not that she already didnt have it :3

ONE MORE CHANCE

(requested by anon)

Kai Parker x Reader
word count : 4 998
summary : Reader has feelings for Kai and tells him but he rejects her which leads her to become a vampire and turn off her humanity just as Kai comes back a new person after the merge.
* gif by shelleyhenign

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“You don’t get it , do you?” said Kai with a little hint of amusement in his voice.”I dont feel emotions , I don’t care or feel anything. Emotions are nothing but a distraction plus I don’t even like you and even if those things werent true - you and me still would never happen. You are just not good enough for me. Why would I chose a human ?”

Kai’s words kept echoing in her mind. Having the person you have feelings for turn you down was not something unheard in human history , but doing it the way Kai had done it – her feelings had gotten hurt so badly she wanted it all gone. All the love she felt for him , all the pain - absolutely everything. Her friends didnt know about her feelings for Kai or about what had happened and Y/N didnt plan on letting them know either meaning compelling it away wasn’t an option. So that left her with option number 3 because clearly moving on wasnt going so well either. Becoming a vampire hadn’t been on her bucket list , but it was her only option and she could already hear the lectures from Elena and Caroline. They’d say how lucky she is to be still a human and be able to have a future , kids and a family. But those things just didnt matter to her if she couldnt have them with the person she loved. Kai wasn’t going to change - he will always be the same , so there was no point in waiting for the impossible either. He will always say whatever pops into his head , not caring what his words or actions do to the people around him simply because he had no emotions. Why should she remain a human ?


It had been a few days since Christmas and the siphoner had been safely tucked in into Alaric’s apartment on Whitmore campus until Jo was ready to do the merge. All her friends were taking shifts guarding him just in case and that day it was her turn. Y/N sat on the couch , glancing at him every few minutes refusing to go anywhere near him. There was a part of her that was 100% sure she’d pull out that tube from his arm and let him go. What she felt for him was so strong that even after he hurt her , she’d still free him and cross her friends. What the hell was wrong with her ?!
   "Hey Y/N. How is our comatose patient?” asked Damon handing her a cup with coffee. “He hasn’t caused any trouble , has he ?”
   "Comatose and no.” she said blankly, taking a sip from her coffee. What kind of a trouble can he cause if he is being unconscious ?
   "Whats wrong ?”
   "Nothing. What makes you think something is wrong ?” she wondered , trying to sound as normal as possible. Damon knew her too well not to pick up on her tells not to mention the way he was studying her face made her feel a little nervous.
   "Because I know you and short answers are not what you do.” said her best friend , lightly rubbing her shoulders. “Usually you dont shut up. Sometimes you are even more annoying than him.”
Y/N sighed. “I was just thinking how all my friends are supernaturals and wont age while I will turn into a wrinkled sag in a few short years. Its depressing. And of course there is that time at the corn maze when my human friends were all dying and I couldn’t do anything to help.”
   "You know if you want me to , I’ll turn you. Even though after that Elena and Caroline will bite my head off.“ said Damon sitting on the couch next to her.
Y/N started laughing. “They would wouldn’t they?”
   "Yeah. Look Y/N ,  there was a reason we tried to find the cure for Elena.“ he said calmly. “Being a vampire is not all that is cracked out to be and if you make that choice there is no going back.”
   "I’ve already made the choice Damon. I want this.“ she said serious. “You , Stefan , Elena , Caroline — you guys are not just my friends , you are my family. I love you all more than I can put into words and I cant imagine ever being without any of you. I want us to be together forever.”
Damon tucked up his sleeve and bit his wrist. “Well , if you are absolutely sure.”
   "I am.“ she replied taking his wrist , feeling his blood trickle down her throat for a few moments until she let go. He wiped away some of it from her chin with his thumb , still having doubts about what he had to do next. Y/N was his best friend , one of the few who can put up with him and were always willing to defend him even when he makes huge mistakes. What if turning her into one of them was one of those ?
   "Promise me , you will explain to Elena thats what you wanted and I didn’t push you into anything?”
   "You got it.“ she smiled. “Um … could you do it painlessly ?”
   "Of course , but I have to ask again - are you sure , really really sure ?“
Y/N nodded and a few seconds later Damon broke her neck , letting her lay down on the couch. He went to the kitchen to get a blood bag from the fridge to be ready for her when she wakes up , but somehow he couldn’t shake the feeling something was wrong and she hadn’t been completely honest about her reasons. When he came back Tyler was in the room , pulling out the tube with the sedative from Kai’s arm. Not too long after , Tyler was the one laying on the ground unsconcious and the young siphoner regained consciousness. On their way out of the house he stopped pointing at Y/N and glancing at the blood bag on the coffee table.
   "What is she doing here ?” he asked curious. “Is she sleeping ? Awwh look how cute she is now that she is not talking. I might even like her now.”
Kai took a step towards her but Damon pulled him away before the siphoner had figured out Y/N wasn’t breathing and had put two and two together.
   "Y/N? She was keeping an eye on you and you bored her to death.“ said Damon dragging Kai out the door. “Come on creeper. You want to do the merge , you have a deal to uphold."Not too long after that Y/N woke up , finding a blood bag on the coffee table waiting for her. The girl grabbed it without hesitation and completed the transition noticing Kai wasn’t where he was supposed to be and that this wasn’t the only thing that was off in that moment.
    "Tyler?” she said getting up and running towards him, checking for pulse. “Oh my God wh-what happened ?!”
Her eyes followed the tube in his neck and she pulled it out sitting on the ground next to her lifelong friend. What had happened after Damon had snapped her neck ? Damon. Y/N’s eyes widened and she reached for her phone in her pocket dialling her friend when Tyler groaned and started to wake up.
    “Hey , are you okay ? What happened ?”
    “I’m going to kill him.”
    “Him ? Who ? Kai ?”
    “No. Damon.”
Y/N looked at him with confusion in her eyes. “Damon ? Wha-”
    “I have to go. I’m sorry Y/N , thank you for pulling that tube out but I have to go now or Liv –”
    “Y-yeah of course.”
Y/N sat on the floor running her fingers through her hair , watching Tyler run out of the apartment when her phone buzzed - DAMON.
    “What the hell did you do ?” she said answering the phone.
    “Saved Liz’s life.” he said as if it was obvious. “I take it you completed the transition?”
    “Yes ? Why ?” she wondered.
    “Because we have a psychotic siphoner out on the loose. Kai gave me the slip.” he sighed. “Come over at the hospital. I’ll explain everything.”

