notebook lyrics

Cracks || BTS Suga

Genre: Angst

Word Count: 1340

Part 2 

You tried to understand that your boyfriend was busy being in an idol group and all. Tours, recordings, music broadcasts, and promotions were tiring. Therefore, you always tried to stay out of his way and cope with the loneliness. It was hard, but you didn’t want to be in his way. You saw your friends more than your own boyfriend. You envied them. Their boyfriends were always texting them or there for them. Yoongi, on the other hand, was always busy. Even when your grandmother passed away, he wasn’t there to comfort you. You never told him. It was hard for you, but you tried to always put on a strong front and smile in front of Yoongi. You didn’t want to be a burden to him.

You don’t know where it went wrong. He was so caring and affectionate toward you in the beginning. After 3 years of dating, however, he stopped texting you every morning, afternoon, and night. Soon, the texts disappeared and so did Yoongi. He stayed at the dorm all the time now. You haven’t seen him for months and he didn’t bother to text or call you.

“You need to be selfish for once noona.”

You were hanging out with Bangtan’s maknae line and Jimin was starting to worry about your relationship with his hyung. You brought lunch over for them knowing they would probably skip it, like always. They were too engrossed in practice to know that their bodies were starving.

“Yeah, Jimin is right. We’ve never seen Yoongi hyung act affectionate with you. You’re always texting us to check up on hyung. That’s not right.”

You thought Jimin and Taehyung were right, but you just couldn’t. You knew if this kept going, one of you will start to fall out of love. This relationship would become toxic.

“Why don’t you go and take the lunches to the hyungs. We’ll continue to practice after eating.”

“Okay Kookie. Remember to rest before going back to practice. You’ll get stomach cramps.”

They nodded and you left to find the other 4. You found them all in the recording studio talking and laughing. Hoseok was the first to jump up and hug you.

“(Y/N) noona!”

He hugged you and you laughed. You were always close to Hobi cause you and him were closest in age.

“Hey Hobi! Hey Namjoon, Seokjin oppa.”

They all hugged you, except for your own boyfriend. You were kind of disappointed, but you quickly got rid of the disappointment in your eyes and held out the lunches you had made for the boys.

“I know you guys would probably skip lunch like always, so I bought you guys something to eat. It may not be as good as Seokjin oppa’s, but it’s edible. The other 3 already tried it.”

“Ey, your food is delicious. But you know, if you need any help with anything, I’m here to help!”

“Thank you oppa.”

Everyone except Yoongi grabbed a lunch box from the bag. The other 3 quickly sensed the tension between the 2 of you and left the 2 of you to talk. You stood there awkwardly as Yoongi went back to work. After a few minutes of just standing, you grabbed a lunchbox and opened it. You set it down in front of Yoongi and turned his chair around.

“Please, take a break and eat.”

“I’m busy if you can’t sense that already.”

Your heart cracked. His harsh tone was enough to cause tears to form.

“I know, but you should at least eat a little. Just a bite?”

You were practically pleading at this point. He could be as cold as he wanted to you, but you wanted him to at least take care of himself. You pushed the lunchbox closer to him only to have it knocked out of your hands and onto his lyric notebook. Your eyes widened and you quickly grabbed his notebook from under the food. You knew how important it was to him. It was his life.

“(Y/N)! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!”

“I’m sor-”

“DO YOU THINK A SORRY IS ENOUGH? YOU COULD’VE RUINED EVERYTHING. You are so lucky it was closed.”

“I said I was sorry. If you just complied.”

“Are you blaming me now? Why can’t you just leave me alone?”

Another crack in your heart.

That was your last straw. It hit some nerve that you never knew even existed. And neither did he.

“LEAVE YOU ALONE? I’VE LEFT YOU ALONE FOR MONTHS NOW! NOT A SINGLE TEXT OR CALL FOR 4 MONTHS AND YOU STILL WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU ALONE? Sometimes I wonder if we’re even in a relationship. You could at least send a text. I’m just asking for one simple, ‘hey’. Is that too much to ask for?”

He was taken aback from your sudden outburst. You were always a quiet person and you always kept calm even in the most frustrating situations.

“I was busy. What’s up with you? You never shout.”

Another crack.

“Maybe if you bothered to care, you would understand why all this is happening.”

“I don’t have time. I wish you would just understand me sometimes. I’m an idol. I can’t be there to comfort you through everything. If you waited a little more, I would’ve been home. Stop being so selfish.”

