now i know how it feels to be nothing!

Wait. So you mean we created our own culture. That was made out of nothing. Because our original culture was stolen from us. We ended up making up something so great that it caused a cultural phenomenal, that now non-Aframs wish they had something a part of it or feel they need to “assimilate” to it. I know about Americanization, but you still haven’t acknowledged how African-American culture is stigmatized (globally and you each have slurs for us) and that even other black people exploit it because they use us as a gateway to white acceptance. That’s anti-black. And it’s never about white people. It’s about us. They say, “We don’t want to be treated like freaks.” Okay. Sorry. I’m still want to know what systematic harm that has on you. You mean colorism, Afrophobia, and anti-blackness? Then say that. But don’t pretend African-Americans are the “standard of blackness” because white people decided to validate it through everyone but the originators. 

“Wow, I can’t tell in words how bad I feel right now. As you know, MMs 63rd single sold just slightly better than One Two Three on its first day. Was it because of Masaki? Unlikely, bc nothing happend without Sayuriho. Because it’s a double A Side? No, they sold good in the past. Because AKB and HP fans insult eachother as Akekasu & Mookasu all the time? Maybe. Because a lot of people don’t like the new MM? Maybe. This just gave me extreme flashbacks of Golden Era, where the sales started”

“Wow just saw new sales of morning musume and now i’m so shock! They so low!”

“I can’t believe my eyes. Did Momusu just sell under 60k ?!?? Holy moly. BAD.”

“Thought that I was dreamin’
When you said you loved me.
Yes, it started from nothing.
Had no chance to prepare,
I couldn’t see you coming.
And it started from nothing
Oh I could hate you now,
It’s quite alright to hate you now.
But we both know that deep down,
The feeling still deep down, is good.
You broke my heart last week.
I’ll probably feel better.
But if we can still remember how you’d hold me,
As you’re screaming my name,
The feeling deep down is good.
It’s all good, all good, all good…
It’s all good, all good ….”

Writing is Hard, Part 5: Headcanons

Summary: Dean shows the reader that there’s truth to a famous headcanon.

Read Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

Warning: Smut

Word Count: 3000ish

A/N: This is all written with love for fan fic. I’m teasing, not putting it down in any way. Hope you enjoy! (Sorry, tag list is closed!) XOXO


“Reading anything good?” Dean asks.

Sam’s inside the gas station, picking up some snacks instead of listening to this conversation, so your face doesn’t feel the need to flush with embarrassment. Dean already knows exactly what you’re reading.

“I guess,” you tell him. No need to feed his ego by telling him how hot the story is.

“What is it?”

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The truth is, I’m hopelessly in love with you. I said it many times to you, and I’ll say it many times about you. I’m crazy, I’m obsessive, I’m needy, I’m protective, I don’t care. I fell in love with you, and now I don’t know how to fall out of love. Now I don’t know where to put the memories, how to shake the thought of you and the truth is I fucking miss you. God damn, I want to hate you, I want to feel my blood boil at the thought of you, but I have nothing to hate you for. All you ever did was shower me with love, how could I hate you for making me happy? How could I hate somebody so innocently perfect? I miss you, I miss us, I miss the way you used to look at me and I miss the way you talk. I miss your stupid walk and your gross facial hair, I miss the tiny little things that I used to tease you for because now I don’t get to laugh at them. I took everything for granted, I took our entire relationship for granted because I made up in my head that it was forever, that for once a boy wasn’t lying to me. And I was so damn stupid to think that, to fall in love as if there was no tomorrow because of course you were going to leave and of course you were lying. What do I have that is so special? Nothing, I got nothing. And now you’re gone, gone for good and I’m left here not knowing what the fuck to do. Not knowing where to place all this love and not knowing how to smile on my own. You carried me through so much and dropped me like I was nothing, like everything we went through was all just a dream, and I guess now I’m living a fucking nightmare
—  I’m missing you
5 reasons why maggie sawyer deserves the world

how is maggie sawyer such a good human being??? i mean
1. ‘i didnt want to scare you’ - the fact that she never, not once, said anything about her experience because there’s nothing good about it, just pain, and that’s the last thing she wants alex to feel so she hid how she really was outed so alex won’t be afraid to come out and think this is not okay