THE NEXT DAY

After the merge with Luke , Kai had found himself in a situation he had never thought he’d be in. During the merge with his brother he had absorbed not only his ability to do magic but quite a few other things including his empathy. He had spent the entire night after the merge trying to figure out how to process all the emotional pain he felt. Every bad thing he had ever done came back into his mind and her regretted , if not all , at least most of them. Kai had no idea what was happening to him or why there was water pooling in his eyes while he kept writing it all down , including a letter to his twin Jo because for some reason he couldn’t find her. Afterwards he went to Damon to ask for help to deliver the letter to his sister.
Kai talked for a while with Damon and Elena and then someone else he had been wanting to see showed up , as if he had wished for it to happen - Y/N , the only person who had shown him some kindness among the Mystic Falls gang. About a week ago she had told him she has feelings for him and he had said some really hurtful things to her and he wanted to make it right.
Y/N stopped right at the door when she saw he was there. Kai couldn’t help but smile a little seeing her there though there was something different about her and he couldn’t understand what it was. Her hair had a blue strand mixed with her curls and her outfit nearly knocked him over. Last time they had met Y/N had looked hot , now she looked beyond hot wearing a slightly baggy ripped jeans with sneakers and a plain top.
   "Oh hey Y/N. I’m so glad you are here.“ he said getting up from the table. "I wanted to talk to you.”
   "Yeah. No , sorry. I have exams to study for.“ she said with a blank expression. "Can I go grab some of — you know ? Downstairs ?”
   "Why ? Did you get tired of – ?“
   "Y/N, please , I have to tell you something. I am s-” he blinked and she was gone. Kai turned around towards Damon and Elena with a look of confusion on his eyes. “Where did she go ? What – What did you do to her ?”
   "Haven’t done a thing. Y/N just doesn’t like you. None of us do. Haven’t you taken the hint already?“ said Damon.
No. That wasn’t it. Y/N might not have told her friends about the feelings she has for him , but Kai knew this girl couldn’t hate him. It just wasn’t who she was - he had gotten a good sense of her. Y/N was too good for her own good , too kind and too forgiving. Something was wrong.
   "The blood bag. You turned her.” thought Kai out loud. Why did he feel like his entire world has crashed and burned right this moment? “Why would you do that to her ? Was she hurt or something ?”
    “Because she asked me to.” said Damon. “Though that backfired. I should’ve seen it coming -”
    “Backfired ? What do you mean by that ?” interrupted Kai. “Damon. Tell me now or I am not going to help you.”
Damon took a sip from his bourbon. “Y/N turned off her humanity and turned into one of the biggest problems I’ve ever had.” said the vampire. “One thing I can’t figure out is why she’d do this right after she turned.”
Kai gulped. He knew exactly why - because of him. Another rush of guilt pulled him under at the realisation. There had to be a way for him to fix this and he was going to fix it , no questions about it , but first —
    “Where is the Ascendant ?”

A FEW DAYS LATER


Y/N was at the rave at Whitmore, having fun with Caroline who had just turned off her humanity too because of her mother’s death. Both of them had fun dancing and feeding , though Caroline had invoked a rule - no victims so they don’t attract attention. Y/N didn’t care much about that , or about anything really. Only thing she seemed to care about blood.
    “That guy keeps checking you out.” said Caroline pointing at one of the guys , not too far away from them. “He hadn’t taken his eyes off you the entire night.”
    “Maybe he is looking at you.”
    “No , no. It’s definitely you.”
    “Well then , I better go meet him.”
Y/N turned towards her friend with a smile and purple / black veins flashing under her eyes. Slowly she made her way through the crowd until she got to the guy. Her hands automatically hooked around his neck and they started dancing to the beat , almost in perfect sync and then out of the blue he kissed her. It felt weird not feeling a thing while making out with a hot guy like him, well almost nothing until Y/N’s vampirism kicked in feeling his blood pulsating in his veins.
    “You are not going to make a sound.” she compelled him , sinking her fangs into his neck the next moment. Not too long it felt as if every blood vessel in her head was exploding and she backed away from the guy , having her neck snapped a split second later.A couple of days later  Kai convinced Damon to bring him over to Bonnie who had found her way out of the Prison World , so he can apologise to her and after that hadn’t gone well he had started losing hope anyone would ever forgive him for anything. Right before the vampire had pulled him away , Kai had spotted Y/N in the crowd , ditching Damon straight away to get to her. Y/N had looked hot before but now wearing those black boots and those tight black skinny jeans with a white top with a skull like print on it , she looked even hotter. Quite literally taking his breath away the way she jumped up to the beat with a blue strand in her hair dancing around her shoulders. Last thing he wanted to do was cause her anymore pain but he had no other option if he wanted to grab her and find a way to turn her humanity back on — and maybe find a way to reverse her vampirism turning her back into a human.
After her body started to drop , he caught her and carried her to his car and then to his apartment , putting a boundary spell around it before cloaking himself and sneaking into Alaric’s apartment to ‘borrow’ some of his vervain supply.

