not the story they hold

and like i havent gotten the shit beat out of me but ive been met with homophobic slurs plenty of times. please tell me why i shouldnt be afraid of showing affection to my boyfriend when i can hear someone calling me a “dirty fucking fag” maybe 10 feet away from me. id love to hear the reasoning there.

anonymous asked:

Uh. It really rubs me the wrong way that you turned that news story into something that makes you the victim. Handicapped facilities hold people who can't walk, talk, read, hold a spoon, run a tumblr. Handicapped facilities don't hold people with "anxiety" or "emotionally sensitive" or "gender dysphoria" whatever "handicap" you claim to have. I can't see any sign that you're not able bodied. No one tried to kill you. You are not defenseless. You are not the victim.

I’m autistic. I’ve been kept in facilities just like that. I’ve been abused and assaulted by staff. 

I had my head slammed against a concrete wall by someone working at an institution which advertises how caring, compassionate, and attentive its staff are.

And double fuck you for making assumptions about what the people in those facilities can or can’t do. You’re talking about things you know absolutely nothing about, you ableist piece of toxic waste. Disabled people can’t run a tumblr? There are people on here who need 24/7 care, are bedbound, are totally nonverbal, but are still prolific bloggers. Disability—mental or physical—doesn’t equal inability to do anything at all

You’re exactly the kind of person who contributes to this violence. What happened in Japan is entirely the fault of people like you, anon.

(I encourage other disabled folks to reblog this with commentary)

I woke up missing from you again and though I can’t remember when you started to pull away from me, I also can’t remember which one of us let go first. They say you’ll know when their lips hug your name better than anyone’s arms ever have, but my thoughts have become bruises I caress to remind myself I feel.

You were my first word,
My first good morning,
My first I love you,

and though we’ve all had feelings for someone we wish we hadn’t, I still hear your voice calling to me in my dreams.
Maybe that’s how we fell apart - too many ends to tie with lips that forgot how to cradle a name. Too many leaves blown away by fingers that forgot how to heal. Eyes that hold stories better than tears. And though we wanted more than a hand to hold in the dark, thank you for being my person -

—  If only for a moment. @wordsinsteadofwings
Track 3: 잡아줘 Hold Me Tight

**The Most Beautiful Moment in Life: Young Forever (Series)**

Info/basics: This series is created based on my analysis of the lyrics in songs from the album The Most Beautiful Moment in Life: Young Forever. Each part will be a song from the album, but they are separate. Most pieces will be with different members. It’s just using the ideas of the songs to create a scenario.

Other parts here

Originally posted by yoonkooks

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Genre: Angst // some fluff

Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader

Length: 1.4k

Summary: He messed up bad and he ended up losing the most important thing to him; you. 

A/N: Track 3 is hereeeee yaaaayyy! As you probably already can tell songs will be somehow out of order and some of the songs won’t be used, but I will try my best to include in as much as I can. Hope you enjoy it! -Jacy x

Warning: Reading the lyrics on mobile will be a little weird because of the way I wrote it.


술잔을 비우니 그리움이 차는구나                   I empty my drink but it gets filled with                                                                     loneliness

Drink number one; one months since you’ve moved on.

That’s okay. He’d treat you better than he ever did. He wouldn’t make stupid mistakes or cause you heartache.

Coming outside for anything other than work was rare for Yoongi now. He’d just stay inside drowning himself in his thoughts.

But the moment he saw you, everything stopped. His breath caught in his throat and his jaw tensed. Your hands were intertwined with his as you gave him a shy smile. The smile he used to only receive.

It wasn’t a smile filled with love, but it was sure getting there. It was the same smile you gave him at the beginning of your relationship.

He turned on his heel before walking in the opposite direction. He didn’t want you to see him. He didn’t want the happy smile on your face to wash off at the sight of him because that’s all that his presence would do to you.

But you did see him.

Drink number two; two months since the last of your belongings left his apartment.

The last piece of you was gone. You came to take the last of your belongings today.

It meant you were gone. It was the last you’d step foot into this apartment. Into his life. He only watch silently as you walked into the apartment to pack the last of it.

He shut the door as he watched your figure disappear down the hallway when you turned the corner; tears prickling his eyes. Then slowly, he shut the door. He slid down the door; head buried in his hands. That’s when he let himself cry.

