now you know of my love for musicals

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Straight from my journal: “I woke up this morning and everything felt okay. Better. I slept in, watered the plants,  listened to some music while I made breakfast and tea.  It wasn’t bad, for once. I think rest is really important- even when you didn’t know you needed it. Take your time. Reflect. Restart.”

Now Playing:

Strange or Be Forgotten- Temples

Reasons Not To Die- Ryn Weaver

[i don’t know you]
[why would i fall in love with you? 💔

if i can’t have you,
no one can

finally posted this after so much heckin’ delay. this song and draw helped a lot with what im trudging forwards with lately, so i had to express it ~ thank you heavens for joji  (T-T) full view for great view !

anonymous asked:

AAAARGH! I just caught up to A Musical Connection, and I love it! When do you think you'll be done with the next chapter?

I’m glad you like it! :)

I am hella behind on my posting schedule right now and I know it (and I’m super-sorry about that), but the next chapter is, like, 97% ready. There’s just something about it that I want to tweak that I can’t quite put my finger on and I haven’t had the time to figure out what it is/edit it (….because I decided to go apple picking yesterday. that was why I didn’t have time.). I’m hoping to get it done and posted today!

Love, Simon was a great movie. My only gripe is that when he is discussing Christmas Music he does not mention Mariah Carey’s iconic 1994 single “All I Want For Christmas Is You”. Now, we are all aware all gays know the tea that Mariah invented Christmas in 94, which is why we worship her. So is Simon truly gay? Is he a Top? In this essay I will be analyzing…

Baby Driver

this movie is flawless and here are some reasons why:

  • the whole soundtrack
  • the entire beginning sequence
  • when Griff (Jon Bernthal) gets in the car during the first heist and points forward and Baby slams it backwards
  • sign language
  • Joe made me so happy?
  • also when he signed “who’s the girl?”
  • Ansel Elgort’s lips? blocked
  • you can hear his tinnitus (ringing sound) when he’s not listening to music
  • you can’t hear his tinnitus when he’s with Deborah
  • when he takes one ear bud out the music shifts to one side
  • K̶e̶v̶i̶n̶ ̶S̶p̶a̶c̶e̶y̶.̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶o̶v̶e̶r̶a̶l̶l̶.̶ ̶i̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶h̶i̶m̶ nevermind
  • “what the fuck?”
  • when he goes to get coffee and he’s listening to Harlem Shuffle by Bob & Earl you can see the lyrics graffiti-ed on the walls and poles and stuff behind him as he’s walking
  • when Baby is ordering coffee and he goes “yeah yeah yeah” in time with the song
  • Baby reciting back the entire plan and then looking at Bats and going “questions?”
  • “That’s my Baby.” “Fuck yo’ Baby.”
  • the gunshots are perfectly in time with the music during every fight sequence
  • when Buddy cocks Darling’s gun for her
  • Darling’s outfits
  • she’s also rly pretty the fuck
  • Brighton Rock??? What the fuck???? so good I love Queen
  • “And you’re in a pink and sparkly mood?” “I am now.”
  • Every time Baby smirks I wanna punch him
  • the sunglasses scene
  • the scene where he’s running away from the cops is just as intense as the car chase scenes and the gun fights
  • Simon and Garfunkel’s Baby Driver is so catchy fuck
  • “Wait, I have to start the song over.”
  • When he goes into the diner and it starts playing When Something Is Wrong With My Baby
  • Baby singing along to Neat Neat Neat
  • “Now you know I hate taking candy from Baby…”
  • Jamie Foxx’s character was unpredictable, and a little unnerving. He wasn’t like terrifying but there definitely were moments where I wasn’t sure what he was gonna do and it made me nervous
  • side note my dad was peeing when Bats died and when he came back and I told him Baby killed Bats he went “ah, good.”
  • “You took something from me that I love, now you know I gotta do the same to you.” Oh yea for sure he’s gonna shoot Deb- FUCK
  • that part was honestly so good I spent like 5 minutes with my mouth hanging open like fuck you Buddy you can’t take that away from him :’( 
  • but it also shows that Buddy really understood Baby and remember that he kinda stood up for Baby and they were bonding a lil with music and stuff it just shows how unpredictable he was
  • I have legitimately been listening to the soundtrack for this movie since I saw it a week ago today
  • his name is Miles
  • if Edgar Wright and James Gunn made a movie together I would die immediately upon entering the theater