A few hours later Y/N woke up tied to a chair with vervain ropes. Her surroundings were unfamiliar but she got an idea where she was when a familiar face popped right in front of her. Of course. Who else would be stupid enough to get the drop on her ? Under other circumstances she probably would’ve rejoiced to have Kai standing barely a metre away from her but not in this moment. There wasn’t a trace of emotion left in her.
  “What the - ” she wondered , struggling to get herself free, groaning in pain more and more each time as the vervain stung on her skin.
   "Hi.“ grinned Kai. "If you keep struggling , you will only get yourself hurt , Y/N. I just want us to talk , that’s all and then I will let you go.”
   "Charming. Do you always tie up the girls you want to talk to ? Or do you do that just to the ones you know can’t stand you?“
  "I tried talking to you the other day , remember? You ran off before I had said a word to you.” he said blankly. “So , you are a vampire now. Why would you do that to yourself?”
   "I had my reasons which do not concern you.“ she replied continuing to struggle against the vervain ropes.  Y/N had been a vampire for a few days but already hated vervain more than she thought possible. Kai had tied her ankles to the legs of the chair too making sure she couldn’t move even if she wanted to.
   "Did you do it because of what I said ?” he asked.
   "So full of yourself.“ she said a little amused. "Not everything happens because of you Parker. Why don’t you let me go and we can maybe go grab a bite somewhere ?”
   "Not letting you go until you turn that switch back on.“
   "Funny. Why have you taken that upon yourself ? Did Damon roped you into saving his best friend from ‘the biggest mistake she had ever done’ ?” she asked blankly. Seeing Kai like that was different - maybe because she was different or maybe because he had merged and according to the billion messages Damon had left her - he had feelings now. His eyes were filled with worry , sadness and regret. He looked almost broken.
   "I care about you thats why.“
   "You care about me ? Do you even hear yourself ?!” she said incredulous. “I dont feel emotions , I don’t care or feel anything. Your words , not mine.”
Kai got up from his chair , going to pour himself some coffee and Y/N used his distraction to pull on the ropes again with all her strength ignoring the pain from the vervain. A few seconds later she was free and quickly she ran towards the door , opening it and bouncing right off it the next moment.
   "What the hell?!“ she wondered , her hands hitting the invisible barrier over and over , pointlessly trying to get through it. Y/N sighed and turned towards him. Kai was  grinning at her while taking a sip from his coffee as if he hadn’t done a thing. A boundary spell. Should’ve known. she thought to herself.
   "You are not going anywhere sweetheart. Not until we talk and you turn that humanity switch back on.”
   "I’d rather kill you than talk to you or see you or be in the same room as you.“ she said through gritted teeth , whooshing herself towards him until their bodies were barely an inch from each other. "Let me leave now , or I you die.”
   "You won’t kill me.“ he said calmly.
   "Owhh ? Are you counting on my feelings for you to kick in at some point? Because they won’t. They no longer exist and as far as I am concerned neither do you.” she said with a mocking look on her face , seconds before purple black veins flashed under her eyes and her teeth sank into his neck.
Kai dropped his coffee on the ground , trying to push her off. Truth to be told he had been expecting that maybe seeing him would get her to flip the switch back on. He had heard multiple times that love is the strongest force there is and blah blah even though he didn’t understand any of it and he hadn’t expected her to actually try and kill him.
   "Motus.“ he muttered , sending her flying off him almost hitting the wall at the other end of the room. "Dang Y/N , maybe Damon was right. I didn’t want to believe him at first but you have lost everything that made you who you are by flipping that stupid humanity switch. You are not this person.”
Y/N wiped his blood of her chin and launched at him again , dropping on the ground with a spectacular witchy headache a split second later. Now she knew why Damon was always in a horrid vengeance mood after those. It felt as if every blood vessel in her head popped all over , healed and popped all over again.
  “I am going to kill you.” she said through gritted teeth.
  “No. You won’t.” he said calmly , taking a step towards her. “I am going to get you to flip that switch back on and then I will find a way to reverse what Damon did to you.”
  “Don’t — waste your t-time.” she struggled to speak. “I don’t n-need fixing.”
Y/N kept struggling to get to him and somehow break his concentration but he wouldn’t stop. He placed his hand on his wound healing it with magic wondering who was this person in front of him ? Surely he hadn’t been the nicest person ever , specially to her but — Kai couldn’t stand seeing her like this , though he had to admit her being a vampire how made her even hotter in his eyes than before. He closed his eyes hearing her scream and groan in pain rolling on the ground for a few moments before he stopped the spell and he knelt down next to her , brushing his fingers against her cheek.  
   "You are not this person Y/N. “ said Kai taking a step towards her. "You are kind , caring - ”
   "Was.“
   "You still are.”
   "No.“
   "Please Y/N. I am really sorry about what I said and did that day.” he said gazing into her eyes. They were so cold and empty it broke him in half. “I didn’t see it back then but now I do and I know it is my fault you did this. I was a idiot , the biggest one rejecting you.”
   "Finally. One thing we can agree on.“ she said sitting up and starring at him blankly. There was no way he’d actually think any of this and even if he was , that wont make her flip it back on. Wont change what he made her do or erase all the pain he caused. Y/N leaned in towards him , brushing her palm against his cheek giving him a small smile. For a moment he smiled too , thinking probably somehow he had broken through the tough exterior or at least had made a crack.