2.
‘this is the biggest thing that’s ever happened to you, and you shouldn’t have to do it alone’ - THIS. NOW READ THIS KNOWING MAGGIE’S ACTUAL EXPERIENCE

3.
‘you did? how did she take it?’ - she was just so happy about alex coming out to her mom & being accepted for who she was, even if it reminded her that this is the kind of love and support she never had

4.
 ‘its not for me to say’ - with jonn saying those words, maggie’s horrible memories of how she never got the chance to come out by herself probably resurfaced

5.
maggie sawyer is so tough, protective and caring, but there are wounds that cleary didn’t heal and probaby never will (which is normal when youre kicked out of your own house at 14) but she faced them and despite all the shit she’s been through she’s finally happy with the woman she loves and this is the biggest revenge on life she could’ve asked for

“I have nothing to hide” Asks

(For those daring enough to reblog)

1. What are 4 tabs that you have open on your browser right now?

2. Have you ever thought about seriously harming someone?

3. How are you feeling emotionally right now?   

4. What type of place(Like building) are you in right now?       

5. Does anyone know your deepest, darkest secret?

6. Have you ever tried to feign mental illness for personal gain?

7. Do you have any enemies?

8. Do you have any people you only pretend to like?

9. What is one item that you never let anyone besides yourself look at or in?

10. Do you have any talents that people say you have but you don’t believe you actually have?

11. Something you like that other people generally do not like?

12. Are you a Virgin?  

13. Is there anyone that your grandma would hate that you are subscribed to on youtube?

14. Introvert or extrovert?

15. What is the most used application on your device?

16. How much fan fiction have you actually read?

17. Worst Fears?

18. Biggest mistake you’ve ever made?

19. Worst lie you’ve ever told?

20. Do you consider yourself a trustworthy person?

8

I wanna be your man, Mylene. I know you like me. I like you so much, I can’t hardly breathe. I like you so much, I feel like I got thunder and lightning inside of me. You make me nervous. But you also make me calm. Real calm. Calm almost like how God must be calm, you know, Mylene? Calm from loving. I love you. Mylene, I love you. What do you think about that? I don’t mean to be conceited or nothing. You know I’m not like that anyway. But if you see how you’re looking at me right now, that ain’t the look of someone who don’t like someone. So, come on. What do you say? Hm?

i’ve seen a couple posts going around about dennis saying he hates mac/dennis not returning mac’s feelings but like

i’ve been interpreting this less as “dennis hates mac” and more as “it’s easier for dennis to say he hates mac than to admit how badly he needs him, and it’s a lot less terrifying than facing the reality of their relationship now that mac is out”

macdennis shipping aside, its clear they’ve always been very codependent, borderline in a relationship with each other, and i could see dennis panicking now that he doesn’t have the comfort of knowing nothing will ever come of it like he did when mac was still in the closet

updates
  • we still don’t have water (i live in an apartment building and we have a water tank, but many people don’t have ANY water at home)
  • classes at schools in lima (the capital city) have been suspended again - they resume on wednesday
  • my uni has postponed classes: i was supposed to start tomorrow but they will start on the 27th
  • right now, a jail is on fire
  • many bridges have fallen and cities at the north of the country are now completely inaccesible
  • probably the rains and mudslides won’t stop for at least a month

also: i’m temporarily closing my studyblr. from now on i’m only going to share info about the situation here in peru. i know i don’t have a lot of followers and many of you have been ignoring this (which makes me feel really sad and dissapointed at the studyblr community) but it doesn’t feel right to go on like nothing is happening. if you want to contact me and ask me how can you help, i’ll be happy to tell you all i know.

Mute Part 12

Part 11

Genre: Mostly fluff
Words: 2,722
Pairings: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Warnings: Rape mentions (pls don’t read if this will trigger anything & also i’m here to listen if anyone needs to talk)
Summary: Bucky doesn’t know what to do when traumatizing events result in your witty remarks dying down to nothing.


“(Y/N), how have you been feeling lately?”

