Nothing I Hold On To (Live)
  • Nothing I Hold On To (Live)
  • United Pursuit Band
  • Live At the Banks House
I lean not on my own understanding,
My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven

I give it all to you God, 
Trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me

I will climb this mountain 
With my hands wide open
I will climb this mountain 
With my hands wide open

There is nothing I hold on to
There is nothing I hold on to
There is nothing I hold on to
There is nothing I hold on to
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Nothing I Hold Onto + Spontaneous Worship | Bethel Church ft. William Matthews

  I lean not on my own understanding
  my life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven

  I give it all to You God
  I trusting that You’ll make something beautiful out of me

  I will climb this mountain
  with my hands wide open

 There’s nothing I hold onto


Nothing I Hold Onto

I lean not on my own understanding

My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven

I give it all to you God

trusting that you will make something beautiful out of me

Nothing I Hold Onto


Wow you guys this song is so powerful to me. Let me give you some context about how I learned about United Pursuit. I have a really talented friend who decided that we should do worship every Thursday night at school. I used to go, but I’m going to be honest, I felt uncomfortable. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the worship sessions, in fact I think they’re beautiful. It’s just not how I send my glory to God. I like listening to worship music privately because of how it makes me feel. But my really talented friend taught us a lot of United Pursuit because it’s a lot of repetition and easy to pick up.

Anyways, I’ve listened to this song about three or four times tonight already, I tweeted the lyrics tonight, too. Wow, this song is just so powerful to me because of the classic pair of Bible verses, some of the first I ever memorized, at VBS at my grandparents church: Proverbs 3:5-6, which reads, “Trust in the Lord in all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to him and he will make your path straight.”

FRIENDS DO YOU GET WHAT THIS MEANS? Because it’s absolutely incredible and it fills me with that joyous feeling of wholeness and completion. My life is in the hands of the maker of Heaven, which is the most satisfying place in the world. Y'all this guy has already made you beautiful, you just have to trust in him that you are beautiful and that you were meant to do great things here on Earth on his behalf.

And in case you were curious, that is how I send my glory to God. Through love. I really, truly do my best to love everyone and to be the nicest, kindest person to people. It’s really hard, but I love when people need me and benefit from something I can do for them. I love helping my mom. I hate when someone has something wrong with them and I can’t help them. That happened today with my roommate. She’s in Michigan right now and I can’t help her. If I could, I would literally drop everything and drive straight there just to give her a hug.

One of the parts of this song that I get really excited about is the part that says, “I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open.” It just confounds me because I picture a dude climbing a mountain but not holding onto anything. He just flies up there. Straight to Heaven. Because he trusts and loves God with everything that he has. There’s nothing he holds onto.

Anyways, I told y'all I was going to do a song thing and this song is really on my mind. In fact, I’ve just hit replay while I conclude this puppy. Something I’ve really been hearing from God in the past few months is that God has a plan. And friends, I am a sucker for spoilers in TV shows. I want to know what happens so badly. I guess you could say that I hate being left in the dark. But trusting God provides such a fulfillment. He’s making something beautiful out of me. I can feel it and I love that. Peace and blessings to you all <3

Steve and Tony aren't close at all...

Because I always try to apologize and make amends with people who mean absolutely nothing to me or aren’t important to me at all.

The other superheroes know that Steve and Tony love each other and have some things to work out, but I guess they’re all wrong too since Tony doesn’t register as someone really important to Steve.

Because I totally wax poetic about the people in my head who mean absolutely nothing to me.

They are so unimportant to each other that the first thing one of the writers did was marry them off in a universe where Tony was a woman.

Steve means so little to Tony here obviously. I mean it’s rude to just let people die but he willingly sacrificed himself for Steve…but you know, they just aren’t that close.

We mean nothing to each other but I’m going to hold onto you like this while we fly around the city. Yup. 

Tony and Steve aren’t important to each other at all. Tony didn’t sob when Steve died or even at Steve’s memorial in front of cameras and everything. They mean nothing to each other.





This song is so beautiful and it speaks to my heart in such a perfect way. I don’t know what God is asking of me, I don’t know what His plans are, and that scares me. I’m not good at letting go; I don’t always know how to surrender. But, I trust Him. I trust Him even when I try to take control. I trust Him even when I don’t understand. I trust Him, because His plans for me will always be better than the plans I have for myself. I don’t understand. I don’t have the slightest clue as to what God is doing with my life. Nothing makes sense to me, but I trust him. I give it to Him. I surrender and I know that He will make something beautiful out of me. My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven.

Jack Gilinsky Imagine: Please don't go.