   "You are pathetic.” she pit. “I am bored. Do you hate a deck of cards somewhere?”
   "Fine then. We do it the hard way.“ he said getting up, breaking her leg in the next moment. "You are going to turn it on now or I will keep breaking and breaking cuz – sweetheart , we both know I am the actual monster here.”
Y/N screamed in pain rolling on the ground but before she had had time to heal Kai flicked his wrist and her leg broke on another spot and another. Something in her mind started pushing its way through hearing his words. A flicker of  emotion , but she shoved it back where it came from before it had crawled its way out of the black door in her mind.
  “Turn it on.”
  “NO.”
Kai flicked his wrist again breaking her other leg and her arm. He couldn’t stand what he was doing to her. Every flick of his wrist only added more to the guilt he already felt. What was he even doing ? After all of this there was no way she’d forgive him , ever.
  “Keep breaking Parker.” she started laughing. “It will be even more satisfying when I get to rip your head off after that.”
  “You are the best thing that has come into my life and I was so blind not seeing it back then.  I can’t live with the guilt of everything I did to you.”  his voice breaking. “I didn’t even know guilt can drown you without actually drowning you. It keeps me up at night -”
Y/N wasn’t listening. Instead she was running scenarios in her head on how she’d get her revenge after that , not caring that would mean Liv’s death or Jo’s death. Not giving a damn about how Alaric would react to losing his future wife and his unborn twinsies. Not caring what Tyler would do to her if his girl dies. Kai knelt down on the ground next to her , studying her face. His eyes were so different in that moment - filled with tears, pain and regret.
  “Kill me.” he dared her, stopping the spell. “Come on. Kill me.”
Y/N caught her breath laying on the ground. “You are bluffing.”
  “Rip my heart out.” he dared her again getting on top of her , placing her hand on his chest. “Put me out of my misery because I can’t live another second with the guilt about everything that I’ve done to you. Or to Jo or Liv. Or even Bonnie.”
Kai’s heart was racing so fast it felt as if it was trying to leap out of his chest and then a tear rolled down his cheek which he completely ignored. Their eyes were locked on each other and none of them was willing to look away from the other.
  “No.” she shook her head, pulling her hand away from his chest. “No , you deserve to live with it eating you away for the rest of your pat-”
Kai didn’t let her finish. There was one thing left for him to try , hoping that maybe it would get her to turn her humanity back on. He pinned her hands on either side of her head and his lips crashed against hers , hungry and demanding , pulling the air out of her lungs. At first she struggled trying to push him off her which only made him kiss her harder until she stopped struggling and returned the kiss. His grip on her hands loosened and she tangled her fingers in his hair , both of them moaning into the kiss until Kai pulled away , resting his forehead on hers.
  “I should’ve started with that.” he said out of breath , gazing into her eyes. “Please tell me it worked.”
His heart was racing faster than ever , still feeling her lips on his. Y/N just stared at him and a few tears rolled down her temples. “Get off me. Now.”
Kai’s face darkened but he did as she asked , rolling onto the ground next to her. He had hoped this would flip the switch , he hoped it had flipped it back considering how she had kissed him back. How it was possible that it hadn’t worked ?!
  “What did I do?” she muttered , covering her face with her hands. “Oh my God what did I do?”
  “Y/N?” he turned towards her. “What are you talking about ? Hey , talk to me.”
Y/N shook her head refusing to say a word and then it hit him - her switch had flipped back on and every emotion had came rushing into her mind. Kai removed her hands from her face , pulling her into his embrace. He knew exactly how she felt in that moment because he had experienced the same thing a few days ago.
  “I’m sorry. I am so sorry Y/N. It’s all my fault. I was an idiot , I am an idiot who hurt you so many times and led  you to do that to yourself , but I am going to fix it. I promise. I will find a way to fix everything.” said Kai , kissing her forehead. “I am so sorry and I know I don’t deserve  your forgiveness but I need you to give me one more chance to make things right.”
Y/N’s mind was racing like crazy - what was she thinking becoming a vampire. Turning off her humanity and shutting out everything that made her who she was ?! All those people she hurt , the ones who got killed because she couldn’t handle rejection. Tears were streaming down her face so fast it was pointless to try and stop them.
    “I know you hate me and you have every right to… I will spend every day until the rest of my life trying to make up for everything.”
Kai waited for her to say something , to stop crying  holding her tightly towards him. Slowly rocking back and forth trying to calm her down.
  “I bit you. Oh my God , I bit you..” her hands covered her face. “All the things I said. Everything I did.”
  “It’s okay. It wasn’t you , I know it wasn’t”
  “I am so sorry.” she cried turning towards him. Kai was crying too.
  “Does that mean you w-will you give me one more chance? I promise I will find out a way to make you a human again and  — maybe we can have a future – together. ” he wondered , wiping away a few tears from her cheeks.
   "Y-you want me to be a human ?” she said through tears. “But you said -”
   "I was so blind and ignorant , not realising what I had until I lost it. Please Y/N , give me one more chance. Just one.“ he pleaded.
Y/N smiled at him. "One more chance. D-don’t screw it up Malachai.”
Kai grinned at her , usually he’d have other reaction to people calling him by his full name but not with her. He loved the way it had rolled off her tongue , like its the most special thing in the world to her.
   "Wouldn’t dream of it.“ replied Kai , kissing her again.