You were speechless. Everyone around you were right. You have been too nice to Yoongi. He has taken your love for him for granted. The tears you have been holding fell and now all your anger has become sadness.

“Maybe I don’t want to wait anymore. Maybe…maybe, I can’t wait anymore.”

With that, you left. You left him standing there still taken aback from not only your words, but also your tears. You left him to think about where this relationship went wrong. It took him a while to finally figure out that you didn’t just throw a tantrum and leave to cool off. You left him and your relationship with him.

“Hyung, how could you say that to noona?”

“Guys, I’m not in the mood.”

“How could you still say that?! You haven’t talken to her in 4 months. She has to check on her stupid boyfriend through us. She texted us to make sure you were eating, sleeping, and taking care of yourself. She’s texted all of us because she didn’t want to bother you. She’s been understanding. She has been waiting for you and here you are. Working.”

Namjoon scoffed. Jimin shoved 6 phones onto the desk Yoongi was working at. There were endless conversations with you. You telling them to make sure he was alright and healthy. There was even a group chat he wasn’t a part of. And then there was his phone. Empty. Not a single text since 4 months ago. As he finished reading, a sound from everyone’s phone.

(Y/N) : You won’t be hearing from me for a while. Good luck on your comeback. Please don’t tell Yoongi. I’m just a burden.

Hoseok quickly snatched his phone and texted back. After getting another text, he turned to Yoongi and held his phone out for him to see the conversation he just had with you.

Hobi: Where are you going? Please tell me you aren’t leaving.

(Y/N): Remember that offer I got at work to work on a fashion show in Paris. I decided to accept. I’m going to be gone for at least a year or maybe I’ll just stay there.

Yoongi froze. You were leaving. You were leaving him and never coming back. He looked up quickly when he heard another text come in.

(Y/N): Guys, I’m leaving in 2 weeks to Paris. Please don’t tell Yoongi. Tell him I met some other guy or you guys make up some excuse.

You still thought of him even though he didn’t even glance at you for 4 months. Yoongi started to cry. He just ruined a great relationship. He just ruined what could’ve been his wife and the mother to his children. He made the woman he loved the most leave.

anonymous asked:

I don't want to be that person, but the writing in that notebook (the two ghosts lyrics) looks quite similar to a certain bear's...

yeah i think someone already compared the handwriting and it was iterally harry lol but again not that we needed a confirmation considering his fiance’s reflection was on the sunglasses of the bear once and it was glorious

anonymous asked:

Hi! Saw your blog on K-Pop amino, I was wondering if you can do an as your boyfriend for BTS?

Hi!!! Thanks for visiting! I gotcha! 

Originally posted by bwiseoks

Kim Sekojin as your boyfriend: 

- cooking dates

Tender love making, with occasional kinks


- Silly puns and cheesy dad jokes


- Tight back hugs


- Neck kisses


- Picnics in the park during spring 


- Kisses your knuckles when you’re holding hands


- Leaves passion marks on your chest because he loves how they look 


- Long talks about the future 


- Stares at you with a smile a lot 


- Eye fucking in public 


- Winks at you when you catch him staring


- Watches over your shoulder when you’re cooking 


- Double texts


- Sends sexy selcas, even when you’re right next to him


- pouts when you tease him, but secretly enjoys it


- buys you cute video games to play with him


Originally posted by nnochu

Kim Taehyung as your boyfriend:

- matching accessories and clothes 


- Bites your lips when making out


- Wants to be babied


- Lots of hugs and kisses 


- Loves to have all of your attention 


- Makes you a playlist 


- Loves to touch your thighs and boobs


- Wants to meet your family


- Playful teasing that’ll turn sexual FAST


- Silly arguments everyday, but makes up with you quickly (make up sex) 


- Wants to pay for everything on dates


- Whispers inappropriate comments in your ear when you’re out in public 


- Always wanting you to stay up late while he plays overwatch 


- Movie dates


- Talks about your future a lot (like marriage and kids)


- Always feels bad when he’s too busy to see you

Originally posted by itsrapmonster

Jung Hoseok as your boyfriend: 

   - lots of silly flirting


   - Quickies in the studio 


   - Shopping dates 


   - Acts cute to get his way


   - Stands closely behind you so you’d feel his 🍆
   - Bringing you to the practice room 

   - Constant compliments 


   - Always makes sure you cum first


   - Always gives you long back hugs when he’s upset


   - Long random talks about nothing 


   - Foreplay 


   - Sending sexy selcas from the studio 


   - Buys you a ton of souvenirs whenever he visits a new country 


   - You’re his screensaver 


   - Prefers calling instead of texting


   - Introduces you to his sister before his parents 


   - Isn’t shy about telling you his feelings


Originally posted by nnochu

Min Yoongi as your boyfriend:

- Naps 


- Buying you new headphones because yours were “ancient.”

