Because I love this child and he needs more love, especially his relationship with Yuuri ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
While Phichit is an incredibly friendly lovable cinnamon roll, he won’t stand for anything threatening his best friend Yuuri, even if the threat happens to be someone Yuuri loves. Yuuri clearly adores the Victor he knows now (just as much as he idolized the distant figure in the past), but Phichit won’t forget how much Victor hurt Yuuri in the past, unintentional or not.
I headcanon that on top of being a skilled figure skater, Phichit is an academic genius who skipped grades and entered college in Detroit super early where he met Yuuri, which explains their long acquaintance despite the age difference. He is very, VERY protective of Yuuri. I’ll put up a more detailed headcanon post later (and if there’s interest, possibly prequel comic of pre-YOI anime Detroit college days).
OC X Socialite!Namjoon Length: 6k of sin, how fitting. Recommended OST: (x) and (x) and maybe House of Cards depending on what you’re into. (a/n): you know, I never thought this moment would come for me.. but it has… and now I will enforce this highly explicit content on you and I (really) hope you don’t mind and I am terribly sorry I am a noob* but since it is my longest work I told myself it would be such a waste not to post and …well.. here we are, my first, enjoy.
Warnings: Smut, sex, alcohol mentions, you know the works
It’s 1a.m. or what they call the peak of the night; the hour where the buzz of alcohol is the main fuel for irrational impulses and suddenly the lines between cheeky and outright ballsy disappears. Sticking the far wall of the venue, you’re observing the evening’s happenings with a reoccurring mixture of disdain and amusement— it’s always the same every night— this scene having long lost the enchantment and luster it used to possess in your eyes. Being born into wealth, you’re obligated to attend such parties to keep up good relations with What’s His Face and connections with That Person and of course to keep your own ass in the spotlight. Influence does not grow overnight and once cultivated, who are you to let it die? It’s hypocritical really, the fact that you were jaded by the fame but at the same time refuse to let it go. However, the wealth is as valuable as fools gold when every action is a diamond encrusted lie and every word is coated with a layer of shimmering sweet sarcasm. So you continue on kissing cheeks and forcing smiles, dancing away the night and drowning in this erratic rhythm of your life.
Me: Wow I really think I could actually sleep well tonight I’m gonna go to bed now.
My brain: He will never be satisCOULD I BE ENOUGH to be satisfied SatisfIED SATIS- history has it’s EYYYYYYYYES OOON YOOUdo you write like you’re running out of NON STOP look arOUnd look arOUnd SATISFIEEYES OONN YOOUU why do you write like HISTORY HAS ITS EEEEEYYYYEEES ON YOOOY i am NOT throwin away my JUST YOU WAIT i am NOT THROWIN AWAY MY JUST YOU WAIT I AM ALEXANDER HAMILTON HAMILTON JUST YOU WWAAAAAaaaaaAAAIIIIIIITTTttT
There is something SO incredibly special about Ciel Phantomhive. So, SO special. I know every anime fan has that one character…Well Ciel is mine. I can not begin to fathom the shit he’s had to deal with both physically and emotionally, yet I can relate to him on many levels.
When I first watched Kuroshitsuji, I was a weeaboo middle schooler, who cared about how hot Sebastian was, and how amazing Sebastian was, and I was just like any other 7th grader who was just getting into anime…I digress; as the years passed, I’ve rewatched, and analyzed the series so many times. It’s just- something I do. AND in doing so, I’ve gravitated myself towards Ciel more and more with every watch through.
I find myself thinking more and more about his life, both before his parents’ death and after. About how much has changed, and about- what he would be like if Rachel and Vincent never died. However the past can’t be changed, and I won’t bring in any fan fiction AU here. This is strictly canon. Ciel’s parents died on his 10th birthday, as we all know as December 14th. And we as an audience are introduced to Ciel’s character (Post the opening scene in the anime) as a 12 year old boy, living in this huge manor with a demon and 3 bumbling servants. 2 years have passed, (roughly), and Ciel has gone from a tragic stricken boy to a cold and reserved pre-teen…
Think of the events BEFORE the fire at the manor…When Ciel is out with Rachel and Vincent. Boasting about how today was his birthday, and how his mother was going to read him as many stories as he liked…That bubbly, openly happy child disappeared, and was replaced with the Ciel we see presented in the anime/manga.