MASTERLIST - SMUT
MASTERLIST - FLUFF
Mondays Are Really The Worst ...

Soooo I work at a popular grocery store. Fantastic. Well, as you may know, customers can be fucking entitled and annoying as hell. Sunday is the busiest and when monday comes along, the customers get pissed because the store’s not empy. This old lady insisted that a certain foundation was buy 1 get 2 free. I went to price check and the product below had the deal, not her product. When I deeply apologized to her, she turned into the goddamn hulk.
“IT’S NOT 3 FOR 1. REALLLYY? IM NOT BUYING ANYTHING FROM YOUR SHITTY STORE, THEN.”
Pushed her full cart with all the groceries already bagged, and stormed out. What a bitch! I feel bad for my coworker who had to unbag and put all her shit away but jesus, she didnt have to throw such a tantrum. We had a lot of entitled people there today but she won.

Sped through S1E20 and I shall all remind you:

1. Caitlin basically came up with the goggles idea

2. Caitlin reassuring Cisco after he woke up from his dream, in which he gets killed by Thawne; meanwhile Barry: “My mother….” (like, I reckon, but seriously)

3. During the whole set up to get Thawne to confess,when he manages to pass Cisco’s barrier and is about to murder him, Caitlin goes aaaaaall the way from the cortex to the room downstairs, as if Barry the speedster and Joe the cop weren’t already there (like, she’d have never gotten there in time if this was a real stakes show, but she still did the effort) - Meanwhile Barry: “hE DIDnT conFESS”; Meanwhile Caitlin, after a race from the cortex, in heels: “Cisco, are you ok?”

anonymous asked:

the lovely feathertail if you haven't already been asked her :)

  • sexual orientation headcanon: lesbian
  • gender headcanon: trans girl
  • mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon: autism, bpd, avpd
  • 3 random headcanons: she rly fuckin loves water and flowers 2 the point where she just soaks herself in streams in starclan, she looks so much like silverstream that crookedstar cant tell them apart sometimes, she didnt have a crush on crowpaw ever

anonymous asked:

for the ask meme: wendy!

sexual orientation: for a while she was questioning but is pretty confident in labeling herself a lesbian now

gender hc: VERY TRANS. thankfully her voice is naturally high pitched, but she hasnt been able to go on hormones, leading to things like how self conscious she is about her chest.

neurodivergent hc: most likely generalized anxiety disorder & social anxiety, but over the arcs has learned good coping techniques and is overcoming her anxieties slowly. also as already mentioned, a lot of dysphoria

3 random hcs:

  • she gets hiccups practically daily sense she has to eat air for her magic. she also can make really loud burps because of it that rival natsus
  • re: face situation, she had made her hair longer once more bc after years of dysphoria she didnt feel comfortable with herself having short hair.
  • over time practically became gajeels little sister. sometimes she convinces him to let her ride on his shoulders

donesses  asked:

How was your day?

ah Jes today generally been great i worked with my coworker with the same name as mine and we are really going along well we blast each other, fight in joke s and stuff its funny, but then arounf 3: 40 pm (so 2 hrs bc my shift end) we got the shittiest customer she was already loud and bossy when she got in the store, me and Audrey were talking shit and having fun then she came like a truck and asked to be served (we didnt see her coming in)

so i go first even if its not my department she was asking for but my friend steps in bc i didnt know how to write the crap she was asking (it was a cd or some shit i never heard of) so i go to do my own business in my own department that is the library but the customer was following me without me knowing and was like “OK WTF are you actually gonna serve me” and i was like” well my coworker was looking for your stuff??” and she was loud she said “And when did you tell me that ???!! on what planet are you living (she repeated that like 10 times as i was walking towards my coworker not far away telling the customer i thought she had figured it out she was the one using the computer to find her product and she was so loud man). my coworker took care of the rest with her and i went my iown way all shocked tbh i had done nothing wrong really. so apparently she told my coworker that she wasnt done her job well and was stupid bc she told her the thing she was looking for was out of fuycking stock??? my coworker cared 0 fucks.

eventually she went to our coworker at the cash and wanted to complaint lol but Gab was like “i have no obligation to give you any name not even mine” and the customer got angrier and asked for the manager (we were in the backstore and foreseeing that coming tbh) manager just tole her she could fill a complaint online and did not mention any name. i was stressed to tears bc of that same as my cashier coworker but we then mocked her more than anythign so it was fine i guess


omfg sorry for the long ass answer usually nothing happens lol

im watching some show on food network i think its food network star or something

but like. theres teams of 3 and theyre trying to give demonstrations to families and this annoying-ass sous chef on one team was like “when its a team thing, you have to make yourself the star and stand out its about yourself not the team” and when one of his team members was doing her part he kept talking over her and reaching in front of her and cut her off so she didnt even finish her part of the presentation

i hate this douchebag so much already shut up its a team thing stopbeing such a self centered prick oh my god,

anonymous asked:

OMG first of all u dont know how happy i was to find your blog!!! (i absolutely LOVE V) Can u do a hc on how V would treat MC when she has her period (with terrible cramps and aches)? Hope u have a happy 2017!