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anonymous asked:

so I just told my dad (he's a doctor) about you coughing up a tonsil and he said that it's impossible - I believe you though lol. would you mind telling the story again? just so that I can tell him how it all went down haha.

It is not possible. It is very possible. My tonsil got so infected, over the course of several months that it rotted and I coughed it up. The rest of the story is very long. But I mean I was holding half my tonsil in my hand so I assure you it is very possible. 

anonymous asked:

Uh. It really rubs me the wrong way that you turned that news story into something that makes you the victim. Handicapped facilities hold people who can't walk, talk, read, hold a spoon, run a tumblr. Handicapped facilities don't hold people with "anxiety" or "emotionally sensitive" or "gender dysphoria" whatever "handicap" you claim to have. I can't see any sign that you're not able bodied. No one tried to kill you. You are not defenseless. You are not the victim. Shut the fuck up.

I have EDS. i am disabled and use a cane and wheelchair. i also was in a terrible automotive accident that broke my femur pretty damn badly, as well as cut off circulation to my legs causing nerve damage. i am unable to hold many jobs that require walking because the joints in my legs are too weak to hold me from walking or standing long periods of time. i can work desk jobs though.

for mental illness i was diagnosed with schizoaffective, and PTSD from childhood physical+ emotional abuse and being abused sexually at the age for 14 by a 30 year old man. my doctor is fairly certain i have BPD, common in abuse victims as well. i was hospitalized at the age of 13 for onset of hallucinations and delusions because i refused to sleep because i was convinced aliens were going to abduct me. 

if you hear this as “tumblrina anxiety gender sensitive baby” then you’re the one who is really confused. and you should shut up

star-bbh365  asked:

1 and 22?

1. Things that inspire you.

22. Favorite story you’ve ever written?

Things that inspire me:

  • Warm laundry
  • Old people holding hands outside
  • Tree leaves

Favorite story I’ve ever written:

My favorite story is actually one I’ve never posted on here (because it was a series for another fandom I was in at the time). It was apocalyptic and really badly written, since I wasn’t much of a writer then. I wish I could show it to you, but unfortunately, I lost it all when I lost my USB. ಠ╭╮ಠ

Originally posted by universexy

vine

 I believe the message in this video is to hold tightly onto your phone or camera while filming near a blowhole on a day with high waves.

I’m not big on stories where one person saves everyone, where they all raise their eyes to one shining hero.  I like stories where they all save each other, where they hold each other in the darkness because they’re all afraid, where people take turns being strong or failing in their own ways–where people need each other and hurt each other and heal each other.  I like stories where any one person alone would have failed–but they don’t fail.  Because they’re not alone.

dracosapplepie  asked:

Hi do you know any good really looooong Drarry fics? I always seem to find a good one but its been abandoned since 2007 or something :(

Sure, sorry for the delay!

80K+ WORD COUNT

Turn (Saras_Girl)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 306,708, Summary: One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.

A Thousand Beautiful Things (Duinn Fionn)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 108,033, Summary: Draco Malfoy struggles with changed fortunes, shifted alliances, an ugly war, and an unusual spell, with the help of a concerned professor, an insightful house-elf, and an unexpected Gryffindor friend.

Bond (Anna Fugazzi)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 173,499, Summary: Yet another one of those Harry And Draco Are Forced To Be Together By Something Beyond Their Control And Then Stuff Happens Leading To Twoo Wuv stories.

Yours Is The Earth (Hold On, Hold On) (chickenlivesinpumpkin)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 127,175, Summary: When they first meet after the end of the war, Draco doesn’t want anything to do with Harry. But as time goes by, Draco’s growing love may be the only thing that can save them both, because after a serious accident in the Forbidden Forest, Draco’s personality begins to undergo subtle changes. At first, Harry credits this to a new enthusiasm for life. But as the days pass and Draco’s behavior becomes more and more mysterious, Harry begins to suspect that something bigger - and darker - is at work.

All Our Secrets Laid Bare (firethesound)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 149,500, Summary: Over the six years Draco Malfoy has been an Auror, four of his partners have turned up dead. Harry Potter is assigned as his newest partner to investigate just what is going on.

Reparations/Foundations Verse (Saras_Girl)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 364,300, Summary: Harry is about to discover that the steepest learning curve comes after Healer training, and that second chances can be found in unexpected places.Series

Any Instrument (dicta_contrion)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 131,102, Summary: Draco Malfoy wouldn’t go back to England for anything less than an exceptional case. Being asked to figure out why Harry Potter can’t control his magic might be exceptional enough to qualify.