You took a deep breath, letting your body relax in the seat facing your therapist. You had been seeing her for about four months now, starting a couple of days after you put a pause on things with Bucky. Tony had set the meetings up for you, and he had said that this woman was the person he went to when he went off the rail from his own problems not too long ago. She was amazing at her job, he had said. And you couldn’t disagree.

You felt a genuine smile spread across your face as you nodded your head slightly in glee. “I feel great.” You informed her of how your nightmares that had occurred a couple of times per week now only invaded your sleep maybe every other week if you were stressed. You told her about how you were learning to lower your walls around people and about how you no longer needed to establish boundaries with your teammates. You told her about how you had been happier lately, learning to enjoy the little things in life that you had let go of before. You now felt excited when you smelt a surprise breakfast of pancakes being cooked while making your way to the kitchen in the morning. You laughed with your teammates at corny jokes and comedic movies. You participated in game nights and had fun while doing so. You started smiling, once again. And you weren’t the only one.

Bucky had watched you from a distance with loving eyes. In the beginning of your break, he had been miserable, and you could tell. You both were. But it had paid off. There were sleepless nights when you could barely breathe over your sobs and Bucky could barely think over the sounds you were making. There were times when you wanted to say fuck it and crawl into his waiting arms. But the two of you endured.

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The biggest issue I have right now is the hatred being directed towards Nora. Is she plotting something? Probably! Does she believe she actually has feelings for Yukine in the only way she knows how? Also a possibility! We only saw a kiss. There was nothing to elaborate on what exactly she’s planning yet. But just because a character does something you dislike, that doesn’t give you the right to go into the wiki and slander the entire character.

I don’t know if any of you have actually stopped to think about this, but Nora isn’t evil. She really, really isn’t. She grew up putting up with Father’s abuse too, so she’s a victim just like Yato. The difference is, she never got the opportunity to see things differently. Her entire world has been a constant in terms of her upbringing, so she acts that way as a byproduct of never being taught otherwise.

But you know what? When Yukine made an appearance–specifically, after he changed and started doing good for Yato–we saw a shift in Nora. Maybe some of it went unnoticed, but it was there. She started becoming jealous, which turned into an obsession towards Yukine. She wanted to know why Yato preferred someone like him over her, who had been by his side for much, much longer. She saw how they interacted with each other. She saw his dedication to Yato. And despite being left behind, she observed and is starting to realize that maybe the problem lies within the upbringing they’ve shared.

Her “poutyness” towards Yukine is a sign. Maybe she’s starting to understand that Father isn’t completely right, but since it’s all she’s known, she has no idea how to change. She’s still not being given a chance to. Defying Father would obviously not be an option, since even Yato cast her out; she’d have no one to turn to. She could of course turn to one of her other masters, but she hasn’t bonded to them in the way she has with Yato and Father. She’d feel isolated and would not know what to do.

It’s been subtle, but she’s been slowly pulling away from Father as she tries to comprehend the relationship between Yato and Yukine. She sees that they are both happy, and wants to know what she has done (or not done) that would cause Yato to be so unhappy with her companionship.

So please, at least try to understand and give her the benefit of the doubt before going and writing her off as a “bitch” or “evil”, or what have you. She is trying, and that’s the most we can expect at this point.

I’ve just watched Running with Scissors and I feel so… weird now? I know it’s supposed to be funny in some way, but wtf??? 

The end was sad like, he wanted to stay there, without his family, Star and Jackie. Marco spent 16 YEARS without seeing them and, while on Earth nothing changed, HE changed! As we saw, he really felt the time he lived there (he couldn’t remember his password… that’s because he didn’t use his computer for fuck*ng 16 years).

How can his feelings possibly be the same? I don’t really get how all this happened, tbh. I just want to forget it.