don’t worry I’ll see this movie 8937459 more times so expect more of this

haunting things in musicals
  • the build up to and the final “seeaasons oF LOOOOOOVE” in “I’ll Cover You (Reprise)” while jesse l martin fucking belTS
  • the “nATALIE nATALIE nATALIE-"s the company sings along w anatole in "Letters”
  • natasha richardson’s voice in general BUT ESPECIALLY the instrumental leading up to the second “everybody… they love a WINNER” in “Maybe This Time”
  • when gavin creel sings the final “TELL ME WHYY” and the tribe goes “FREEDOM” in “Where Do I Go?”
  • when (any) mimi pitches her voice up while singing “goodbye love- hello, disease” during “Goodbye Love” because?????
  • the entirety of when andrew rannells and christian borle r singing together in “What Would I Do” but really when they do the “one hour moore-/ one hour more-” and then come together for "one hour-one hour- moOOORE
  • when (any) trina sings "they sometimes love but not enough-” and then hits that note on “my hEArt will beat at will, but stiiilll…” in “Trina’s Song”
  • “maybe he’ll come back today, maybe he came already, and he’s sitting in the drawing room… and I simply forgot.”
  • when the entire company softly choruses “tiiiiiiiiiime / will they tell your story?” in “Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story”
  • claudia’s “paciencia y fEEEEEEEEE” while the americans sing “you better clean this mess / you better learn ingLES" in "Paciencia y Fe” (and really the entire fucking song end my life olga merediz)
  • when (any) wendla reprises “i beliiive” while (any) moritz is singing “another dream / another love you’ll hold” during “Those You’ve Known”
  • i know there’s more im not thinking of right now ADD MORE
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i’ve been trying to post a drawing every day so…here’s some lineless practice with allura holding… molten steel? a star? you decide.

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// Let me take you down, ‘cause I’m going to Strawberry Fields //

(close-ups of Paul in Strawberry Fields Forever)

The YOI Soundtrack is absolute genius PART ONE - Kamome

So, this is a post I’ve really wanted to make for a while. And, I know how much people seem to like my metas, so why not? I will preface this with the fact I am not a musical expert. I had vocal training, was in a few choirs etc., but I have no qualifications, I’m just a nerd who’s really into music and analysis. I would be perfectly okay with someone with experience sweeping in to tell me I’m completely wrong, these are just my personal thoughts and observations. Also, if you want to skim this, I’m bolding the main points.

I have a bone to pick with the Yuri On Ice Original Soundtrack(s), because they’re absolute bloody genius. And personally I think, represent a lot about Viktor and Yuuri’s relationship.

My main focus will be on three: Kamome, Passacaille In Barcelona, and Yuri On Ice itself. To stop it from getting to a ridiculous length, I’m going to be tackling this in three different parts. 

First, the appropriately named Kamome (translating to ‘seagull’ in Japanese).

One thing you have to understand is that consistently in the music, Viktor is represented by strings, and Yuuri by piano. I’m not going to claim that this is true for 100% of the anime, but honestly just listen to background in the scenes for the characters (even down to their Free Skate music! The difference between Stammi Vicino and Yuri On Ice!), you’ll see what I mean.

Personally, I think this represents their personalities. Though it’s true you can pluck strings pretty quickly if you want to, none of that really happens in the pieces we care about. In fact, Viktor’s pieces are always so steady sounding (some are waltzes, I believe? A very sturdy dance and beat). Whereas, a lot of the piano represented by Yuuri is super erratic and unpredictable. I don’t think I really need to go that deep into explaining why that represents them both, and what they brought to each other’s lives so beautifully. But oh boy, the piano and string pieces meant to represent the both of them together?

We see Kamome used in three scenes, which all represent similar events in that the scenes start with Yuuri fighting on his own, and end with a greater bond between he and Viktor. Those scenes are:

Yuuri running off to practice figures in Ice Castle (episode two)

The infamous beach conversation (episode four)

The Christmas market scene (episode ten)

And the same story is told through the music too!

Now I believe the figures scene and the market scene both use the exact same clip of the music, which happens to be the start. Honestly, just listen to how innocent it sounds. For me at least, the first part of Kamome reminds me of a music box. Which, if we take that image, makes me think of repetition (you know those spinning ballet dancers and such? – Interesting that we see Yuuri skating figures with this playing).