“Missed calls and ignored texts and
Late night, I’m stayin’ up stressin’
Girl I got you on my mind
I swear this happens every time.
But what about out last fight?
Yeah I know it happened last night
You can put that in the past right?
I’m just tryna’ live the fast life.”

I sat in my room looking out my window at the falling rain, I watched as the rain hit my window with a splat  and slowly drip down my window pane. Kind of like my Relationship with Jack, slowly fading away, nothing let to hold on to. How could you hold onto something that has nothing to hold to? I watched our relationship slip through my fingers, we had absolutely no control over it, we just watched it crumble. Neither of us said anything, neither of us tried to fix it. We both stepped over it and walked away, leaving it there lifeless with all of our memories.

I couldn’t help but lift Jack’s favorite Michigan sweater up to my face and inhale his scent, it was slowly starting to fade away. 

The tears fell, just like the rain on my window, painfully.

How do you let go of someone who gave you so much? How do you erase someone from your life who made your life worth wild? How can you look the person you love in their eyes and tell them you don’t love them anymore? 

Jack did it, he did it with no hesitation, I questioned if he even loved me. I begged him to take it back, to tell me he was going to sleep it off and everything would be fine by the morning. It wasn’t. I found myself packing my bags, boarding a plane leaving behind Jack and everything we built. And yet, I still can’t help but love Jack with everything in me, if he came knocking on my door telling me he was sorry I would take him back in a heart beat that’s what scared me. How could you love someone so much who hurt you?

flash backs of Jack and I replayed in my mind.

From his smile, the way he looked at me, the way his hands roamed my body. 

From his lips, to his voice when he use to sang me to sleep at night.

I closed my eyes tight trying to block out the thoughts of Jack Gilinsky. He was fine without me, he didn’t need me, It was crazy how bad I needed him, how I wasn’t fine without him.

When I asked Jack what I did wrong, he looked me in the eyes and said “You did nothing wrong.” His eyes watered, and his voice cracked but his face was still cold. 

Rocks hit my window snapping me out of my thoughts, I opened my eyes looking out my window, “Jack.” I blew out a breath, I rubbed my eyes to make sure I wasn’t losing my mind.

Jack was standing outside my window drenched from head to toe, his hair was flat against his eyes, his shoulders shook as he collapsed on my lawn, I jumped up from my ledge running down the stairs and out the front door.

“What are you doing here?” I said slowly walking towards Jack.

Jack looked up at me, I couldn’t tell if that he was crying or if it was just the rain. It broke my heart regardless to see Jack like this, no matter if he stomped on my heart.

He had bags under his eyes, he lost all of his color. he looked a mess.

“I don’t know why I let you board that plane Y/N.” I gulped pushing back the tears.

“I’m a fool, I’m an ass, I’m everything you could name, The truth is Y/N I thought letting you go would be best for the both of us.”

“Well, that was pretty selfish of you now wasn’t it? You didn’t ask me what I wanted Jack!” I said wiping the rain out of my face.

“You never asked me how I felt!” I screamed.

“I loved you Jack!”

“Loved?” Jack said getting up and walking towards me.

“I fucking loved you.” I cried hitting him in his chest. I punched him repeatedly.

“I fucking love you!” I said punching him again, Jack grabbed my arms pulling me into his chest, I fell into his body defeated. Jack slid down onto the ground holding onto me while I cried into his chest.

“I love you Jack, you let me go.” I cried. Everything I built up the past week released itself,

“I’m sorry.” He said over and over again rocking us back and forth.

I didn’t care about the rain, I was in Jack’s arms. For all the wrong reasons, but it felt so right.

“I love you so much Y/N, I’m so sorry.” Jack cracked, he kissed my head over and over again.

“I hate you Jack.” I said hitting his chest weakly.

“I hate you so much.”

“You have every reason too.” Jack said lifting my face up so he was looking at me, he wiped away my tears placing a kiss on my forehead.

“I should have chased after you. I should have told you how much I love you and how much you mean to me everyday. I promise it’ll be different, I’ll never let you leave again, please Y/N I’m begging you.” Jack pleaded, I watched a tear roll down his cheek and I broke.

It hurt me to see Jack hurting, even if he deserved it.

“I promise.” Jack said caressing my cheek with my thumb.

His lips touched mine, and fireworks went off, the same spark was there when we first started dating.

“I promise.” He mumbled as his tears fell onto my face.

 I got major feels writing this. Like I was going to leave as it was over, but  I couldn’t there was no way.

