I think I’ve offended my hot english neighbour when he came over for a cup of coffee, we sat at the kitchen table and chatted about silly things. I honestly don’t know how we went from cakes to fetishes, I really think sometimes it’ll kill a white guy to hold a conversation for 5mn straight without any mention of sex. Anyways he asked me if I have a fetish I just told him I didn’t know him well enough to have this conversation and asked him if he’s one of those white guys with weird kinks. I think everyone has weird kink he replied a bit irritated  then told me he’s been having dreams about me ever since we met and I wish I never asked. We are having sex in all of my dreams and it ends the same way, so this guy dreams of plugging my rectum seriously what’s wrong with this younger generation.Good thing it’s a dream I told him coz it’ll never happen, why not he said I like you. I have a boyfriend and I’m not interested in younger guys, no offense but a guy who’ll dream of exploring my a** before even trying this bomb p*ssy is sh*t. I’m younger and I can go all night maybe you just don’t have the stamina, I love it when this youngster try to sell their stamina like it equals good sex, you can go all night and your d*ck’s still trash. What can a guy 5 or 6 years younger than me do to me I’ve never seen before, if I take my clothes off for a man and he doesn’t live up to my expectations he’ll get punched for wasting my time. So it’s better to stick to girls your own age, they are nice enough to fake it or even fall in love with you!

Today I’m sick of porn.
I opened tumblr like every morning and I literally got sick right away also I feel weird about ddlg rn. Not directly about ddlg itself but about what I made with my little bee. All the pink and glitter stuff. Today I feel like an absolute hippy little! Playing with colored sand and flat stones.

It’s like my different roles come and go and gonfuse me on a very emotional level. Feel lost.


I’m tired of smut just being porn star worthy, professional, distant fucking

give me fic smut where the characters are new and awkward and ‘oh my god am I doing this right?’ and 'no, oh my fuck you don’t put it there’

give me fic smut where the characters are crying but not like 'that’s good dick’ crying or 'shit that hurts’ crying but rather 'oh my god I love this person more than life and we’re so close right now’ crying, gimme some of that full out bawling

give me fic smut where it’s all a joke and they’re doing anything they can to purposefully kill the mood just to make the other one laugh

give me fic smut where they’re trying things out and maybe things don’t go as planned but they keep going anyway and have a good time

give me fic smut where the characters are literally teasing each other the whole time, but not like sexually teasing but more like insults that are their way of flirting like 'ow you bit my tongue, nice going you clumsy asshole’ and 'fuck you, I made you spaghetti and this is the thanks I get?’

give me fic smut where they laugh, be it because one of them did something funny/embarrassing or because they’re just happy????

like can people in smut fics be more than attracted to each other and not just sex machines with their only priority being fucking???