Chaos Theory (tessacrowley)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 102,771, Summary: Chaos: when the present determines the future, but the approximate present does not approximately determine the future. One gene varies, one neuron fires, one butterfly flaps its wings, and Draco Malfoy’s life is completely different. Draco has always found a certain comfort in chaos. Perhaps he shouldn’t.

Twist Of Fate (Oakstone730)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 302,209, Summary: Draco asks Harry to help him beat the Imperius curse during 4th year. The lessons turn into more than either expected. A story of redemption and forgiveness.

How I Met Your Father (dracogotgame)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 95,500, Summary: Harry sits his kids down and tells them a story. A very long story.

Another Mask Behind You (lettered)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 116,557, Summary: Draco is a high-end prostitute who hides his identity. Harry unknowingly hires him. And then there is porn, questions about identity, domestic bliss, more porn, and truth as seen through a web of lies.

Level Two: Series One (multiple - and brilliant - authors)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 113,499, Summary: Witches and wizards are disappearing in a seemingly random fashion. Coincidence? Abductions? But no one is claiming ransom. The Aurors are not even sure the disappearances are connected, then one of the missing turns up dead. Meanwhile, Auror Harry Potter is thrown into the infamous Sirius Black Muggle murder case from 25 years ago. Given a chance to clear his godfather’s name for good, Harry is not above accepting even the help of magical specialist Draco Malfoy.Notes:

The Marriage Of True Minds (lomonaaeren)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 211,817, Summary: Lucius curses Harry and Draco to a forced marriage. But they’re not required to be with each other, only live together, so both pursue other relationships. As time passes, however, things change.

Azoth (zeitgeistic)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 88,722, Summary: Now that Harry is back at Hogwarts with Hermione for eighth year, he realises that something’s missing from his life, and it either has to do with Ron, his boggart, Snape, or Malfoy. Furthermore, what, exactly, does it mean when one’s life is defined by the desire to simultaneously impress and annoy a portrait? Harry has no idea; he’s too busy trying not to be in love with Malfoy to care.

Drop Dead Gorgeous (Maya)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 140,000, Summary: “I realise this may come as a shock
to you, but our investigations have been going on for some time, and we‟re quite sure. Yourmother Lily Evans was not, as we had all previously believed, of pure Muggle stock. One of her ancestors was a Veela.”

Starts With A Spin (Maxine)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 119,852, Summary: It started with the spin of a bottle, and now Harry and Draco have gotten themselves so far into their own game there’s almost no way out again. Except to keep playing.

All Life Is Yours To Miss (Saras_Girl)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 114,741, Summary: Professor Malfoy’s world is contained, controlled, and as solitary as he can make it, but when an act of petty revenge goes horribly awry, he and his trusty six-legged friend are thrown into Hogwarts life at the deep end and must learn to live, love and let go.

The Printed Press (Soupy_George)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 119,705, Summary: Draco Malfoy was still slightly amazed that he was standing on the doorstep of Number Twelve Grimmauld Place. He never would have thought that Harry Potter’s very public and very … sweary, emotional explosion would have led to him offering Draco, of all people, a job.

Veela-Struck (lomonaaeren)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 160,319, Summary: Veela don’t have destined mates, and thank Merlin for that. Draco wants to date Harry Potter because Harry is one of the few people in the wizarding world who treats him decently. But when Harry refuses, with his refusal focused on Draco’s creature blood, Draco sets out on a different journey than he ever expected.

Kiss Me (Under The Light Of A Thousand Stars (Iwao, Sophie_French)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 114,744, Summary: Harry rescues Draco Malfoy from Azkaban, where he has been imprisoned for three years after the war. Draco is not as Harry remembers, as Azkaban leaves its mark on even the strongest of wizards. With no memory of who he was or how he came to be in Harry’s care, Draco needs Harry’s help if he is to have any hope of making a full recovery. But Harry has his own demons to fight and together with saving Draco, Harry must also discover a way to find himself.

Eclipse (Majin)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 309,149, Summary: Draco swore revenge on Harry for Lucius’s imprisonment, and for once, he keeps his promise. The old rivalry turns deadly when Draco abducts Harry for Voldemort. But when Draco’s world turns upside down, the fight to save himself and Harry begins.