TEAM B – WAIT FOR ME (기다려) [trans]

She keeps smiling on and on
As if it’s nothing, time holds onto you as it ticks away
In my dreams, I’m with you as I hold your hand
But cruelly, I say goodbye when the sun rises
As my pillow gets wet

Oh you and me (oh you and me)
We’re under the same sky but we can’t meet
But believe in me, I’ll be there for you

Wait (wait) because I’ll go to you right now
Wherever you are, I’ll go
Wait for me, hey, time is ticking faster
Wait (wait) because I’ll go to you right now
I’ll run against time and go to you
Wait for me yeah
So that my heart can reach her

Time go faster
Time go to her
So I can reach her

I can’t put anything in my head, my eyes close at the thought of you
I let out a sigh and put my hands behind my head
Everything seems the same, it’s like my life folded in half
You still look beautiful in my dreams, it’s like my heart stopped

I want to look into your face under the dazzling sunlight
And tell you, thank you for making me live as the me right now
I missed you, your voice, your face, even your soft breathing
I won’t go anywhere now, I’ll be by your side
Even until the moment the world ends

Oh you and me (oh you and me)
We’re under the same sky but we can’t meet
But believe in me, I’ll be there for you

Wait (wait) because I’ll go to you right now
Wherever you are, I’ll go
Wait for me, hey, time is ticking faster
Wait (wait) because I’ll go to you right now
I’ll run against time and go to you
Wait for me yeah
So that my heart can reach her

Time go faster
Time go to her
So I can reach her

Time passed and the spring flowers have bloomed
I’m letting go of the cold days, I remember, I’m only inside of you
I can only breathe when I’m next to you
I’m ready for this, you alone are enough for me
I ain’t gonna leave, I promise you

Wait (wait) because we’re gonna be forever now
(And I’m coming for you, baby)
Because I can’t go on without you (yeah)
Wait for me hey Time go faster
Wait because I’ll go to you right now
I’ll run against time and go to you
Wait for me yeah
So she can remember me

Time go faster

credit to popgasa

I'm low key a prince

I was standing, holding onto nothing in the subway and a girl fell into me. I caught her, helped her stabilize herself, still not holding onto anything, remainined stable myself AND I was holding a tripod in one arm!

Low key
High key

Imma prince

The Sky's Disappearing Through Old Fashioned Keyholes

While robots eat exotic food
While you figure out what art really means to you
While fireworks withdraw under protest
While your habits slowly transcend into suicide
While pens explode inside your slim fit jean pockets

Everything’s running away;

The dog from its house
The people from their homes
The leaves from the trees
The baby birds from their nest
The details from oblivion

Rap scallions are walking down the street
Alcoholics stumbling
Shadows sulking
I have nowhere to be
Nowhere to go
Nothing to hold onto
With an existence untethered
I sit and watch puppets make fun of their strings

Dearest medicine man in the sky
Make me rich
Get me high
The people look like ants from way up here
Are you sure we can still technically call them people?

Mr. Whiskey
Call me later
In due time
I guess we can just yell at each other
And pretend we understand what’s actually going on

There’s 1,000 activists weeping inside of the moon
10,000 stars are tired of being wished upon
100,000 words are tired of having to do all your dirty work
The parallelism’s hacking up tar and can’t support your biased agenda any longer
The world-leaders are sitting in a circle playing hot potato

And everyone’s expecting me to fall asleep at an appropriate hour
And everyone’s drooling over art
And the grass is black
And everyone wants to be something and not be apart of something

Mamo Blog - 2016.02.05 (Eng. Translation)

「GENERATING!」omake 4



Of it、

I would like to deliver Mamo-chan’s costume photos☆

Within the opening movie、

Pure white、in a completely open space、

Still、a Miyano Mamoru who knew nothing、

Was crouching、holding onto myself、floating……

And so、

Once I held onto the will、I started walking、

And transformed into the Live costume、

The costume、

Here it is!

From here、

Is where all of the Lives started!!

Wearing this costume、

Mamo had、with only his voice、sang with feeling…。

Soon the Band joined in、

The Dancers joined in、

The Lights were added、

My Live、

Our performance、


From there、

moo~~~a lot of unwinding occurred、

If you notice in the middle of the stage、


In the silent movie、

I think Mamo had turned completely into a wolf-san、

On the stage、

With this、Mamo Wolf appeared on stage\(^o^)/


Isn’t this costume cute???

Everywhere、it’s decorated with the impression of a wanwan* (lol)、

Fur equipped、

A tail there has been grown☆

No way、I never thought I would transform into a wolf on stage (lol),

It was funn~~~☆☆☆


With that said…、


With this、the costume photos have come to an end………(-_-;)

The day of、the back was really batabata**、there really was no time to take pictures……



You wanted to see the other costumes right……???

What should I do…


Somehow I’ll make it happen (lol)


Please wait for it kay (>_<)

*suffix for a dog call (“woof-woof”)
**suffix for a lot of commotion and noise