26 for the writing prompts!!
26. “I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again.”
Shepard hadn’t had quiet time with Kaidan like this… possibly ever. There were times back on the SR-1 where it felt like this, just the two of them, working on something separately, but feeling so together. Quiet, and not really needing to fill that silence. But it was different now. Before, it’d been a constant dance around each other, trying not to catch feelings or think too long about how nice Kaidan looked while focused, or how tempting he was when they returned from missions, sweaty and with his hair falling out of place.
But they weren’t dancing around each other, not anymore. They wanted each other. And they had each other now.
Kaidan laid across from him on Shepard’s bed, one hand resting draped over Shepard’s body and their foreheads touching. Kaidan’s offer to rush back to the Normandy had been tempting because Shepard hadn’t wanted to tear off anyone else’s clothes the way he wanted to do to Kaidan, but this was good. Better, probably.
“Did you ever think we’d get this chance?” Shepard asked.
Kaidan shook his head. “No. I’m just glad we didn’t wait too long and missed our chance.”
Shepard swallowed and nodded. “Me too. I would have told you how I felt after Mars, if I wasn’t…”
“Hmm?” Kaidan asked.
“I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again,” he finished.
Shepard nodded. “Yeah. Every time you come back, and then disappear again, I’m just reminded that I don’t want anyone else.”
Kaidan tugged Shepard closer and gave a relieved sigh. “I know the feeling.”
“I’m glad there’s no holding back anymore,” he said, running his fingers through Kaidan’s gel stiffened curls.
Shepard leaned in and brushed his lips against Kaidan’s and eased him into a kiss. Kaidan kissed back and slid his body against Shepard’s, his touch equal parts content and desperate for more. Shepard pulled away and pressed his forehead against Kaidan’s, just breathing him in.
“I love you,” Shepard whispered, for the first time.
Kaidan gave a pleased smile back. “I love you too.”
It felt good to say.