The Veela Enigma (jennavere)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 187,794, Summary: What if some of Draco’s ancestors, pretending to be purebloods, concealed the truth about their veela heritage? You’d end up with one very confused Draco Malfoy, who’s fallen head over heels in love with Harry Potter and has no idea why.

A Private Reason For This (femmequixotic)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 92,189, Summary: When the wife of a star politician in the Scottish Ministry turns up dead just outside Hogsmeade, Draco Malfoy and his murder investigation team are called in from the Edinburgh Auror force to find her killer. What DCI Malfoy doesn’t expect, however, is to have an ex from two decades past end up in his murder room, endangering not only his case, but also his heart.

Malfoy Flavor (Vorabiza)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 200,550, Summary: Harry’s ready to banish the Golden Boy image and take charge of his life. Unfortunately, or fortunately, for him there are still more surprises in store for him.

The Silent World Within You (femmequixotic, noeon)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 95,189, Summary: Harry only wanted Malfoy for one night, one birthday. It wasn’t meant to be anything more.

Silververse (fearlessdiva)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 121,748, Summary: A love story concerning possessed furniture, black silk pyjamas, courtroom drama, premonitions of doom, assassination attempts, Death Eater yoga, absinthe, bare feet and a sensible werewolf. Beware: coarse language, brief drug use, some sexual content, and consideration of issues of sexual consent.

Helix (Saras_Girl)

Rating: NC-17, WC: 92,870, Summary: Seven months after the end of the war, Harry is feeling lost. Fortunately, he is about to be offered an unexpected and sparkling chance to find himself again.

There’s A Pure-Blood Custom For That (lomonaaeren)

Rating: PG-13, WC: 105,549, Summary: The day that Harry stops Draco Malfoy and his son from being bothered in the middle of Diagon Alley starts a strange series of interactions between him and Malfoy. Who knew there was a pure-blood custom for every situation?

chrisevansleftboob  asked:

Talk to me about an AU where someone wakes up an alternate universe and everyone's personalities are opposite!! :D (Also sorry to hear about stupid things happening in your life and hoping things will get better REALLY SOON!)

Thanks :) I’m hoping for news next week, but I’m not holding my breath.

Okay so true story, I read this and then pictured personalities switching rather than being opposite. 

So picture if Bitty woke up one day to everyone switching with the last person they spoke to:

- Ransom and Holster have switched, but literally nobody notices. 

- Dex is super chill. Nursey is exhausted by everyone’s antics.

- Lardo is suddenly really loud and starts walking around the Haus in her underwear. (She skyped Shitty before bed)

- Chowder starts making really terrible dad jokes and low-key flirting with Bitty, and Bits remembers (to his horror) that Chowder poked his head in to say goodnight while he had been finishing his skype with Jack, and they were the last ones to actually exchange words.

- Meanwhile in Providence: Jack shows up to practice wearing a Sharks jersey.

During the “Lavender Scare” of the 1950s, thousands of federal employees lost their jobs because of their sexuality. 

This week we’re sharing stories of ‪#‎LGBTQ‬ history in our holdings. On Saturday, join us online for our second National Conversation, held in Chicago, on #LGBTQ human and civil rights: http://bit.ly/1UB5sCs 

This wave of repression was also bound up with anti-Communism and fueled by the power of congressional investigation.

On December 15, 1950, the Hoey committee released this report, concluding that homosexuals were “unsuitable for employment in the Federal Government” and constituted “security risks in positions of public trust.” (Records of the U.S. Senate, RG 46)

You can read more about the “Lavender Scare” in our latest online issue of Prologue magazine: http://bit.ly/29gmnPo

Jason holding Lian and Roy wanting his daughter back lol. This art I drew is related to this story : Jason and Roy teamed up with Zatanna to fight her enemy Allura… After a big fight, Roy with the help of Zatanna managed to shoot Allura with a magical arrow on her shoulder, which caused her to lose her powers. However, she managed to put a small curse on Roy, making him look scary to anyone he loves… After two weeks, Zatanna managed to find a cure for him. At the time, Jason was the one taking care of Lian. She loved her uncle Jay so much, she didn’t even want to leave his side… For the next few days, Jason stayed at Roy’s house, he was often putting Lian to sleep and always holding her, which drove Roy mad sometimes….

