Holy shit, guys. It’s been just short of three years of long periods of inactivity, Missy doing absolutely batshit crazy things, having poignant, self-reflective moments, screaming at the Doctor, snogging the Doctor, lecturing the Doctor, attempting to steal his companions, attempting to steal half the universe, and (once in a while) sitting down and getting her shit together. Some of you have been here for most of it, and some of you are fairly new. I want you all to know Missy thinks you’re equally yummy, but I would never eat any of you. Just a disclaimer.
And now onto the follow forever!!
the started from the bottom now we here squad: @starliightinhiswake/@ofbecomings knew me back when i played eleven and has put up with sO MUCH of my various versions of the master’s bullshit. so much of it. what a saint. it’s probably why he’s never on his doctor blog. there’s only so much bullshit one can take before one starts to go off the deep end. @turntechgodtits team the best team meme all day every day 420 blaze it (dani what does that even mean) if you ever wanted morally ambiguous time traveling bros who use their powers not for good or for evil but for happy meal toys and pizza roll eating contests, here you go. such trash. who let these two hang out? @sepulchrebound/@mctriarchy has also put up with a lot of shit but not as much. 90% of our interactions have always been ooc but hoo boy if y’all could see the salt we’ve liberally poured all over our ims, you’d probably get high blood pressure by osmosis. best river, best morticia. no room for argument. i’ma let you finish but she has the best river blog of all time. OF ALL TIME. @drthetasigma10 is basically ten like idk what you’re all doing with your lives if you’re not following this blog but u need to stop what ur doin RIGHT NOW and follow okay, holy shit, one time, he wrote a huge fic about everyone’s characters and like, seriously - only person i would trust implicitly to understand any muse i write, canon or oc or somewhere in between, and write them. @wintermae has not put up with much of missy’s shit but good lord she’s put up with everyone else’s. from the doctor to clint barton to sherlock to cecil (did you ever write with cecil? w/e, doesn’t matter) to basically every character i’ve ever written, winter’s bakery has been a constant in their lives, mostly because every muse i’ve ever written is a shameless coffee addict and also i love this woman i watched her grow ooc from a meek person scared of her own fc because so many people with shitty characters used her to a badass in her own right with real opinions of her own and shit and i just. could not be more proud. @likethestory doesn’t write as much anymore but listen, anyone who lets you stab their eye out with a candy cane for science is precious and perfect and must be protected. claire definitely put up with a lot of the master’s shit. probably the second most of their shit after the doctor. it was a lot of shit. @youmaythinkyouknowme follows me anyway despite the war flashbacks she has about the master reblog if u cry every time (it ok i have them too, that was a rough time in everyone’s lives) @asymptomxtic hoo boy we’ve been friends since i played clint barton and this adorbs nutjob was still playing [NAME REDACTED] (i won’t call u out like that) and we started screaming about madina lake and then we realized we have the same dalek poster bc of selfies and sometimes we end up accidentally dyeing our hair the same color at the same time and it’s really kind of freakish and i’m still not sure we’re not distant cousins
Just finished the Great Game! He liked it but not loved it, idk why he said A Study in Pink was funnier :') Just told him ASiB was pretty funny as well xD
Oh yeah, ASiB is just gold! I think he’ll love that one. It’s so clever and poignant and just awesome. The whole of s2 is amazing and that ep starts things off just fabulously. @likingthistoomuch care to say a few words to talk up your fave ep hehe? I know you love it…
the first time you meet cicero is the most poignant and frightening experience i have ever had in any video game and nothing in skyrim left as strong of an impression on me as ciceros cadence and entire physical situation
The thing that is getting to me the most about news of Carrie Fisher’s autopsy report is not the results themselves, but the way the media is handling it. Like it’s a Gotcha moment—like somehow we were tricked into thinking she was a better person than she actually was.
And that is profoundly bullshit.
Carrie was open about being an addict. Her opening line from her iconic stand up show (and book by the same name) “Wishful Drinking” was quite literally, “Hi, I’m Carrie Fisher, and I’m an alcoholic.”
She talked at length and in often brutal depth about her problems with substance abuse, her compulsive self destructive tendencies, and her dependencies to both illegal and prescription drugs. She wrote about it in her books, she talked about it on talk shows. She made an entire comedic stand up performance out of it, detailing the lengths she went to in order to try and regain some semblance of safety and normalcy in her life.
She was brutally honest that every single day was a struggle for sanity after years and years of attempting to self medicate a mental illness that for most of her life was mistaken for feckless lack of self control.