I AM SO HAPPY THAT PEOPLE WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT V! I LOVE V AS WELL and i wish you a happy 2017 :3 my requests are closed and its 5 am but fuck it i love V

  • V always wakes up before MC but its already noon and MC hasnt gotten out of bed yet so he starts to worry
  • he even made breakfast but had to put away some for MC since she didnt wake up and join him
  • he doesnt want to wake her up but needs to make sure she’s feeling alright
  • V comes into the bedroom and leans down by MC’s side of the bed, whispering to her
  • “sweetheart? are you feeling okay?”
  • without opening her eyes she rolls over and groans
  • “cramps…”
  • he knows exactly what to do!
  • V grabs MC’s heating pad from the closet then plugs it in by the bad and sets in on the ground
  • he goes into the kitchen and fills MC’s favorite cup with water (cold, but no ice) and grabs some extra strength ibuprofen
  • when he comes back into the room, the heating pad was warm
  • V lifts up the covers slightly and places the heating pad gently onto MCs stomach and then covers her up again
  • he gets on his knees by her bedside and whispers
  • “theres water right here on the nightstand and some medicine. i think if you take some now and rest, you might feel better when you wake up”
  • MC slowly sits up and takes her ibuprofen
  • “now get some more rest and i’ll be here to make some food when you wake up”
  • he stood up to leave the room when he felt a little tug on the bottom of his shirt
  • he turned to see MC pulling on him softly, still laying down barley awake
  • “can you stay with me…Jihyun..?”
  • he smiles
  • “of course”
  • V knows that MC likes to have space when she’s on her period, so he gets into bed and lays down on his side next to her
  • V starts running his fingers through her hair
  • “i’ll be right here when you wake up”
  • V also rubs MC’s tummy a lot when she doesnt want the heating pad!
  • I LOVE V

anonymous asked:

hows I wish you would about harry (just asking)

(Lemme copypaste from my 1989 masterpost:)


I WISH YOU WOULD:

1. “There’s “I Wish You Would,” about an ex who bought a house two blocks from hers (whom she implies was Styles) - Rolling Stones interview, 2014.

2. “Okay so this is an idea called “I Wish You Would”. It’s kind of about this guy who’s like, he’s driving down the street at the middle of the night and he passes his ex-girlfriend’s house and it’s like, he thinks she hate him, but she’s still in love with him, very dramatic. This track is sick, hope you like this.” - Taylor’s voice memo in the 1989 Deluxe album

3. “Oh, some extra info on IWYW. cant remember if ive already shared this, if i have im sorry, if i havent then here. taylor wrote that after a couple of months after her and harry broke up, and they decided to become friends again, and she said this was the first time she had become friends with an ex to the point where they were comfortable enough to talk about why the relationship didnt work out. and he said how, after they broke up, he bought a house literally one road adjacent to hers. and every day he would drive home, and accidentally turn into her street, and told her how he just wanted to stop at her house and see her, but he never did. and she said this song is about while he was in the car making the decision to get out the car and see her, she was sitting in her bedroom, wishing he would make the move and go back to her and just pitch up at her house. she compared it to a classic movie where both parties want the same thing but neither has the guts to say anything. and that’s why the song has the lyrics of “driving straight ahead”, opposed to taking the left turn to see her.“ - Taylor’s 1989 listening party

4. In Jan 2013 (right after the breakup), there were reports of Harry scouting for real estate in LA. It is assumed he bought a house near Taylor’s because the story about IWYW and the real estate reports matches (buying LA property after the breakup).

5. Taylor once said this about Style, a song she definitely wrote about Harry: “I talk about in another song on the record a crooked love, which is kind of like never quite synced up right.”

The other song that she meant was ‘I Wish You Would’ in which one part of the lyrics of the song says: “We’re a crooked love in a straight line down.”

Therefore both ‘Style’ and ‘I Wish You Would’ are about the same person, which is about Harry Styles.

6. Harry has also referenced IWYW lyrics in his song ‘Perfect’, written about Taylor: “And if you like midnight driving with the windows down” to Taylor’s “Windows down, you pass my street, the memories start”.

HEY GUYS IT OK BECAUSE
1) EVEN THOUGH TAYLOR DIDNT WIN, SAM SMITH WON AND THEYRE GOOD FRIENDS
2) SHES ALREADY GOT SEVEN GRAMMYS AND A SHIT TON OF OTHER AWARDS
3) 1989 IS LITERALLY GONNA WIN EVERYTHING NEXT YEAR
4) WE HAVE THE TOUR COMING UP
5) SHE LOOKED AMAZING TONIGHT
6) SHE WENT WITH ABIGAIL
7) SHES THE YOUNGEST SOLO WOMAN TO HAVE HER OWN EXHIBIT IN THE GRAMMY MUSEUM