-It’s just a cartoon, this is not gonna change anything. Marco will probably be the same dork but to me it’s just too weird thinking he’s not really 14, idk-

sufjan lines that hit me right in the heart pt. 2
  • the strength of his arm/my lover caught me off guard
  • i made a lot of mistakes/i made a lot of mistakes
  • and he takes, and he takes, and he takes
  • how could you run from me now? the loneliest chime in the house?
  • but nothing ever happens
  • jupiter is the loneliest planet
  • where do you run? where do you run to?
  • you said you needed me/but i know you needed yourself to be clean of me
  • with blood on my sleeve/delilah, avenge me grief/how?/god of elijah
  • i forgive you mother/i can hear you!/and i long to be near you/but every road leads to an end
  • on the floor at the great divide/with my shirt tucked in/and my shoes untied/i am crying in the bathroom
  • i only wanna be a relief
  • manelich, i feel so used
  • you touched me inside of my cage/beneath my shirt your hands embraced me
  • oh my god/no one came to carry us away from danger
  • i fell in love again/all things go, all things go
  • my friend is gone/he ran away/i can tell you, i love him each day
  • frightened by my feelings/i only wanna be a relief
  • do you get enough love, my little dove?/why do you cry?/and i’m sorry i left/but it was for the best/though it never felt right
  • what’s the point of singing songs if they’ll never even hear you?
  • we celebrate our sense of each other/we have a lot to give one another
  • oh, my mother, she betrayed us/but my father loved and bathed us
  • i’ll do anything for you/i did everything for you
  • still i go to the deepest grave/where i go to sleep alone
  • cross-hatch/warm bath/holiday inn after dark
  • fuck me, i’m falling apart
  • raise your right hand/tell me you want me in your life
  • sufjan, the panic inside/the murdering ghost that you cannot ignore
  • i’ve lost the will to fight/i was not made for life
  • and i have so much to give/in spite of all the terror and abuse/all delighted people raise your hands

and so many more, i am a wreck of a human, please add your own!

I need you. I don’t think you realize just exactly how much I need you, or perhaps you do but there is nothing that we can really do about it. I think that’s the hardest part of all, knowing that truly there is nothing we can do but carry on through our days hoping that this time will pass by quickly. I’m longing for the day that I can be back in your arms, where this distance wont be an issue, where there is no fear of you leaving once again. I don’t want to tell you how many times I have fallen asleep crying because I don’t want to make you feel bad, or worse than how you feel now. All I can do for you right now is support you and remind you every single day how proud I am of you and how much I love you. You have me always and I will be right here waiting for your return.

anonymous asked:

emily omg i'm prob making a big deal out of nothing but i feel so bad for dan now :( like he probably feels like nobody cares about his content unless its him talking about his sexuality. like. maybe he just isnt ready for that maybe that experience w boys thing in isg seemed like a big deal to him and everyones just mad and disappointed at the video. idk i'm prob over reacting its just hes such a good boy and thinking of him being sad makes my heart hurt

dan will be fine, he’s a 25 year old man who knows how to deal with things and i doubt he’s going to take some negative comments from people on the internet to heart. i would actually be genuinely surprised if dan felt that way, even remotely. it’s no secret that dan has become very confident in himself and in the things he likes and in the things he believes in, so it’s quite a long shot to assume that he might feel as if no one cares about his content unless it addresses something personal like his sexuality. that assumption just isn’t right because so many people genuinely love the silly content he puts out like isg 

that being said, i honestly hope that nobody views dan’s content as a disappointment if it doesn’t regard his sexuality specifically, or anything else that people might have fantasies about for that matter. i highly doubt the experience with boys thing was a big deal to him because he makes offhand remarks like that quite frequently in videos nowadays, but if you’re watching dan solely because you feel entitled to take shots at his sexuality/relationship status and choose not to see him as anything more than a guessing game, you’re watching for a horrible reason. dan would never blatantly talk about his sexuality anyways, especially in a main channel video

i think, as these kind of things have become a common topic in the phandom recently, it’s important to remember that respectful discussion is always fine and good as long as you are not invading privacy, harassing anyone, or literally demanding anything personal from anyone

INTJ ESFP affection
  • ESFP: I'm having a hard day, can you just tell me you love me?
  • INTJ: You know I love you.
  • ESFP: Yeah, but can you say it anyway.
  • INTJ: Okay, I love you!
  • ESFP: Thanks *leaves*
  • INTJ: *thinks* How is me saying that enough to cheer you up? If you didn't believe it before why is me saying it on command proof? Even if I didn't I would have said it to make her feel better. So does my love mean nothing if anyone saying 'I love you'has the same effect? Well I'm kind of annoyed now.
Punishment (Yoongi x Reader)

Pairing: Yoongi/Suga x Reader
Rating: M
Gerne: Wouldn’t you know it? It’s smut.