Now, these two scenes skip the strings sections and just keep the little piano parts. And to be fair, these are both scenes that only lead up to Yuuri bonding with Viktor, hence the solo piano; Yuuri is fighting on his own, making his own choices.

So, we’re left with one scene were the music is pretty much as it appears on the purchasable soundtrack: the beach scene. This is, in my opinion, the best symbolic use of the music. First of all, we start off with the innocent sounding piano as Yuuri recounts that story of Detroit, which again portrays him in a naïve and kind of childish/innocent light. And finally, we get the strings at this moment:

As soon as Viktor reaches out to Yuuri, the music has a different mood. The strings fill in the gaps the piano left, almost swirling around it and complimenting it in the best of ways. If you will, Viktor is literally meeting Yuuri where he is, both in animation and their figurative strings/piano representations.

The music for that scene ends there, but if you listen to the whole piece, it almost tells the story of Viktor and Yuuri all together. This is going to be a lot easier if you actually listen to it, the music is on both Spotify and Youtube.

0:00-0:28 We have the innocent music box piano, AKA Yuuri on his own

0:28-0:51 The strings have joined in, but the piano definitely seems to be leading, so this part represents where Viktor followed Yuuri’s lead, and decided to ‘meet him where he is’

0:51-1:10 This part feels more like a mutual balance, showing how Yuuri has begun to accept Viktor’s presence, and even trusts him more.

1:10-1:20 The piano is alone again, but this time much more playful. For me, this sounds like an invitation, especially with the little flourish at the end that begs to be completed. The anime literally shows this, as it’s the same moment Yuuri actually extends his hand to Viktor in invitation.

1:20-2:00 This honestly sounds more like the strings are now leading, showing how Yuuri has finally put his faith in Viktor. Now the piano sounds like the steady beat, which could perhaps represent how the tone of the anime shifts as we find more out about Viktor, and see how Yuuri created stability in his life too.

2:00-2:18 The piano and the strings are now in perfect harmony, creating a beautiful, romantic sounding duet as they’re less distinguishable from each other. To be honest, this is the exact conclusion of Viktor and Yuuri’s relationship in canon – just take a look at the Stammi Vicino Duetto

To be completely honest, I have no idea whether the Yuri On Ice creators actually intended this to be such a perfect representation of viktuuri or not, but I kind of think it is? Why? Kamome. Seagull. Through the entire series, seagulls are used consistently as a symbol for Viktor and Yuuri’s love. Sometimes it’s a mere background shot, but it is explicitly brought to our attention. Although it could just be called Kamome due to the beach scene it’s in, I have to think it’s deeper than that.  

So, long story short, some serious praise is deserved, because this is symbolic genius.

Even if you don’t buy into my analysis, please listen to it because it is a BEAUTIFUL piece of music.

(I promise I’ll upload part two and three soon, but this third is over 1000 words and took me a while to write, so please be patient)

anonymous asked:

Your music taste is very nice! What are your favourite songs/albums in particular?

the smiths - i know it’s over, heaven knows i’m miserable now, asleep, last night i dreamt that somebody loved me

taylor swift - clean (i will cry everytime i listen to this song)

the neighbbourhood - wires, westcoast, sadderdaze, roll call, leaving tonight, r.i.p. 2 my youth

cage the elephant - trouble

catfish and the bottlemen - oxygen, postpone

arctic monkeys - i wanna be yours, fluorescent adolescent, 505, no buses

lorde - liability (my life basically), white teeth teens

nirvana - you know you’re right, lake of fire

twenty one pilots - truce (never EVer play this song in front of me if you do not want me to sob), kitchen sink, guns for hands, actually every song tbh

melanie martinez - mrs. potato head, dead to me, a million men

halsey - gasoline, ghost, now or never, drive

daughter - medicine (i cri everitime)

lana del rey - high by the beach, coachella (woodstock in my mind), lust for life, national anthem

the 1975 - fallingforyou, loving someone, sex, she way out

joy division - love will tear us apart (very basic i know)

radiohead - creep (also basic, but i love this song so much)

pink floyd - comfortably numb, please don’t leave me

fall out boy - uma thurman, the kids aren’t alright

alt j -breezeblocks

(and some lo-fi songs as well, like skinny ghost by happy trend)

just to name a few 

to ADHD students:

• I’m proud of you. The education system works against us at every turn but you’re still hanging in there, and that’s amazing. 