SO SHES PRETTY DAMN SUCCESSFUL

WARNING SUPER LONG TAYLOR STORY

But this is a true story to show you just the kind of person Taylor really is. It literally could be almost out of a movie …. My story…
Ok , so she followed me back in December, and i was so happy!! right before Christmas. And i was so happy i didn’t sleep all day. And i think she followed me bc she saw my url of the art she got of mine , when i won tickets to the ellen show, she thanked me and took it from my hand. I didn’t talk to her though, or anything but i got to shake Ellen’s hand and hers at the same time , pretty cool. And we basically had a 30 mini people concert on Ellen’s stage, it was so small and intimate and cool. She was in arms reach , i didn’t even have to move for her to take it from me. Then, later on there was the IHeart awards and you could win tickets on this site online. And i got tickets to be a seat filler. You could win, pitt tickets or seat filler tickets. And a seat filler is where move around alot throughout the show and sometimes you’ll be at a celebrity’s table or sitting by them with the guests. And i thought that was pretty cool. So i stayed up posting about that i won with my friends. Like ALL nite. But they got pitt tickets. So they knew where they would be sitting and could post it. I did not. Because a Seat filler u move constantly like i mean ALOT. And so i stayed up all late and that nite before posting, drawing things, singing, etc, lol and asking if i could say hi to her. And she never liked anything about it or of my friends. But one post of mine later, that had to do with the awards. And of course i didn’t think anything of it , but now i know why, she wanted to surprise us being the sneaky and amazing girl she is. And i was so excited to go to the awards, that i didn’t even sleep, i went to the show early ,i was the very first in line. It was so hot outside i stood for hours in heels before we went in. And come to find out they slightly over booked. So alot of us stayed behind this giant black curtain , literally by the trash and food lol. And i was like missing alot of the show almost. I Was so sad. We just got to watch it on a tv in this room. They tended to only pick girls that dressed in short dresses to sit around people and the Celebs it seemed. I was so sad. The guys were so rude to me. Even this one guy just kept picking the same girls. And towards the VERY end they finally let me , out and moved me towards the front. I sat at the same table with Scott Borchetta! I wanted to say something so bad to him, but it was tv and all professional, and i didn’t want to be one of those annoying people. And i couldn’t even dance where I was like the pitt people where my friends were that she met. And then Taylor walked literally RIGHT pass me to get an award and she sat right across from me onstage. literally RIGHT across from me At the very end and her last award. She was i mean right there i was on stage with her. And i wanted to say something SOO bad. But it was tv so i couldn’t . So i just cheered her on and clapped . And i didn’t want to bug her i tried to do a little wave but she was so focused on snoop and getting her award there was no way to get her attention lol. And the show was over, i was so sad that i was behind a curtain most all of the time. And the guys were being so rude. But i tried to make the most of it because i got to see taylor! and i was so happy she won so many awards like she deserved . So i walked all the way back to my car like blocks away, alone dying in these heels and got my phone. And looked at my messages and saw my friend’s message, and my heart just dropped . shes like u met taylor right? she found u right? And i was all what?!?!. Shes all , she was looking for u!!! and i just couldn’t believe it ! I didn’t know what to think, i totally cried . And i was happy for my friends, but so sad that i blew probably my only chance like ever . And the second i kid you not! I turned my radio on , the song i just havent met u yet came on of all songs!! That day was just so ironic ! even from the girl that came five mins after me in line , that was right behind me all day , happen to be sitting at taylors table all nitee ! And she was in the only selfie taylor posted in the background! It would have been me! If i was 3 mins later. In line so crazy! And If she saw me she wouldve recognized me because she was looking at our blogs to find us all that day. so tbh i cried all the way home, not really because i was sad that i didnt meet her, but more so that she even would do something so nice. and i made a video telling taylor, sorry i missed her, but thanked her for trying to meet me it meant alot. And so i thought there went that. Then she never liked anything untill next day but it had nothing to do thanking her, or about the awards. It was totally random things. Now i know that was on purpose. Then I got an anon the following morning asking me for my concert dates. Like who would care or go on anon for that? Now i know why . And i didn’t think anything of it then. And so the whole time they had been keeping tabs on me i guess so she would be sure and know where i was and meet me later like at my concert date. But she saw i won tickets for Rock in rio in vegas and that i was there so she met me then instead . Ok for the crazy second part of my story, after all that crazy IHeart stuff . I was at the dmv only because they had told me to come back later, i wasn’t even meant to be there that day. This is how i know its meant to be now. And not knowing what the radio contest was even for i was bored at the dmv, and i just heard call right now and i did, and i won rock in rio tickets. I was so in shock when i found out they were for taylor, for one i never listen to the radio either lol. And i never have won a radio thing ever. and my friends were going that were from the iheart awards too. So i should’ve got a clue maybe this was a sign for a second chance . But I didnt wanna be too hopeful. And i didn’t expect anything from Taylor. She did enough. The crowd was going to be crazy, insane ! Like 50,000 people! no seats nothing. All floor seating. I got billboard tickets too, so i thought maybe then i could have a possible chance. So i posted about vegas, and a outfit i made just for fun. It literally was because i loved making things . Because there was no loft . I knew that it was more of a festival. But her whole show for the first time in the u.s. people didn’t really dress up too much , i was like the only one that made a outfit lol. And i happend to get yes ill say it i don’t care, its embarrassing, a bladder infection , right before i left. I was SUPER sick nauseous. Drove to vegas alone. Having to stop at gas stations almost constantly bc i was so sick. Bc the antibiotics take over a week to fully work. And then i broke my phone yay me! Lol . Then i Met up with my friends, one from Australia , andrea. shes so sweet. That night i added the finishing touches to my dress. I couldn’t sleep at all that night i felt so sick. and the day came, and taylor didnt come on till almost midnight! We were there at like 9 am! Like crazy so long. We were in line with some of the other kinda tumblr famous people they were so cool, i love nic. She was one of the first people there too. I already was so tired