Words: 2,614

Warnings: bondage, orgasm denial, etc.

Summary: You want to have sex. Yoongi wants to nap. You’re having none of it.

A/N: I literally wrote this in one afternoon. smh I don’t think it’s my best work but it’s something. Anyway, Reblogs/Comments/Favs always appreciated!


When you’d started dating Yoongi you’d known of the fact that he is lazy. On his time off he likes to lay in bed and do nothing—maybe he’ll read a book and make some ramen or take a shower, but that’s it. He cherishes his off days like an old man, and sometimes that upsets you honestly.

Your relationship has lasted this long because 1.) You understand how Yoongi’s mind works and how busy he is and 2.) You’re pretty easygoing yourself. However…you have needs. And you know he has needs too, so sometimes you just don’t get it.

“I’m not really feeling it right now,” he tells you, yawning as he turns on his heel and swaggers back towards your room. He flops face first onto the mattress and you stare in appalment.

“Come ‘n nap with me,” he grumbles into the sheets at seeing your unhappy look, and you scoff.

“Enjoy your nap Yoongi,” you say, tone clipped as you turn away and trudge into the living room. You hear him mumble something in your wake but, of course, he doesn’t get up to come after you. Yoongi hates confrontation, after all—and you’ll get over at some point, just like you always do.

But…not this time, you decide. Not this time—not when Min Yoongi had just showed up to your apartment without warning and passed out on your bed. If he had brought food or had even kissed you and suggested a movie, then maybe you would’ve been in a better mood, but without speaking more than a “hello” he had dragged himself into your room and promptly passed out.

Think again, bitch.

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Carol in 7.10 : “ I couldn’t kill them. I could. I would. If they hurt any of our people, any more of them, that’s what I would do. And there wouldn’t be anything left of me after that”

Sound familiar? …….

Seems like Carol’s going through the same dilemma as Rick did in the comics where killing threats feels like natural reaction now, it’s all too easy to kill and deal with things, and that terrifies her that she knows she’ll kill someone in a second if it means protecting her family. The guilt he felt and how he doesn’t feel like he belongs around other people after all the people lost ; how he felt there’s nothing left of him and he’s felt dead for a long time. EVERYTHING that has happened to Carol in the show. With Andrea/Daryl trying to protect Carol/Rick and bring them back to life/the family…*see below*

Just sayin’ 

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#delusional? #don’t care

*cof there’s a lil bit extra to this scene in the comics which obviously we aren’t getting in the show at this current time…but hey….interesting to parallel Carol’s dilemma so closely with Rick’s from the comics  ; particularly from a shippy perspective where this is a scene where Rick/Andrea went canon. Clearly we won’t get this extra bit but INTERESTINGGGGGGG*

tw suicide/ trans stuff

guys I literally cannot think about anything but transition stuff now I’m so hype and distracted I just want the days to go by super fast until I can get hold of the prescription but I also feel like I’m bothering everyone when I talk about it because I’m just so excited and emotional. It’s like I can’t genuinely express how much this means to me… I feel like it’s going to be the start of a better life for me and there’s going to be so much positivity along the way. I really just want to embrace and enjoy the whole process. I’ve had such damn awful times the past few years. My lowest point was after my suicide attempt and being put in the female ward at the hospital and being chided by the nurses for doing such a thing. All night I was still wishing the overdose would end my pain and I wouldn’t have to live as a trans person with bpd. But now I’m surrounded by supportive partners, friends and family with my first day of t on the near horizon and I doubted I would even make it here?? I’ve struggled with so much depression and anxiety and suicidal thoughts and bpd episodes throughout the years that it was difficult for me to even see a future for myself where anything was different. But now living full time as a guy with great people in my life makes such a huge difference and it’s only going to get better. I’m going to be me??? I’m going to finally look like who I actually am?? I can’t wait for the future and damn I’m so happy I’m at a point in my life where I can say that truthfully and honestly.