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anonymous asked:

You are not a failure, love. I agree the biology thing is a total bitch, but you know you can get through it. I've watched one of my high school friends transition and trust me it was very difficult for her...But you got this. I KNOW you got this. You're already taking great steps in the right direction. You can do anything you fucking want because this is your life. Grab it by the balls and make it your bitch. Cause it is. And take the hard way, because at the end you'll be way more satisfied<3

It’s not just that, really. It’s everything from my past hitting me. I shut off for years and I wake up at such an inconvient time. I’m still groggy. 

Metaphors aside, there’s something deeper that’s wrong that needs to be discovered and I feel like somehow, transitioning completely will make it go away.

idk im rambling or something. gonna go purge things. 

and thank you <3333

extraordinaryespeon  asked:

I plan on making a 'tear jerking' plot later, do you know how can I better get people attached to my characters so that I can make it more painful for when I get to that plotline? (also, love your blog! (Me as I struggle to hit that ask button))

Hmm!! For me, it’s all about intent + execution.

Personally, stories that are about bad things happening for no reason don’t…Really… Grab or move me? Like, if a character is suffering, there needs to be a justification for it. Whether that be for character development, plot, theme, etc!

It’s really satisfying to get an extreme reaction out of an audience, but when you set out to get a result without a good reason, I think it falls flat.

Like… Nine’s backstory is a big one. I got a lot of great feedback/reactions from it!! It was satisfying to finally reveal, and fun to draw, but it’s also really important to her character, the plot, AND the theme. (askpurrsian is about loss.)

I think that also, the aftereffects of a tragic event happening are sometimes more moving than the event itself. Nine’s backstory is sad, but what makes me personally moved by it is the way it’s impacted her now. She’s drawn to kids, for example, and is really protective of Saph. She references human culture a lot. And when it was revealed, all of her actions were painted in a different light.

I waited quite a few months after starting askpurrsian for the reason you said; it wouldn’t have had the same effect if I had revealed Nine’s story when we didn’t know her. I think people get attatched to characters for different reasons, but the approach I used with Nine was showing how she interacted with other characters. How do your characters react to the world and people around them? That’s how I get to know a character best.

I love character interactions so much, and personally, they’re the most memorable thing for me. If I like a character, chances are they have really great dynamics! I love how Nine gets along with Melissa, Saph, Tullius, Wolf, etc. They’re all really entertaining and flesh her out well! Once people are invested/like your characters, they’ll care about what happens to them!!

Hope this helped !

ok this is hard actually

like..really hard

ive been thinking abt on how to answer this for weeks..and FINALLY

lemme tell you one thing, im combining the similarities between the bsd characters and the paladins traits (so probably a bit of the characters like lance, keith etc. but not whole??) bc when i combine them w the charas, for example; dazai as lance- lance is too open and Dazai. D a z a i. were supposed to think him as mysterious and all (psst thank you for reminding me brynna ;)) hence its really hard to match their personalities altogether?? not jsut w lance but w other characthers to smh though i know thats not the thing here but, i tried to make it as relevant as possible so i hope you anons r satisfied w my answer:0

but here we go, anon

(though i prefer aku as the red paladin more?? and sushi as blue paladin???)

this one is indeedo hard my amigo

(i actually had this thought just a week ago before this ask came, liek tanizaki as pidge cuz hes searching for his lost sister naomimatt or the other way around )

t h i s. i was actually thinking like psst king alfor as natsume???

shuttup rue

 oh ya i just realized i forgot to add the galras so…mori as zarkon probs and i legit think kou as haggar idk

anywho…so this is my answer so far?? if you have any other thoughts just dont be shy to let me know and ill probably draw them, mash them up togetherrrwhatever 

and that reminds me…somebody in discord said ‘altean prince dazai’ so whoop

he’s reffereing to the lions dont worry

oda, somewhere in the bg:  coughyoure dazzling..cough

anonymous asked:

⭐ !! ~(^з^)-♡

:3

Fact about myself: It doesn’t matter how long I’ve been writing for or how many fics I’ve written, getting appreciated and complimented by people who take time to read my work is literally one of the most satisfying feelings ever. I know it sounds like I’m fishing for compliments and shit, but I’m really not. It’s just the knowledge that someone likes what I’ve made and lets me know makes me want to cry? TBQH, I’m striving to be a writer who can connect with people and vice versa.

dunbanthehero  asked:

Ash and Misty's personalities are quite exploitable when it comes to create pre-kiss/pre-confession situations. I think one of my favorite scenarios would be Ash slowly realizing his feelings and trying to do something about it, and although he manages to confess to her, he does it in a 'sloppy' way that makes him feel a bit frustrated, but fortunately, she's happy and satisfied with his confession, and they both rejoice in knowing how they really feel about each other. Does it sound nice? :P

Yes it does! XD thank you dunban!

