nu'est diary

just had to get this out

Hi, I’m back with unpopular opinions, as per usual. But I just have to get this out.

Recently there was some talk about certain fansites being sasaengs and disappointments from Wannaone, and I just want to say a few things before people jump on the bandwagon without realizing something…this is not targeted at any one, but if you read to the end, I will appreciate it.

Firstly, what is a sasaeng? This is a sasaeng: they followed the boys off schedule in their free time, intruding their private time. They loiter around the boys’ living quarters and company. They even attempt at breaking into their private space. 

And these are NOT the behaviour of a good number of the sites that have posted the previews. 

The news of the boys being at KBS got out because a muggle at KBS building recorded (may I add, in what look like a secret cam without permission either) the boys’ entry and shared the news. This spurred excited fans in the nearby areas to drop by for a glimpse of them, as well as news reporters who turned up at the main entrance and carpark of the building - yet another public space.

Yes, it’s not right to get too close and shove your camera into their faces, nor is it fine to obstruct the members path, and worst still attempt to grab them. All of these is wrong. I don’t approve of any of this either. But not every fansite master was like that.

Most of the fansite masters (if not all) that were on site did not stalk them from their dorms.
Most did not trail after them after their departure.
Most did not grab them or stopped them from entering their vans.

Most went there to get commute photos, some were not even there personally and received photos from their friends. Some thought it was no different from commute photos of produce 101 arrivals ( which, many fans were equally eager to pass around when those are non-official schedules either ) and thought it was okay to post the previews. A good part of them said they didn’t know whether it was official or unofficial, that they were sorry and took them down.

In short, they heard about an update with over 15k RTs on twitter, went to KBS building entrance and waited outside to snap a couple of photos. That’s it.

So why are you guys witch-hunting them with blacklists? Is it worth it? I don’t know, personally I don’t think so. 

I think it’s fine if you still think photos like these are not okay. It’s your choice if you decide that you don’t want to RT the photos, or well, you won’t even accept their apology after they took it down. But at least know the full context, and both side of the stories. Some fansites I’ve seen listed in the list…they are no sasaengs. And they’ve supported the boys for a long time without any problems so far. But a misunderstanding of official vs unofficial schedules where they got a tip-off from a muggle, and they’re suddenly on the hit-list of other fans? Harassing them about it doesn’t make you a righteous or better fan.

Now in regards to double standards…if you call them out for sasaeng behaviour, I expect you to not RT or blog any of the news photos at the same event. You shouldn’t be posting any commute photos of the rehearsals. You would also not visit the boys at the airport when they head to your country for performances, because it’s an unofficial schedule. You would also not loiter around their hotel or after the performance for a glimpse of them. 

Yes, this is the double-standards that’s concerning. Being an ifan that rarely get to see them doesn’t give you the right to do actual sasaeng behaviour - such as following them at the airport or trailing after them to the hotel in a taxi. I know not many people are like that, but I’ve seen enough cases of people picking and choosing their beliefs based on their own convenience. 

This is a messy chunk of feelings but I guess. Moving along now.


Ren usually uses every second he has to tell loves how much he appriciates and loves us. But this v live you can tell he was really deprived of interaction with fans cos it felt like said “thank you” and “i love you” 1 million times!!

Another thing I missed so much is how much he flirts lmao and its not just fanservice…. he REALLY means it when he says “I love you so much”, since debut hes been like this. Someone showers his fans with love and who desprately wants to be his fans source of strength💓

Our precious baby… even if I said it a million times I could NEVER express in words how much I love, respect and adore every aspect of your being. Truely a heart of gold, We’ll do anything to keep you happy like you are now My love😊❤

Loves find SO MUCH strength in your words of encouragement you have no idea

(Gif- @guksuu )

LOVEs, it’s time to band together

NU’EST’s promo cycle is entering its 2nd week, but where are the LOVEs? Definitely, it was a tough week. We fought so hard on Tudou to fail the 1st place nominee. We voted on MBC Show Champion and Mnet and scored top 5 in both, but failed to get a 1st place nominee. 

