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anonymous asked:

how do you know what gender you are because IDK WHAT I AM AND IM SO CONFUSED ALL MY LIFE I HAVE THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS A GIRL BUT NOW SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE A BOY I THINK BUT IM NOT SURE and idk what I am!!!!!!!!

honestly it took a really long time of questioning stuff and researching and just trying different things out. for awhile i hadn’t really felt like a girl, but i didn’t really feel like a boy either. i realized that i kinda felt like a mix of the two but in a way that wasn’t really either if you know what i mean?? ? (that’s what nonbinary means for me, personally!)

as for you, it sounds like you might be genderfluid! it might take some time to figure some things out but i will be right here whenever you have any questions or anything! and even if you never put a label on yourself, that doesn’t make your identity, or you, any less valid. ♥

that-twenty-something asked:

Are you still doing shifflemancy readings? If so ai's like to know what the short term future holds for me career wise.

@that-twenty-something Hi, sweetie! So sorry it took me so long to reply! I’ve been having lots of obstacles lately haha.

 So, when I opened Pandora, “Fuck Up Some Commas” by Future started. Typically, I will try restarting Pandora just to see what comes on next, because typically, I’m not reading for the reading by the first song; however, I tried restarting Pandora THREE (yes 3!) times and the same song played each time!

Now, I’m not sure if you’re familiar with this song or if you even listen to rap, but I think the title speaks for itself….. or maybe not, so I’ll explain! lol

Basically, the whole song is about how he [Future] & his friends are getting money- and lots of it (I sound like such a white girl trying to explain this lmao). Basically, the only way I know how to interpret this song, is to say that you will be coming into money- an hopefully a good bit of it!

I truly hope this helps you out! Please let me know the outcome within the next few weeks! I, by no means, can guarantee 100% accuracy, as I am fairly new to these readings, but I truly hope it is headed in the right direction! Please keep in touch, lovely! Blessings.

Same guy who broke my heart on and off for over a year (and the same boy I’ve whined about repeatedly on here) “came around” today.

Just a couple months too late.

I definitely think it’s possible to miss someone and still not want them in your life (at least in the same way they previously were). It’s just too late now. He waited too long or I didn’t adapt quick enough. We just didn’t fit together at the right time. It’s sad cause it could have been great but it is what it is. He’s now a friend who knows my heart inside and out so I really shouldn’t complain.

He inspired me to live selfishly and adventurously. I inspired him to figure out if what he defined as an “adventure” was progression or running away. We each learned these lessons and took inspiration too late. Timing wasn’t our friend.

I never used to understand the whole “meet the right person at the wrong time” thing.

I get it now.

i’m an abuse survivor. what i went through was abuse. there isn’t any other word for it. it took me a long time to understand that but that’s what happened. somehow even though i’ve been thinking of it that way for about a year or so now it’s still hard to make myself understand what that means, that my responses to it are not an overreaction, it’s not something i just need to “get over”, i suffered trauma and the fact that i’m still feeling the effects of it is not a sign of weakness. i need to be kind to myself. i need to be honest about the fact that my triggers are exactly that and they’re serious and important and not just like, some things that bother me slightly

i’m not really sure what else to do right now though, i think i need to talk to people about it more, especially people with similar experiences because i’m not sure how to help myself otherwise but it’s hard to know who, and what to say. it’s all really hard

God fucking dammit I think I was in love with him. That was what seems like so long ago but all the symptoms were there; it took me too long, left me stranded, and now I’ve never felt more empty because we haven’t talked in nearly a year and m. still talks about him highly all the time and I want so badly to say that he was the one who used me I think I was just too needy too clingy too fucking late.