You know how they way “Religion is the opiate of the masses?” Well I took masses of opiates religiously! -Wishful Drinking
She was bright, and beautiful and bold about it. And she didn’t have to be.
Carrie Fisher didn’t have to stand there and take the shitstorm of criticism people launched at her for decades, let alone turn it into humor. She didn’t. She didn’t owe anyone outwith her immediate family an explanation for her erratic behavior over the years, nor the flack she caught for it. (Think of all the male actors in Hollywood who are in and out of rehab centers so quickly they could harness the revolving doors as a wind turbine. Then tell me the media press about her life and now her death are fair.)
But she did it anyway, because she knew it was important. And she took those bright lights of Hollywood shining down on her like a ruthless, malevolent child holding a magnifying glass under the sun—and she turned that merciless heat and pointed it at things that mattered, often at the expense of herself, opening herself up to ridicule and the severe cruelty of others who lambasted her for everything, ranging from her weight, her mental illness or her audacity to simply grow old.
Is it tragic that her addiction likely cost her her life? Yes, of course it is. Does it invalidate any of her achievements? The strength and vibrancy with which she lived her life and touched the lives of millions around her for the better?
“I call people sometimes hoping not only that they’ll verify the fact that I’m alive but that they’ll also, however indirectly, convince me that being alive is an appropriate state for me to be in. Because sometimes I don’t think it’s such a bright idea. Is it worth the trouble it takes trying to live life so that someday you get something worthwhile out of it, instead of it almost always taking worthwhile things out of you?”
-The Princess Diarist
Carrie Fisher mattered, her voice mattered. The things that she said and did, mattered. They still matter. And they are no less true and poignant in the light of these revelations.
Addiction is a disease. It’s a dysfunction of the brain’s reward system which requires constant management and care and often goes hand in hand with other mental health disorders. It is not simply a question of willpower or the perceived lack thereof. And while sobriety is to be praised and encouraged—of course it is, of course it absolutely unquestionably is—you cannot possibly know what may cause a person to slip or to feel like they can’t cope without that crutch. And shame on anyone who says it was therefore deserved.
Shame and my heartfelt wishes that you never go through the things that can lead to serious addiction. Or that you are ever abandoned, derided and regarded as less than human because of it and your death turned into a smear campaign against your memory for the sake of a sensationalist headline.
Yes. Carrie Fisher was an addict, she had drug dependency problems related to her mental health. There was a time she kept it hidden, but after she made the decision to come out about it, she stuck by that decision and became a champion, for herself and everyone like her who struggles. Because she never wanted anyone to suffer like she did in order to get help. And she did it with as much grace and humility as she could manage—and a whole lot more indignity, immodesty, crass humor and love as well. Because that’s who she was and she cared.
And that’s a hell of a lot more than can be said for those crowing over her death like it’s just deserts.
People do not exist to stand up to your demands of a perfect ideal of humanity. You do not get to place that burden on the shoulders of someone then tear them apart when they fall under that weight—famous or otherwise.
Fuck you and your whole pretense at moral piety and the horse you rode in on.
Carrie Fisher was not your unproblematic fave. She was in fact extremely problematic, and no one knew that better than she did.
“I heard someone say once that many of us only seem able to find heaven by backing away from hell. And while the place that I’ve arrived at in my life may not precisely be everyone’s idea of heaven, I could swear sometimes—if I’m quiet enough—I can hear the angels sing. Either that or I fucked up my medication again.”
1. The fact that Clint saw tangled wires and assumed Tony would know what to do
2. The fact that Tony actually came to help him
3. The fact that Clint did not take his advice anyway
4. The fake drama and how Tony looks far more anxious about this than he is about most life-threatening situations
5. This is Tony’s only appearance in the entire series, except for the next few panels where he offers to buy Clint all new stuff (which ends on a surprisingly poignant note). Like this is it. He just shows up to fix the DVR and is never seen again
one of the les mis quotes that breaks my heart the most is in enjolras’ barricade speech where he says “the nineteenth century is great, but the twentieth century will be happy”
it’s just so hopeful and naive and i think it was something victor hugo himself probably believed. That all the great dramatic events of the 19th century would be a thing of the past and that the 20th century might be a little less romantic, but there would be peace and people would be happy. But he was totally wrong and the 20th century was both world wars and france was occupied and took huge blows to it’s spirit as a nation probably more so than anything before in hugo’s time. It’s such a great line honestly, and it’s perhaps even more poignant because of it’s tragic irony from a modern perspective. Idk that part just breaks my heart to pieces every time.