- Dominates in every aspect, but occasionally liked for you to take the lead


- Losing track of time in the studio, so he tells you he’ll make it up to you 


- Cuddles with you as he works from his laptop 

- loves to watch you dress and undress


- Gives you a playlist of his favorite songs 

- booty rubs


- Let’s you read his notebook full of lyrics 


- Doesn’t ask for your opinion, but still waits anxiously for it anyway


- Gummy smiles whenever you call him cute


- Witty banter between you two

- light bdsm 


- Forehead kisses


- Meaningful conversations


- Is a sweetheart whenever no one else is around


Originally posted by trash-for-bangtan

Kim Namjoon as your boyfriend:

- SEX 25/8


- Hand holding while taking long late night walks


- quick make out sessions when he’s busy 


- Him calling you baby more than your name


- Coordinating outfits 

- asks for sexy photos for “"inspiration


- Aesthetic couple photos


- FaceTiming you while he’s up late at the studio. 


- random back hugs just so he can squeeze your ass


- Him giving you one of his tshirts to wear and the telling you how sexy you look


- LOTS OF CUDDLING


- Tries to cook, but burns the food and ends up buying take out while saying, “ah, you cook next time baby" 


- Constant compliments like, “no matter how you style your hair, you’ll still be beautiful.”


Originally posted by bwipsul

Park Jimin as your boyfriend: 

- constantly making videos and taking cute selcas together 

- sends you a lot of “sexy music” 


- ALWAYS talks about you

- gives you sexy looks

- likes to be dominated 


- Late night walks in the park


- Holds your hand every chance he gets


- Shameless flirting 


- Knows when something’s troubling you, and always tries to make you feel better


- Listens to your worries and gives loving advice


- Asks about your childhood and family 


- LOVES to have your attention, and loves to give you attention 


- Matching rings


- Lots of cuddling and kisses 


- Laughs at all of your corny jokes


- Sends you a ton of selcas and videos when he’s away


- gets horny at the drop of a dime 


- Everyday he has a new nickname for you

- knows all of your hotspots 

- thigh riding 


Originally posted by apgujeon

Jeon Jungkook as your boyfriend:

- Playful teasing

- sexting 24/7

- Gets embarrassed when talking about each other’s feelings

- Pouting when you steal one of his tshirts, but smiling because it looks hot on you


- Friendly competitions that ends with hot sex


- Shy back hugs and hand holding 


- Lying on your lap as he plays overwatch


- Matching earrings 


- Falling asleep on the phone together when he’s away 


- Showing you a new song he learned to play on the drums


- Telling you silly jokes just to see you smile 


- Dragging you to the gym with him


- Random timid flirting

This is the PG13 (lol) version. If you want the 18+ version, let me know!

Distractions pt 4

Pt. 1 || Pt. 2 || Pt. 3 || Pt. 4 || Pt. 5 || Pt. 6  || Pt. 7 || Pt. 8 || Pt.9 || Pt. 10 || Pt. 11

Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Summary: Work shouldn’t be a place littered with distractions…but how could that be when you were working with one?

Word Count: 2547

A/N: idk how the whole making music process works…so sorry if my portrayal is inaccurate 

Originally posted by nnochu

“Hyung, hold on. You forgot this.” Jimin handed the brown leather bound lyric notebook to Yoongi. Jimin always knew that Yoongi carried it around, “You can’t keep on misplacing things, hyung. Remember what happened to Namjoon-hyung?” He snatched the book from the younger’s hand,

“Jiminie, I’m not going to forget something as important as a passport.” Yoongi scoffed as he headed out the front door of the dorms,

“Hey, hyung? Where are you going anyway? We have a meeting later…”

“Just…uh…I’m just going out for some fresh air. I’ll meet you guys at the studio later on.” Jimin knew his hyung well and he could tell that something was up. However, Yoongi wasn’t going to just tell Jimin that he was going to meet with the younger’s favorite girl group. He felt like Jimin would continuously nag him to let him tag along…that and because he didn’t want him to see a certain somebody. 

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