• Long term goals are lovely but they won’t motivate you. ADHD brains know two times: now and not now. Long term goals fall under “not now”, so if you try to use them to motivate yourself your brain won’t buy it. Some things that help me get motivated: using coloured pens, bringing a tasty drink like juice or pop to my desk, playing music I can sing along to. 

• Get. Diagnosed. With an official diagnosis, you can access accommodations through your school. You don’t have to struggle through school being held to neurotypical standards. You can get things like extra time on tests, extensions on assignments, access to digital copies of textbooks so you can use text-to-speech software, the ability to write tests and exams in a smaller room with fewer distractions, noise cancelling headphones during tests. I live in Ontario so I can’t guarantee all of these things in other places, but you’ll never know what accommodations are available to you until you apply for them. 

• Work for the amount of time that you can. You can only handle five minutes? Do work for those five minutes. You can stretch it out to fifteen minutes today? Awesome! It’s excruciating for us to get work done without it being a crisis, I know. But doing work in small increments every day goes a long way. Doing nothing because you can’t work as long as a neurotypical is just going to leave you with more work to do the night before. 

• Keep fidgets and/or stim toys at your desk. If you get overwhelmed or can’t focus, grab a fidget and allow yourself to just sit and fidget for a little bit. Tactile stim toys are my favourite since they’re very grounding for me.

• Try not to beat yourself up for what you didn’t get done earlier. This is a hard one but it’s so so hard to get anything done while you’re upset with yourself, especially for us ADHDers who get easily caught up in emotions. You have a disability. It’s not your fault that you couldn’t get it done earlier. You’re working on it now and that’s what’s important. 

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SHINEE THROUGH THE ERAS (2008 - ∞ ).

To SHINee ❤️: To Onew, Key, Minho, Taemin and to Jonghyun, an angel who is no longer with us. There are so many things I want to thank you all for but I am terrible at expressing myself and so I will try to keep this short and simple. I just want to say that I am so thankful for your existence in my life. As someone who has been your fan since the start, I grew up listening to your music and have watched your growth not only as people but as artists from your music as SHINee to your music as solo artists. You have all worked so hard and this is shown through you and your music as well as through your awards and achievements. And I am so proud of each and every one of you. Thank you so much for your music. Your music has helped me more than you’ll ever know. Whether I’m having a bad day or a good day, there’s always a SHINee song playing as background music. You have made me so happy and I only hope that you all are happy always. Thank you. Also, being your fan since the start, I feel like I have gotten to know you all as people. You have all become such lovely people. This might sound silly but growing up with you over the years doesn’t really feel to me like a fan watching their favourite group but feels more like a friend watching over their other friends and going through the good times and the bad times with them. I have always admired you and have aspired to become like you. There’s something about each of you that I really love. You’re all amazing individually but even more amazing as a group. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for making me smile. Thank you for making me laugh. And thank you for making me cry. Thank you for everything. I’m proud of you. You’ve worked hard. I will always support you with whatever you do. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy. Thank you to the five of you. This is for you. Sincerely, a Shawol. 

To Jonghyun ❤️: Thank you for everything. You’ve worked so hard. And I’m so proud of you. I love you and I miss you. I will never forget you. I will remember you as Kim Jonghyun, the man overflowing with talent. From your lyrics to your compositions to your heavenly vocals, you were so talented. You loved music more than anyone else and I am so happy that you got to achieve so much through your music. I hope that you know that your music has given me and so many others so much happiness. Thank you. I will remember you as Kim Jonghyun, my favourite human. You are someone who I have always wanted to be like. You stood up for those who couldn’t stand up for themselves. You spoke out for those who couldn’t speak up for themselves. You were an angel on earth and now an angel in heaven. You were an inspiration to me and to many others. From the way you treat your members, your friends and family, your fans and anyone around you, I can say that you’re really a good person. Thank you for the music and the memories. Jonghyun, I’m so sorry that you suffered so much. I hope that you are finally free from the pain and that you have found your happiness. You’ve worked so hard. I am so proud of you. Rest well. I’ll always love you and I’ll always miss you. I will never forget you. Though you are no longer here, you haven’t really left. You are the stars, the moon, the sun, the light. I can always look up and see you there looking down on me. You will always be in our hearts and our minds. Thank you and I’m sorry. 

