So, like, as I mention in passing every now and then and recently posted about pretty publicly, I’m mentally ill. The kind of mentally ill where honest descriptions of my symptom get met with looks of horror from my own mother.
And I guess that’s a big part of why I’m so uncomfortable with some people’s insistence that magic is a direct metaphor for mental illness, and that it must be taken as such. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to convince myself and my family that I’m not dangerous.
And mages are dangerous. There is no honest way of getting around that. Mages are dangerous. Untrained children with magic can take out entire squads of trained adults with swords. We’ve seen it happen before. Mages can kill you in your sleep without ever entering the same country as you. We’ve seen it happen before. Mages can take over your mind, light you on fire, and trap your spirit forever in a corpse. All of this has happened in canon.
I don’t know about the rest of you mentally ill people, but I can’t do any of that. I’m not comfortable being compared to people who can do that, when me managing my mental illness requires that I put a lot of effort into convincing myself first and foremost and then other people that I’m not dangerous. It’s not a comparison I can see myself being okay with any time soon.
Very rarely is real-life oppression based on justified fear of the oppressed. Thus, any fictional situation where oppression is based on a justified fear of the oppressed is going to be a deeply flawed metaphor at best.
Summary: He left you for the idol industry. Yet, you still joined the same industry hoping to never see him again. Word Count: 1,518 Genre: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ honestly who knows Member: Jisoo Joshua Hong TW: none i can think of. tell me if you need anything tagged!
it’s 3am so basically the WORST time to be making this post but friendly reminder ( uwuuwuwuwuwuwu ) that my midterm for my women && social action class is tomorrow, my underwater archaeology project is due saturday morning, purim is this sunday, && then spring break is next week. so, b’ezrat hashem, i’ll be MUCH more active after saturday morning, pretty active sunday ( aside from baking hamantaschen hehe ), && then most likely very active during spring break ( when i’m not sleeping ).
i did put some stuff in the queue !! so there will be posts during these two days where i’m in radio silence for the most part.
the past few weeks have been pretty busy so i do apologize for disappearing but thank you for being patient !! i am trying to do better at announcing any kind of hiatus && the reason for it, since i know i’m bad at that :’^3
Hey peeps! I just wanted to drop in an say thank you for being very patient XD.
Last time i loveblogged was 11 days ago , and that number may increase aswell since I really havent found the time to do another episode.
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Dean: Usually it is my fault that we don’t see each other. My duties make me travel a lot, especially during the winter months and now that my realm’s expanding even as other gods’ realms are losing their followers and lands to Castiel’s religion. I should not complain about it, but it’s not exactly easy now. It was before, when I was unattached to anyone but my brothers and my child. But now? Now my longing for my own home is sharper.
It is why I was too much of a coward to see Cas for many weeks, which resulted in him taking ill. And now again a week had to pass before I could see him again. It made me thoughtless, coming to him under the guise of a human man,. And what do I do? I make him worry about me.
It’s in moments like these that I wish Cas and I were the same. Maybe then I wouldn’t be standing here, in this dim light, talking to you about my feelings like a little boy with his first heartache.
Steffi notes: I think they’d do much better if they’d just communicated properly. But it’s Dean and Cas… What am I expecting?
Here’s what Dean was talking about when he mentioned his long absence.
sometimes i will randomly remember that dan and phil know i exist and i just get really emotional. like, even if i’m one in the hundreds of thousands of subscribers they’ve met i’m still somewhere in their memories?? it’s just something that makes me really happy.
IM SO FUCKING PUMPED RIGHT NOW IM GOING TO CHASE MY FUCKING DREAMS IM GOING TO BE A FUCKING PROFESSIONAL YOUTUBER AND A FUCKING DAMN GREAT SKILLED COSPLAYER JUST YOU WAIT AND I WILL FIGHT AND I WON’T LET DEPRESSION WIN BECAUSE DEPRESSION IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. AND IF I FAIL THEN BE IT! I’LL BE FUCKING DEVASTATED BUT I WILL FIND A DIFFERENT WAY TO BE HAPPY. I WILL EVOLVE. JUST YOU WAIT. I WILL SURPRISE MY FUCKING SELF SO MUCH. FUCK DEPRESSION. FUCK IT ALL BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE WINNING YKNOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN NEARLY A YEAR I HAVE A TINY BIT OF FAITH IN MYSELF. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? THERE WILL BE HARD DAYS BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS FEELING AND I’LL WORK SO HARD AND I’LL DO SO MUCH. AAAAHHHHHH I’M GONNA LOVE MYSELF ONE DAY. ONE DAY.