Today, NU'EST’s lineup position is 3rd on Mnet MCountdown, despite being 10th on M!Count charts (their best yet), 2nd on Mnet Popularity Vote, and earning over 100k views of their comeback stage. 

We got a rookie-entry lineup position, where the boys didn’t have any time to prepare themselves before the music started.
We don’t have any MPD Fancams.
We aren’t ranking in the searches anymore.

My question is, LOVEs, where are you? Are we really giving in because we failed to get them a first place nominee? Are we giving up when their promo cycle just started?

I’m not, but I cannot do this alone. I cannot vote all by myself, I cannot stream by myself. Where are the LOVEs that have been tweeting previously? The LOVEs who swore that this song is a gem and want to help them in charting? 

Yes, we didn’t get 1st place nominees, but we’re doing better than ever. As a small fandom, we’re doing more than most would expect. WE ARE NOT FLOPS. But we will be the moment we give up. If NU'EST is fighting, the least LOVEs can do is to stay by their side. They cannot be Knights to Queens who aren’t even there, can they?

So I ask of you to please, come out. Let’s try again. Let’s try the fucking hardest so that there would be no regrets for us. We don’t want to tell them we’ve already given up do we? This is just the beginning after all. Yes, it’s tiring. I know LOVEs that haven’t had any decent sleep in days. LOVEs that were hurt about hardwork not translating to results. LOVEs that spent both money and time supporting the boys.

But no one said it’s going to be an easy path. We’re a small fandom, we’re going to walk a more rocky path than some other groups. Perhaps that’s why their new song is OVERCOME.And we can OVERCOME this together. So please, LOVEs, can we all put our best foot forward? The boys are watching, I know they are, or they wouldn’t leave hose messages for us whenever we felt a blow. Let’s show them some love like how they’ve always given us, please?

Bit by bit, we can make a difference.

- From a fellow LOVE.


Let’s take a moment to appreciate Aron’s singing. No, really. I can still remember Aron mentioning that he’s interested in singing back on Music Access, before saying that he’s not good at it. I know he’s sang songs for his solo stages in Japan concerts before but this, this is beautiful on it’s own because he’s actually seriously singing a song. He’s trying his best to actually sing properly. 

Aron might have a lot of his derpron moments, sometimes yelling and purposely cracking his voice when he ‘sing’ high notes back on MA, he’s actually a guy that’s easily embarrassed. Just listen to how he talks about his ideal date, or how he got flustered when he needed to do a punishment game of dancing in public, or flashing his awkward smile when he’s at a lost of what to do on Korean shows.

He may not be the best vocalist even in NU’EST, but so what? Look how much he’s grown - from a rapper to a vocal. I am proud to see how far he’s come along now and he’s seriously underappreciated even within the NU’EST fandom. And I could only wish Aron could gain more confidence about his vocal abilities, because he can do better if given the chance. Please, give him more love!

Can we just appreciate NU’EST’s Thank You for a minute?

Because this song is so, so, so, beautiful. Everything, from the amazing adlibs to the lyrics paint such a picturesque image of two being being wrapped in their own world. What I loved about it is that it’s a thank you, more so than just a ‘I love you’. And sometimes it takes a lot more to say this two simple words that we take for granted to those we treasure the most. The lyrics go beyond the usual ballad of ‘I love you’ and ‘I want to be with you’, to something bigger like ‘I am grateful to you’; It’s about being grateful to the hands that have held on to them no matter what and how they wish to see them at the end of the path; it’s about how everything else disappears in their own world. It’s about being thankful to be given the key to their heart, and being able to hand their heart over - it’s more than just love. There’s trust, there’s fate, there’s gratitude.

And I’ve never been more thankful and felt such warmth from a song alone.