The story is from my friend @jasontodd1fan :)

anonymous asked:

jfc, I've finally reached the point where I'm looking forward to no Castle-related news coming out. What was NF supposed to say? Where did he go wrong? Is he supposed to have a canned answer on hand for a favourite scene? Throw in a "S9 would have sucked!" at every opportunity? Name each and every cast member when acknowledging them in a three-minute video? Either he hated everything to do with Castle, or he wanted to hold onto it at the expense of the story, y'all can't have it both ways.

It just comes down to one basic point: there are people in this fandom who are gonna hate Nathan no matter what he says. If he had immediately had something in mind for a favorite scene/memory, people would complain because it didn’t mesh with what they thought it should be. If he had taken the time to name every single member of the cast, someone would complain because he wasn’t sincere enough. If he had said that he wasn’t sure that season nine would have been a good idea, that same group would accuse him of being a liar and just trying to get on the fans good side. 

And you know what? Screw em. If all you can do with your life is sit around and drum up ways to hate a guy for living his life and wanting to keep his job, you have a problem. I doubt that Nathan Fillion has done anything to personally hurt any of them, and it’s hilarious to me that people who claim to love Castle as a television show as much as they do can’t realize in the constant haterade that they put out there that, if not for Nathan, there would be no show. You don’t have to like it, and you don’t have to like him, but I think you do have to respect that this guy wanted to sign up to become Richard Castle and, for eight years, he led the charge in making the show what it is and, one way or another, keeping it on the air. 

You wanna know why he talks about Firefly and has very specific go to memories of the show? There are 13 episodes and a two hour movie. That’s about a year of his life, and a very limited pool of talking points. I’ve watched a pretty significant number of his panels over the years, and indeed he’s talked about the same dozen or so memories over and over. I can’t think of a time when people have asked him about Castle where he’s given the same answer twice. But, you know, he’s got eight years worth of stuff to draw from and, like it or not, the show’s structure is very basic: there is a murder, there is a b-plot, they solve the murder by the end of an episode. Lather, rinse, repeat. 

People want him to snap his fingers and be able to tell you exactly what he loved about this particular episode, or that particular episode and that’s some bullshit. These actors haven’t watched these episode over and over and over like we have; they’ve seen them once, if at all. They don’t have time or the inclination to dwell on their work, usually because they’re already onto the next script and the next episode and there just isn’t enough room in a brain to keep track of eight years of work. 

People like to claim that means he doesn’t care, which is also some bullshit. You know what Nathan Fillion cares about? The people on the set with him. For every story he tells, it comes with some behind the scenes anecdote. He remembers interactions with people more than he remembers what line he has to recite that day, and what that particular storyline was in that one episode in season three. And you know what? Good for him. It means that he doesn’t dwell on his work, that he puts more stock in interacting with the people that he saw for sixty hours a week for nine months a year, eight years in a row. Remembering the time he walked onto the loft set and saw a crew member playing a piano concerto when he thought no one was around is far more important and far more meaningful than being able to tell you what line he said in the opening scene of the season five premiere or what the most significant moment was for him between Castle and Beckett. 

You know who else might have trouble coming up with a favorite memory from the set? The fandom saint, Stana Katic. Eight years and 171 episodes (we aren’t counting XX and Cool Boys since she wasn’t onscreen) is a lot of material, and indeed I can remember back when she did interviews that if someone asked her a favorite memory she gave rather generic answers, but no one raked her over the coals for those. Instead it was fangirl feels and flailing about how much she understands the character and appreciates the storyline and the fans, etc, etc, etc. Likewise, Seamus Dever and Jon Huertas have been very honest in interviews that they have trouble recalling specific storylines or scenes, and usually if they talk about something, it’s because they remember something that happened between scenes or that messed up a take and they had to start over. 

But here’s the other thing, the show is over. I have no idea what people think they’re going to accomplish with continuing to yammer on about making Nathan the bad guy. Hate him or not, he’s gonna work again in the industry and there’s absolutely nothing that a fan is gonna say or do to change that so I legitimately don’t understand the point of it all, nor do I understand attacking people who don’t necessarily have a problem with him. It’s not going to change anything, and really it only serves to give the fans who follow and adore Stana a bad reputation, which is unfortunate because not all of them are crazy and take every opportunity to hate on Nathan. 

Plus, another important point, is that you really can like the both of them at the same time. Contrary to the belief of others, you can be fans of them both. I’m not really sure when it became a thing in this fandom that you had to choose one or the other, but that’s complete nonsense and, honestly, it says far more about the fan that it ever could about the actor.