Can i ask you to pray for me, please?
My community is sending me on a reatreat this weekend and i’m not feeling well physically (i’ve been having a cold and insomnia this week), emotionally (depression is eating me) and spiritually (idk if there is any faith left in me, i’m full of doubts, i have no idea what is the Truth, i have fallen into sins and idk if i even want to keep believing in anything).
My stomach is in a knot right now, because i have to leave for the retreat in an hour and my social anxiety screams to use any possible excuse not to go. There will be a lot of people and i don’t know anyone, while they know each other. There will be a lot of activities that i dread (singing, playing, sharing personal stuff etc. performed in fron of everyone). Andobviously, it’s all faith based, so with my current spiritual state i feel like it will make more harm than good.
I feel hypocrite to ask you to pray for me, because i can’t even pray myself. But i have to fight the devil somehow, right? idk. i’m so lost.