However, I look at now, and fully admire the 12/13 year old boy who we have come to know and feel bad for. There are SO few characters in any fandom that I admire, love, relate to, and feel bad for all at the same time. His presence is unique and very strong in itself. This god damn 13 year old child has quite literally been to hell and back, and this little fucker’s determination is what makes me love him. All flaws included, Ciel is wonderful.
The fact that he can’t tie his shoes, or make his own tea- who cares? He’s the Queen’s guard dog, he’s 13, and he watched his parents die. Watched them burn. And he’s stuck with that image in his mind- and I’m sure he’s thought a few times that he’s better off with them, rather than on earth living under the fact that Sebastian will devour his soul the moment he gains is revenge.
With this determination and a strong will, Ciel has pressed through what most grown individuals would find to be too much. He sure as hell knows that once he gets what he’s fighting for, he’s going to die. He knows this, and he accepts it. With that acceptance, Ciel gains this underlying power. This is excluding the demon by his side that literally keeps him from dying. Either way, Ciel gains this…lack of personal ability to give up, because- as he’s stated before- without his hatred, he would be nothing.
This isn’t to say that hatred is all that Ciel’s character is based on. Oh no. Sorrow, pain, wisdom, and ultimately, love, are among the things that has developed through his character. Love, is even why he’s gone to such measures. Rachel and Vincent meant the world to him, just as any parents would mean to their child. Just because Ciel can no longer ‘love’ or ‘smile genuinely’ doesn’t mean he can’t feel it. It’s the general expression that’s lost.
My personal opinion is that Ciel’s actions were fully driven by love and a fiery vengeance. While the intricate thoughts of the boy could be argued, and go in many different directions, I’ll leave it at that, and move on to something else.
(I know you’re all probably dreadfully bored with me, but just stick with me.)
Ciel has this sort of- overlaying stoic sort of way of public presentation. But, as we all know, it’s all a facade. And I think it’s wonderful, how long he can hold this act. My opinion (once again) is that Sebastian and Tanaka are the only two who truly understand, or at least realize the kind of numb sort of pain Ciel is consistently in. Back to my main point- it’s THIS strong drive and will power that makes me respect Ciel in the highest regards.
I feel like the boy really needs someone on his side, that doesn’t question him. Yes, Sebastian is at his every whim, but Sebastian is what keeps Ciel grounded…makes him think. If someone would just- agree with him every now and again, and not annoy him…I don’t know, I’m getting to the point where I’m on edge and boarderline caps locking you all to death. But I’m not editing this, so skip around if you must.
I have never felt such a genuine connection to a character the way I feel with Ciel. I can say honestly this isn’t the whole ‘anime crush’ ‘shota’ sort of thing. I think of Ciel in much higher regard than that. Like a sibling or best friend, a shoulder to lean on. It’s such a strange connection- I can’t describe it…But I see so much in him, and I have never felt it with any other character.
As lonely as he is, and as much as he thinks he needs to be alone- Ciel needs someone.
Again, I’m getting off track. I have written many a passionate rant about this boy, and I swear I will protect him with my life. Can we just for 10 minutes look back at what he’s done over the course of countless manga chapters, and 3 anime seasons. The bullshit torture he’s endured, the emotional and physical trauma he’s been dealt, and the fact that he’s kept going. Like damn. I don’t know about you but that’s pretty fuckin’ admirable. I can’t even list on both hands what Ciel has been through. Some of the shit that’s happened SHOULD have killed him. But with a demon by his side and an insane amount of will power, he’s alive, and he’s still fighting for his family name, and vengeance to his family name.
Part of me feels like people won’t understand what I’m trying to convey, but I’m seriously hoping at least one of you like-minded tumblr folk will relate to this…
But, thank you, Ciel Phantomhive, for existing. And thank you, Yana Toboso, for creating such a dynamic and wonderful character. (Also thank you if you took the time to read all this. Bless your faces)