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Being possessive of Victor likely flipped his switch

No, really, here’s why:

Before the competition, Yuri has to keep hearing people tell him to not monopolize Victor, and hear people telling Victor to leave him:

It made him come to the realization that no one would be satisfied with him having Victor -thus removing him from the competition- if they thought he was unworthy.

And that flipped his switch. Yuri wanted it to be clear to other that Victor was his alone, and he wasn’t just anyone, but someone important to Victor, and that he was worthy of that.

This performance wasn’t just about seducing Victor but also about flaunting his conquest, and his importance, to others.

live with a man who knows you

do you live with a man who knows you / are you living the life you chose?

Summary: Victor has spent nearly his entire life being cold, from being born in the dead of winter through growing up in northern Russia to deciding to dedicate his life to ice rinks. He’s never thought much of the cold—until spends enough time feeling warm. (Or: adjusting to domestic life in St. Petersburg, the fanfic)

Word Count: 3,569

A/N: Annnnd it’s finished! This one gave me an unusual amount of difficulty to write, but I really, really wanted to do it anyway.  It can also be found posted to AO3 here.

This is the second of a few fics I plan to write for follower requests after I hit a milestone about a week ago. @subteraneans and @demisexualmako both asked me for domesticity in St. Petersburg, and @comet-kind requested something fluffy and sweet and snowy for the season. The two requests ended up in combination here. 

Thanks to @subteraneans for helping me with Russian terms of endearments, and happy belated birthday to @comet-kind, who shares the day with Victor!

Call it a weakness, but if there is one thing that will keep Victor lingering in a store for hours, it is the search for a perfect pair of leather gloves.

He has a whole drawer full of them in his closet, bunched behind soft-knitted scarves and few mismatched fuzzy socks. Yuuri discovers this when helping Victor pack up his room in Hasetsu, his eyes wide with a disbelief Victor rarely gets the pleasure of seeing on him in such a mundane setting. There have to be at least fifteen pairs, he points out. Yuuri pulls each pair one by one from the fingertips and deposits them on the floor in front of him in a damning spread of evidence. For what on earth does Victor need so many pairs of gloves?

The answer is simple: absolutely nothing.

Victor likes the scent of leather. It’s that somewhat sweet, somewhat sharp tang that wears away with age but never fully disappears. He breathes it in from his hands when it clings to his palms and cracks it in the air when he curls his knuckles, flexes fingers with each new glove pulled snug. Good leather, soft leather is pleasant to touch. And most importantly, whether each pair of gloves is lined with fur or fabric or nothing at all, they keep out the cold. 

He jokes to Yuuri that since he has to wear cheaper, moisture-wicking gloves for exercise when he’s skating, he’s had to buy so many other nice ones to make up for all the lost time. Yuuri rolls his eyes and tells him this is absolutely terrible logic. 

Victor laughs and falls back with his head in Yuuri’s lap, holding up a white fleece-lined glove to Yuuri’s cheek.  “Hm,” Victor murmurs. “Perhaps a brighter color would be better with your skin-tone, Yuuri.”

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“It’s this role that brought us together and the world of ‘Star Trek’ that we shared in common from the beginning, but our friendship evolved very quickly past all that. I would say, by the end of his life, it was only one of many facets of how we connected and how we came to respect and love each other. He was just an incredible guy; I miss him a lot. But I feel like my approach to this film, which was the first one we’ve made without Leonard, was to really just honor him and carry on his legacy as best I can. I thought that Simon and Doug did a wonderful job of involving Leonard in this film and honoring him and making it a part of Spock’s journey. That was important to me and really satisfying. I think that it turned out quite beautifully.” – Zachary Quinto on honoring Leonard Nimoy in ‘Star Trek Beyond’

How To Attract What You Desire:

Before you begin:

• Know what you want. What you really want. And don’t think of “how” you’ll get it.
• Write the desire in present tense on a card. It is now your goal card.
• Carry this card with you and read it often. This is putting the desire into your subconscious mind.
• Check if your goal is really what you want. Can you imagine bigger? Are you letting fear stop you? Are you answering your soul’s calling with this? 