and sick from the heat. And then finally the 3 gates opened. people ran like the Friggn hunger games ! it was crazy ! u have to run literally for like a mile to get to the stage! . ts a huge outdoor concert area. I got stomped on, felt so sick. I Ran and finally got there i felt like i was going to die. Not even kidding . I usuallly can handle alot bc i was sick as a kid most of my life and spent alot of time in the hospital. So thats when u know its bad. And we got to the stage. It was only 3pm! So i had almost 8 hours or so till she came on! And i was feeling so awful, dehydrated , hungry u couldnt leave or youd loose ur spot by the stage. No chairs . And i got so sunburnt like bad i forgot sunscreen dumb me. And eventually it got so crowded you could not sit. And i got kicked in the heels. i was bleeding no joke! I seriously tried not to cry . Because after all i went thru, as bad as i felt, i wasn’t going to not see taylor. No way. And i couldn’t even get to a bathroom. Ironically of all illnesses the time i literally could not use a bathroom for hours. And no to mention basically standing for hours straight, no sit time. And not to mention its still 2 hours or more added to that because thats how long her concert lasted. And i literally was in so much pain, i couldn’t get water or sit. My phone died, even with a battery pack charger. Since i was there for so long. And the min i was about to cry and told everyone im so sad but i literally cant do it , i felt so sick and i cant stand anymore i have to go walk to first aide or lay down in the grass . I kid u not the MIN i went to go , this girl came up to me and said taylor wanted to meet me. And i was like 😦. Totally in shock like totally , like not expecting it at all. And my phone had died so i saw no messages from her or taylor nation. And i never answered them. But she still tried! Being the sweet Taylor she is. she didnt give up and had people from online she saw , that she thought might know me come find me. How cool is that? She is literally so sweet. Like in a crowd of 50,000 people no phone, taylor Friggn swift found a way to find me. I literally didn’t cry because it seemed to surreal. I didnt believe it. So they told me after ed sheeran sings to go meet in this certain spot. And i had to push thru a level crowd of like 50,000 people my outfit was literally falling apart from such a long day, and having to push through people that wouldn’t move . and no one wanted to move. But i finally got out of the crowd. And she asked our names i was with a couple of girls taylor was going to meet too . It was tree and someone else. And they started to take us backstage. I was talking to tree along the way she was so nice , all the people we passed said congrats guys! And i was so sick, and tired in shock, I honestly didnt feel all there. Like it was a dream. It was so cool because she had no meet and greet set up at all, or any loft. She literally MADE time . So then bc of this we all got a little extra time. I was so happy to sit for a few mins before i met her . It was pure heaven, if i didn’t get to sit, i don’t think i could have made it though her concert whatsoever. And the room was so small, smaller than a bedroom size. it was like her dressing room. I got to sit next to her blue shake it off shoes and some oufits. And we were there for like a half hour total. There weren’t very many of us at all. she was like Im so glad i found u guys! It was kinda hard , but I’m glad i finally found you too this time! I was so in shock right when i walked in she was like just right there. Like i just couldnt believe it . We all talked in a group but i was quiet because i was sick and in shock. And it seemed like if i tried to talk everyone just talked over me so i gave up. But i really didn’t care because i was just happy to be there. She danced around and did funny accents lol. I let everyone else go first really, and by some miracle idk how, the bag i brought with me ended up having the necklace in it that i had been saving since the i heart awards. I gave her the cat necklace i had. She said she loved it. It was even her birthstone , And Hugged me a bunch. I talked to treee while she saw the other girl. And i just didnt ask questions really or take a video, the time your actually allowed too for once , i didn’t . because my phone was dead , and i didnt have one again like the iheart awards. and i was in such shock. And i didn’t want to seem greedy, or ask people to use their phone. i was just happy to be there . she told me she loved me , and llike nuzzled her chin on my head and side hugged me again, and saw my outfit and talked about it . Her and tree loved it , unfortunately it was falling apart by then . and i was embarrassed. But she was so nice about it and said she saw it online lol, and she cant believe i do all that for her, and all i went through for her, and that im amazing and i made her so happy. i think i said i love u i hope lol. And she wrote long live for me, for my grandma, a tattoo i wanted. And then we left she said she was making sure security saved our spots and escorted us back, so we Could just hop over the front of stage so we wouldnt have to go thru the crazy crowd. So we hopped over, i danced thru all the pain and had the best night ever. So I was a mess when she saw me. I didn’t say anything i wanted to at all. But it was of course and it was still the best day of my life. And not to mention after wards being so tired and hungry and dehydrated , after all that we still had to walk back to the hotel. So i still didn’t eat or drink till the next day.and just crashed on my bed… The end

So this post isn’t to brag, in anyway. I just want to show how amazing and kind of a person taylor is . She met my friends. She has 80 million fans. She didn’t have to try and meet me again, but she kept trying and did. And the point of this story is also to show you that anything is possible. And never give up on meeting taylor because it does happen when you least expect it, and when its meant to be it will. So don’t get discouraged , and never give up. Because i know why it wasn’t meant to be then. My other grandma died a week after i met her. And that helped get me through. And i wouldn’t be able to tell this crazy long story , that might inspire you guys to never give up, if i met her at the awards now could i?! That is just what is so special about Taylor , she makes you believe and never loose hope … ( don’t expect any reblogs at all . Because this is just to show who taylor truly is…. @taylorswift @swiftdownunder @swiftiesparkleshine

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why i shipe sherlock and molly ??

because its already been areal relationship first i didnt think it has any future but from s1 to 3 i have seen some thing that have changed my mind i have seen change i have seen life goes areal life relationship that differnt with time first it was merely a crush from her and abenifit for him then she really seeing him and he start 2 notice her then it went to trying 2 move on and failing in doing that 4 both of them and then they really know each other really sow her and she real understand how he ticking

and thats why ladies and gentlemen they become my latest perfect couple and my latest possible ship that i do hope to come true