🍩 reblog // I feel so guilty all the time
I feel like I am the most manipulative nagging annoying bitch in the fucking universe.
All I do is demand my boyfriend’s attention and whine when I don’t get what I want.
I’m so tired of being too much.
He insists that I’m not, that he loves me, that he doesn’t “put up” with me.
I know he loves me. But love won’t stop him from getting sick of me.
He’s borderline too so he gets it but I’m so scared that one day he’ll just be done.
I love him more than anything in the world. He says he loves me even more. But I can’t help but feel like a burden all the time.
And none of it is his fault. I grew up “under the gaslight”. My emotional needs got ignored and mocked. They still do. So I have no idea how to ask for what I want or need without feeling guilty.
I am so angry and so sad and so lonely and so tired but I can’t sleep.
If anyone read this far, you’re pretty ❤️