C-Clown

[MV] 2013.08.22 NU'EST The 3rd Mini Album 'Fine Girl’_M/V

[NU'EST] 설 특집영상 '우리는 킬러다’

#hashtag(해시태그): NU'EST(뉴이스트) _ I’m Bad [ENG/JPN/CHN SUB]

[Interview] NU'EST Talk About Their Trainee Days, Twitter, and Weird Habits!

JJANG! #29.2 - NU'EST Exclusive Interview

[Season2] NU'EST L.O.∧.E story Season 2- 보이는 TV '제4탄’ 우천시특집(Rainy day special)

[Season3] NU'EST L.O.∧.E story '보이는 사생활’ 제 2탄 - 뉴이스트 터키에 가다!



[Special Video] SEVENTEEN - 아낀다 (Adore U) Performance Ver.

[ETC] SEVENTEEN’s Christmas Party

[ETC] SEVENTEEN_Dance Practice Video_1

[Special Video] SEVENTEEN(세븐틴) in BUSAN(부산)

[Special Video] SEVENTEEN - 아낀다 (Adore U) Acoustic Ver.


[Special Video] SEVENTEEN(세븐틴) - 만세(MANSAE) Performance + Behind Cut Ver.

[Special Video] SEVENTEEN(세븐틴) - 아낀다(Adore U) - Part Switch Ver.

After School Club - Seventeen(세븐틴) - Full Episode

[ETC] Specia SEVENTEEN TV 'Goodmorning17’ - ep1

[ETC] Specia SEVENTEEN TV 'Goodmorning17’ - ep2


[M/V] 세븐틴(SEVENTEEN)-아낀다 (Adore U)

Prize Donator’s Tumblr/s:

lindowyn or clickthelikeit

It took a long while to pen down my thoughts I know I should try to ignore it, in hopes that things die down, but I cannot hold this in any further. 

I shall not speak of the article that brought this, the click-bait was one step too far for my liking. Especially how the information wasn’t at all complete. Instead I will start off with saying that yes, I do admit, even as a LOVE and Aron bias, that saying such things on air was undoubtedly unprofessional.

Moving along, Aron has since issued an apology back when the news first hit Instiz earlier this year, for something he had said 2 years ago. The most comment argument about this was remarks and doubts whether he was sincere, and how he should not have said it in the first place. True, there was no way we would know. But likewise, there is no way we will know whether it was said as a joke between two close parties, or whether he meant it. In that linear thought, one cannot jump onto the bandwagon of pointing fingers and responding with equally hurtful remarks and render judgement based on that short clip, which certainly doesn’t show the full history of the relationship between the boys since trainee era.

Another common argument was that he was an adult (20 international at the time it happened) compared to the kids (15-16 international average at the time). As a hyung, he should be more careful and mature. I’ve already mentioned, what he did was unprofessional. But it is also to be remembered that he’s not the most fluent in the language itself, not to mention the whole culture. He made a mistake, and he apologized. Moving along is part of growing up, and I’m sure he’s learnt from it.

I will definitely not stand for is the kind of rude comments you think you have gained the rights to use. No one deserves hate. While Aron had the benefit of a doubt that they are friends, no matter how you insist that they don’t, as someone on the net with no affiliations nor actual relationships with the boys, you do not have the rights to leave those unsightly comments. I will not dive into the kind of triggering comments, if you want you can head on over to the youtube and read them for yourself. 

I know, you’re in pain because you felt that your boys were hurt unknowingly. For that the most I can do is to offer you an apology. But at the same time, it’s all about perspectives - we too, are in pain because it wasn’t all that fair to us either. If you could say things like ‘imagine how Hoshi was being a ball of sunshine when the comment occur’, then I can definitely say ‘imagine how Aron must have felt, again and again, that he was consistently told that he did not belong in this foreign land and how he was dragging his team down. How much regrets he had to endure, and harsh comments directed to his loved ones and himself for a single mistake that continues to haunt him for years.’ 

It is painful to us LOVEs as well.

Aron reads the comments online. And he changes himself over the last few years in attempt to give a ‘better’ image. He’s trying, even though a lot of the general kpop fans won’t know, or bother to know, but he is. And it’s sad how these ‘controversies’ always shadows the things he has done for fans in the fandom, or for others. Bluntness does not mean he is heartless. He’s spoken fondly of 17 on his radio before, diverting attention to 17 during their Sleep Talking showcase. He’s someone that, at every fancam or fanmeets that I’m lucky enough to go, that will always head down the stage to interact with the fans, despite having the least number of fans or fanclubs. He remembers the names of his radio listeners, and helped a lot of the fans go through hard times via honest communication. 

He made mistakes…but he is not a criminal. Are we not allowed chances to show a better side of us?

Please, stop raging over something that was supposed to conclude 2 years ago. Stop digging up the past and opening our wounds over, and over, and over again. It hurts. It hurts so freaking bad, because at the end of the day, the one that you’re pointing fingers at, hurling abuse and all…it’s not your fandom. It’s mine. It’s my family, my boys, my fellow LOVEs. At the end of the day you can pat dust off your pants and leave, sneering because your job is done…and we’re left to pick up the pieces you shattered. 

How would you feel, if someone told your favourite group to disband, or your favourite member to leave? How would you feel, if they were given threats and verbally abused as a conscious choice? How would you feel, if people are constantly calling the boys that you know gave in their all at performances, things like ‘failure’ and other derogatory terms? If you don’t know how it feels, it’s for the best. I’m not even the subject of this issue, but reading the comments myself…I do not want to even imagine how they would feel.

So please, stop. If we all could take a step back, we can make this a more courteous and nicer place.