Night:

• How you fall asleep determines what shows up in your life. Everytime. Without fail. So we start our day how we fell asleep the night before, actually. Ask your self one question before you sleep: “If my wishes were fulfilled, how would I feel?” Fall asleep to that question satisfied.
• Record an MP3 or voice note of your OWN voice, reciting positive affirmations. Get examples online but personalize them. Your subconscious mind trusts your own voice. Use it. 
• Never ever let yourself fall asleep feeling stress or failure. Don’t invite it in. 

Morning:

• When your eyes open, set your intention for the day. 
• Did you have any dreams last night? Write them down.
• Write 5 things you’re grateful for. Increase to 10 after a while and begin to include wishes that are yet to manifest e.g. “I’m grateful I now weigh __” 

Day:

• Read Think And Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. (PDF’s online) Read slowly and reflectively. 
• Read Feeling Is The Secret by Neville Goddard (PDF’s online) 
• The Secret book/DVD is great for beginners but you’re going to have to dig deeper to pull this off. 
Do what makes you smile. Read, play your music, call a friend, go for walks. Do whatever you can to lighten your mood. 
Write about your desire as if it’s already happened. 
Visualize your life ASSUMING the desire has already happened. How do you feel? What are you wearing? Where are you? Was manifesting easy and fun?

Remember:

Bruce Lee, Jim Carrey, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Oprah Winfrey, Big Sean, Conor McGregor and countless others have used this formula. It works, and it will work for you. 

And please share this post. You never know who might be waiting to see it. 

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ladies of the inner circle of the night court

“The Court of Dreams. The people who knew that there was a price, and one worth paying, for that dream. The bastard-born warriors, the Illyrian half breed, the monster trapped in a beautiful body, the dreamer born into a court of nightmares… And the huntress with an artist’s soul.”

People who really want to make a difference in the world usually do it, in one way or another. And I’ve noticed something about people who make a difference in the world: They hold the unshakable conviction that individuals are extremely important, that every life matters. They get excited over one smile. They are willing to feed one stomach, educate one mind, and treat one wound. They aren’t determined to revolutionize the world all at once; they’re satisfied with small changes. Over time, though, the small changes add up. Sometimes they even transform cities and nations, and yes, the world.
—  Beth Clark, Kisses from Katie 

If there is anything I still want to see from Yuri on Ice:

Victor and Yuuri’s domestic moments.

Victor and Yuuri hugging when they’re not on the ice rink, when it’s not done just as comfort and motivation before/after a performance. Victor and Yuuri going out on a date somewhere and casually holding hands like it’s something they do all the time. Victor and Yuuri having a casual conversation while smiling and tenderly gazing into each others eyes in their hotel room. Victor and Yuuri sleeping in one bed (and cuddling!). Victor and Yuuri randomly kissing each other/’s cheeks/foreheads/necks and smiling at each other fondly.

I really love what the anime is doing and I’m more than satisfied with what we’re getting, but I just wish we could see more of their life off the ice. I know that’s not the point of the anime and I know that they can’t really feature all of that when it’s just 12 episodes but I wish we could see more scenes like the ones we see in the ED in the actual episodes.

My favorite part of this damn musical

So, I have mentioned before that I am utterly in love with the Helpless/Satisfied bit because of the juxtaposition presented between the name of the two songs and the feelings of the two women playing them (ie. Eliza being the satisfied one and Angelica being helplessly in love with a man she can’t have.) 

But my favorite part of these two songs is the use of the word “fine.”

In Helpless, Alexander says “My life is gon’ be fine cause Eliza’s in it” which I initially saw as a really cute line. But in Satisfied, Angelica says “She would say ‘I’m fine.’ She’d be lying.” Now, Angelica says this in regards to her sister, but I think we can all agree that this line perfectly describes how Angelica deals with Eliza and Alexander being together. She tries to put on a happy face, but deep down she longs to be with him. She’s lying.

So, here’s my thought process: Alexander and Angelica are always presented as extremely similar characters (ie. neither of them ever being satisfied and Angelica being the only one who matches his rap skills in the play.) Alexander saying that his life is gonna be fine with Eliza adds another layer of similarities in my book. Alexander says he’ll be fine with Eliza, but ends up having an affair with Maria Reynolds. He’s lying. 

Layers, guys. So many layers.