To Onew, Key, Minho and Taemin ❤️: I don’t know what else to say except that I’m sorry. I can’t sit here and act like I understand what you are going through because honestly, I will never understand what you are going through. But I do hope that you do whatever you need to do to get through this. I know that it’s not easy to lose someone that you love, especially through this way, but I like to think that Jonghyun is finally free somewhere up there smiling and resting on top of a cloud. It’s going to be hard and no one can say if it will get better or worse but I do hope that you get through this. Above everything, your health is the most important so I do hope that you take all the time that you need to heal. Take care always. I will support you with whatever you do. Thank you for everything. You’ve worked hard and I’m proud of you. Thank you and I’m sorry.

Two-part Drabble Game

I decided to make another two-part drabble game because the last one was a lot of fun to make and write.

Pick a character, a situation, and a sentence, and I’ll make a drabble out of it.

Situations:

1 - Roommates AU
2 - Stuck indoors on a rainy day
3 - The aftermath of a bad fight
4 - At a bar
5 - Home after the hospital
6 - In bed at 2am, blissfully drowsy
7 - The anniversary of something
8 - After working for six hours straight
9 - Settling in for a cozy night together
10 - After a near-death experience
11 - Soulmates AU
12 - Finally home after a hard day
13 - Someone does something stupid
14 - Stuck together for a long period of time
15 - Someone is jealous/hurt
16 - After their first date
17 - One is recovering from a wound/illness
18 - Someone’s birthday
19 - Comforting the other
20 - Both are drunk and happy
21 - Spending a holiday together
22 - Jealous
23 - Miserable/in a bad mood
24 - Right before a passionate/first kiss
25 - Being somewhere you’re not supposed to be
26 - A very cheesy date
27 - Seeing each other for the first time in a while
28 - Love confession
29 - Breaking up
30 - One person is scolding the other
31 - Lost in the middle of nowhere
32 - Date night gone wrong

Sentences:

1 - “You didn’t have to scare me like that.”
2 - “I just want to let you know that I love you. A lot. Never forget that.”
3 - “I can’t believe you, sometimes.”
4 - “A cup of coffee would be nice.”
5 - “You’re one of the most important things in my life.”
6 - “Do I love you? Yes. Do I like you? That’s still up for debate.”
7 - “You didn’t have to do this, you know.”
8 - “You’re lucky you’re cute, because your taste in music is awful.”
9 - “I wish I never met you.”
10 - “No, I love you too much to let you walk away like this.”
11 - “Need some help?”
12 - “If you’re so bored, I have other ideas on how to pass the time…”
13 - “Tell me what you’re thinking right now.”
14 - “Well geez, if you don’t like what I’m wearing, I can go and change.”
15 - “If you think I don’t feel anything for you, then you’re more stupid than I thought.”
16 - “There’s nothing to be scared of, okay? I’m right here.”
17 - “I like spending time with you.”
18 - “I promise I’ll always be there for you. No matter what. You’re not alone anymore.”
19 - “What? No, I never said that…”
20 - “Don’t tell me what to do.”
21 - “They’re wrong about you.”
22 - “I can make you some tea or something? Read you a story. Lie down in bed.”
23 - “Hey, at least the stars are beautiful tonight, right?”
24 - “I never want you to feel like you’re not good enough.”
25 - “You don’t have to do that. Really.”
26 - “We should go out more often. You’ve been so busy lately. It’s like we never have fun anymore.”
27 - “Sorry. You’re just…really adorable.”
28 - “If I kissed you right now, what would you do?”
29 - “You’re not nearly as smart as you think you are.”
30 - “You smell nice.”
31 - “I won’t let anyone hurt you.”
32 - “As long as you’re happy, I’m happy.”
33 - “It’s too hot.”
34 - “It’s 2am. Go back to sleep.”
35 - “You wanna bet?”
36 - “It’s okay. We’ll figure it out.”
37 - “You’re stuck with me, like it or not.”
38 - “You just feel really good. Soft and warm…”
39 - “I don’t want to leave you just yet. It wouldn’t feel right.”
40 - “It’s just hard for me to forgive you after everything that’s happened.”